#or maybe the axolotl is even like 'if you apologize to ford i will give you *all* your powers back'

[godsfavoritescientist]

my god im so so sorry for this one but imagine if bill *did* come back from the dead. imagine that the “different form in a different time” was the kindest possible interpretation and he got to keep all his memories and got to come back to the same dimension his ford lives in, just a few months or years after he got erased from existence.

imagine bill feeling remorse. imagine bill regretting all the ways he hurt ford, and wanting to be better. imagine that all of these things lined up perfectly, giving bill the best second chance he could have ever asked for.

and then, imagine bill watching ford from afar for the rest of ford’s life without ever interacting with him. imagine him keeping his distance, and vowing to himself that he’ll never re-enter ford’s life ever again, so he can be absolutely certain that he’ll never hurt ford again. but he still can’t help but watch ford from afar, feeling torn to shreds inside with guilt about their past, and about how bright and incredible of a person he destroyed his chances of ever being with again, and he is endeared and surprised and delighted by ford over and over again, even after so many years of knowing him, even when only watching him from far away, and the one small solace bill has is that ford looks so happy now, and bill loves getting to have the knowledge that ford is doing alright, and is happier day by day, in this new world that he thinks doesn’t have bill in it anymore.

#billford angst #bill angst #would ford still be happy if bill revealed himself to him? who knows! #if i was bill i would be too scared to find out. #cant imagine a more fitting punishment than giving bill all the tools to give him the chance to try to make amends #bill can torture Himself. idk coming back from the dead changes a person #really puts things into perspective. makes taking over all of reality seem less important y'know #makes a person have time to think. time to start taking accountability and feeling guilt. #or maybe the axolotl is even like 'if you apologize to ford i will give you *all* your powers back' #and bill still never talks to ford again #heartwrenching thoughts tonight. what the Fuck #its not about if bill deserves this or not its about me going 'hey wouldnt this be angsty' #*bill* thinks he deserves it and thats all i know. we are sharing wavelengths we are exchanging thoughts we are looking at ford together #and going 'augh that poor man' #godsficideas

[cskv11]

No art request but do you have any head cannons for bill??🤨

Ey yo why you makin that face? Is this some kind of interrogation??

Personally, I'm not a very headcanon kind of guy, more than anything cause I like to be able to see the author's vision, but more importantly, to avoid disappointments. Although this does not stop me from having a couple of headcanons:

First of all, I believe Bill had a much deeper thing going on with Ford, more than we were lent to in the show and the journal.

like- this "Oh my Muse" kind of thing is much freakier than just a nickname, these two nerds did way more than just a portal, if you know what I mean.

On the same matter, I think that, though at some point their relationship might've been kind of genuine, Bill saw Ford the same way a person sees their dog: someone who swears unconditional loyalty to their god/owner.

While this kind of bond does leave space for love and affection, there's this clearly marked boundary, a jeriarchy that states that one of the counterparts has a higher, a more elevated position in the relationship.

This same thing makes me assume, too, that Bill had felt betrayed as much as Ford did. Not because Ford did something wrong or deserved it (this poor soul had sacrificed everything he had, he isolated himself from everyone he knew just because he thought Bill was on the right; heck, even after scarring Fiddleford FOR LIFE, instead of apologizing or trying to help him, he was so gaslit from Bill poisonous words he thought Fiddleford was trying to sabotage his work) but because Bill's egotistical and narcissistic ass believed someone as naive as Ford was not capable of such thing. When Ford finally opens his eyes and gives his back to Bill, the dude is completely bamboozled. He did NOT expect Ford to drastically decide they were no longer friends. Bill expected Ford to say "Fuck it, we ball" and finish the portal once and for all. Bill thought Ford would be loyal to him no matter how bad the sittuation could get.

What would Bill do once he got through the portal? I don't think he'd kill him right away; he'd toy with Ford for a bit, til he got tired of it, and then would finish him off, just for fun.

As of Bill's backstory, I do think he used to have a brother. And for whatever reason, this same thing is the leading one for him to have become the wacky dude we know him for. Maybe his brother died/ got killed, which made Bill go apeshit, or maybe he hated his brother so much he was the one who killed him. Alex Hirsch did say Bill had a worse relationship with his father than Stanley did. Maybe what happened with Bill was a Stanley/Stanford dynamic, but multiplied by a hundred.

Say, he was his brother's shadow, and in an outburst of anger, he killed him, thought of the consequences of his parents seeing that scene and said "fuck it, no witnesses", took a gas can and burnt the whole family down.

This, too, comes related to what the axolotl said: "saw his own dimension brun. Misses home and can't return".

Additionally, the "says he's happy; he's a liar" verse and Bill's own "lie until you aren't liying; lie until the lie has become the truth" advice makes me strongly believe the dude has gaslit himself from the horrors he's commited so much he does actually believe his lies. He could tell you the sky is pink, and he would honestly believe it. And don't even try arguing with him about it, he will find a way of justifying why the sky is, in fact, pink.

Though it would be an interesting journey to redeem this guy, I would really love for him to continue being this horrible dude he is.

I don't know what The Book of Bill will be about, but if we're given more of bits about his origins, it would be amazing. But not go on full detail about it, cause one of the determining traits this dude has is being a mystery. And if they do end up telling something about his backstory, let it be some ironic and absolutely unserious tale; make the audience guess where's the lie and where's the truth.

Does this suffice your question, anon??? 🤨🤨🤨

Is there something else you're craving to ask? I have no trouble in answering haha

Also- I apologize for not posting much, there's a lot of funny requests i wanna draw but it's kind of impossible for me to do much right now. I've got lots of exams and so very little free time, BUT i'll try making something for this next weekend!! :)

#ask #bill cipher #not art