#rhythm and pitch and harmonies are just something i understand intuitively (yes i’ll brag all i want this is My blog)

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#also in another life i wonder if i might have been a musician #i have the vocals and the gay panache and the love for performance but i just cannot write songs for shit #but still like #idk #one thing about living alone is i play a lot of music from my speaker and i enjoy singing like different bits and pieces on top of the song #and adding my own melodies and stuff in random places just for fun but like #idk i wonder where i would be now if i had explored that more #i’ve had a little notebook since i was 16 that has little bits and lines and choruses and stuff and i haven’t touched it in years #bc i went the route of academic grind -> corporate #and i’m not dissatisfied with my life!!!! #i just know that the choice wasn’t my own and if i didn’t grow up in a hyperreligious household then who would i be? #what choices would i have had the freedom to make differently? #anyways lots of thoughts that will get deleted very soon #good night all!!!!!! #update: oh god i made a whole post about music and completely forgot the intense trauma i was exposed to in middle school #when i played the viola for 2 years in middle school and hardly practiced at all but made it to first chair because #rhythm and pitch and harmonies are just something i understand intuitively (yes i’ll brag all i want this is My blog) #and then my mom made me quit bc she wanted me to take home economics classes LMAO #and outright told me that taking The Future Wife classes were more important than my passions #I WAS TWELVE #oh to break a child’s spirit so young ….