#rare i didnt wanna colour post

[bugprinz]

gwuh

#kuroiwa mitsuru #rgg #judge eyes #judgment #i wanna kiss him i mean kick him #rare i didnt wanna colour post #ouh this is reminding me i need to do those doodles with the music on the canvas #i say reminding but its just bc i saw the ones from last year as i was grabbing this to upload #finger paints

[littlenekosfan]

Friend - visual narrative

this is going to be a long thread bc i have a LOT of panels, so read under the cut!

since im reworking with Friend chapters panels, i paid attention to the details more than ever before.. and wow, the way these chapters are narrated is absolutely amazing

lets start off with my one of my fav panels

if there is a theme between these two that keep recurring it’s “duality” (whether when it comes to their character or the way their story is told) we will also find a lot of parallels with it.. this panel above starts it very well, one left, one right, they both call each other’s name, the expressions completely different, even the background is reversed

there we go again, all this in one chapter, i simply love how they have the same pose/image but reversed, its a really nice contrast with how different they are and yet are at the same level also, look at their speech bubbles, most of the time, jugram has a round one while bazz a sharper one, its the case here and the previous panels aswell

AGAIN! kubo gives us each’s pov with the same image/paneling, i love that method bc he treats them the same, even if one is stronger than the other and ppl will most likely root for/side with one more than the other, they both get the same treatment, also, we get to see how both lives the same struggle, it both conflicts them this whole fight considering the past they had together

the transition is also really nice, the black background outside the panel and the partial grey shading that matches with it inside the panel.. we will get to see that technique again, but here?? lovely.

a whole page not showing their face even if you guessed who they were, you get that little surprise with the face reveal which comes out really nice

the chapter reveal!!!! its so pure and empty (no dialogue and it’s only one panel), it perfectly empathize on the title and its meaning

i love how discreet bazz motive to help out jugo is shown here, obviously none of them would speak about it (jugo is pretty closed and bazz despite being loud, he isnt obnoxious and he’s smart) so it had to be shown without any words and these panels do it so well!

the first panel is just so beautiful and you can tell how jugo is just, happy. and then, the moment his uncle speaks, his face drastically changes, from white to black, kubo loves to work with that contrast of b&w (just look how the ritters/espadas are dressed vs shinigamis.. there is also the sun/moon theme and so on... its not called bleach for nothing lmao) kubo uses contrast very often and we can tell he loves to do it (and he does it super well!!)

i know we dont have any colour on these pages, but both pages are from the same chapter, first one (right) being their fist meeting on a normal day (probably an evening so the sky is orange ish) and the second page is again a jump to a flashback but this time it’s not the sky that we are shown in the last panel, but rather flames, the same colour as the day they met... the two last panels look the same but arent....

there is also the absence of facial expression in some panels, which imo conveys the mood much better, we are not left up to interpretation, we clearly know what kind of feelings that are expressed yet they didnt need to be shown...

again with the parallels (left/right) and using the same image from younger to older to show their growth? nice.

the built up with the grand reveal... wow, love it, also, that panel was such a surprise to me when i first read it... still give me goosebumps today ngl..(if you are a manga reader to likes to have the book, well, this the end of vol69... what an ending :))) just look at the build up, the bg is dark and you get that white and empty panel right after like, wow 

AGAIN WITH THE SUPRISE AND WOW IT HURTS, also the title being in capital... OOF, im going to loose it

ppl like to call kubo lazy with his titles, but is it?? i mean, here, i really cant think of a better title, remember how the first chapter friend was introduced? so sweet and smooth and then you get this... the fact friend is written here is a good call back to their relationship, what it is, what it really means, and the current situation

the way bazz recalls all the things he had heard about this.......th-that hurts (we’re like in his mind, we’re just as shocked as he is) also, it shows well how bazz recall all these moment in silence and does all the realization without saying a thing, bc no, he didnt say a thing ever since yhwach started to talk..

the left panel is yhwach talking (as he was for like the whole chapter) and there is no dialogue going on, the two boys didnt say a thing... as the slience was taking place, bazz breaks is with a shrieking voice, just looking how the letters are written in japanese, we went from pure, clear panel to a messy and dark one....

jump back to present, with both jugrams having the same pose but they both don’t convey the same feeling, with the shading and how cut it is (not being able to fully see jugo’s eyes) you can tell the first one is more disturbing/devastating than the second one

there we go... we get to see both of their expression at the same time and it change within the following panels,.. (im telling you, kubo love both of them, not just one.., both.)

this is one of my favorites moments, the way know bazz has lost his fight and how HE is self-conscious about it..., the way he monologues about jugram is really depressing, and how we are only given images that illustrates his struggle...the images are so strong, desperate and yet, his words are so empty, powerless, he knew he lost.. (the moment i start reading it, i cry on the fucking floor)

i mentioned earlier how i loved kubo’s choice in not showing the face, well we have it here again in a flashback and the end of the fight... jugram turning his back to bazz, he did it in the past and did it after bazz’ death..  it’s his way to avoid to face his feelings. (the fact we are shown he did it in the past and the reason to it, let us know why he did it again even later)

here again with empty panels, the fact it’s only bazz who is talking.... feels really heavy and the way he clings to jugram with burning hands....... you really need to look at every panel carefully to feel that heart wrenching moment,, there is no crying or screaming, he just softly admits his defeat and that’s it, like, im sorry but that’s fucking sorrowful

here again with kubo choosing to not show the face, but in this case, it’s harder for us to tell which expression jugram has (since he’s so closed about showing emotions or his intentions) but the fact kubo deliberately chose to hide it proves jugram has something to hide from us, something he didnt want us (readers) to see.........

these panels? concludes their story perfectly you have jugram walking up the stairs leaving bazz-b alone laying behind, being reminded of the day they met where bazz was the one standing high while jugram is on the ground the setting: the cold empty castle during nighttime vs the warm summer day met in a forest at daytime bazz reached to jugram and jugram left him behind, they met with touched hearts only to leave with empty ones, bazz used to look down on jugram and now, jugram does, they used to be so different and still do but only now, their role are inverted...

thank you @equipollency​ for that remark! i think your post does it much better if yall wanna read it !

i mentioned earlier how the background (outside the panel) would change from black to white, we know the black means the past,  but i love how its broken here, going back and forth from the past and present (within the same page) to show how things are still the same between them, the same struggle, the same fight over and over

also, the “not yet” is just so perfectly placed, i cant, it just emphasize even more on my point earlier (how things between them never changed on that matter)  and it finally concludes the flashbacks (with the way it’s presented: the b&w,, and the words themselves, how they weight so much)

the black shading like that is rarely used with kubo but when he does, you know it conveys extreme emotions (we didnt get to see it with bazz bc it wasnt as intense as jugram has it but also)  the trigger to these emotions for jugram are related to trauma, the first one being his uncle and the second being his friendship (im not calling his relation with bazz traumatic, its how important this relationship was to him and how ended up broken that triggers him)

but NaKi ThErE iS ThiS pAneL wHerE baZz Is ShaDeD bLacK! yes i know, but it’s not about bazz expression nor emotions, its about the scene, the situation (the white bg vs the black silhouette: perfect), so no it doesnt count, but its still a very nice panel just like with the jugo’s reveal with everyone “kneeling” to him.. white bg was The way to go

i forgot to talk about how i like their fight, how there is so little dialogue and how there are a lot of empty pages just to let place to the fight... it lets you enjoy their fight while we suffer with their flashback, anyways, im not a fan of endless dialogue in fights unless it really changes something, here, they both already know each other and they know what they want, so it was a good pick to just, us reader, witness their story through their mind instead of them narrating/recalling it to us

i know kubo uses that technique outside of these chapters, but the grey shading... i love.. he also has a LOT of close ups with eyes bc we all know how expressive eyes are;... i love that too

i know i talked about some facial expressions, but really, kubo’s art is amazing, the way he can convey certain expressions that are so precise... here, have some panels that i think are underrated naki your boys are underrated.. bc i love kubo’s art so much

i had the chance to see the colored version only once, and to be honest, the black and white is just, Amazing. nothing close to that, kubo’s use of b&w and how he keeps his panels pure is MADE to stay that way

anyways, im really in love with how Friend was made and thought out in it’s visual narrative (and story wise too ofc), kubo didnt just do a side story, these chapters are fucking amazing and ppl often ignores that sadly..

