#pls don't apologize i loved waking up to these messages

[satoruluvies]

first angst drabble!! i cannot write angst without tryna cryy :(

okk here it goes HELP srry this took while say i had go school to catch up works i miss when sick

imagine nanami sending you texts every time when he goes out for mission it start with "hey how are you?" and at night he give you heads up "mhm comin home late." it's always was a routine, one mission was going be his very last he text you sweet messages how he Forgot kiss the kids good Moring since he went early but he promise to you when he comes back he give them a sweetest night kiss, you guys texted back and fought before he had to go, he sent you a message d before he had to go, you were to focus on the Kids you didn't see it pop up, minutes went hours you were so worried you texted your husband wondering where he is, you saw a text that you missed "if anything happens, I love you." you reply back "promise?" why reply to someone who not on earth anymore?

WHHE2321MNEWD

(this was a diff idea i wanted when everyone was using reader and when she finds a boyfriend, Gojo he just like the same and uses her too tell me if u want this drabble to i thought it was bit mean!!)

-🐱 anon

honestly could go a little something like-

the day starts with the lovely morning text from your husband as usual, smiling to yourself at the endearment he called you and the apology saying he forgot to kiss your lovely daughter before he left. he'd make up for it when he arrive though, you had no doubt.

checking your phone right after you wake up to read your husband's text was your daily routine even before kento became your husband. it just didn't feel like your morning was complete without doing so.

this particular morning however, you find yourself crying for a reason you can't find yourself to pinpoint.

you: i think my period is coming, im getting emotional for no reason. come kiss me better when you arrive!

✓ 6.54 am

you set your phone down and take a moment to bask in the small rays of light falling from your windows into your room and sigh, wiping your tears away. you could really use morning kiss right now.

"mama!" your daughter scurried over to your bed and threw her tiny body over yours earning a giggle from both your mouths. you place a chaste kiss on her forehead and a second one, for kento. it was a charming moment until your daughter's smile disappeared.

"mama are you crying again?" you find your hands rubbing away the tears that happened to run down your cheeks. what is up with that?

"momma's fine, baby. how about we surprise papa with his lunch today? he forgot to give you your morning kiss hm?" you tuck her hair behind her ears, her own eyes slowly turning teary.

"you're doing it again" she pulls away from your hold, a frown now found itself on her adorable face.

"doing what baby?"

"talking like ... like papa is still here. i don't like it."

that's when it hit you. her papa, your husband wasn't here anymore. you knew it, you do but somehow it does not make sense. how could nanami be dead when you've just received your morning text like you always used to when he was here?

you scrambled among your sheets desperately searching for your phone to prove to yourself, more than anyone, that nanami was alive and well. of course he has to be.

however you were only met with disappointment and that nauseating feeling of jumping off somewhere high when you opened your chats to his number.

you: i think my period is coming, im getting emotional for no reason. come kiss me better when you arrive!

[message not sent. this number is no longer in use.]

! 6.54 am

ah. it wasn't for no reason that you were emotional first thing in the morning. it was your body mourning for the love of your life that your mind forced itself to forget about his death.

omg this concept of reader imagining/hallucinating beloved used to be one of my favourite tropes!! pls the way my world paused when i read your drabble because i knew it was angst but i didn't know it was about THIS topic crying crying

also im so glad to know you're better now, enough to go to school hehe i hope the workload isn't too heavy to catch up on <3

#😺 anon #seriously i mourn over kento at least once a day lately #i miss my husband #jjk angst #nanami x reader #nanami x you #nanami angst #jjk drabbles

[brattyandwhorrible]

Omg im so mf funny. So my gfs phone lit up last night when i was getting up to go potty after us just having like the best sex I've ever had and her already having passed out afterwards.. and this phone that lit up said.. "hey baby... blah blah blah"

So NATURALLY ima pick up the phone and see who is saying this right.. well when i picked the phone up the message saying this wasn't on the notifications anymore. 😐 so me starting to rly feel some type of way proceeds forward in the snoopy sesh thru baes phone tryna uncover this person 'hey baby'ing' my girl.

