#okay i got that off my chest

[honeyrage]

also i just wanted to say that i am low activity pretty much all the time. sometimes i will get hit with spurts of energy and do a million things at once, sometimes my energy is low and it takes me awhile to do anything. this is not an indication of my interest, whether how high it is or a lack of it, in any way. i still make an effort to show partners i'm around or invested by interacting in other ways, like responding to ooc posts and sending memes. if that doesn't work for you though, its best to let me know directly or just unfollow. i'm not apologizing for my activity level or offering explanations as to why it is the way it is anymore ✋ my time is mine and my real life takes priority and sometimes i have no energy, and that's fine !!! take all the time you need and never feel like you need to explain yourselves to me btw, i'm just glad we can all vibe and take a break from adulting <3

#｡˚ 🥀 villain apologist and girlkisser › out. #OKAY I GOT THAT OFF MY CHEST #everyone have a nice day and drink water and remember to have fun !!! #REMEMBER THIS IS A HOBBY AND NOT A JOBBY

[gideonisms]

Look wake is not winning any mother of the year awards but you also have to consider, Gideon was her unwanted pregnancy she went through with to keep john from continuing to colonize her people. it's clear that wake had family she DID love and chose to prioritize their future. But years later, after watching gideon sacrifice everything for the empire wake spent her whole life fighting, with no indication Gideon will ever switch sides, wake chooses not to destroy her. Apparently for no other reason than that she's her child. meanwhile john sticks his traumatized recently dead 19 year old on the front lines of a war! now WHO do y'all think should win this custody battle

#wake is not heartless she's just got priorities #yes she did say fuck that kid. but she also saved her twice #tbh none of these people should be parents not even pyrrha #okay NOW i think i may have gotten all my tlt thoughts from this week off my chest #they were pent up in there

[luck-of-the-drawings]

THAT WOUND. THAT VILE WOUND. it throbs in time with your speeding heart, and the ache it carries through your veins is oppressive, its hot, it tangles around your jaw and through your spine and behind your eyes. there are needles, sprouting from the lacerations like the most heinous ivy, and it strangles your lungs, rips tears from your eyes, lures bile to your throat. it hurts. oh god it hurts. you cant think, you cant breathe, you cant swallow, you cant see. you cant see. you cant see. you cannot see but you know when your eyes are closed, because there are colors stained upon the backs of your eyelids. they form images of loved ones, of viscera, of bile and blood and blackened mud. its jarring, they make anxiety spike outwards, frantic ferro fluid, frightened from faces too scared, too pained, too dead, too piercing with eyes staring straight at you, straight at you. actually, you cant tell when your eyes are open.

SAUCE FREE VERSION UNDER THE CUT.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #jrwi riptide spoilers #cw blood #gillion tidestrider #cw injury #wadda hell else i tag this as huh #OHH I HAVCE A STORY FOR THIS ONE. IM ACTUALLY POSTING SMTH AS SOON AS I FINISH IT THIS TIME #I STARTED THIS LIKEEE I THINK A TWO WEEKS OR SO AGO. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A SCRIBBLE SKETCH similar to that one i made o chip #BUT THEN WELL. I GOT ILL AND MY WRIST STOPPED WORKING N MY PEN PRESSURE STOPPED BEING REAL #SO FOR A MISERABLE WEEK I WAS JUST PLACING PIXELS WITH MOUSE OR NONDOMMY HAND. SLOWLY BUT SURELY #THE PAIN I DEPICT HERE IS REAL. AND ALSO BASED OFF MY EXPERIENCE WITH AGONIZING TOOTH PAIN. I LOVE DESCRIBING PAIN #ALSO so i have limits with how Gross i draw gore. like i cant stand puss or anythign too gnarly like eeeeww i dont like it too yucky #EVEN SO. THIS WOUND? FESTERING? BLISTERING? HOOOWWW FUN EHEHE i wanted to make this wound look PAINFUL and AWFUL and GROSS but not TOO GROS #OH TURN UR BRIGHTNESS UP FOR THIS ONE BTW #THERE ARE THINGS HIDDEN IN THE DARK AND ALSO THE COLORS LOOK LIKE SHIT ON MY DARKER MONITER #im also rly proud o the colors... pink blood on chest vs blue blood on face. the STICKYNESS. BEHOLD MY VISCOSITY. the splatter. the pain. #OKAY OKAy i think im done ramblin for now #if u read all this thankuuuu i loove yooouu

[bananasbyler]

Thinking abt how they’re all looking at a different person LMAO

Will -> El

El -> Mike

Mike -> Will

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Will’s uncomfortable, feels left out, and notices El acting different around Mike.

