#problemnyatic rambles

[problemnyatic]

maybe internet leftism would be more effective if so much of it wasn't framed in this sneering, shame-on-you language that seems mote intent on guilting people for not being leftist enough than actually extending an understanding hand to people who people who, believe it or not, do actually realize that something is deeply wrong with society despite not being Properly Enlightened And Educated on All Of Leftist Theory as to why.

Yeah, we all post the You Are Not Immune To Propaganda jpeg, but do you still have an internal threshold of propaganda exposure by which others stop being human to you? Do you write off anyone who doesn't already understand the things you do as stupid? Do you understand that to create a genuinely far-reaching movement, you need to be willing to reach people that are substantially different than you and meet them on their level?

Yeah you believe everyone deserves human rights, but do you actually respect the differences in life experince you'll face when engaging with people outside your circle of theory-reading leftists?

And just to be excruciatingly clear: none of these are rhetorical questions. None of these are accusations, and if your response to these questions is to get defensive rather than to self-reflect on whether your practices reflect your principles, I urge you to then ask yourself if your desire to create effective change is being impeded by your apparent need to feel like a "good leftist".

I really, really get feeling frustrated with the world, with how fucking many people seem content to just buy propaganda, with how frustrating and exhausting it is to walk people through the baby steps of what feels like having a very basic grasp of reality. Your outrage is justified and your feelings are very real and deserve to be respected. I'm not here to tone police people expressing their very real anger and grief at the horrible ways global imperialism is hurting us all.

My point here is that, when your goal is to actually inspire others to seek further education on leftist matters, to actually increase the total amount of leftism in the world, you need to be asking yourself if the methods you are using are actually effective. It can feel excruciating to be patient when the world is already so on fire, but you can't just shame people into not needing to be met on their level. It demonstrably does not work, and will work against all of us if the impression you're giving others is that leftism is the mean, scary option even to people who genuinely mean well and want to do better.

I see so many posts rightfully trashing on the widespread culture in the US and beyond of teachers and authority figures simply punishishing people who don't know what they're expected to yet, instead of actually teaching them. I see so many posts on here about how it's okay to need to learn life skills you were never taught. Why does this seem to evaporate when it comes to teaching others leftist theory? That's not rhetorical either, please, really, genuinely ask yourself this question, let it sit with you for a long time.

I know how urgent it is to get people to come around. I'm panicking too. I'm angry, and I'm frustrated, and I'm dumbfounded at how long its taking so many folks to get a fucking grip on what's so broken about society. But I understand that the assertion that the answers should be obvious does nothing to change the fact that, to so many people, to enough people, it isn't. That we need to meet them on their level, with kindness, if we're to get them on our side. Leftism starts at home. It starts with your personal relationships, how you treat others when it's inconvenient and difficult.

Leftism starts with kindness.

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Antis really out here putting "proshippers dni" on there spotify playlists like they fuckin own a bunch of songs in a certain order smh my head

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I found a site to make text gifs and i may or may not have,, gotten a bit carried away lol

Honestly if you wanna use them for anything go for it, credit apprieciated but not required

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Guys he said it himself.

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[problemnyatic]

You have to choose love. I'm sorry, I know. I know it hurts. I know you're upset, you deserve to be outraged. Your pain is real and deeply unjust. But you have to. You have to choose love.

There's too much hurt in the world. Too much bitterness. The powerful have built an inconciecable machine that turns all human suffering into unimaginable wealth, and it us hurting all of us. It has taught us to hurt each other.

We can't let it continue. We can't keep lashing out at each other. We can't keep making enemies of our siblings in pain. We have to choose love. We have to.

We have to forgive each other. Not entirely, we don't have to forget our pain, but we have to forgive enough to see each other as more alike than separate. We have to forgive each other for being taught to cause hurt.

I'm not your enemy. You aren't mine. There are people poisoning our planet en masse, killing our mother earth, erasing whole cultures, stripping human rights to keep us disempowered. We can't let ourselves become each other's enemies, even when we hurt each other.