#bleach #jugram haschwalth #bazz b #Friend #naki using her brain #ok so tumblr was a dick and deleted some part of that fjhdf #i hope i didnt miss anything... #oh well #guess ill just add it later lmao #im simping hard for these chapters yes shut up

[ghoestys]

i’m literally pulling this out of my ass so if there are errors and stuff doesnt make sense then please myob and pretend like u understand what im saying im trying to do this before i get caught not doing hw he comes at 6 n its 5:43 rn 

statistics

full name: suzy nora yoon nickname(s): su, suz (pronounced like snooze without the n)  age: twenty three date of birth: tba! hometown: tba! gender: cis female religion: athiest sexuality: bisexual hair colour: black/dark brown eye colour: brown height: 5'5″ tattoos: tba! piercings: tba!

prompt + blackmail

a member of the yale's elite, they're twenty-three and a senior undergrad student majoring in aviation engineering. they are as gregarious as they are aimless.

TW DRUGS!  1. to pay for yale's very expensive tuitition, suzy sells weed that's both fake and real, depending on who is buying and if she likes them. she's not a good seller, though, so this hasn't been the best form of income for her. 2. got accepted into the aviation engineering program, but suzy can't complete her homework without the help of drugs to keep her mind focused and creative enough to understand the problems

about 

family/upbringing/childhood/wtvr

so! literally pulling this out of my ass and making things up as i go! suzy was born in a family with her parents (mom & dad), her older sister, and her older brother. the family was strictly middle class and her parents and siblings were very hardworking. her siblings were good at what they did and they excelled in their academics because they tried hard and all that stuff!

growing up, suzy followed her siblings and her parents and was basically a gifted child from the very start. elementary and middle school was not hard for her and she was in all the advanced and gifted programs. the family was calm and there wasn’t anything drastic that removed the peace or caused any disruption at all. like. they were just chillin. 

i think suzy had an average relationship with her parents. they were still asian, so like... it’s as good as it was going to get. she was somewhat close to her siblings, but seeing as they were 5/8 years older than her, the age gap wasn’t that welcoming to the baby of the family. she was kinda just.. having fun on her own being smart n shit. 

anyways! high school! where all gifted kids literally come to die! due to her shit from elem & middle school, she was offered a full ride scholarship to some prestigious school and as asian parents, they were NOT going to reject that free ride to a school that would help ensure suzy’s success in the future. she went from being one of the smartest kids to being another burnt out gift child and high school was fucking ROUGH! 

bitch really had a fucking crisis and burned the fuck out. her not being the smartest bitch anymore literally killed everything in her and she just stopped being that. she met people and what do u know! got into the wrong crowd where drugs and alcohol was everyones bff! 

she got into that pretty heavily by sophomore year i would say. she was just. yea. 

i mean. she was burnt out  but her grades were still fine if u saw them. studying isnt hard for suzy and shes pretty smart, but she wasn’t at the very top of her class anymore and thats what killed her. instead of having straight a’s, suzy was getting b’s and a few c’s. in a family where anything other than an a was acceptable it really just killed suzy some more 

anyways! drugs and alcohol! made her feel good so she did it. she found that weed was the best thing as well as some tranquilizers/anything that relaxed her essentially. she just liked the feeling of floating n not caring or feeling any pressure like. she wanted to b in her own world n shit. 

college/the elites

after graduating high school, she didnt apply to college right away because honestly? drugs and alcohol and a bitch didnt care by her senior year. her grades were not the best and while she couldve gotten into college, she literally had no interest for college and her parents at this point baiscally disowned her so like? who the fuck is gonna pay for her college??

her work ethic is the worst bc shes so careless like. bitch had a shift from 1-7pm and showed up at 5 because she literally didnt feel bothered enough to show up.

anyways a year or so after graduating high school (idk the math rn) she got really high off something and just. did a whole ass application to yale bc she decided to apply for the shits n giggles. wrote a fake letter of recommendation, wrote killer essay and personal reflection shit or wtvr, and even submitted the application with an attached document of her outlining an entire airplane that wouldve been fully functional except for a few tweaks n shit that was needed

she some how got in from that (this is fake this would probs not b real <3 teehee) and bc she was now accepted and going to yale (she accepted high aha a theme for her), she had to think about how to fund for this shit so she decided to get into drug dealing!

which is honestly. not going good like a bitch again has poor work ethics so her as a drug dealer is so.... she literally got into it bc of euphoria bc it looked easy but doing it... is not easy at all but its her only form of funding so she’s doing it. kinda. loosely. please fire her. 

idk where to put this but. suzy is kinda like that girl from the queens gambit where she feels like she needs drugs to function so like she ditches class but she’ll do all her assignments nicely bc she thinks the drugs give her superpowers to b smart n at the top of her academic class again

when shes under the influence of anything she feels like she can function more or like her life is just... better when shes not sober and ull rarely really see her sober like shes usually just on something 

idk where the post is rn bc im too lazy to look for it bc i jsut got a text that he was coming now but!!! its the tweet where a guy was drunk n drew up an entire blue print of an airplane and that is literally fucking suzy i swear to god 

when shes high she’s like the smartest bitch around (shes smart without drugs but doesnt believe that) and can build airplanes n blueprints n solve maths n wtvrs

suzy is truly an asian stem bitch and the sciences and math is where she excels the most!!!! probs won awards n competitions for math and science but doesnt really acknowledge that much becase like... its just not something shes focused on

got into the elites by just making a blueprint of a plane from scratch infront of the twins like. legit just went infront of them, started making the blueprint from scratch to finish n gave it to  them saying here is a blueprint for a new private plane u guys can build for urselves 

personality 

personality wise she is very friendly n goofy n chill n chaotic 

literally a dumbass n honestly really annoying just ask orion 

shes just a stoner having fun doing her life n not really caring about anything like. how she made it to senior year who the fuck knows i really  dont honestly

i think the main way to describe her is bimbo like thats it 

not really into sharing her life and is more of a listener than a talker when it comes to conversations that are genuinely deep and personal. she will not talk to u about her problems and insecurities seriously (maybe she’ll do it in a self deprecating way) unless she trusts u w her life. otherwsie she will keep it to herself n prays that her stoner part will make people believe shes just chillin w no problems

when it comes to conversations about  nonsense n fake deep shit like what is air then suzy will not shut the fuck up like if u wanna talk to someone about nonsense then suzy is truly ur bitch like. a bitch can fucking talk 

doesnt mind being alone bc she has fun on her own but she prefers company more bc she likes having fun and having someone to accompany wtvr she does. whether its for smoking/drinking or hanging out but also just for like... going to class if she chooses to attend and doing everyday errands like groceries or wtvr. she doesnt really do groceries tho bc she just steals orions fodo but when she does choose to go she likes having people with her :) 

she doesnt have a passion for anything bc she doesnt dream of labor but the closest thing about b making airplanes or helicopters like. blueprints  come easy to her n she enjoys making them bc she feels like shes actually capable of something bc shes aware that making them isnt something everyone can do 

u can treat her like a dumbass n she wont call u on it even tho shes kinda smart bc she feels like shes a dumbass

most likely has bad self esteem and feels like a failure but uses drugs n alcohol to ignore that feeling :) 

probs the least judgemental person ull ever meet bc she really doesnt care about what u do like. she hears the secrets getting outted n she doesnt care there r high chances that she’ll still look at u the same way

