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(B) what’s keeping you from going after Colette?

colette. i know how important her dad is to her and i’m not going to compete with that because i think it’d be selfish of me to force her to choose between us. i want colette right now and all the time, but i want us to be together when she feels like she can have me in all the ways she wants. without the restrictions, the hiding, having to worry about what her father and his supporters might think, etc. i don’t want our relationship to be something that colette has to stress over or feel the need to worry about. her life is already stressful as it is and i’d rather wait for her to be ready and comfortable than force her into a situation that she’s not ready for at the moment. 

#every question ive gotten for beryl is colette related n i love it #Anonymous

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(ruby) would you destroy eli's career to save stellas?

absolutely not. i hate elijah and i don’t even think he deserves a career, but i wouldn’t destroy it to save stella’s. unless it was under circumstances where stella’s career was only dying because of elijah throwing her under the bus to save himself, then i absolutely will. 

#idk if i understood this question im so sorry #Anonymous

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(silvia) why did you just give up easily on a club you worked so hard for?

my speech was cut off and unsurprisingly, the blackmailer only showed the parts that they wanted to show. if my full speech was actually shown, then it would’ve been known that i only left because i felt like it was the best thing to do for the organization. with all the information being publicized about me, the organization would’ve been torn down further by the media and i thought it was best to resign before the media was putting my head on a chopping block for staying. i didn’t "give up,” i just thought the best thing for the club was to leave. 

#Anonymous

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Put ☎ in my ask for your muses info in my muses phone:

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#what jen said :O)

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(B) do you care to fix your family life with Elijah?

honestly, i don’t think elijah wants anything to do with me and i understand his anger. i think we were both fine before we met each other and maybe we need to go back to that. plus, the family relationships in this organization aren’t even close to healthy so i doubt we’d make it out as one of the “healthy” siblings, anyways

#Anonymous

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(Silvia) why was it so easy to lose sofia?

losing sofia was not an easy thing to do. i just think i’m really good at showing my feelings how i want them to appear and i can thank my mom for that ability.  i think if anything, it was “easy” to lose sofia because if we were gonna break, then i at least wanted to be the one in control of the situation, in control of my own downfall. i had my life turned upside down so suddenly and i felt like i had no control of how my life was. my life was good and safe, but it was fabricated and sheltered. if i lost sofia under circumstances that were out of my control it would’ve killed me and although this is so selfish and unfair to sofia, i’d rather be the cause of my own downfall than to have another thing done for me. at least with this one it was on my own terms. selfish, but yea. 

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i will get to these :)

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“ no , it’s not fucking true . i was scared , okay ? like any normal person would be . i was scared and i didn’t have any money in my account or any rich friends to bail me out like you do . so , yeah . i ran and i left you . and now , all i can do is apologize and apologize again and again and again . but i’m not sure how get through to you and let you know how bad i feel about this whole thing ,  ” violet barked , hands thrown up in a mixture of defeat and frustration . the girl could see her breath in front of her as she huffed out an angry breath of air , eyes now fixed on the distant mountaintop they were traveling towards . “ it’s hard to believe i’m not a terrible person ? really ? does nothing else about our friendship before that stand out to you ? it’s really not fair at all to judge my entire character by the one , insane time that i didn’t measure up to your impossible standard of loyalty , beryl . and quite frankly , if you are willing to drop our entire friendship over that , then i’m not sure how committed to this ‘ team ’ you were in the first place , ” she ranted , lips turned down into a frown . violet sat in silence for a moment , wishing she could safely throw herself from this seat and be done with the whole situation . but she wasn’t so lucky . “ i just wish the whole fuckin’ thing never happened , ” she mumbled , breaking her momentary silence . 

“like i do? are you fucking kidding me? what fucking rich friends did i have to bail me out?” she yelled back. beryl had money in her account, but having to bail herself out drained most of it. she drained men’s bank accounts for a living, but she limited it to once a month or every other month depending on how much she made the last time because she hated going on those “dates” to begin with. she did it for survival, not for pleasure. the money was nice, but having to sit there during the dates and act like a doll to cater to the men’s ego felt degrading. she had them wrapped around her finger, but it felt disgusting knowing these old, grown men were chasing after girls who were only 19-21 years old. having to bail herself out caused beryl to lose most of the money she had saved.