Your pain is real. You deserve better. We all do. But we'll only achieve better if we save our ire for the real bigger fish. We can't keep fighting over the details, we all already agree on the most important part: we deserve better.

Language will always be muddy, we won't all speak the same meaning into the same words. We're gonna step on each other's toes, hurt each other deeply, even when we mean to be gentle. We're going to make mistakes along the way, we'll be misguided. But we have to forgive. We have to choose love.

I know this is preachy, I know this is vague, I know this is corny. I know. I'm just.. scared. I'm terrified. Every day I see so many like-minded people on here who would sooner tell one another to kill themselves than agree to fight for our common causes because of deeply held presumptions of character built on superficial things. I see people declaring anyone who finds joy in the wrong things, the wrong labels, to be as good as an abuser, as the very people who've put the boot on our necks in the first place.

I see so many people see the state of our world, the abysmal status quo, and respond by pouring a deep righteous passion into delineating who of us is a worthy enough aly and who is effectively a walking incarnation of their ideological enemy.

We'll never be able to achieve the unity we need to take our rights back if we're so quick to make teams and choose sides. I know, I know that a lot of these things actually matter, I'm not trying to dismiss the significance of any of these things.

What I'm saying is that, despite these conflicts, we need to swallow our differences and choose to love each other enough to focus not on the ways in which we are divided, but on our unity in oppression. Every LGBT person is threatened by any of us having our rights taken, we are a family. Every internet user, proship, antiship, vanilla, kinky, artist, lurker, all of us are threatened by attacks on privacy, by the advancement of censorship of any kind.

We can sort out our grudges when there's time. But I can't help but think too much is too dire for us to let ourselves choose to fight each other as enemies when we're all in such similar need of better.

We need humility in the face of error. We need to let go of the fear of being wrong, of having believed the wrong things, fought for the wrong causes, of having hurt other people. We need to release our guilt, for no amount of it will ever heal a wound inflicted, reverse an error made. We need to see even our enemies as human, even the worst of us as human. We need to remember that we, and others, can always make a choice.

Everything is so, so goddamn scary. It's hard to know what to believe, and who to trust, and who and what and where is safe. And I think that the answer has to be love. We have to love recklessly, we have to be kind no matter what. We have to trust ourselves to change, to be capable of change, of being accepted for changing, we have to trust each other to mean well, to accept us when we try to improve. We have to give second chances, we have to seek the humanity behind each other's actions, and seek to connect with it.

I love you. I want to make a better world with you. Even if we believe different things, I want your life to be easy. I want food in your fridge, I want joy to be an old friend you can always count on being in your daily life. I want rest for you. I want sleep to come easy, I want you to feel safe. I want you warm in the cold, and cool in the heat. I love you.

#I keep drafting posts like this #I don't know what I want to change or do I just #I want us all to fight less #we have more in common than anything else #we're not separate #we're all just animals who are scared and traumatized #and I think we should be each other's respite #I'm not a fool for loving the monster. I'm not careless for pushing through the cuts and claws #I will hold and hold and show gentleness until it clicks that even if I deserve to show anger #I will still choose to be safe #we all need to feel more safe #I want to add to that #I hope you will too #problemnyatic rambles #probpemnyatic thoughts

[problemnyatic]

Good and bad aren't something you are, they're something you do. If I stab one person, and mend the wounds of another, The person I stabbed is still bleeding regardless of what else I have done or who I am, and the fact that the ther person was tended too will still help them heal.

This is true regardless of why something is done. If I stab someone in self defense, the result is no different than if I stab them because I hate them. Their blood runs all the same. If I save someone's life fo no other reason than being regailed as a hero, their life is still saved, and that still matters.

I challenge you to ask yourself, what does it matter if someone is a "good person" or a "bad person"? Their actions will have the same impact either way, they have the same power over themselves and their environment no matter which they are.

Is someone a "bad person," or do they display a pattern of behaving in ways that hurt others? What use does labelling someone good or bad actually add?

