#plus no sweet baby boy ethan here just my liberal centrist father and grandmother (thats generous)

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my tummy hurts so bad i hate traveling

#of course ive decided to figure my shit out in 2024 so of course i decided im no longer dependent on weed #so of course on my 6 day trip i brought NOTHING #eating has been fine back to being ravenous within two days #Sleeping However #(for those of yall in diff time zones its 1 am. i excused myself to bed at 10 pm.) #does not help that the airbnb my dad booked has the worlds Firmest Memory Foam Mattresses And Pillows #AND the bathroom set up is FUCKED for my bathroom anxiety which is great #tiny thin door goes directly from the bathroom to where my dad is sleeping and so of course #im incredibly anxious about having to pee in the night and waking him up #and when i get anxious i have to pee!!! perfect!!! #plus no sweet baby boy ethan here just my liberal centrist father and grandmother (thats generous) #and now my Fucking Tummy Hurts!!! #OH AND IVE HAD MY PERIOD THIS WHOLE TIME!!!! HELLO!!!!! #its okay tomorrow we go to natural history museum. i love natural history museum #and besides im so brave. im basically sugaring without the sugar because pretending to #care about my family is how i get my parents to send me exorbitant amounts of money #its reparations for all the trauma dw #speaking of the trauma my god the amount of repressing i havr to do here !!! we have to do !!! insane !!! #on the plane ride down here i imagined telling my father abt all the neglect #and today i verbatim said 'ya he was a rly good dad i was lucky to have him as a father' #see even now here im like TO BE FAIR like no girl. come on. bffr #anyway 3 days 5 hours til i leave 3 days 9 hours til im home #i can do anything for three days and we have fun plans i just am so fucking tired #i havent gotten more than 6 hours of sleep since i got here kmw #ok. time to go try to pee and then sleep and pray my tummy stops hurting pls