#psyppy ventilations

[xxpsychopartypuppyxx]

hate people who act like they know everything and everyone

like bro just admit you're wrong in that everybody has different experiences, motivations and opinions therefore you near CAN'T be right about people as a whole without knowing each and every individual on this goddamn planet

stupid dumdum

#psyppy ventilations #ppl invalidating queer people because they think we're insecure in our identities is insane #like hello just letting you know ppl dont HAVE to identify as queer if it's not right for them #just admit you're transphobic and entitled and grow up #people can experiment it really is not that deep

[xxpsychopartypuppyxx]

ewww I just saw someone sexualising nepeta

#gross #psyppy chats shit #psyppy ventilations #??? i guess

[xxpsychopartypuppyxx]

for some fucking reason I can't read smut without getting triggered right now

this is absurd

#psyppy ventilations

[xxpsychopartypuppyxx]

the amount of times I felt unappreciated but I learned to write it off as them just "being how they are" is insane

feels like even when I brought up those issues it didn't make a difference because they didn't want to make a difference

I tried my best to be a good lover and I've tried my best to be a good friend

I've even checked in two days since and it doesn't really seem to matter to them as much as it would matter to me

but then again, I suppose when something is a rarity it becomes more important to you

I was never busy, I was almost always there

maybe that's why i didn't feel like I mattered

I wonder if they knew how hard it was for me to stay away

I wonder if they knew how much it hurt to feel like I was a burden when I'd ramble about things I enioyed

they never really tried to reassure me much

I'd apologise for rambling so frequently because I was so used to them just dropping off the face of the earth if I didn't divert the subject or say sorry

and all they'd really say to it was "it's okay" or "it's okay, really"

I never remember them explicitly saying they enjoyed when I did it and even if they did, it was probably only once or twice

I've said that sort of thing many times to them

"I enjoy hearing you talk about things you love"

I wonder why it felt like that same love was never really reciprocated

I wonder if I'll ever know if they really loved or love me back

like seriously they probably hid shit from me and would never tell me

I mean I KNOW they hid some things from me, there were things they took like over half a year to tell me

important things

I don't know if I should ever trust that they'd be honest about their feelings, and I don't know if I should trust them when they say they "don't know how they feel"

do you not know, or are you a liar?

when you said you wouldn't lie if you said you promised, you were lying to me

so why should I ever have trusted you? you never gave me any reason to

I've always been the type to try to look at the good sides of people if I love them

but I'm not quite sure if I love you or if I've just become so attached to you that you're all I know and all I want

but honestly I don't even know if i want you anymore

#psyppy ventilations #you hurt me so much and made me feel ways nobody else has #in positive and negative fashions

[xxpsychopartypuppyxx]

I bet I'm just a piece of meat to you

you act like I've never done anything nice for you

though almost everything I did was for you

or for us

you act like I don't have emotions

or maybe you just can't understand them

or what they do to me

so I must be a piece of meat to you

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