“your apologies mean nothing to me because you ran. you just ran. i don’t even think you turned around and even considered me. you just fucking ran.” she said, no longer yelling but her tone still conveying anger. “this was the most important time for loyalty, violet! it wasn’t just some fucking child shit! it’s on my fucking record, violet! i was fucking spotless until you pulled me into that shit! i was only apart of it to help you and you fucked me over. my standard of loyalty isn’t impossible, all i fucking ask is that you simply be loyal and you couldn’t even do that.” she shook her head, glaring. “and don’t fucking talk to me about my commitment to whatever fucking ‘team’ we had. i was fucking there, i was fucked over, and you did fucking nothing. i thought if one of us were gonna fall, we’d both go down together but you just fucking ran. we were supposed to be a team and you literally only thought about yourself the minute you left me.” she huffed. silvia thought the fight was over when violet didn’t say anything else, but she should’ve known better. “me, too. if it never happened, then maybe we’d still be friends. all i wanted from you was to fucking be there for me and you didn’t and that’s why i’m so angry at you. all i asked was for you to be simply loyal and to have my back and you didn’t. if the roles were reversed, then i would’ve stayed with you and we would’ve dealt with it together. i never would’ve fucking left you and i wish you would’ve had the same mentality.”

#THIS IS NOT AS LONG AS IT LOOKS OK #ₓₒ⋆:°* the wind itself becoming her own wild whisper — DIALOGUE⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. violet — INTERACTIONS & BERYL⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. violet — 01⌋

[ghoestys]

@suzyoon: do fish kno theyre wet or is their feeling of dry our feeling of wet @suzyoon: like has anyone told the fishes that theyre in water do they kno  @suzyoon: what if they dont kno 

#generic starter for now until i do the specific ones even tho i said id do those days ago :) #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ and everyone else is now a mile down the road — SOCIAL MEDIA⌋ #starter

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ruby o. im, member of the yale’s elite

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ she puts angels to shame — ISMS⌋

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ looked like milk and honey would flow out of her — GRAPHICS⌋

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ i could swear i heard our souls whisper ever so quietly — DIALOGUE⌋

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ a little taste of heaven — IMESSAGE⌋

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ a glimpse of bliss — PHONE CALL⌋

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ soft like spring flowers and sunsets — SOCIAL MEDIA⌋

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ her hands are soft and her eyes shine in the sun — VISUAL⌋

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ bet she has flowers growing between her ribs — MEME⌋

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ ft. name — INTERACTIONS &  RUBY⌋

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ ft. name — DYNAMICS & RUBY⌋

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ ft. name — MEMES & RUBY⌋

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ ft. name — 00⌋

#⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ she puts angels to shame — ISMS⌋ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ looked like milk and honey would flow out of her — GRAPHICS⌋ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ i could swear i heard our souls whisper ever so quietly — DIALOGUE⌋ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ a little taste of heaven — IMESSAGE⌋ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ a glimpse of bliss — PHONE CALL⌋ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ soft like spring flowers and sunsets — SOCIAL MEDIA⌋ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ her hands are soft and her eyes shine in the sun — VISUAL⌋ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ bet she has flowers growing between her ribs — MEME⌋ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ ft. name — INTERACTIONS & RUBY⌋ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ ft. name — DYNAMICS & RUBY⌋ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ ft. name — MEMES & RUBY⌋ #⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ ft. name — 00⌋ #td

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suzy n. yoon, member of the yale’s elite 

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ theres a universe inside your head — ISMS⌋

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ she’s a bit up in the clouds — GRAPHICS⌋

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ in the clouds where the angels sing — DIALOGUE⌋

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ and yet it was all we could think about — IMESSAGE⌋

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ its starting to fog up my clarity — PHONE CALL⌋

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ and everyone else is now a mile down the road — SOCIAL MEDIA⌋

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ her foot was light and her eyes were wild — VISUAL⌋

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ it made her feel small but free as well — MEME⌋

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ ft. name — INTERACTIONS & SUZY⌋

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ ft. name — DYNAMICS & SUZY⌋