It's a backwards way of thnking, quite literally. Those who hurt others don't do it because they're Bad™, they're bad because they hurt others. And by looking at it this way, you allow yourself to ask why they hurt people- a necessary step if you want to actually address the root of the problem.

This applies to "good people" too. Someone who largely benefits others around them does not do so because they're good, but rather, they're seen as good because they help people. By looking at it this way, you avoid blinding yourself to the possibility that they are also capable of harming others.

This is useful in both cases- when someone "being good" or "being bad" becomes this inherent thing to who they are, we stop ourselves from thinking about the reasoning behind their actions. It means we dn't question it when they behave how we expect, and doubt it when they do something we don't expect. This keeps us from thinking critically about them as full, nuanced people.

By reversing how good and bad are used, we gain far more insight into ourselves, others, and the world around us. Good and bad are not extant forces in the world, they are adjectives that describe whether a given thing is hurting or helping people. They simply become details, and thus leave room for us to examine the actual mechanisms behind something.

It leaves us as people room to simply exist, and for our actions to remain in their scope. If I stab someone, that's still bad. The consequences of that mean others will probably be wary of me in the future, which is reasonable. But if we want to be sure I don't do it again, you have to ask why I stabbed them, you need to know what caused that behavior, and then address it in specific. It's still bad, but that isn't nearly as important as, say, making sure the victim is tended to, and investigating the cause of the behavior.

Following this line of thought, it starts to become apparent that punishment as a whole is generally an ineffective response to people causing harm. It is a response to the fact that harm was caused, but it does not ask why, and is therefore unable to actually interrogate or address the cause of the harmful behavior.

The idea of punishment is to deter someone from repeating bad behaviors, but notably has a glaring hole in it as a form of harm prevention: it doesn't actually address the behavior itself- it is a response to the badness of what was done, rather than the act itself.

If punishment is the response to doing a bad thing, then removing goodness and badness from our worldview leaves us without it as a one-size-fits-all response to "bad behavior", and we are forced to reckon with the far more nuanced, but much more useful of the particular instance of harm done- why did this happen? What motivated it? How do we address the root cause so that something like this does not happen again in the future, either by the same person or with someone else?

It is also worth noting that "good" and "bad" are necessarily relative. If I stab someone in self defense, that is good for me, because I am no longer in danger. But it is still bad for the attacker, whether or not they "had it coming."

This relativity allows us to see situations with more nuance. Say, someone is coming onto me, and i feel threatened. I punch them in self defense, and get away. One might say "oh, they were a bad person for coming onto you like that and making you feel unsafe." But what if I was mistaken? What if I had unexamnined biases and, while I genuinely felt threatened, this person was simply trying to be friendly, and genuinely didn't know I was uncomfortable? In this case, one might peg me as the "bad person" and the other as a victim of unjust violence, due to my misunderstanding their intent.

But see how focusing so much on who is the good guy and who is the bad guy here takes away from our ability to critically analyze the situation? If our approach to things is to try to put them in a box, or on a spectrum of "good" or "bad", we become preoccupied with details that have nothing to do with either addressing the harm caused or preventing it from happening again; it's no more useful than trying to categorize the actions and people as red or blue, bouba or kiki, round or square. They still happened, and the consequenses are the same, and the realities of why they happened will still exist whether or not we aprove or dissaprove of anything involved.

This is why I don't believe in "good people" and "bad people," anyone at any time can do something that is good for one party at the expense of another. Basing our morals around this ambiguous idea of "doing good" and avoiding or punishing "bad stuff" necessarily flattens the way we see the world. The idea of being a good or bad person is a preoccupation with how you are percieved, by yourself and/or others. Ask instead whether what you are doing is helping others express autonomy over there own lives and bodies, whether you're helping others live how they want to, whether you're hurting people and how best to heal that harm and avoid causing it in the future.

Look at actions. Look at material, tangible impact. Forget "good" and "bad." The world is so, so colorful. It'd be a shame to loose sight of that in favor of black and white.