All out on camera and all. Plus i was still naked 😂💀 i did not gaf how crazy i looked.

Oh uh uh.

So during my little investigation adventures i realized that MY GIRLFRIEND IS NOT THE PERFECT LITTLE ANGEL I THOUGHT SHE WAS.

I just had this image of her in my head of being God-Like and blemish free. Especially when it comes to personal matters i guess. But what did i learn. NOBODY IS TRULY PERFECT AFTER ALL. Bc while shes here rn bothered by me telling her a lie #1 (me saying that i was in love with her b4 i actually was), by me telling other ppl the same lovey stuff i was telling her while i was locked up #2.... she also was being all extra friendly wit other ppl and in a whole 'relationship' or w/e wit someone else, telling grls she wanna see them and good morning texts and inviting them over to netflix and blah blah whatever.. WHILE I WAS IN FL WITH HER.

And ya wanna know what else ive realized?

I dont care that she's imperfect, i love her anyways and i just am going to trust that we not be like that to each other anymore. I'm not saying what she did is worse than what i did either.. just had to put that out there.

Anyways so now not only did she wake up without me, she came looking for her phone.

She's acting all weird and being distant and quiet.

I feel wrong 4 just tryna act like nothing happened and i didnt just do what i did and see what i seen.. lmao this is so typical. I couldn't even help it, my inner most crazy got the best of me when i seen that hey baby whatever it said. I had to know what the fuck. Im not even mad tho, not yet anyways... i mean ill be mad if she dont stop tryna act like she didnt do the same thing shes upset that i did.

Lol. But rly tho, its not cool but i mean its cool. I fucked up, she fucked up. I have genuine, real feelings for her unlike before.. and ive fallen in love with her, experiencing a type of love I've never felt before. I'm not trying to sabotage our bond we have together what so ever, over nothing. I feel like our feelings for each other are mutual so i can trust that the funny business wont be a thing from here on out. Leaving me not to worry but to be excited abt having her and the Universe working its magic like it did..

I'm not the same person i was 2 years ago by any means. Im like complete polar opposite of where i was then actually. And for the first time i actually WANT to have a future with another human being period.

I rly hope we can not lose all of our trust over the things we did before we rly had a chance at being together and fully experiencing one another. I also hope this isn't gonna be an on going issue or source of sorrow either.

Ugh.. ok im done 4 now...

GOOD JOB LIL BABY 4 SLIPPING AND RLY LETTING YOUR CRAZY SHOW.

0 to 100 real fucking quick. I do have to say im glad i got to the source of recent consistent concerns abt my actions during the time of these events taking place. Maybe now we can call it truce and grow into better ppl tog..

One last thing.. 2 my Lover Baby, pls know that i do apologize for invading your privacy even tho i know you was looking 4 love else in somebody else too. I'm rly not tripping tho. I don't feel any diff abt you at all.. im just lowkey gonna be hurt if the situation abt tonight happening is handled the wrong way.. like i don't just wanna pretend like nothing happened. I want to talk abt everything.. even if it hurts, i still feel like its better 2 talk abt it. Even if we dont have much to say on something. I love you tho baby, I'm not going anywhere and i still trust you.. im not even tripping like that. I know how im coming at you also so i KNOW we good. You'll see that too once you see that ima consistently act right as well. Your still my sweet baby pookie pie 😻😘😇 and we were still made exactly for each other bc flaws and all, i want every single part of you bby. Im sorry for doing too much and letting my crazy get the best of me 🙄💀🙈 not gonna lie I'm a lil embarrassed over it lol

#crazygirlfriendsbelike #owningmyshit #shestillperfecttho #plsdontbemadbby ❤❤❤❤❤❤ #girlblogging #journalingintocyberspace #babygirlbratlife

#nowlemmecrawlunderarockanddie 😫🥸

[izanyas]