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ ft. name — MEMES & SUZY⌋

‧⁺˚*･༓☾ ft. name — 00⌋

#‧⁺˚*･༓☾ theres a universe inside your head — ISMS⌋ #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ she’s a bit up in the clouds — GRAPHICS⌋ #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ in the clouds where the angels sing — DIALOGUE⌋ #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ and yet it was all we could think about — IMESSAGE⌋ #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ its starting to fog up my clarity — PHONE CALL⌋ #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ and everyone else is now a mile down the road — SOCIAL MEDIA⌋ #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ her foot was light and her eyes were wild — VISUAL⌋ #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ it made her feel small but free as well — MEME⌋ #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ ft. name — INTERACTIONS & SUZY⌋ #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ ft. name — DYNAMICS & SUZY⌋ #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ ft. name — MEMES & SUZY⌋ #‧⁺˚*･༓☾ ft. name — 00⌋ #td

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✧*:･ﾟTHE JUNGS — task #2⌋

the jungs started out as world renowned physicians who would later take over the medical world through not only their medical advances as doctors themselves, but also by owning one of the best chain of hospitals the world had to offer. in the medical world, the jung family are highly respected and acclaimed. their hospitals offer the best level of care and perform their own research that help in finding the latest medical advances. due to their high status in the medical world, they’re also known globally for their philanthropy and hospitality. the family is very public, their moves and decisions are always being praised or criticized.

the dynamic of the jung family can be extremely turbulent. depending on who is talking about the family, their dynamic can sound very different. if you’re asking richard, then the dynamic is loving, yet confusing. if you’re asking elizabeth, then the dynamic is close enough to be considered perfect. if you’re asking sebastian, then the dynamic is selective and broken. if you’re asking silvia, then she wouldn’t even be able to tell you what the dynamic is because she doesn’t know anymore.

RICHARD JUNG, father

genuine, loving, and compassionate. richard was elizabeth’s husband, the father of the twins, and was a twin himself before jeremy died. out of everyone in the jung family, richard was the kindest and healthiest. he was a good husband, a good father, and a good twin. he loved being a physician and took a lot of pride knowing that he was helping make the world a better, healthier place for everyone. he was a true philanthropist, all he ever wanted to do was help everyone around him. he was genuine with his intention with various people being able to vouch that there is no mean bone in his body. after richard’s twin was killed by his wife, richard couldn’t handle the grief that resulted from it. richard saw jeremy as his other half and by having jeremy taken away from him by someone else he loved broke him entirely. to deal with the grief, richard disappeared and the only jung who has seen him since is silvia.  

silvia had a genuinely healthy and loving dynamic with her father. although silvia didn’t share the same bond their father had with sebastian, they still held a close father/daughter relationship. she looked up to him for everything good and true. her desire to help others and to become a physician and study medical engineering to discover medical advances stemmed from wanting to be like her father. growing up, silvia saw how loved and respected her father was and she wanted to be viewed the same exact way when she grew up. she worked hard all throughout high school and was known for being friendly and helpful because of how much she wanted to be like her father and follow in his footsteps. from attending yale to becoming the elite’s president, silvia has always wanted to follow in her father’s footsteps.

ELIZABETH JUNG, mother

conniving, cruel, and intentional. elizabeth determines how you view and know her. she’s the queen of manipulation and wearing masks. she can either be loving and kind or cruel and ruthless. how you know her depends on how she views you. if you’re worth something, then you see her “good” side and if you’re worth nothing, then you see her true side. elizabeth has always been a power hungry individual. although she claims to have married richard for love, a big part of the reason why she truly wanted to marry richard was because of the power she saw in him. she knew richard and his twin were going to change the world and become powerful and elizabeth desperately wanted to be apart of that. when she married richard and the jungs became world renowned physicans, elizabeth felt like she hit the jackpot. she loves power and everything that comes with it. she loves the forced respect, the luxury, the privilege, everything. elizabeth is a smart business woman who mostly handled the business part of the hospital. when she realized that her family could have more money by removing jeremy, she did not hesitate to do it. again, elizabeth is power hungry and will do whatever it takes to make it out on top. she will hurt, betray, lie, intimidate, and anything else to make sure she’s always the most powerful person in the room.