#problemnyatic rambles #problemnyatic thoughts #this is kind of incoherent and should probably have stayed in drafts and fine-tuned #oh well

[problemnyatic]

man i just cant get over how fuckin distracting the idea of morality is in terms of actually like, trying to create a more ethical status quo. People get so caught up in worrying about whether they're a good person, whether people think they're being good enough, who's good and who's bad, and like, man, fuck!!! Who gives a shit what the fuckin' score is!!! There is so much problems in the world and if we waste all our time trying to figure out all the ~hidden signs~ and ~tells~ of who's predisposed to evil, we're never gonna get around to actually doing anything about the actual evil being committed every day on a systemic level.

If someone hasn't actually hurt someone, lay the fuck off the accusations. If you really want to garner a culture that prevents harm rather than simply reacting to it, you need to make causing harm something that can be recovered from. It can't be fucking shameful, because then people hide it. People will avoid pain, so threats of punishment aren't fucking useful. And if you believe doing The Bad Things will get you a world of hurt, then you're gonna get defensive if someone tries to approach you about your own harmful habits!!

I've seen it so many fuckin times, dude, it's insane. Someone will try to be like "hey, you could do this better" or "hey, the way you x hurts me" and instead of like, having a conversation, that person will get up in arms about how they weren't ~being bad.~ Whether it's trying to avoid blame or minimize how bad people think it is, the end result is that nothing actually gets dealt with because people are too busy trying to avoid being seen as a fuckin' sinner.

Who gives a fuck about being a good person? What does "good personhood" actually do? Best I can tell, it's just this label people get to have that says "Don't come after me, your target is someone else." Because if you ask anyone, being a Good Person is about your actions. So... why not just look at those? Ditch the shorthand that flattens everything, and risk the fucking nuance. If you don't have to worry about maintaining your status as a "good person," then suddenly it stops being so scary to scrutinize the ways in which you can actually improve.

And it's not even like you can just, like, get rid of all "bad people" and solve harm forever. If your solution to the ills of humanity can be boiled down to "if we just point a big enough gun at anyone who Breaks The Good Person Rules, no one will want to break them!" then, sorry to break it to you, but you're a fascist, no matter what values you purport to be championing. You still intend to use force to enforce them, and by enshrining those values as The Good Ones, you blind yourself to your own biases and flaws. You loose sight of the fact that you still have to aim that gun. Best not miss, or you'll take out an innocent- that's bad, right? Hope your aim's perfect- and everyone after you, too.

There's always gonna be pain. Always gonna be conflict. There's just too fuckin' many people out there to force the world to homogenize under a set of values that no one deviates from. So you need to be flexible, and you need to let good and bad exist side by side as shades of gray. You need to think of harm reduction not as a destination you reach by restricting the agency People Who Will Do Harm, but as a complex network of social safety nets that ensure that people who wind up in danger have multiple avenues with which to protect themselves or escape that danger, and ensure that the ones who cause that danger have ways to get help.

The world is more complicated than a binary of who's an abuser and who's a victim. People are more complicated than simple predisposition to hurting others. There will never be a set of values so all-encompassing as to ensure no one ever gets hurt if they're strictly adhered to, and there will never be a person on earth so perfect they never fuck up practicing those values. So you gotta fuckin adapt, man.

No more heroes and villains. No more good and bad people. you're more than that, I'm more than that. There's no shortcuts to heaven, no tickets to hell. You just gotta do the best you can with what you have, and course correct as you learn more stuff. What matters is the impact of our actions- they land how they land and we deal with it after. Quit botherin' with what it means and lets just work with what it is, we'll work towards that intent on the way, yeah?