Lol it’s okay, sometimes I think I expect too much too when I make posts and so then I get really lonely, but then I think sometimes you just have to remember that people are also pretty shy themselves and get scared to talk to authors. Or at least I was lmao. AND YES, SOME REQUIRED EFFORT IS SO GREAT SFIUJNSF I LOVED IT SO MUCH. I can honestly ramble about it, but it’s been so long since I’ve read it, so sadly I can’t talk to you as much as I really want to about it OTL

And gosh, yeah, that advice of writing what you want to read is actually really good advice. Because in the end, if you also kinda keep trying to write what other people like it’s not going end well and overall, I think most readers can tell when an author is really into their story on not or maybe I’m just being stupid ahaha~ Gosh, I’m so glad that you stopped giving a shit about style and stuff because in the end, for me personally at least, good plot and

characterization and such more is always something I’ll read rather than just a story with just great grammar and connotation if it doesn’t go anywhere. But I feel like I’m being rude when I say that, but honestly, I have to admit that sometimes the best fanfics are the ones that you know, ah, I dunno how to say it, but at last for the fandoms that I have been in, the ones that always stick with me in my mind and have me re-read over and over again are the ones that always deliver really good

stories and plots and rich characterization growth despite the obvious misspellings all over the place. (jfc I just realized it might have been better off for me if I just submitted this shit instead because god, I've sent a couple asks sidfujkbndf why am I like this lmao OTL)

i don’t think it’s rude, everyone has their preferences. i know people who only ever read those one-shots with no plot that are just analysis of the characters and that’s fine but i always need en engaging story & relationship development myself to really like a fic... it’s not meant as offense to authors who write those it’s just that i can’t get hooked on this type of story myself

but yeah i think writing what you really wanna read is the best approach to fanfiction because

1) you’re never gonna be 100% satisfied with another person’s take on this one prompt that you’ve had in mind2) gives you an idea of how hard it is to actually follow an idea and giving it life in a way you would enjoy3) makes you appreciate the effort that other authors (esp authors of long chaptered fics) put into their own ideas, making you more likely to comment on them lmao

as far as “the perfect style” is concerned... i’m going in with a disadvantage since my english is limited so i’ve really shifted my focus away from vocabulary and “pretty words” and started thinking a lot more about pacing, accessibility, and physicality. i’ve talked about this before but little things like making your story easy to read (no strings of long paragraphs, pacing dialogue with action, mixing the lengths of your sentences to make them more dynamic & give your readers breaks, giving yourself a limit of 8 lines per paragraph max, etc) do a lot to achieve that.

i get really overwhelmed when reading on a screen if everything is walls and walls of text, it’s mentally straining and not enjoyable at all no matter how good the style is—i often end up skipping to the next dialogue, which makes me feel like shit because i know the author put a lot of effort in writing those paragraphs. but reading them demands the kind of focus that i just don’t have. so i’m always really trying to make my own fics accessible to people with general reading issues or stuff like adhd/autism/dyslexia/etc. 

not to say that i’m good at it or whatever but it’s definitely one of the things i keep in mind while writing (alongside the characterization i’m trying to write for x character) and absolutely the #1 thing i think about when editing my drafts.

it’s also why i think dynamic writing style >> pretty prose. especially when dealing with younger characters, if you write their stream of consciousness in the style of a 40yo british author it just feels so awkward? it breaks my suspension of disbelief for sure.

#answered #pls don't apologize i loved waking up to these messages #anon

[tounacasserole]

random & kind of stupid half asleep, half assed appreciation post cause i wanna spread the love and for some reason sad thoughts in my head but let's ignore that (ft. my sleep deprivation sap, mutuals, ppl iloook up to, shitty puns and wordplay)

<3

@moonxma ur the moon :o you give me like calm and peaceful moon vibes like a blue moon!! ty for being one of the first who kind of kickstarted my whole commitment to being here and writing content :D

@raysano ray? more like ray of sunshine shdhefj bad pun but i love indirectly interacting with you through games and hope we get to know each other and interact more mwah /p

@appreciatingtokrev appreciatingtokrev? appreciating YOU you beautiful human being :)) i like seeing your little thoughts and whatnot around your blog bc i find them interesting to me in a good way