before everything, silvia loved her mother just as much as she loved her father. the mom has always been considered to be the “tougher” one of the two, but silvia always experienced the loving side of her mother instead of the cruel side that sebastian experienced. growing up, it was unknown to silvia that she was her mother’s favorite. again, elizabeth chooses how she wants you to view her and for silvia, elizabeth only ever wanted to be seen as the most loving mother possible. to silvia, elizabeth was the most loving mother and they had a good relationship. they’d go shopping, have mother/daughter dates, etc. silvia didn’t look up to her mom the same way she looked up to her dad, but silvia got qualities from her mom that she didn’t realize she had until recently. after finding out the truth of how her mother really is and what she did to uncle jeremy, silvia can’t look at her mother the same way anymore. a part of her is angry and disgusted by her mother, but the other part of her doesn’t know how to let go of her mother. she disapproves of who her mother is and can’t comprehend why her mother would do such an awful thing, but at the same time silvia can’t fully separate from her mother because of the relationship silvia thought she shared with her growing up.  

SEBASTIAN JUNG, twin brother

although it’s common for twins to skip a generation, every jung generation has had a set of twins that have made an impact in some way or another. maybe it was positive or maybe it was negative, but there was always something significant about being a twin in the long line of jungs.

growing up, silvia and sebastian were best friends and are opposite ends of the same magnet. since they are polar opposites, silvia never felt like she had to compete with her twin or had to drastically separate herself from sebastian to be considered her own person. sebastian is the older twin and has always been more protective of silvia. silvia has always been viewed and treated as the baby of the family that everyone tried to protect from everything. she grew up happily, but that was due to being heavily kept in the dark and at the expense of sebastian who obviously didn’t grow up with the same emotional luxury. as we all now have seen, the twins are obviously not the same and their relationship has turned upside down. before they were a power duo who were a force to be reckoned with, but now they’re too busy fighting each other to properly take care of each other. all sebastian wanted to do was protect her, but silvia didn’t see his protection as something that was productive or remotely helpful. he treated silvia like she was a glass doll and she grew up to essentially not know how to protect herself because everything was done for her. it was thoughtful and done with good intentions, but it obviously didn’t work out.

THUMPER & FLOWER, pets

silvia has two dogs! her first pet is thumper who is a male golden retriever she got when she was young and is the brother to sebastian’s dog bambi. unlike how silvia is usually calm and collected, thumper is more mischievous and tires themself out easily. he’s a very active dog and silvia loves taking him out on long walks and hikes. he’s very talkative and loves communicating with silvia. she got him buttons to push so he can talk to her and now she hears “treat” and “outside” 20x a day. flower is silvia’s second dog who is another male and currently a puppy. she recently adopted him at a shelter in new zealand and he’s a lot calmer than thumper. silvia decided to name him flower to match thumper & bambi. thumper is older than flower, but flower acts more like an old man than thumper. flower just wants to cuddle and rest, but thumper is the one constantly trying to get him to do something. while thumper is fond of walks and hikes, flower prefers to be held. flower is still learning to use the buttons, but so far the only one flower has utilized is “sleepy”.

#elitetasks002

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orion’s arms were on fire, to say the least, with the food she requested - double the lobster. orion is staring at the other through the crack in the door but she masked her annoyance and only forced a smile to her face, this wasn’t about her anyway. “yes, i have all of it. beryl i can’t show you the crown when my arms full with food you asked for, i’ll just drop it. let me come inside and set it down and we can talk, also ask sofia she was with me picking out the stuff!” orion’s frantic, almost sounding desperate as she wants her friend back more than wanting the food off her hands, “beryl, i won’t go hulk - we just need to talk and i brought food,” she slowly raises her arms.

debating for just a little longer, beryl looked at orion up and down once more. “your tone just now did not sound very inviting. it sounded sarcastic and i am not here for sarcasm, miss kahn.” beryl scolded, but she wasn’t actually mad or upset about orion’s “tone”. she simply just wanted to mess with her a little more before opening the door. beryl didn’t get to see orion grovel often and right now she was milking the situation for as long as she could. “i’ll let you in. i’ll invite you in but remember no going hulk or i’ll be eating this food by myself without hearing whatever apology you have prepared.” she reminded one more time before opening the door and stepping aside. “we can go to my room because i’ve already set up my small coffee table for us to eat on. i have water ready for us, but you can get soda from the fridge if you’re wanting something bubbly.” assuming the other would follow while she talked, beryl went to her room and sat on the floor while she waited for orion to set out the highly  anticipated seafood. 