#problemnyatic rambles #problemnyatic rants #I know I made this exact post with different words earlier. im still mad abt this #Who gives a fuck when and how bad you fucked up??? Are you trying to get better?? Are you genuinely willing to change and improve?? #The past is in the past and what happened then is important to what we do now but we cant fuckin change what happened #only what we're gonna do next #We gotta fuckin let people have a next time to do better with #We gotta give them a real-ass chance to actually do better too #And we gotta make sure that people know what they gotta know to not get hurt in the process. #but fuck sake if our only answer to some shit going fuckways is to erase someone off the face of the earth we're never gonna get anywhere #Is there an actual plan for like. the future??? here??? or are we just gonna violence everyone who allegedly violates The Values into dust? #Who the fuck is gonna be left??? i'm sick of this shit man. I just wanna play toys

[problemnyatic]

just reblogged a post about how furry hate is cringe and now im thinkin. We all know that a huge element of furry hater culture is queerphobia and ableism and all that, but I posit this:

Furries practically embody the idea of unfettered self-expression.

The tide *seems* to be starting to turn these days, but there is a very widespread culture of insecurity, intertwined with this protective shell of irony that allows people to cautiously non-commit to self expression that could prove socially risky.

Furry fundamentally flies in the face of all of that.

You have neon dogs and fantasy creatures, entire made up species that exist solely to express someone's self, drawn at any level of skill and heartfelt besides. The creativity itself is valuable to the community, and the self-expression is celebrated wholeheartedly.

It's not a social death sentence to be weird as a furry, to be an outlier or to set yourself apart. Furries are infamous for being often very openly kinky, and it's true! You don't have to be kinky or even horny to be a furry by any means, but the furry fandom is notably a very sex positive space.

And I think that gets people uncomfortable. Not just the sex positivity, but the bright and loud lack of shame. When you're so used to needing to undercut yourself to fit in, seeing people let their freak flag fly high and proud is uncomfortable. That's a violation of the social contract. It hits a weird and sour note that spurrs them on to decry furries as cringe freaks.

I'm not saying all furry hate or every furry hater is just insecure, but I think that's a more significant element than tends to be factored in, especially in today's culture of callouts and overcautious hesitation to be "problematic" lest you get harassed for god knows how long.

#problemnyatic thoughts #long post #furries #i'm just musing. this is not some grand decree or anything #but it is something I noticed and think is worth examination and discussion. #the issue is complex and goes well beyond this. I cannot emphasize this enough especially on the reading comprehension website #but I think the behavior of finding a target to distance oneself to so as to secure a degree of social safety is an important element here #something to be said for the crab bucket impulse and pickme thing. all that. you get it #problemnyatic rambles

[problemnyatic]

6AM rambles time. Expect typos and meandering streams of consciousness.

Ever since we started down the path of unlearning reacrionary online "justice," we've started tuning into this... particular feeling to watch out for. There's this, like, rush that comes with that self-righteous mobbing and all that. I'm not here to talk about harassment, that shit sucks, whatever. I'm here to talk about that red-flag rush.

The thing about it is once we started noticing it there, every now and then, when something comes up that stops us and causes us to self-reflect on why we were doing something that we're not satisfied with, we find that rush again. It just, pops up here or there.

It's.. some kind of indulgent gratification, and it sneaks up on us. It's addicting, and it makes us want more, always more. When we're snowballing in self-aggrandizement or leaning on some kind of acceptable target. It's not inherently a bad thing, I think, but it's dangerous to be unaware of its presence.

I dunno. Every time I reflect and notice its presence when I've decided I'm not the most okay with how I was acting, I get... well, not worried, but. It's starting to cohese into some larger pattern. I think it's important to be able to notice when that gratifying rush is egging me on, because it's all too happy to turn up the heat wherever it shows up, and that's really not appropriate in most situations.

Be mindful about how something feels good, when something feels good. It's not bad to feel this rush, as no feeling is inherently evil- thoughtcrimes don't exist- but letting it guide you is a very easy way to lose sight of your priorities without noticing. It's how you get... twitter, and I think it's a driving force behind many if not most failure modes of discourse.

it's 6:30AM now, this is basically just us journalling, disclaimer disclaimer whatever. Love y'all, be kind to yourselves. I'm gonna hit the hay

#problemnyatic thoughts #problemnyatic rambles #honestly I do enjoy the sense of branding this tagging convention brings but that's kind of a bonus to the shitty pun I'll never tire of #i love this url so much lol #ok fr goodnight