@mochi-coffee absolute sweetheart ∑(ﾟДﾟ) sweeter than ice cream mochi need i say more? no but seeing you wherever makes my day better for some reason because you give that positive n uplifting vibe. me 🤝 you waka skmps

@kallikrein me 🤝 you 🤝 mochi waka simps jdkfjskf ty for being one of the first to interact and leave messages in the tags of my silly little waka headcanons :]] and ty for being my majn source of waka brainrot too (￣∀￣) we krei-n (pronounced crying) over wakasa. i think that was fhe shittiest pun ive ever made in my entire life i apologize dearly

@simpywhore seeing your incorrect quotes make me snort in laughter a lot whenever i see them >:D we haven't interacted but i'm sure you're simp(l)y sweet ksjjfkfkskf

@offtaskotaku go follow them rn this is a threat /hj seriously so so underrated pls check out their work and send them requests i'm sure they work hard and they're bery nice :) great sense of humour 2 i like seeing u on my dash. makes me go off task for a bit to scroll through your blog and reread your hcs!!

@kakuchew also a contributor to my waka brainrot jshffkf your headcanons about the black dragons boys are so awesome and i love their shenanigans which makes it easier to envision them in my head!! less chewing on my thoughts and more space to appreciate them and you too :3

@sukunasbabymama your blog title is kk's safeplace and it sure as hell lives up to the name!! i get a homely vibe from you n i like seeing you pop up on my dash :D like my mama's homemade food! you've made me appreciate kakucho and mucho with your contrnt :))

@wwintersun holy crap i look up to you a whole ton!! your works are simply put masterpieces. when i read them it makes me feel fuzzy and warm it's like when the sun melts the winter away ;D i have a lot of your stuff saved in my drafts to reread on a bad day

@bajipaws your tokrev x male reader stuff has at least pawmped 5 more years into my lifespan (i'll take my leVe now). ur doing king shit and i can't wait to see more stuff from you!!!

@kageyahoe your latest work with baji made me Feel all the emotions /pos :] in fact all of your works do and made me love baji even more than i did before >:O i don't have a bad pun for you but honestly considering my punmanship you're lucky jdkfjskf

@shinscig i've interacted with you a grand total of one (1) time but you're so sweet :( i think your chifuyu drabble of painting flowers was one of the first fics i read here which: OOMPF /pos. that's it i can't describe it anymore better than that cause it's almost 3am. your braid train fic with mizo mid is also a big favourite :)! underrated they are

@softbajis You Have Made Me Feel Things but i swear most of it's good and soft besides the angst because it hurts so good hakfjwjfj i like seeing your little blurbs pop up from time to time!!

@tokyo-daaaamn-ji-gang I LOVE SEEING YOUR POSTS ABOUT THE MANGA THAT ARE ESPECIALLY SO FUNNY??? they're always a riot and the absolute best. i snorted so hard reading your recent one of the wake me up scene SHEIWKJFWKFJDJ

@koffeekoko your angst. hurts so good. mr sunshine, flowers, and you hurts the best. i am writhing on the floor as i type this (/notsrs) idk if this is weird but seeing your tag "jel loves you!" makes me smile internally :)) your works about insecurities they love also make me really really happy :']

@n0vad your headcanons are so comforting to read,,, they also inspired me to post some of my own too in a similar format (hope you don't mind sjfhe)! i also love that you post for more characters that don't have a ton of content!!

@sunhee-sun your writing is like warm sun after cold rain (i'm a great poet) it's inviting and a guilty pleasure to reread all of your tokrev stuff. bows down to you.

@kakubun my main source of love for bonten. helping hands is one of my favourites and inspired me to make a character based off of that :D your headcanons are also so funny to read and have become a great source of inspo!!

