#ask:hanan

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// ocs as types of suffering. [x]

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SELF INADEQUACY.

you crack under the weight of your own percieved inability. how can you be enough for anyone else when you're just barely enough for yourself? insecurity causes you to have little back-bone, and so you fail to reach your full potential when it comes to what you're best at. you sabotage opportunities with fear you'll fail before you've begun. it hurts to never feel like your best is enough, but setting your standards too high or too low ensures it

director's commentary: aubrey very much lacks self confidence even if it might not be apparent from the way he acts. he puts on a performance so people won't truly know the real him in hopes they won't be disappointed by what they find; but because of that he struggles making the connections he so desperately wants to have with other people

YEARNING.

the pain in your chest bubbles knowing that what you want may never be yours. you're lost in a fantasy world, or consumed by what you wish you were or had as opposed to what you do. it's hard to appreciate what's around you when you're appreciating the hope of what could be instead

director's commentary: cassidy has always been yearning for everything. to get his family back, to have friends, to have a partner, to just be able to live in the way everyone else is able to live, to not have to be scared of dying at a young age. he can get envious easily because of it and gets stuck inside his own head a lot that way, but this settles down when he finds people who finally stick around

LONELINESS.

your heart feels full of the connection you feel you lack. no matter how many people are around you, strangers or not… someone is missing. you don't know who, what, or if you'll ever find them. you're unsure if there's a person out there who'll really satisfy your life, so really what's the point of continuing to look?

director's commentary: in a very literal sense, hanan is living parallel to the life she always hoped she would have. the two people that matter to her the most are right there with her but both of them are in love with someone else; and with her too to an extent but it's not the same as she had hoped for

THE GIVER.

your energy depletes as you hand it out to anyone passing by your basket. people walk by and take, but no one ever leaves. you're constantly running on low when people keep asking you to give. you'd give your soul away for free, and then what left do you have of yourself if you can't say no?

director's commentary: luna has a tendency to put other people's needs before their own and it causes them to be running on fumes way too easily these days. she loves helping out; but letting other people in is still difficult for her and it doesn't really occur to her she's only got so much left to give until it's already too late

DESPAIR.

the tunnel never had a light. you wish for nothing because you know you'll receive nothing, and your hopes died out long ago. the only thing that keeps you going is the thrill of emptiness you feel when things don't turn out your way. it's bitter. it's proof. proof that you don't feel this way for nothing

director's commentary: for a pretty long time, reid is stuck in a pit of despair of his own making, consequences of his actions as well as a self-destructive thought loop he's stuck in because of his grief, regret and shame. and in a way it's addicting; proven to be right, even in the darkest of times, feels good, no matter what that means for the rest of his well-being

#tag games #ask:aubrey #ask:cassidy #ask:hanan #ask:luna #ask:reid #reid's result is so edgy. of course you're addicted to your own misery you dumb cunt. he gets better though dw about it #aubrey's result is so. ouughh. like i KNEW but also i wasn't expecting THAT to be his result. but yeah it tracks

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– OC HORROR TROPES.

TAGGED BY: @katsigian, @florbelles & @devilbrakers, thank you so much!! TAGGING: @aartyom, @reaperkiller, @faarkas, @cultistbase, @calenhads, @twinwitchbolt, @morvaris, @swordcoasts, @shellibisshe, @strafethesesinners, @adelaidedrubman, @henbased and YOU! – meiker / quiz

#tag games #ask:becca #ask:cassidy #ask:hanan #ask:kaida #ask:luna #ask:reid #put too much effort in this sorry for being obsessed with my ocs #anyway hii :) they were all very accurate but i changed becca's up because she got 'the whore' but romance fits her better. so #and added 'forced' to hanan's result because technically she IS the killer but also she's not in control of herself. so !!! #no director's commentary this time round because my brain is soup but. i love them very very much #very rusty with tagging people as always feel free to do this and say i tagged you!

[ruvviks]

🍧🙊 and 👑 for hanan too!!!! i love her so much...

oc asks!