#intro #i am rushing im so sorry i jsut wanted this out while i was thinking about her

[alliterati]

tagged by @punkfaery . appreciate it <3

Rules: Answer 20 questions, then tag 20 bloggers you wanna know better.  

1. Name: i dont use it here (its not paranoia if theyre really out to get you!) you can however call me:

2. Nickname: шурик (Shoorick, after the main character of a 1960s soviet slapstick comedy film. i havent seen it so i do not know if it was meant as a compliment or an insult)

3. Zodiac sign: leo

4. Height: just under 180, probably

5. Languages: english, german, scandinavian

6. Nationality: i live in sweden

7. Favourite season: early autumn. ideally when it doesnt rain too heavily but also the heat isnt too oppressive

8. Favourite flower: poppy

9. Favourite scent: i have really weak sense of smell, so idk. the ocean?

10. Favourite colour: fuchsia, purple, græy

11. Favourite animals: brine shrimp. next question

12. Favourite fictional character: hm hard to choose, but the first ones that come to mind:

original problematic fave is Dustfinger, of Inkheart fame. so cool, such a dick sometimes, but very cool (hot?) powersuite and storyline.

maybe Lyra Silvertongue. havent read the books in ages (apparently there are new ones too??), but i love that little force for chaos.

Also love Sand dan Glokta, like as a character not as a person. Hes horrible, but in a way thats wonderful to read. if anyone wants to chat about abercrombies books im always down.

Also also, speaking of horrible people, cant forget Fëanor, the biggest ego in all of Arda.

Also also also, bc i cant not mention homestuck, Rose Lalonde is my absolute fave, especially post-scratch.

13. Coffee, tea or hot chocolate: tea i enjoy daily, chocolate is a rare but wonderful treat, and coffee is for when i hate myself.

14. Average hours of sleep: at the moment im probably getting a good 8h pretty regularly, but in the olden days, when i actually had a reason to get up and leave the house it was more like 6

15. Dog or cat: cats everytime. dogs are too loud.

16. Number of blankets you sleep with: one, but three pillows

17. Dream tip: i just made a bunch of healing potions tonight, so come on by and stock up if youre low on them.

18. Blog established: 2015 i think

19. Followers: human ones? few and far between

20. Random fact: i have just over 360 hours (15 days) logged in minesweeper... 9200 games... 803270 mines disarmed... win percentage: 4........

im not gonna write 20 ppl here, but if any of the following want to do this, heres an excuse: @queerquantum, @masteremp, @hessianheadhunter, @leitharstjarna, @lindwurm-prince, @palatinamedea, @bluesuederose, @weidenka-etzchen, @mustikkakotako, @house0fsugar, @translesbianorchestra, @lesbianladyeboshi, @exchequerfan

no pressure though

(and if you need an excuse and i didnt namedrop you, i will literally edit you in on request)

#ok im sorry if you saw this and ignored it before but its been brought to my attention that i literally didnt successfully tag anyone #so my bad hopefully this works better

[bo0zey]

Pick your favorite questions from the list.

i will do them all for u 0.o

1. Name cianna [see-ah-nah]

2. Nationality mexican irish german romanian hungarian french

3. Age 20

4. Birthday december 17, 1999

5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign) sun: sagittarius; ascendant: leo; moon: aries

6. Gender female

7. Sexuality uhhhhhhhhhhhh idk but i will willingly kiss either gender

8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself) /tagged/my-face or u could just google pictures of fat rats

9. What do you/did you study? I’m currently a sophomore nursing major!

10. What's your current job like?/What job would you like to have? I’m currently a microbiology TA and I love it :) My dream job would be something with animals, like a vet tech or veterinarian

11. Your birth order i’m the oldest!

12. How many siblings do you have? 2 younger brothers

13. Do you have good relations with your family? my mom was my best friend, my dad and i get along better now that i’m in college, my brothers and i get along pretty well & we’re staring to get closer now that they’re getting older n growing up n developing their own personalities lol

14. How many friends do you have? errrr idk this is a hard question. i have a lot of acquaintances but i’d say i have maybe like less than 10 real friends??

15. Your relationship status single :D

16. What do you look for in a SO? funny!!!!!!!!!must be humorous!!!!and sarcastic and a little weird w darker sense of humor so we can laugh n be dumb together!!!!!!! also i would like them to be kind to me and those around them bc mean ppl suck. also they have to like animals. also i would like them to be loyal and trustworthy and 110% in love w me. and for physical stuff idk kinda attractive but NOT CONVENTIONALLY ATTRACTIVE like i personally don't really like the typically ‘attractive’ person??? 

17. Do you have a crush? currently in love w the cute chinese boy who lives across from my dorm room even tho i have never even spoken to him n he is totally unaware of my existence!!!!!!!! hahah oops :D

18. When did you have your first kiss? i mean technically 3rd grade i think but that doesn't really count so like maybe 16????

19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands? i mean in the long term i would definitely like to have a serious relationship but at the moment i’m only into casual stuff bc my heart isn't ready to be broken again sknfkjdbnkjd

20. What are your deal breakers? errrr i’m not sure....cheating is a no no, ppl that are interested in fucking every single person they see is a turn off, DUMB PEOPLE like ppl you can't even have a proper conversation with bc they're so DUMB, and ppl who r mean/judgmental/arrogant

21. How was your day? ok! accidentally slept thru my math class but caught a glimpse of my crush across campus when he was abt to smoke a cig and i got chipotle n i online shopped a ton from shein

22. Favourite food & drink deep dish spinach pizza from giordano’s & orange vitamin water

23. What position do you sleep in? i fall asleep on my left side hugging a body pillow

24. What was your last dream about? ate a braid of hair and inside the braid was bacon

25. Your fears not going to make it thru nursing school, not being financially stable as an adult, not having a family of my own, probably more but those r currently top 3

26. Your dreams i don't have any idk....maybe having like a house of my own and having as many animals as i want?? and i would like a loving partner with a daughter of our own

27. Your goals survive nursing school and lose 40 pounds and don't die before my cat

28. Any pets? i have a dog named cherry Cola, a cat named Leto, and a betta fish named Perc

29. What are your hobbies? writing stories about people in love, listening to music

30. Any cool places in your area? in my college town??? NO it sucks. in my hometown??? Not really it’s a small lil village with only restaurants and parks. but at home i’m near downtown chicago so that’s cool i guess

31. What was your last awkward situation? the first thing that comes to mind is my FIRST and so far ONLY encounter with my crush. we live in the same dorm building and i was wearing my nursing scrubs and had no make up on and about to go upstairs to my dorm, and then i heard footsteps and i was like ‘hahaha what if its my crush’ AND THEN HE FUCKIGJNG appeared from down the hallway to go back to HIS DORM [which is RIGHT ACROSS FROM MINE] and i literally STARED at him, then threw open the door and RAN UP THE STAIRS LIKE I LITERALLY DIDNT EVEN HOLD THE DOOR OPEN FOR ME AND HE WAS LIKE SO CLOSE BEHIND ME I WAS JUST SO NERVOUS MY FLIGHT OR FIGHT RESPONSE TOOK OVER AND I FUCKING FLED I LITERALLY RAN AWAY FROM HIM I AHTE MYSELF SO MUCH IM SUCH AN IDIOT!!!!!!!!!

