#ougfh maybe i need sleep

[poisonousushi]

[vent in the tags]

#i have come to a point where other socmeds are just so noisy and there's nowhere else i can breath and say something in peace #anyway #overthinking malala lol #idk i just feel like i'm being such a fake #and that i don't deserve to study my thesis bcs i only rediscover my sexuality at this age #and like i have to give it up for another topic #but i'm also really lazy these days #and all of these thoughts would mix and mesh into a whole confusion and emptiness where i feel like i don't know what i want #eventho it's funny bcs i'm doing things that will lead me to places more or less where i feel like i wanna be #but at the moment i am so uneasy #idk maybe being in between or transitioning towards things is making me uneasy #sighs #why does no one told me being in your 20s felt a whole lot of trial and error #only that each of your decision feels like a weight on your shoulder #or like a decisive throw that would determine the path of your life #which is so stupid bcs many years from now i'm going to be so different than the one i am now probably #which both excites and scares me #ougfh maybe i need sleep