🍧 SHAVED ICE - do they still have any objects from their childhood? what significance does it have to them? what would their reaction be if they lost it?

hanan doesn't have many belongings left from her past because she lost most of it after her family moved away and she hasn't reconnected with them. the few things she does still have- mostly old pictures, some plushies, old clothes and cds she burned herself- are stashed away in a box somewhere in her apartment. she doesn't want to look at it anymore because the memories that come with it hurt too much, but she would be very upset if she lost all of it; maybe one day if she manages to find her family back she will be able to open the box again

🙊 SPEAK-NO-EVIL - what is something your oc will refuse to stay quiet about?

hanan is very reserved and tends to stay in her own lane. she mostly jumps in on conversations if she overhears someone having trouble with something she can help with or has knowledge on; or if it's close friends and they're talking about one of her interests. other than that she's more of a listener and prefers to sit with others and listen to their conversations :)

👑 CROWN - what does your oc want to be remembered as? why?

hanan would want to be remembered for her efforts. at some point after being rescued from arasaka by cassidy and seb, she starts showing signs of cyberpsychosis due to the amount of cybernetics and implants arasaka forced upon her in project cobra. it scares her, and luckily she manages to recover and is doing much better nowadays but especially during that time she worried she would never be the same again

because of that, she wanted to be remembered for her efforts at arasaka to help the test subjects she was forced to train. she was always kind to them and offered them the comfort arasaka wouldn't give them to try and make things easier for them, knowing there was not much else she could do to try and get them out of there. it's why in this edit i compared hanan to charon; she's essentially guiding the test subjects to their death since most of them died during testing, but if death is almost inevitable anyway wouldn't it be nice to have a hand to hold on the way there?

#asks #ncytiri #ask:hanan #oc asks #i am so fucking normal about her did you know that. i could talk about her forever #her as the stygian boatman makes me so fucking insane it's so. ouehghfbhhbdfg #and then she ends up becoming one of those test subjects herself and there's no one there for her. insane. fucked up

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❤️💔🐷😖🤓🍝 + vincent (bc i miss him and want to hear of him), reid and a bonus oc of your choice that you would like to answer these for!! :3

oc asks!

❤️ RED HEART — what are three of your oc's positive traits?

hanan is daring, gentle and kind. kind of simple positive traits maybe but considering she works as arasaka security and is tasked with keeping test subjects of one of its secret projects under control it's very special traits to have i think

she's not easily scared which is a good thing to have in that line of work, but it also means that she's not scared to sometimes break or bend the rules juuuust a little bit if it means one of the test subjects can be a little bit more comfortable, just a little bit less in pain. she's very strong and can wrestle anything and anyone to the ground but those same hands will tend to wounds SO carefully. and she's been trained to be cold and uncaring and even though she knows that most of the test subjects will end up dead anyway, she is still kind to them and tries to be a friend to them, because the words she says to them before they go back into testing might just be the last words they'll ever hear

💔 BROKEN HEART — what are three of your oc's negative traits?

hanan is erratic, indecisive and resentful. she will often want to do whatever feels right in the moment, leading to her being very unpredictable which can make her difficult to work with and this is especially a problem within her division, where everyone is mostly in it for themselves and her doing her own thing is very much not beneficial for anyone else

at the same time, all of THAT leads to her indecisiveness because it makes her wonder if she needs to take on a different approach. at some point, circumstances lead to her following others' lead a lot more, which gets disrupted when she starts seeing things happening she doesn't agree with and it makes her hesitant to follow the orders she's been given. kind of an intricate clusterfuck where different traits and circumstances are causing her to get worse which is not what you wanna see

the resentfulness mostly manifests itself in her ability to just hold lifelong grudges. it's very difficult to get back on her good side once she feels like you wronged her in a way; but at the same time it's very difficult to get to that point in the first place, so once you've crossed that line you must've fucked up BADLY to get there

🐷 PIG FACE — what is your oc's favorite animal?

hanan loves bears! they're strong. they look cute. very huggable. she's very upset about the fact that you shouldn't actually hug a bear she wants to do that so bad

