#or more like theres no guarantee i can romance others if ive progressed too far with karlach

[pangyham]

Bg3 is insanely fun to me so far. very early in the game but knowing ive barely started makes me excited at the prospect of more cutscenes, quests, and character interactions..!!!

i was just talking to my friend about how easy it is to REALLY project yourself into the game because of how authentic and variable the character + spatial interactions are and i was like. oh god i would not survive in this world. i think for rpgs in general i will never not be able to separate myself from the chatacters i play as just because i control them. but they will always be a separate, well established character with just a bit of me in them. it's different in bg3 because of how my personal ideologies affect the storyline and characters around me, and i think it's really interesting playing a game where your character and the world around you arent narratively static or fixed (it also helps i customized my paladin) It feels real! and this isnt new, it's just very novel to me as someone who doesnt play games like bg3, and i wonder what other games offer this immersion? my only exposure to open world rpgs are genshin and botw/totk but they cant really compare because genshin has a linear storyline and you dont really influence the characters and teyvat because the narrative is already laid out (and it also clashes against the game's open world mechanic which makes the world feel, at least to me, very synthetic). botw is more of an exploration game since its whole point is testing the limits of open world. so it's not super story driven imo, not to say it doesnt have a solid story. but i love these games dearly, and bg3 offers a really satisfying and fulfilling extension to what i truly want in an rpg

but anyway that was just a tangent but basically i told my friend how my paladin pangy is kind of.. stupid. *I* am stupid. HAHAHA i happen to fall for a lot of schemes and am easily deceived. astarion killed me because i didnt shove him away after letting him bite me, afraid he might die of malnourishment. got pickpocketed by a kid (and my character ironically failed the perception check TWICE. i had no idea what was going on until my friend in call told me j just got robbed). believed the fake sobstory of the paladins who attacked karlach and had to reload my save slot so i had the upperhand. i have 0 survival instincts...it's almost ridiculous but also incredibly funny. it made me realize that this is a game worth taking seriously (and that im just. really clueless 🧍‍♂️). but the experience is fun, and i like how the stakes are high (for the most part). i have Got to get my shit together i cant get jumped like this all the time

#im also insanely sexless and rizzless #i dont pick up on romantic cues at all bro and this one i can see Why #because i have trouble picking up on some conventional social cues irl 🧍‍♂️ #it's just the touch of the tism... #but anyway i accidentally rizzed up karlach and i didnt know telling her “we should deal with that engine of yours” after she offered sex #was like.. a confirmation. i thought it was a NEUTRAL response #my friend told me that the chances of me wooing other characters are slim because my romance route is fixed on karlach #or more like theres no guarantee i can romance others if ive progressed too far with karlach #and it had me kinda deflated because i was somewhat set on shadowheart. so i just went back 3 hours of gameplay back to the save slot #where i encountered the first romance scene w karlach to explicitly turn her down #have to redo all my progress since then but i just took the L if it means it saves my chances with shadowheart🫡