#or target me for self gratifying shit etc idk idk idk im chill im chillin!!!

[kxllerblond]

my blog my hobby my fun times idc but also i always feel the need to justify this ongoing arc of clark because it's just so...relationship based. and yeah a lot is romance because, let's be frank here and be real, that's a good chunk of the rpc's motivations and wants and it's the easiest to get. but it's also friends and found family, kindred spirits, etc. but he's transitioning into a very heavy emphasis on actual, meaningful connections and yeeeeah it's been a natural path here and yeah it makes sense from a writing standpoint for a muse i've had since like 2012.

like clark's initial arc was yearning for this sort of stuff and not being allowed and then we moved into him actively avoiding it and now we've moved sort of into the 'fuck it. fucked up healing arc' period where he's letting himself feel and love in all senses of the word.

and it all makes sense to me because i've been here through it all but i can just imagine new people stumbling to my blog and seeing hella smut or romance shit or wooby-wubby shit or what's supposed to be this big bad villain making bffs and being turned off or worse thinking i'm just the person for easy shipping or smut shit and writing off clark completely as an individual and that kinda sucks but yKNOW it is what it is

#iDK THIS IS JUST RAMBLING LMAO #i cant control how my muse is perceived and ig i wish i didnt care and i mostly DONT most days #but it just sucks i worry AT ALL that doing casual shit and focusing less on #action centric plotted stuff and more on dynamic building is going to make ppl disregard me or write me off #or target me for self gratifying shit etc idk idk idk im chill im chillin!!! #its just like for every silly Clark in Ships posts i want to make i hesitate or i feel like #i have to compensate somehow with a really well written 'Serious' reply kdjfghdkg iDKKKKKKK AAAAAAAAAAA #cw negativity #this is ic for my muse and if it was a book this would be an acceptable progression of plot and development like it's totally sensical but #there is no book to read and no oNE has been around since fucking 2012 to know this all actually totally makes sense and should be taken #seriously lmAoooo