😖 CONFOUNDED FACE — is your oc an introvert, an extrovert, or an ambivert? do they let people in easily, or are they more reserved?

hanan is an ambivert! loves to be around other people and prefers it so much over being alone but also gets very easily overwhelmed when it's too many people or the wrong people. not that she would ever let this show because she can't afford to do that in her line of work

🤓 SMILING FACE WITH GLASSES — is your oc chatty or quiet? are they at ease in social situations, or are they more shy?

hanan likes to talk but is more often quiet than anything else because of her position in arasaka. once she's in private she will just keep talking though, doesn't talk very fast so it's less of rambling / infodumping it's more like. idk she kinda has a storyteller vibe to her when it comes to talking? if that makes sense? very pleasant voice to listen to and she can make any dull situation sound like the most fantastic thing to have happened all month

🍝 SPAGHETTI — what is/are your oc's favorite food(s)?

she loves any dish with rice, mainly nasi and risotto! also likes potatoes a lot, mashed potatoes and fries specifically, but she will eat them in any way honestly. generally doesn't eat a lot of meat but she won't say no to a good hamburger

❤️ RED HEART — what are three of your oc's positive traits?

reid is charming, determined and surprisingly thoughtful, once you get on his good side and he's taken a liking to you! he's a very good talker so he's very good at making people feel at ease in a conversation. hardworking and doesn't back down easily so if he has a job to do, he'll make sure that he finishes it (which is part of why he ended up kind of losing himself at maxtac a bit, too lost in the "wanting to be good" sauce). and once he's in his "no longer evil i wanna be loved now" era he really just wants what's best for his friends and he'll make an effort to make that reality. he's very insightful and can easily act on people's needs without words and he often uses this to surprise people with things (mostly in secret; he will simply do a task that someone's been putting off or he buys someone a gift and leaves it on their desk, he doesn't need credit for any of it)

💔 BROKEN HEART — what are three of your oc's negative traits?

reid is arrogant, impatient, jealous and manipulative as FUCK. mentioning four of them because his arrogance settles down VERY quickly once he's no longer in a powerful position. getting locked up for a year in some safehouse is very humbling LMAO the arrogance leaves his body with the confidence that his position of power gave him basically <3

still very impatient though but he doesn't get snappy because of it, he's just imploding one billion times until the thing is over and then he can be normal again. the jealousy is also still a bit of an issue, he gets jealous VERY quickly and he KNOWS it's a problem so he tries dealing with it as best as he can. can you imagine that jealousy is what caused him to try and hunt cassidy down in the first place. boy if you'd just been a better boyfriend to him then none of that had to happen in the first place

his manipulative side is also no longer active for the most part, right now he just uses it to get more money out of aubrey's rich corpo cunt clients or he uses it while doing gigs but he's not actively manipulating his friends or anything. he used to do that all the time though, especially back at maxtac he really just wanted more power and he was willing to do anything to get it

🐷 PIG FACE — what is your oc's favorite animal?

reid's favorite animal is a spider! he LOVES spiders. he's obsessed with them. fascinated even. whenever he finds a spider at home he will just sit there and look at it. he can SO easily identify different kinds of spiders

😖 CONFOUNDED FACE — is your oc an introvert, an extrovert, or an ambivert? do they let people in easily, or are they more reserved?

reid is an ambivert though he Thought he was an extrovert for the longest time which is why he never really realized it when certain situations were draining his battery :( it mainly depends on the company and the location + external factors like how busy it is and how much noise there is and how much sleep he got last night, and nowadays he automatically tends to be a little bit more reserved than he used to be because he doesn't want people to get the wrong impression of him by taking over the conversation too much

🤓 SMILING FACE WITH GLASSES — is your oc chatty or quiet? are they at ease in social situations, or are they more shy?

kind of similar to previous answer, he's pretty reserved in conversations nowadays but always knows JUST what to say or ask next to keep it going and to like, not make it awkward basically :) he's usually very comfortable in social situations he just doesn't want to be Too Much and also if the situation itself is Too Much then he automatically retreats a little bit. he's a tired little man nowadays he needs to save up his energy he's getting old

