#queer platonic relationships for the win amiright

[thebeautifulfantastic]

hmmm lots of thoughts about romance and friendship and love tonight. like maybe my best friendship of seven years growing distant and making me realize i love her in a different way from how she loves me had to happen to teach me to let go and focus on internet friends who care about me enough to want to shoulder our burdens together. maybe shit had to hit the fan with The Boy and eliminate any chance of romance and maybe i had to struggle through a couple weeks of heartache and confusion to realize that maybe he wasn’t someone who would have made me happy in that way anyway, and maybe my love for him was never like That. maybe it took the ‘questioning my sexuality’ crisis that followed to make me realize that i don’t need a romantic relationship, maybe ever, because the lines have always been blurry for me anyway and all i really want is not to date, but have A Special Person, to be loved and known deeply. maybe i had to be painfully lonely for a while to realize what will truly make me Not Lonely. romantic and platonic labels be damned, it’s all just Love to me.

#maybe all things happen for a reason and there is a season for everything!!! revolutionary concept i know (was written in the Bible thousand #of years ago) #but also. questioning my sexuality SUCKS especially because i’ve already gone through so much work to accept myself and figure myself out #and i’m such a romantic at heart that considering that i might not really experience romantic attraction or be able to tell it apart from #platonic was hard to grapple with #i think i’m… quoiromantic? and bi-oriented and somewhere on the aroace spectrum? #i swear every time i re-evaluate my sexuality i come out more aroace than before #but i think i’m okay now! i have my dear friends and whatever happens happens! marriage has never been appealing to me #i’ve always just wanted a partner and to be someone’s Most Important Person #and i’m choosing to believe i will find that in my platonic relationships which are love stories in their own right #queer platonic relationships for the win amiright #belle speaks #stories of my life