32. What is your last regret? errrrr idk i regret a lot of dumb things.......

33. Language/s you can speak English n a LITTLE bit of Spanish

34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.) i’m really into zodiac stuff and i have got to say they are pretty spot on in accuracy idk

35. Have any quirks? ummmm ofc!!i am the quirkiest person i know hajnjfxbkjx like if u asked my roommates/friends they’d probably be better at answering this than me bc i don't see anything abt me as quirky but they always tell me i am quirky and do weird things but idk man I'm just existing 

36. Your pet peeves err idk currently its ppl that constantly brag about dumb shit

37. Ideal vacation somewhere warm with me + the ocean + the loml + unlimited alcohol

38. Any scars? yeah :D both emotional AND physical!!!!

39. What does your last text message say? ‘ok thats a more than fair statement’

40. Last 5 things from your search history how many carbs should i eat, chipotle bowl calories, is the grim reaper the angel of death, ceftriaxone adverse effects, red man syndrome

41. What's your [device] background? lockscreen is a peach-theme background i made and home screen is my weight loss goals

42. What do you daydream about? the characters in my stories.................and being skinny 

43. Describe your dream home pretty brick house??? flowers outside??? 3 floors--main floor, basement and upstairs??? 3 bedrooms n 3 bathrooms maybe??? master bedroom has its own bathroom!!! and open concept main floor. big kitchen and very homey n warm all around. as for like an apartment i want something cozy and aesthetically pleasing and warm 

44. What's your religion/Your thought about religion i don't have a religion but if ppl do have a religion then thats not my business

45. Your personality type entj but only bc i got 3% extraverted; i am very closely related to intj tho n i think i fit that one better

46. The most dangerous thing you've done uhhhhhh probably operating a vehicle while high out of my mind. definitely the dumbest thing i ever did 0/10 would recommend anyone ever doing that

47. Are you happy with your current life? its ok but it could probably be better. i want to be done w college and skip to the part where i have a successful career and my own home and i can lay up w the loml every night

48. Some things you've tried in your life alcohol???weed??gummy edibles....

49. What does your wardrobe consist of? sweaters/sweatshirts/leggings

50. Favourite colour to wear? black, maroon, peach, purple, gray, idk

51. How would you describe your style? oh jeez idk i wear whatever i want so like e-girl when i really try and basic white girl when i don't care

52. Are you happy with your current looks? no i hate everything about myself lol

53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be? more freckles on my face....also be thinner n have longer hair

54. Any tattoos or piercings? my nose and septum are pierced!

55. Do you get complimented often? kinda by my friends but i always yell at them to stop so they don't compliment like as much bc they know i hate it but they still do it sometimes idk

56. Favourite aesthetic? i wanna be an e-girl yo!!!!!!!!! 

57. A popular trend that you dislike nobody has a crush on me and i hate it

58. Songs you're currently obsessed with? pied piper by BTS

59. Song you normally wouldn't admit you like. anything by BTS lol i used to like be embarrassed for how much i like k pop but now i don't really care lol #stanBTS2020

60. Favourite genre? rap/r n b/alternative

61. Favourite artist/band/genre? i listen to every genre except country sooooooo yeah i really like billie eilish, BTS, the weeknd, juicewrld, lil nas x, trippie red, post malone,

62. Hated popular songs/artists? i don't rlly like selena gomez or justin bieber or taylor swift

63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5 only - RY X i.f.l.y. - Bazzi novacane - frank ocean jungle - drake bang! - trippie redd

64. Can you sing or play any instruments? no and no

65. Do you like karaoke? no but i like to sing along to songs when I'm alone

66. Own any albums? haha noooo i got apple music son

67. Do you listen to radio? What stations? errr RARELY i used to listen to r n b stations tho

68. Favourite movie/series? idk donnie darko?? i also just finished tharntype n that was really good. also i liked tokyo ghoul. AND GIVEN IS REALLY GOOD

69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc i like horror/scary/paranormal/funny movies and i like love stories in books

70. Your fictional crush/es danny phantom, ken kaneki

71. Which fictional character is you? uhhhh idk...

72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so frerard, ryden, taekook, mewgulf

73. Favourite greek god? idk they all kinda suck but maybe hades

74. A legend from where you live that you like i don't really know any:(

75. Do you like art? What's your favourite work or artist? i like to look at art! i think van gogh is cool

76. Can you share your other social media? ig: ciannnna venmo: ciannnna

77. Favourite youtubers? i don't really watch youtubers but maybe shane dawson and emma chamberlain

78. Favourite platform? twitter

79. How much time do you spend on the internet? too much time

80. What video games have you played? Which one's your favourite? i once played GTA5 that was fun!

81. Your favourite books (manga also counts) idk i don't really read anymore:/ i was into the hunger games and the twilight series when i was young. now i kinda read online manga and i really liked BJ Alex and killing stalking. and like for online books the unholyverse series, a splitting of the mind, the anatomy of a fall

82. Do you play board/card games? no but i like to play checkers and uno and cards against humanity

83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema? nopee

84. Favourite holiday halloween is cool also christmas is alright bc gifts

85. Are you into dramas? i’ve been getting into thai boys love dramas lol sue me

86. Would you use death note, if you had one? um YES.

87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to? everyone needs to be a little kinder and have a crush on me

88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse? absolutely not I'm not physically fit and don't have useful skills

89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be? vampire duh [or maybe ghost]

90. What would you want to happen to you after your death? i want to see my mom

91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick? idk something cool ... i love the name Daisy

92. Who would you switch your life with for a week? idk probably kylie jenner

93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo idk the alien? 94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true -im very productive with my time management skills -my favorite color is purple -i don't get nervous when I'm alone in public

95. Cold or hot? cold

96. Be a hero or be a villain? anti-hero

97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme? sing if i’m good at it but if I'm not good then rhyme

98. Shapeshifting or controlling time? shapeshifting

99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death?immortal

100. ..... or .....? ......?

