#reid's result is so edgy. of course you're addicted to your own misery you dumb cunt. he gets better though dw about it

[ruvviks]

// ocs as types of suffering. [x]

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SELF INADEQUACY.

you crack under the weight of your own percieved inability. how can you be enough for anyone else when you're just barely enough for yourself? insecurity causes you to have little back-bone, and so you fail to reach your full potential when it comes to what you're best at. you sabotage opportunities with fear you'll fail before you've begun. it hurts to never feel like your best is enough, but setting your standards too high or too low ensures it

director's commentary: aubrey very much lacks self confidence even if it might not be apparent from the way he acts. he puts on a performance so people won't truly know the real him in hopes they won't be disappointed by what they find; but because of that he struggles making the connections he so desperately wants to have with other people

YEARNING.

the pain in your chest bubbles knowing that what you want may never be yours. you're lost in a fantasy world, or consumed by what you wish you were or had as opposed to what you do. it's hard to appreciate what's around you when you're appreciating the hope of what could be instead

director's commentary: cassidy has always been yearning for everything. to get his family back, to have friends, to have a partner, to just be able to live in the way everyone else is able to live, to not have to be scared of dying at a young age. he can get envious easily because of it and gets stuck inside his own head a lot that way, but this settles down when he finds people who finally stick around

LONELINESS.

your heart feels full of the connection you feel you lack. no matter how many people are around you, strangers or not… someone is missing. you don't know who, what, or if you'll ever find them. you're unsure if there's a person out there who'll really satisfy your life, so really what's the point of continuing to look?

director's commentary: in a very literal sense, hanan is living parallel to the life she always hoped she would have. the two people that matter to her the most are right there with her but both of them are in love with someone else; and with her too to an extent but it's not the same as she had hoped for

THE GIVER.

your energy depletes as you hand it out to anyone passing by your basket. people walk by and take, but no one ever leaves. you're constantly running on low when people keep asking you to give. you'd give your soul away for free, and then what left do you have of yourself if you can't say no?

director's commentary: luna has a tendency to put other people's needs before their own and it causes them to be running on fumes way too easily these days. she loves helping out; but letting other people in is still difficult for her and it doesn't really occur to her she's only got so much left to give until it's already too late

DESPAIR.

the tunnel never had a light. you wish for nothing because you know you'll receive nothing, and your hopes died out long ago. the only thing that keeps you going is the thrill of emptiness you feel when things don't turn out your way. it's bitter. it's proof. proof that you don't feel this way for nothing

director's commentary: for a pretty long time, reid is stuck in a pit of despair of his own making, consequences of his actions as well as a self-destructive thought loop he's stuck in because of his grief, regret and shame. and in a way it's addicting; proven to be right, even in the darkest of times, feels good, no matter what that means for the rest of his well-being

#tag games #ask:aubrey #ask:cassidy #ask:hanan #ask:luna #ask:reid #reid's result is so edgy. of course you're addicted to your own misery you dumb cunt. he gets better though dw about it #aubrey's result is so. ouughh. like i KNEW but also i wasn't expecting THAT to be his result. but yeah it tracks