@xuxitheii another whose tokrev x male reader has fed more life into me (°▽°)b i've probably went through your blog at least thrice now reading your works especially since you're one of the first i followed! good shjt right there... your confessing to mitsuya one is my fabourite

thats all i can roll out i think because i dint want to flood everyone's inboxes since your mutuals are doing this too skfjekfjjs ʅ（◞‿◟）ʃ happy new year from this touma fish! 🐟 passes out

#chattertuna

[clairesweirdstuff]

I think something might be wrong with me.

I know I shouldn't advertise this here, but this happened a couple times now and I feel so conflicted and horny at the same time.

So I'm a sub with a hypno kink, I knew this - my partners know it, anyone who has ever read any part of this blog has probably picked that much up.

But honestly, I haven't gotten much person-to-person live hypno time. I'll listen to files or read a text induction - and I love them - but because my partners haven't been into hypnokink, I really haven't gotten much chance to engage with a real live person.

But then I joined a discord server a couple weeks ago and ... fffff... uh.. aa-a-ap-parently I'm a slut?

I don't know what it is, is it the attention? Is it finally indulging my kink? Have all the scripts I've read and the files I've listened to actually affected me?

Well, in any case, here's what happened.

I joined 1 discord server, a guy reached out to me. We chatted about how great it would feel to just let myself be programmed into an obedient toy (yessss). And then he found out I was trans and he wasn't interested. Which sucks, right? Like, this is the internet, what does it even matter? And I was a bit insulted, but I considered myself too good for this guy anyway.

But I still wanted it. I found myself wondering if maybe I could fix him, change his mind about trans women and get more of that sweet kink talk where he'd tell me how he wanted to make me his good girl (Hhhhh, pls?).

I was disgusted with myself! Claire, you don't need this jerk! And I managed to resist reaching back out to him.

And then I joined another discord server. And in this one, someone did a text induction on my and another girl in one of the channels and fffuuuuccckkk it was amazing. It was honestly nothing specifically erotic but I could feel it. My breathing slowed, my mind fuzzed out and I gave him control and it was SO FUCKING HOT. I was weak, I wanted more.

I get a DM from someone on this new server, and we start to talk.

They tell me they prefer cis women (once again, why this matters on the internet I don't understand), but they want to chat and do a trance with me.

Okay Sweet! I push my questions of why things are relevant aside and we start to chat and I go under.

He asks me to turn on my camera.

Now, normally, I wouldn't do this! Like my waking brain is continually telling me how stupid this was, but I did it. I just, I can't really explain it - but I needed to please him and I knew he wanted to see me - so how was I supposed to NOT obey and turn on my camera?

So I did, and he basically has me make some sexy ahegao type faces as my mind is just completely fucked and then he wakes me up and says "Sorry, not my type" and I haven't heard from him since.

So, who cares, right? Yeah, but it felt so good. It took me a week to delete our conversation. I'm so fucking desperate that I was hoping he'd change his mind. Like wtf is wrong with me?

Okay, then another guy messages me. This time is basically all RP. We RP this kind of Kaa junglebook storyline for a few days and it is not what I would've said I would go for normally, but it is SUPER hot. After 3 days of RPing daily, he starts to ask about me. What am I wearing? I tell him. What do I look like? I tell him. He wants a picture. I freeze.

Fuck okay, this has been great up until now, but I gotta tell him. So I tell him I'm trans, he says I'm still his girl. I'm relieved and I send him a picture. He tells me I'm beautiful.

I'm in some kind of a trance at this point and he's asking me for more pictures and less clothes and for basically the first time in my life I'm taking pictures of myself practically naked and he's telling me that I'm such a good girl for him (<shudder> fffuck, why does it feel so good.)

He says he has to go - his wife is back home. Eventually my senses come back to me and I realize what I did and I delete all the pictures from the chat and my phone. I apologize to him, and he hasn't spoken to me since (4 days now).

So I mean, the data is there. Apparently I'm a hypnosis addict who will do anything while hypnotized.

God I want more. It's been 4 days and I just edged while browsing tumblr for the last hour and my brain feels like it's about a half-step away from dropping for a stranger right now.

I.. uh... I'm gonna go outside or something. Shovel snow... try not to be horny slut for an hour. Wish me luck.