[kkultokkie]

get to know me

@dailydoseoftrash7 tagged me (thank you!) to do this ages ago but ive been busy and also i forgot and i need something to distract me rn so im doing it now lmao

(btw @dailydoseoftrash7 hmu with that yoonkook fic once youre done uwu)

ive done this loads of times before but the answers are always slightly different so here we go

nickname(s): doughnut, various variants on my name like kirnoo

gender: female

zodiac: taurus

height: 5′5.5/ 167cm

time: 2:10am

favourite musicians: hans zimmer, bts, tsfh, oh my girl, imagine dragons, linkin park, tøp, mamamoo, bap, gareth coker, chopin, debussy, joe hisaishi, suran, etc etc

song stuck in my head: a mixture of lee sora’s ‘song request’ and oh my girl’s ‘sugar baby’ (which are both completely diff songs so im not sure how that works but hey)

last thing i googled: ahahahahahahahahaha ‘why do i feel sad for no reason’ ok dont even

last movie i saw: bts love yourself tour in seoul

last song i listened to: idk, song request? though i was watching bts live videos so maybe fake love if those count as listening to songs?

other blogs: @iranka (please follow me that blogs much nicer and less spammy n i post my art and fics and stuff) i have another blog too but like,,

do i get asks: rarely (pls send me asks ;-;)

why did i choose my username: i was like 14 and didnt know how to pick a username so i chose that dumb nickname

following: 581

amount of sleep i get: yesterday? 13 hours. the day before? 0 hours. so.

lucky number: none really but 13 i guess, and 5

what im wearing: black shirt, black leggings, yellow cardigan

dream job: actual: small business owner (flower shop maybe?) and writer/artist/musician; realistic: clinical psychologist? maybe?

dream trip: around the world/ lord of the rings new zealand trek/ europe road trip

favourite food: like, everything (nehari (a pakistani curry thing), mac n cheese, fruit tart, cheesecake, dumplings...)

instruments: piano, flute, ukulele, voice (id like to learn harp, percussion esp marimba, organ, bassoon, tuba)

relationship status: forever single

favourite colours: all (indigo, lavender, pastel pink, bright yellow, blood red, sea green)

three books: lotr1, lotr2, lotr3 (lmao ok lord of the rings series by jrr tolkien, blue light by gary paulsen, i, robot by isaac asimov (so hard to choose man idek))

three tv shows: merlin, a:tla, sherlock (up to season 3 lmao)

book i am reading rn: none

anything i want: i never know if this question means to say something that i want as in would like to have or anything i want as in its a free bonus question to write whatever the hell i want to but hey ho lets just say i want to get my life together and to stop sabotaging myself and to stop being so obsessed with wanting love

im not tagging anyone bc idk who to tag and i feel like i always tag the same people so if u wanna do it go ahead, you can say i tagged u if u want

#tagged #im sorry im such a mess aha #also im so broing lol

[little----bit-of-light]

So this is my first piece of writing i've ever done for the dear evan hansen fandom so hope ys enjoy.

Trigger Warnings: mentions of divorce, ooc Connor

- the gang ™ is at lunch one day and jared is being an anti social fuck and scrolling though his instagram

-Connor is looking over his shoulder to see the memes

-AND THEN he sees this picture of this beautiful girl in a black dress on a busy ass street surrounded by people wearing a lot of bright colours captioned "My formal title is queen of the undead and damned but you can just call me Your highness"

-"Do you follow model's to jerk off to or something" Connor teases and Jared is like "no you idiot she goes here"

-then Alana pipes in with "well actually she goes here for half the year, her parents do spilt custody during the school year"

-Connor follow you later that night on instagram

-He's scrolling through your account and is in awe of not only how beautiful you are but also how funny you're captions are

-You follow him back cause you have a soft spot for pretty boys with long hair and HEY HE GOES TO YOUR SCHOOL BACK EAST

-You spend half the year on the west coast with your mom after the divorce

-the other half you spend with your dad back east

A FEW MONTHS LATER

-You're en route back east and you post a little snap out of the airplane window on your Instagram story before takeoff with the caption "the prodigal daughter returns in like 4 hours"

-Connor sees and gets so excited cause this means you'll be back at school and he can finally talk to you!!!!!!!!!

-You get home and start unpacking some stuff and you kinda just need to get out of the house, mainly to have a little cry cause you miss your mom and dont wanna make your dad feel awful

-So you tug on a heavy duty coat and boats that you didnt even bother bringing out west and walk to the local park

-you sit down on one of the swings and just kinda let the tears falls for a bit

-So our fav tree nerd is walking past on his way to Connor's house and you two had a couple of playdates when you were kids and talked every once i a while when you were back east but not a lot

-And he notices you and is just gonna walk past till he realises you're crying

-and cause of his shitty dad he automatically assumes something has happened with your dad and goes into defensive evan mode

-He does his best to talk to you but poor boy isnt the best at comforting so he asks if its okay to take you somewhere warm

-So he takes you to Connor's with him cause he know's Zoe will be there and he knows you two are friends (you organise the school concerts)

-Evan asks if you want a hug when you stand up from the swings and you two just walk in a side hug on the way there

-Connor answers the door and just goes "Evan you need to stop bringing strays home" before he even knows its you and you know its him

-you've both had little Instagram crushes on each other since the day you both followed each other

-You assumed Evan was bringing you to a coffee shop not someones house

-you get inside and Connor is like interally screaming because how can someone look so cute with a blotchy face and red nose from the cold/crying

-When Jared sees you he fucking launches himself at you to hug you

"THE VALLEY GIRL HAS RETURNED TO US" hes laughing his ass off cause he's so happy to see you

-you guys had a bunch of classes together and usually kept each other sane around all the dumb people last year

-seeing him has already cheered you up and reminded you why you miss the east when your west

-Connor is kinda jealous how all your tension just seemed to slip away the second Jared picked you up

-"shit sorry that was rude, I'm y/n" you say walking up to Connor and shaking his hand but he already knows cause your the cute girl who's pictures and music recs on her Instagram stories that always cheer him up

-"Connor Murphy" he says with a bit of a smirk which makes you melt cause this is the boy who's pictures always kinda make you in awe cause they are rarely of him (he's really into photography so most of his Instagram is of things and people around him) but when they are boy is a stunner

-"Hey aren't you Zoe-" You dont get to finish the sentence because Zoe has tackled you in a hug

"WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU IN MY HOUSE I MISSED YOU"

"Missed you too band geek"

-the rest of the day is pretty chill Zoe takes you up to her room and gets you to spill about why you were crying and you talk about missing your mom and how its just a big change to go through every couple of months

-Connor sends Zoe a text that theres pizza downstairs if you two want any cause he doesn't wanna interrupt anything

-So you guys head downstairs and start talking to the guys

-You tell Jared some stories about guys from silicon valley, Evan about the hikes in the national parks and you say how Colorado was the best place you hiked and the Jared makes a weed joke and you go "hey helped with the muscle pain" and Connor is just like I'm in love????????

-Over the next couple of months you bond with the group and they start making more appearances on your Instagram

-You also become Connor's favourite subject for photography and feature a lot on each others page

- But you're favourite picture is the one that Alana got of you two, foreheads touching just looking at each other in complete admiration captioned "get you a freak like this"

#dear evan hansen #connor murphy x reader #deh #evan hansen x reader

[uniformbravo]

Get To Know Me

Tagged by @saigems bitch!!!!!!! thenk u

Nicknames: none rly?? i think ppl have called me riles before but i dont rly notice stuff like that

Zodiac: capricorn but i have recently learned that there is a lot more to astrology than i previously thought

Height: 5′7″

Time: 3:32 pm

Favourite band/artist: i rly love goose house!!!! i found them through this song (silver spoon ed2) & now im subscribed to their yt bc their acoustic stuff is. so pretty (plus theyre all talented af??? like jeez)

Song stuck in my head: hm yesterday it was the first food wars op (im sorry im such an anime-loving fuck i dont listen to any other music anymore)

Last movie I saw: incredibles 2

Last thing I googled: i dont remember............... it was some word i was checking the definition for???

