#people thinking im upset at them or theyve done something but i wpuld have Told Them

[unholyplumpprincess]

Screams into hands

#princess grumbles #I want! 24 hours! just one full day of being okay! #I hate you summer i really hate that youre a trigger. awhole ass season #couldnt be smth i could reasonably avoid could ya huh #im just getting worse and im so afraid of myself #holding it in my chest isnt good for me but im so scared of talking to anyone about it bc its just #people thinking im upset at them or theyve done something but i wpuld have Told Them #and then im left comforting other people and im just #im so stretched thin #im in sp much pain and emotional turmoil and I know it's just yhe peak i kniw ir is i get like this every year #I KNOW it's bc of the heat and the memories I kniw it is #but jesus christ #if i could afford therapy let alone medication maybe itd be easier to manage #gosh #slaps my diary #this is helpful tho. writing it out always helps #maybe I should think into using a journal but im afraid bc of the last time i had smth Physical #ill just stick to writing posts maybe