#she and hannah would talk homestuck a lot during those days

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Stumbled across a high school friends blog and Twitter recently and she looks like she's doing well for herself and man it made me weirdly... nostalgic, but not for high school. Rather i felt this weird nostalgia for that feeling i had in high school of wanted to get to know her and a couple other people better. And like, i wish back then I'd taken more social risks and spent time with those folks in high school i thought were so cool and wanted to get to know better, but i cant make that bond now. We've both moved on, neither of us are those high schoolers who were friends but wanted to get to know each other better. Idk, it's a weird feeling i don't know how to elaborate on. But anyway I'm glad she's doing well (at least as far as an online presence can show how well someone is doing, obvs people do usually try and put their best foot forward on social media)

#i also definitely had a crush on her in high school #but so the big moment i remember #and we were friends through all high school so there's plenty of other little memories in my head too #but the one big one I'll never forget is i opened up to her about me feeling like i was strange for a way my brain worked #and she told me that everyone did that to some degree she thinks. and i... simultaneously felt a relief in that #and also felt even more embarrassed about just the mere prospect of opening up to anyone ever #we were just walking through the hall having run an errand after school for some project we were both working on #i think it was the prom outfits showcase fundraiser? doesn't matter what it was #and just that one hallway #and that one bit of our conversation #have been stuck in my memory for like 11 years now #also i have a photo of us at graduation which is a real nice photo #and we used to hang out with a little friend group in the graphics room before school started and that was fun #she and hannah would talk homestuck a lot during those days #and after high school i finally sat down and read a bunch of homestuck #and messaged her on Facebook when some kind of big hs news dropped saying id caught up and asking her opinion on the latest trailer or we #and she expressed she wasn't really into homestuck anymore and hadnt read it for awhile #and i had basically just read it to have an excuse to talk to her lmao #also her twitter bio said she was using she/her and he/him pronouns lately and like i stuck with just she here for simplicity but like #hell yeah dude. trans solidarity. i am glad he also found ways to be more comfortable in his body and presentation since high school #speaking of presentation from what Twitter scrolling i did her fashion game is on point. like real bowling alley in the 90s or clown vibes #love it #anyway i said my piece. im off to sleep way too late. hope y'all are sleeping well #eri blogs life