Other blogs: @musicaltincan is my art blog, for art, and @novembergolf is my music blog, but i post there so rarely that i always just reblog it here anyway so follow there if u like to see the same post twice every time

Do I get asks: yea sometimes but im always so weird abt it i feel like i scare ppl off hffhhgjhj

Why I chose this username: lets just say i was a little too into gmod murder at the time

Following: 321 jeez

Average amount of sleep: ideally at least 9 but usually more like 6-8 (so..... 7)

Lucky number: does a lucky time count? bc thats 11:10

What I’m wearing: just like, jeans & a tank top (if u ever see me wearin anything else thats not me)

Dream job: idk, something that involves me telling a story in some way & ppl bein interested in it

Dream trip: i dont knoooo

Favourite food: ok i didnt say this last time but like. rice w/ some kinda sauced meat + mother Fuckin BROCCOLI!!!!!!! when the rice & broccoli soak up that sauce bitchhchv

Play any instruments?: piano my love, my big loud gf

Eye colour: brown

Hair colour: brown

Languages you can speak: english only

Most iconic song: all star by smash mouth

Random fact: i fuckin love high speed, possibly more than free, bc im a dramatic bitch & these books r dramatic af i wish theyd write more

Describe yourself as aesthetic things: those black n white photos of urban streets w/ trash all over the place, some kind of high quality n professionally lit photo of just An Egg (it would look super artsy n shit, the cleanest egg photo u ever saw), some of those anime aesthetic posts bc im a huge weeb now, and lastly old art u did as a kid sitting in a dusty box in the attic that ur parents kept all these years bc im a dirty nostalgic fuck

Tagging: since i just did one of these the other day i dont wanna like annoy all the same ppl so ill just forgo it this time but like if u wanna then do it n say i tagged u. i kno thats such a cop out answer but fuck man

#retag later #blog specific #tagged

[kid-cobra]

HERO @jyarako TAGGED ME IN THIS AND AAAAAAAAAAA?? YOU CONSIDER ME A CLOSE PAL??? ID FLOURISH FOR YOU MY FRIEND

// rules: always post the rules. answer 11 random questions posted for you. create 11 new ones and tag 11 people. let the person who tagged you know that you answered! //

what’s the last dream you remember having? have you ever kept / considered keeping a dream journal?

I don’t reeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy have a good memory of my dreams if not anything at all, I think my last one was texting someone? Don’t recall at all, I often confuse them with memories which is worse, anyways, I guess I wouldn't since the whole bad memory so yeehaw

what do you think humanity’s greatest weakness is? what about its greatest strength?

This is a hella heavy question Hero what is this? Honestly I feel there are many inherent flaws in human nature so this is hard to say, I’d assume something in relation to the persistent need for infighting and the ability to create negative change in the lives around us, although that is also Humanity’s greatest strength, the ability to change the lives of others around us in a positive manner!

if you mess up a project, are you more likely to try to fix it or completely start over?

Id usually fix it tbh, I think? I usually forget personal projects and rarely start over on school projects, I put too much time into them after all

what single event has had the biggest impact on your life?

I really don’t recall tbh most of the ones I remember are not the best, and there are a lot of good moments too? I really can’t say...

do you think it’s possible to live a normal life without ever lying?

For sure! Lying is a choice and you don’t need to lie if you don’t need to I suppose.

what’s the last song you got stuck in your head?

Running in the Nineties during my english provincial

what do you think existed before the universe?

I really cannot comprehend the nature of such affairs but I could put some hope with a cyclical nature with a prior universe going into a big crunch.

if you were a dragon, what kind of things would you hoard? (personally i’d hoard friendship, but that’s kinda lame isn’t it)

SAME TBH, Id just hoard things of all natures though to be honest, thats what I do already so ehh, (I swear to gosh if you made this q thinkin of me I klfasjdlf)

when’s the last time you’ve gotten super deep with someone?

Today I think jfsldkfjas

what’s something you’re super interested in? why are you interested in it?

Right now its ARMS and its because of Kid Cobra love that binch

look at this boy

what’s the best kind of bird?

all of them, next question

(also stealing this one from Hero’s since this quote in the group chat resonated with me)

is there a quote that really resonates with you? if so, what is it?

(side note hero add fight me on discord send ur username)

QUESTIONS TIME!

What is your favorite type of flower?

What is your favorite bug? is there a specific one in mind?

Thoughts on Digimon?

Who is your favorite ARMS fighter? (Heres all of them BTW!)

(obligatory deep question) What part of human nature would you remove if you had the choice to? Would you stay as is?

Who would you say is your greatest inspiration?

If you had the ability to publish a book what would it be about?

If you had the ability to change your favorite game what would you change about it?

Why is your favorite colour your favourite colour?

Metric or Imperial?

What is your guess on the meaning of life?

IM WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY TOO SHY TO TAG SOME OF MY PALS SO HECK NO 11 PPL? UNREALISTIC! ILL TAG @kahunahapu, @dlfineo, @naside, @arianagrandgay, @hawkishpebble, @ladycaitlin, @yoakies, @artsaeda, and @vaderm0de AND ANY OF MY PALS WHO WANNA DO THIS AS WELL SORRY IF I DIDNT TAG YOU

 FEEL FREE NOT TO DO THIS IF YOU DONT WANT TO ITS ALL GOOD AND FUN! THANK YOU HERO FOR TAGGIN ME IN THIS IT WAS FUUUUUUNNNNN

#my posts #personal #caps/

[wowdroid]

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#i kinda wanna do a timeline type thing for all the different hair colours and styles ive ever done #throughout my teenage years tbh im lile in the same level as gd when it comes to changing hair #the only problem is is that i rarely take selfies so i have to rely in friend pictures if myself #but the problem is.... i always make a stupid face so 95% of pictures are ugly #idk. im gonna go sleep and if i have time b4 i have to go my moms ill quickly look throughy files to see what i have #then ask tat or max if they have any pictures of me with hair i dont have #(which should be the watermelon hair and the blue/red hair back in 10th/11th grade) #(like ive tried almost every colour. including a highlighter orange colour. that didnt last long it was ugly ao i doubt i have pics of that #and also ill try to cosplay as best as i can as wow when i get to my moms cuz thats where all my good clothes are #idk if i think i failed i wont post anything (i dont have makeup to try and make my features look more like him soo... well see) #ill probably cover half of my face to make it more believable but idk #tat says i look like him so well see #also my phone camera lens is shit since i broke it so itll probably have to be a selfie so no full body most likely #im going all the way back to 13 years old for tge hair thing so get ready for... my ugly ass long hair #i remember back in 9th grade during picture day our class got called right after gym class #so my hair was a big ole frizzy mess and my face was still kinda red from exercise to i was plain ugly lmao #hmmm maube i should also do a timeline of pictures from my 7th to 12th grade annuaires(excuse that i forgot the word in english) #i probably wont post that thats mainly for myself lmao