🍝 SPAGHETTI — what is/are your oc's favorite food(s)?

reid will basically eat anything when he's going through a depressive/dissociative episode and it will be THE fucking best thing he's eaten all week. could be a tin of sardines. could be a slice of dry bread with some butter. could be plain microwaved rice

when he's NOT in hell however he loves pasta a lot! big fan of curry too, loves chicken roti, loves pilav, loves to make wraps with some chicken and veggies. he's not a very big eater but if you give him fried chicken you'll have to take it away from him at some point because he will just not stop eating until it's gone

❤️ RED HEART — what are three of your oc's positive traits?

vincent is affectionate, passionate and reliable! he loves his friends so much and he's always making sure that they know it :) he's very passionate about the things he does and the things he likes and he always brings the best energy with him wherever he goes which makes him very easy to like!

his reliability is funny because he IS very reliable it's just that. he may fuck it up first. a few times sometimes. he will NOT stick to the plan. if there's even a plan to begin with. but you'll have his word that in the end he will get shit done and he will fix any mess that he might've made along the way and that's very important to me. he's doing the best he can and he won't stop until everything is sorted out but he is messy along the way but humans are just messy in general and it's fine. he's doing just fine

💔 BROKEN HEART — what are three of your oc's negative traits?

vincent is disruptive, jealous and a little bit touchy. the disruptiveness ties in with him being messy; it Mostly applies to combat situations where things always end up a lot bigger than necessary because of him but also in regular situations sometimes where he's being very excited but is accidentally too loud / too present etc etc

the jealousy is a direct result of him being the youngest of. five. yes. i keep forgetting how many siblings he has but yes he's got four older siblings and he had to fight for his LIFE to get some sort of attention at home. in his eyes his siblings always had cooler stuff than him (which was definitely true to a degree) and it's made him very possessive of everything he has nowadays and he easily slides back into the "i want that too" mindset from when he was younger

that's also where the touchy attitude comes in play. he gets defensive very quickly and is prone to take things personally a lot even when that's not even close to what people meant :( he ends up being able to deal with it better over time because of the dynamics at home with vitali and mikhail being a lot better than back with his family so that's very nice

🐷 PIG FACE — what is your oc's favorite animal?

vincent loves so many animals but his favorite would be a cat :) that's why he's got three cats at home at this point LMAO nibbles (his own cat), sapphire (vitali's cat) and buttons (mikhail's cat) :D

😖 CONFOUNDED FACE — is your oc an introvert, an extrovert, or an ambivert? do they let people in easily, or are they more reserved?

vincent is definitely more of an extrovert but for a while after recovering from first johnny being stuck in his head and then from getting rid of soulkiller's influence (the thing that only gave him six months left to live etc etc) every social interaction basically kills him dead on the floor and it takes him a WHILE to fight that off

🤓 SMILING FACE WITH GLASSES — is your oc chatty or quiet? are they at ease in social situations, or are they more shy?

vincent is pretty chatty! he always has things to talk about but he needs to feel comfortable with someone first and once that happens he is never going to shut up ever again basically

🍝 SPAGHETTI — what is/are your oc's favorite food(s)?

he LOVES burritos (thank you red). he could eat those for breakfast And lunch And dinner and he'd be lying if he said he's never done that before. big fan of stews as well, loves korean bbq, OBSESSED with shoarma. won't say no to a good pizza either. he will basically eat anything though, and he also eats nearly everything with hot sauce

#asks #mutuals #aartyom #ask:hanan #ask:reid #ask:vincent #oc asks #THANK YOU SO MUCH RENA <333 you are so right by the way i also miss vincent :( world's sweetest little man #first hanan mention on my blog also tee hee >:^) i Will be talking more about her soon. kaida as well. the two newest additions #apologies for the reverse blorbo order also ESHJGFDKG i Have to do it in alphabetical order or my brain is going to kill me with hammers