#ₓₒ⋆:°* the wind itself becoming her own wild whisper — DIALOGUE⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. orion — 02⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. orion — INTERACTIONS & BERYL⌋

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♢  ▪ ┊ ( BERRY BER )

orion: robbing is immoral but snapping necks is forever i never said i wouldnt do bad shit

orion: ok but robbing u have bitches laughing at you ok? but when u MURDER someone, no one will mess with you like? no ones going to come 5 feet near u and tbh thats what i want

orion: like boohoo u stole someone can like push u into the ocean but snapping someones neck? eh

orion: no im fine i dont need an intervention, my mom gave me one at 16 and ive been fine since i think

orion: im not pee shaming you.. ok maybe i am but like MAYBE DO SOME VAGINAL MUSCLE EXERCISES TO PREVENT THAT??????

orion: my god..

beryl: BITCH HOW IS SNAPPING NECKS NOT IMMORAL UR LITERALLY ENDING A LIFE AND CHOOSING YOURSELF TO END A LIFE? HOW IS THAT NOT IMMORAL? BITCH R U GOOD?

beryl: bitch r u good...like i'll stop asking if ur gonna murder me but like... bitch... r u fucking good... talking about murder n shit for reputation n for people to stay away... im texting fia rn

beryl: i'm legit texting fia ur so concerning i dont think ur mom did an efficient enough job i dont think ur good ri

beryl: WHAT THE FUCK IS VAGINAL MUSCLE EXERCISES THATS NOT A REAL THING STOP MAKING THINGS UP!!! THIS IS SENSITIVE!!!!

beryl: wait.... is that a legit thing like

beryl: does that shit work

#ₓₒ⋆:°* no one will ever write a poem for her — IMESSAGE⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. orion — 01⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. orion — INTERACTIONS & BERYL⌋

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violet’s eyebrows dipped into a deep , angry furrow as she glared back at the other . the girl wasn’t normally one to get angry like this , but there was nothing that hurt quite like having her character questioned . “ that isn’t fucking true , beryl . i know that what happened was shitty and i know that i could have handled it better and i’m fucking sorry , okay ? there’s nothing i can do about it now , ” she snapped , turning away from beryl so the other would hopefully miss the tears burning at the edges of her eyes . violet cursed herself for the tears that followed nearly every passionate feeling she had . her gloved hand came up to wipe furiously at the wetness there before the tears could roll down her cheeks . despite this display of emotions , violet turned to beryl with a newfound grit . “ i’m not a terrible person like you seem to think i am . i know you have this perception of me and my moral compass , but you are wrong , beryl . this one shitty thing that i did to you doesn’t mean i’m the most fake , conniving , backstabbing bitch alive . whether you believe it or not . ”

“are you sure it isn’t fucking true, violet? because based on your past actions i don’t think i’ve said anything false. you could’ve handled it better, but you fucking ran and left me to deal with the consequences by myself. there is nothing you can do it about now, but there was a lot you could’ve fucking done before.” beryl bit back. if there was one trait beryl valued more than anything it was loyalty. she understood faking it around others to manipulate the situation- it was what beryl did to maintain a steady income, but she couldn’t stand when others who you thought were genuinely loyal to you ended up losing that sense of loyalty for whatever reason. beryl would do it all for her friends, but she hated when her friends didn’t share the same mindset. “it’s hard to believe you’re not a terrible person when you haven’t given me a reason to believe otherwise. you only did one thing, but it was one thing that meant everything. you just left and you let me take the fall. what the fuck was that, violet? what happened to being a team and having each other’s back? where the fuck were you?”