[nikitbh]

get to know me better (tag) ~

rules: A the Qs in a new post and tag 20(???) blogs you wanna know better

nicknames: niks, (my full first name is niki so niks is all i got lol)

gender: female

star sign: scorpio

height: 5′2.5

time right now: 12:33 am

last thing i googled: bts (LOL wow honestly i was expecting like “effects of eating instant noodles everyday” or something wild like that)

favorite bands: bts, paramore, weezer (honestly i dont listen to bands that much anymore other than kpop)

favorite solo artists: dean, kanye west (but like before 2013 lol), bridgit mendler

song stuck in my head: don’t recall by KARD (yo i signed up to be on ASC for the live online audience thing lets hope i get in... even tho im not their biggest fan lol)

last movie i watched: umm mocking jay part 1.... or was is part 2???? idk

last tv show i watched: some random kdrama b/c i was trying to look for a new show but i didnt like it so i didnt bother remembering the name lol soz

when did you create your blog: i honestly have no idea. but i started using tumblr in like 2011? or something??? idk

what stuff do you post: cats, kpop (mostly bts), aesthetic pics

when did you blog reach its peak: the time when i reached 30 followers just from reblogging “what is air” memes lmao

do you have any other blogs: some rando side blogs that are super inactive. i have my aesthetic blog, @102495 but i rarely use it

do you get asks regularly: hmmm like once in a blue moon

why did you choose your url: niki is my name, honestly

following: 258!!!! (for 3 years i had like 70 but once i got into kpop it grew fast lmao)

posts: 19156

hogwarts house: huffle puff (idk its been like 8 years since i checked lol)

pokemon team: mystic? (do ppl actually care)

favorite colors: BLUE!!! all colours honestly as long as it looks tasteful u kno (ie. mustard yellow/green??? cable knit sweater, yes.)

average hours of sleep: 5.....??? maybe 6?? (school and bts man)

lucky numbers: none that i know of lol

favorite characters: danny phantom (my friends keep making fun of me for having a crush on him but i can’t help it? hahah)

what are you wearing right now: blue/white striped hoodie, camo pj shorts

how many blankets do you sleep with: 2 (one throw, one duvet)

dream job: like a surgeon or a coroner/detective or like idk an interior designer

dream trip: korea tbh. or japan would be really cool. honestly anywhere would be cool because i barely get to travel

tag 20 blogs you want to know better: @ashleylariviere @justnams @fapmonster

#im so sleepy.... #it took me 27 mins to do this lmao #i want to sleep but i want to read and play sims and draw and ugh #slepeeppyyyeyyy #mine

[authenticaussie]

Hey, sorry for the self promotion but I s w e a r it is relevant to your interests but my One Piece rare pairs blog might be something you would like and especially since I would love to feature your writing some time soon! Pls check out "shitstrawhatsship" and I s w e a r I will get around to reading your rare pair best works to rec. ((A point in the right direction ie fics you love the most)) would also be appreciated :D

aww, I dont mind self promotion man!!!! its cool af to get blogs + etc. that people think I may like~ ;u;

And I have seen your blog before!!!! ;u; I check it out on occasion ‘cause I loooove seeing all the new pairs to fall in love with, but when i dont like a ship i dont like it hard, and I dont wanna have to go through and blacklist heaps of things on the off-chance they may show up   ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ my computer’s slow enough already lol

tbqh tho i love rare pairs (aw man I just love shipping in general im such a sucker for love stories lol) I dont actually have that many fics????????

I actually went through my fics and found i was a liar, I have w a y to many rare pair things omfg, anyway:

Miraculous Nami!!! is my newest!! It’s a nam/tash magical girl au that I wrote for the reverse bang with @0blue-bird0​ : 14,126 words / T. S’a bit messy, I plan on rewriting bits of it at some point lol tho i say this abt every fic

uhhh, i was gonna organise these by date but I’ll just put my faves in order, and then the rest ‘ll be by date under a readmore. 

short steps / deep breaths has a tinnnny bit of Rouge/Roger, but it’s mainly introspection. I just really like it. 2,514 words / T

Three Day’s Dance is pre decent, but it’s only one chapter and I can’t remember where I saved the second chapter lol. Ace/Sanji / 2,718 words / I’m pretty sure it was G?

Colour in the Roses is so OLD but so many people love it so i have to include it out of principal I guess. It’s aro/poly-queer Luf + strawhats and has referenced kohza/vivi & one-sided navi. Technically a two/three-parter but I got busy after the first chapter and it blew up so big that I didn’t want to disappoint anyone, and then just never got around to it lol. 2826 words / G 

Floodwater || This Thing of Ours is pre good!!! I accidentally skipped a scene at some point though, I’m SURE, because whenever I reread it I get so confused, my brain’s like, “no, u had smth there.” Anyway: 8,406 words, Gin/San

Find the Hat OKAY BUT THE LAST LINE OF THIS WILL NEVER NOT MAKE ME GRIN??? It may be super old but I still grin when I read it. It’s not my fave bc ace/lu is….eh for me I guess, but I have some good one-liners, and it was a shift from earlier stuff that’s still decent. 1,772 words, ace/lu

Chronologically: 

Magic (and Other Romantic Things) 383 Words, Na/Ro. So shooooorrrt, it should have had so much backstory but i wanted to post it before christmas and never finisheeeeed 

Come Home to me (Come Home to the Sea) 6,220 words San/Uso. Cute af and w/ lots of my fave hcs,,,,,,the only reason it’s not up top is bc it’s so old but old in the no i cant be proud of u anymore, u need desperate re-writing and i did angst for the sake of angst :T

Something Magical 2,691 words (though most of it is just random plot mutterings),  San/Uso

Wednesday’s Child 3,444 words, the first chapter’s good-ish but I needed to go further explaining into things and I didnt ‘cause I got bored. Ace/San

How to Fall for Nico Robin (and how not to not let her figure it out)  2,018 words, Robin/Sabo. Was a gift for a friend, I don’t think I’m the biggest fan of the ship tbqh, but that’s prolly ‘cause I have ships with those two that I like better.

Someone’s Rooting for the Captain THIS IS PURE CRACK AND ALL ASIA’S FAULT ‘CAUSE SHE WANTED Mihawk/Zoro OKAY I TAKE NO RESPONSIBILITY 1,034 words, Mi/Zo & Lu/Zo

Flower Boy godddd, that First Fic feel tm. 1,466 words, Thatch/Ace 

The problems with being female idk why i titled it like this i hate this title now and by extension every time i see it i get mad at the fic, but the fic’s actually pretty cute gdi. 988 words, Thatch/Ace

#merryfortune #ask aussie #bip bop nari drops #i know u dont like mas so I didnt include any of those fics / the saboace fics i have #and i took out some ace/lu & sabo/lu fics too #except for find the hat just cause u asked for ones i was proud and even tho i dont like the ship that one has nice dialouge #hope this heeeelps!! #ahhh and im so flattered u wanna feature my writing ;u; #thanks man!!!!!

[tumblunni]

Huh! An Idea!

