#s3b angst from will’s pov kills me my god

[ghostdrinkssoup]

thinking about the first time will sees hannibal after three years. how the highly sophisticated man he remembers now looks wearier, his hair a little shorter, the lines in his face a little deeper. how he’s been degraded but still holds himself with pride and dignity, refusing to be humiliated. how will is a married man and really thought he was doing okay but knew he was kidding himself the moment he laid eyes on hannibal again because it doesn’t matter how much time passes he’s still horribly in love with him and never truly moved on. he knows he lost his heart the day hannibal gave himself up, and it didn’t start beating again until this moment, three years later. and the ache of it hurts so much more than it did before. if anything, the longer they’re separated the worse it gets

#he wanted to know whether they could survive separation and the answer is no. they can’t #and will trying his damn best to keep himself composed during his whole visit #refusing to call hannibal by first name and everything #and hannibal *still* manages to see right through him and get under his skin #the whole time will is torn between throwing himself out a window and smashing the glass right then and there to get hannibal out #the same way hannibal felt when he saw will in jail and realised he didn’t want him there anymore #it’s just the inherent longing and ache of seeing the person you love growing older and damaged and vulnerable with time #and you realising it doesn’t matter what happens or what they do because you fall more and more in love with them every day #s3b angst from will’s pov kills me my god #nbc hannibal #hannibal #will graham #hannigram #ghost speaks