#same goes with almer like i dont really talk about him much although im less. anxious about it? because i just dont talk about him as much

[yakkitylylac]

heehee hoo i love anxiety i love being anxious over people not reblogging my stuff

#BTW LIKE IF YOU DONT REBLOG SOMETHING I MAKE JUST BECAUSE YOURE NOT INTERESTED IN IT THATS OK!!!!! #i post stuff that I Like and thats good enough for me and i dont wanna force anyone to reblog my stuff if they dont wanna!!!!!!!!! #i just. sometimes get really nervous like what if they arent reblogging it because i did something wrong what if i drew the character wrong #and now everyone hates me and thats why they arent reblogging............... #[uh it gets kinda rambly/vent-y past here feel free to ignore idm] #what if i drew or said something wrong and it means im racist/ableist/what have you #*posts cute doodle* haha what if i accidentally promoted ableist stereotypes #WHAT IF I HAD A BAD TAKE ABOUT The Character AND IM ONE OF THOSE FANS THAT PEOPLE VAGUEPOST ABOUT LIKE #not to point any fingers but ughhh #some people in this fandom really get on my nerves (tumblr wont let me use quotation marks???) #its even more nerve racking when the fandom is small like #if you have a Cringe Take in a fandom like sonic or pokemon its such a big fandom you might not get as much attention for it because theres #so many other people but when the fandom has like 5 people its way harder to ignore #thinks. #when i think about it a lot of my worries are centered around fae actually #what if the way i draw her is infantilizing!!!!!!!!! what if im being annoying by drawing her so much!!!!!!! what if i only have a surface #level understanding of her character!!!!!!! and most of how i perceive her is just headcanons and projection!!!!!!!!!!! #same goes with almer like i dont really talk about him much although im less. anxious about it? because i just dont talk about him as much #ecause i havent really studied him as a character in depth and stuff #HEY SUPERGIANT GIVE HIM MORE SCREENTIME GOSH DANG IT #um anyways #oh yeah what if i have a bad take about the character and im accidentally ableist or something!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaa #and like like like i am guilty ofthe not fully grasping her character thing or at least like for some reason i either forget or ignore her #interest/connection with the scribes despite that being like. an Important Part of her character and i feel kinda bad about that #same with almer and cur culture/tradition and stuff #YOU FOOL!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE IGNORING MAJORLY IMPORTANT ASPECTS OF THEIR CHARACTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU BUFFOON!!!!!!!!!!!!! #YOU DONT DESERVE TO HAVE THEM AS YOUR BLORBOS IF YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THEM/APPRECIATE THEM PROPERLY!!!!!!! #NOW THE MOB WILL COME FOR YOU #hhhhgggggg #hm. uh that was way more words than i expected !