#ₓₒ⋆:°* the wind itself becoming her own wild whisper — DIALOGUE⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. violet — 01⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. violet — INTERACTIONS & BERYL⌋ #ok now im ready for THIS fight

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god , he wanted this to be over . for her to just stop talking , yelling , even being near him so he could go back to simply ignoring the very fact he had family for the time being . but she made it impossible . everything beryl was saying to him was meant to be cutting , to hurt him , & maybe it would work if they weren’t trying to play the same game . ‘ yeah , actually . thanks for clearing that up - appreciate it , sis . ‘ the smile which forms on his person is far from kind - rather , cold & uncaring as he takes another step towards her . this could have been so different , he knows that , if they would just sit down & have a civil conversation . but it was so obvious that some part of the both of them was cut from the same cloth . unrelenting in their need to be right & hurt the other without reprieve . his head tilts to the side , jaw clenching with every passing statement she throws at him . ‘ then he’s dead , ‘ elijah repeats , he deadpans for a moment , shaking his head as an almost harsh laugh forces itself through his chest . ‘ he’s dead to you ? why the fuck do you think i knew him either ? i don’t remember him , beryl . i literally watch one of his old movies & he’s a stranger to me . so congrats , i guess we agree on something . ‘

he can feel his breath quicken , shoulders tense , with every comparison she drew between someone he didn’t even know . about how she brought in personal relationships that she didn’t even know the full details of . whatever composure he was trying to hold onto , maintain throughout this entire conversation , basically confirmed itself to be gone . ‘ is your head so far up your fucking ass that you seriously are blindly defending your best friend right now ? sofia ruined our relationship first , not me . sofia cheated first , not me . she fucked someone else while she was with me first , not me . if you really want to play this fucked up game of who is the least loyal , look into your own friends first & leave me the fuck alone . i messed up with orion , so yeah , call me an asshole for that , but you have no right to bring sofia into my own issues with loyalty when she is no better than i am . ‘ he has to pause , take a moment before continuing . elijah can feel his thoughts jumble , nothing about this was making sense , but he also refused to stop . ‘ you love to compare me to someone who is dead to you , don’t you ? someone who you don’t know shit about ? i honestly could not give less of a fuck if you were right or not , i don’t want you as a sister . i never have . you can get the fuck out , i’m done . ‘

“you knew him. you got to have some time with him. maybe he wasn’t around your entire life, but you knew him to also have a perception of him in your head. in mine, he’s a piece of shit sperm donor and in yours, he’s your dad that you probably loved and still miss. you didn’t know him deeply or probably even genuinely, but you knew him.” beryl didn’t know the entire story, but she couldn’t believe him when he said he didn’t know their father either. elijah had sometime with him that beryl wasn’t given the luxury to have. elijah may not remember him, but elijah got to experience what it was like to have a dad even if it was for a limited amount of time. “what the fuck do you mean i’m blindly defending my best friend? did i fucking say that sofia was loyal and faithful to you? your justification for cheating on sofia is because she did it first. she was the first one to do it. she was the who ruined your relationship first. you keep fucking turning it on her and it’s fucking hypocritical. you pulled the same fucking shit on her. she cheated on you first and you suddenly thought that since she did it, then you could, too. i’m not fucking playing a game of who is least loyal, it’s about how you plainly lack loyalty. she’s no better than you, but i also didn’t see you being loyal to her back. you could’ve proved me wrong by doing the opposite of what she had done, but you didn’t.” when she first came over, she didn’t know what to expect but it definitely wasn’t this. she knew after tonight that they wouldn’t magically be ok, but she didn’t expect things to be worse than how they started. “i don’t want you as a brother so that’s another thing we can add to the list of things we agree on. it was pathetic and childish of me to think i wanted you as a brother to begin with. i was fucking naive to think you’d be a good one, anyways. after meeting you because of yale, i quickly realized that any positive hope i had for you was simply childish wishes.” beryl said lastly before walking out the door. she entered the conversation without a brother and she was finishing without one, too. she didn’t mind, though. after tonight, beryl’s feelings of anger and hatred for elijah only increased.

#ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. elijah — 01⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* the wind itself becoming her own wild whisper — DIALOGUE⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. elijah — INTERACTIONS & BERYL⌋ #ok im done u can reply or u dont have to its up to u

[ghoestys]

‘ you’re a fucking joke , beryl , you know that ? i don’t lie about who i am to everyone i know . but you ? couldn’t say the same thing . ‘ his tone is far softer than it was just moments ago , countering the intentional brashness he presented her with . now , the anger within him is far too settled , raw , for elijah to even care how he came off . it’s the uneasy calmness that’s taken over that makes him far more aware of just how close he is to seemingly getting to the point that would lead to ultimate regret . ‘ oh , is that news to you ? yeah , he’s dead . when we were seven , just poof . dead . maybe you would know that if you actually fucking talked to me , but you know it’s too late for that - ‘ he cuts himself off when she starts to explain , but every part of him was far too inside of his head thinking about what to say to her next ; what he could say to hurt her just as much as she had hurt him . beryl’s explanation could clear this entire thing up , but he still couldn’t bring himself to care enough to listen . not after what she had said to him , not what she had triggered for a petty response of anger which she ultimately got . if she wanted to play , then he would deliver .

‘ the blackmailer said you didn’t want to tell me because you were worried that i wouldn’t want a sister - they were right . ‘ they were wrong , but he would do anything to feel something other than anger against her . he’s wanted a family more than anything since he was a kid - people besides his aunt & uncle that he could confide in , but these were truly not the circumstances that he imagined it to come about . he couldn’t deny the hurt which forced itself into his chest when he heard just how unfaithful his father was ; elijah always imagined his parents as some unstoppable force , as a duo that could never be torn apart . he was so wrong . ‘ my family was healthy ? god , you are a fucking joke . you know nothing about me , my parents , anything , & sit here telling me what i dealt with . i’m sorry that our dad left you , but i’m not him , so either you can grow the fuck up & realize that or get out . i don’t owe you anything , beryl . like i said , they were right . ‘

“fucking tell me about when i’ve lied about who i am to everyone. you think you have this upper fucking hand on me and i’d love to fucking hear whatever the fuck you think it is. you think me not telling anyone about our familial connection was me fucking hiding and lying to everyone about who i am? is that what you’re trying to claim? as if this familial connection even has anything to do with who i am? is that it, elijah?” she was really egging him on, her anger not being anywhere close to vanishing. hearing the truth about their father made beryl want to let go of her anger, to let go of the years of unanswered questions and possible what-ifs that constantly played in her head, but the anger was the only thing protecting her. it was easier to feel anger towards her dad and elijah than to face the reality of it- that maybe things would’ve been different if their father was still alive. would he have reached out eventually? would he have told elijah about her? would beryl and her mom not have had to struggle all those years to stay afloat if their father and elijah decided to help them and be a family to her? “if he’s dead, then he’s dead.” she said coldly, but saying that out loud made her heart start to feel like it was beginning to crumble. “he was dead to me before i even knew him, so it makes the grieving process of actually finding out that he was already dead easier. you can’t mourn a person who was already dead to you from the very beginning, anyways.” she was so angry and for WHAT!

hearing elijah say that the blackmailer was right hurt her more than she thought it would, but she wasn’t about to give elijah the satisfaction. “you think i still fucking care if you want me as a sister? after how you reacted? after this conversation? after learning more about you from a distance? do you think that highly of yourself because of what your fans have told you?” she was still trying to hurt him. “i’m a joke for believing what i did and standing by false beliefs i made up in my head about you and your family, but i don’t fucking care. at the end of the day, i’m glad i never actually tried to know you because again, what i’ve seen so far is such a fucking joke. you have no sense of loyalty and i can see that with how you treated both sofia and orion- especially orion. you claim that you're not dad and maybe you’re not, but this ugly part of your personality has to have come from somewhere. your failure to stay faithful to sofia? that was dad. your failure to protect loved ones and to tell them the truth like how you did with orion? also dad. you don’t owe me anything and i don’t fucking care if the blackmailer was right. i was fucking right not to bother claiming you as my brother from the very beginning. you’re a fucking joke, elijah. and maybe dad wasn’t present in your life, but you truly took after him whether or not you realized it. fucking cheers, brother.”

#ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. elijah — 01⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* ft. elijah — INTERACTIONS & BERYL⌋ #ₓₒ⋆:°* the wind itself becoming her own wild whisper — DIALOGUE⌋ #if u see this im not bubble rping i just had thots n i love fighting