Hey I just heard about a very cool-seeming anime called (I think?) Rehibilitaion Of An MMO Junkie! It seems really nice cos its one of those stories about hikkomori (I think thats the japanese word for it?)- depressed people who stay at home all day and are socially anxious about going out in public. LOL RELATEABLE, AMIRITE? no but seriously beyond just Jokes, this is a very sad modern manifestation of a timeless mental illness, and i know these feelings well and i wish people could have less stigma about this and instead just give these people the help they need. And that’s why i love this anime concept, cos its a sympathetic take on one of these people as a protagonist, and how videogames as escapism can be A Good Thing and how long distance relationships Are Also Good. Like wtf, subverting all the cliches at once?? Its a really cute looking romance story of her meeting a guy online via vidjagaems, and their love being absolutely real and pure, and it rekindling her will to live and helping her find the courage to take more risks in real life and start the road to recovery. And then they work thru all their various issues as a couple and meet up in real life and have a happily ever after! :D

Now okay, that sounds really cool and I ABSOLUTELY want to watch this show and I will make more posts about it when I do! But also it gave me a bit of a story idea so i’m gonna ramble!!!!!

Okay so kind of a wasted potential thing here is how it has a plot about the two halves of the couple playing as the opposite gender online and like.. nothing is done with it? Nothing really creative or relevant to like.. gender. It just seems like a weird way they could invoke LGBT imagery but technically not be LGBT I guess? Like neither character is trans or has any deep reason for playing that character except ‘my fave colour is pink and people would make fun of me if they knew i was a dude’ and ‘i wanna play a hot guy cos i was kinda lonely and drunk when i saw this MMO’. But then a lot of stuff about it kinda feels like the writers were.. not predjudiced against LGBT or anything?? like the lady protag has NO angst about getting a crush on a seemingly female player, it seems perfectly acceptable in-universe and nobody even mentions homophobia. And there’s a pair of characters that for all extents and purposes looks like a gay couple for half of the game its just like a footnote that one of them is female in real life. So like I don’t know if this was someone being overly careful to censor stuff while still hinting at it, or like if it was never intended to look LGBT and it was all a weird accident?? But anyway thats why it made me go WTF THERE WOULD BE SO MUCH POTENTIAL IN AN LGBT MMO ROMANCE and hey here we go!

THE IDEA TIME what if there was an anime about someone who plays a (presumed) cis dude in an mmo who is actually a trans dude irl? so you could have the same plots about keeping a secret and having a big difference between real and internet personas, but also it could be a wish fullfillment persona and the plot could be less about ‘i’m lying about myself’ and more about ‘the only place i can be the real me is online’. And how sad that is and then how triumphant it could be at the end to be able to be himself in the real world too! and also like... its already coincidental enough that two people would fall in love in an mmo and then end up to be living in the same neighbourhood in real life. so if this anime has me have to believe that silliness, its not too silly to say that two trans people could bump into each other in an mmo! have a trans man and a trans woman who meet as their online personas without knowing either of them is trans, and then their adventures online forming their relationship, learning about each othr, and like meeting a bunch of other LGBT players and forming a guild to fight discrimination in the mmo community?

Also it could be interesting to maybe combine this with the ‘trapped in an mmo world’ genre? Like it’d be extra cool to be a trans dude who’s like.. one of the only people who doesnt want to escape the MMO world. And people could think he’s just a childish jerk who’s addicted to the fantasy life, not knowing about his secret reason he loves this new life. So maybe his personality could be a very ordinary and cute looking dude whose personality is like.. absolutely fearless monster battle man! Like everyone else’s mmo avatars are all super idealized cliche buff and hot people and his is just as close as he could get to his real self but post transition. So he’s five foot tall and chubby and has big ol soulful dragon ball Z krillin eyes and then his job class is something unfitting like gladiator or barbarian with an axe twice his body size! And then in retrospect that’s the most cliche masculine class so maybe the female lead could be a not cliche feminine class, so it doesnt seem like I’m making any statement? cos ‘youre not trans if you dont act stereotypically your gender’ is a real issue within the community, sadly. Oh! Maybe! Maybe theyre both buff classes! But like he could be a tank type that protects his allies and she’s just a regular warrior with no extra functionality. Or another DPS class like thief or black mage? But I like the idea of two very shy and adorable people who both prefer buffness, and then having kind of a badass hero role amoungst their guild and the plot itself. Like, winning the actual battles against bosses is less of a challenge than conquering their various real life worries and being emotionally ready to return home at the end of the journey. Its like a slice of life hiding as an action show! Except you still do see action, its just all comparatively effortless like one punch man. Oh and maybe while male lead made his avatar look just like himself but post transition, female lead’s avatar is kind of an exaggerated ideal stereotypical female thing? Because she’s self concious about being very tall and not very curvy and stuff, even post transition. And like she’s angsting about being forced into further cosmetic plastic surgery that she doesn’t really want, to get a body that she doesn’t really want, but feels like she HAS to have. Like maybe she has some sort of friend in real life who’s like a Fedora Wearing Fake Nice Guy who keeps trying to get her to give in and date him like ‘you’ll never get anyone else’, and trying to make her change herself. Negging champion of utter hateability!

And then female lead could be kind of a mentor role to male lead because she’s post transition, and motivates him to believe that someday he’ll be able to transition too and he doesn’t need to stay trapped forever in a fake world in order to be himself. And he could also be the same mentor role to her because he’s like... happy? Well, obviously he isn’t 100% happy because that’s his whole problem, but he doesn’t have the same social anxiety issues and he’s more confident in his anxiety without worrying that he’s wrong and he really is a girl, etc etc. Like he’s at peace with being trans and his obstacle is just feeling like he’ll never pass successfully without surgery, and never be able to get that surgery. It took him ages to even get on HRT, possibly because of something like being trapped in an abusive family that didnt aknowledge his gender? or possibly just because of being in a country where he’d need a lot of money to get the treatment he needs, or because of struggling to find a good doctor? So anyway now he’s just started HRT and he expected everything to be okay now, but he’s getting frustrated how long it’s taking to have the amount of visual change he needs to be respected by his coworkers and stuff, and now he’s had some sort of other money emergency and he may not be able to get top surgery in the end. So at the time of starting this MMO he was really un-optimistic about his future and looking for an escape. And she was looking for a similar escape because she didnt have any support group while transitioning, and had got trapped into an abusive relationship with this other dude that was making her feel like a fake woman who’d never be loved by anyone except him. So she was considering giving in and falling into his trap, and that’s her reason to be terrified of going back to the real world... And so they both are all OH MY GOD YOURE SO AMAZING I’M SO TRASH about each other, and they help teach each other two different aspects of self love that they were missing, and they make a bunch of other friends in the LGBT community, and generally find the love and support they always needed! And then in the end they could go back to the real world and move in together and slap negging man in the face, and keep in touch with all the other guildmates and create a better community for all queer folks playing this game! Woo! And also maybe the final scene could be like ‘wow we havent seen you guys for ages’ ‘yeah we were so busy with the wedding, we couldnt play!’ and then the guild’s wedding gift to them was saving up for a rare ingame item that lets you re-customize your character, and female lead makes one that looks closer to her real life appearance cos now she’s happy with herself! and then we pan out and see that male lead now also looks totally identical to his ingame self, and he did manage to transition in the end! ...and then i dunno, cliche anime everyone looks at the camera and jumps and the theme tune plays, lol

#blunni thoughts #also this reminds me of a manga i read once where the plot was like 'dude dissappears every month i bet he's a werewolf' #and then it turns out he's 'really a girl' or whatever and i just felt sad that he wasnt a trans man #and instead we had ANOTHER anime plot about someone forced to crossdress against their will for contrived reasons #like seriously why do people love plots about transition drama only as long as nobody is trans...