El’s laughing and trying to be like a couple again to Mike, but also lying to him a lot of the day.

Mike is joking around and wants to include Will, but won’t do it directly. He’s also making sure Will is having fun, but trying to please El by acting coupley at the rink.

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How else would Will know that El is faking her emotions and lying to Mike constantly if he wasn’t focusing on El?

Why else would El try to convince Mike that she was happy and had friends in California if she wasn’t trying to put up a front for him?

How else would Mike know if Will was being sulky or grumpy if he wasn’t watching Will’s reaction all the time?

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All of these result in different outcomes:

Will sternly tells El that she shouldn’t be faking things and hiding the fact that she’s getting bullied all the time.

El can’t hide her emotions anymore and she bonks her bully in front of Mike— even before that, she demands her bully to just go and tell Mike that it was a joke amongst friends.

Mike lashes out on Will because he’s mad that Will didn’t reach out to him either and calls Will out for being visibly upset the whole day at the rink.

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In conclusion:

Will wants El to be honest to Mike.

El wants to seem happy for Mike.

Mike wants Will to actually be happy.

=

Will is saying it’s okay to be upset in front of Mike.

El is hiding being upset for the sake of Mike.

Mike is trying to make Will not upset anymore.

#phew #okay #I gotta sleep now lmao #glad I got that off of my chest #if y’all say TLDR…. I mean fair enough but damn #will byers #mike wheeler #byler s4 #stranger things #byler #michael wheeler #william byers #stranger things s4 #stranger things s5 #stranger things season 5 #stranger things 5 #byler season 5 #byler s5 #byler season 4

[willkimurashat]

Rant? (potential spoilers?)

Alright, don't hate me for this, but I actually feel bad for Amelia. Firstly, no one's interested in her romantically (story of my life, and let me tell you, that really does your head in sometimes). Secondly, she's been put in the middle of drama multiple times now, for the sake of drama and/or for shaking her already somewhat shady/unsteady relationship with her twin. Thirdly, the guy that is supposedly head over heels with mc (in my game it was Roberto) goes on to kiss Amelia and then she has to act like nothing happened because she doesn't want to cause more drama for her sister, plus, he still acts all pouty around mc and looks disappointed when she doesn't pick him at the recoupling. Who's to say that Zeph didn't actually pine for Amelia the whole time he's been in a relationship with mc, and Amelia just had to watch that with pain all these years?? And now she has to see everyone in the villa swoon over mc, while she is, again, left in the shadow. I meannn, if I were Amelia, I'd probably cry all day or walk, ngl. So no, I don't want to be her enemy, we're siblings and I want us to be on the same team - I don't want any discourse between us, I just want to forget the past and for her to be happy in a couple with someone who genuinely cares for her.

#litg spoilers #i always click the option that says 'we're cool' #i don't want to be enemies with my sister - what kind of family would i be? #idk maybe if i had siblings irl i would say different things but this is like a sibling simulator to me and i want to make things right lol #anyways.. i also didn't like how roberto was awfully quiet during that whole conversation about their kiss on the terrace:/ #it rubbed me the wrong way how he just let amelia take the blame completely ignoring his constant grafting with mc after that... #okay i got it off my chest now lol #perhaps this means an amelia fic is in the making lol... #litg #love island the game #litg s6 #litg double trouble #litg amelia #litg roberto #litg mc

[grapecaseschoices]

things i'd like from bg4 or any similar future games

I think BG3 is very detailed; but I would really like it if the backgrounds had mattered more. Or at least for every one. I heard if you're a drow/half-drow noble you get special dialogue with Minthara. But why didn't my Folk Hero!Tav with Wyll [or just in general?] Or my Outlander!Tav with Karlach? I love that your character gets special interaction with all and sundry, at times, re: class and race. But backgrounds make a charcacter. I don't need details. Just a bit of a nod. At least within the camp.

This brings me to point two. I wish there was a way to get friendship points. It is so strange the characters can be 'meh' about you, dislike you [and strongly], but high to exceptional bonds trigger romance. What about close friendships or growing into a family?

Speaking of, I definitely would have love some down time chatter. It is so strange to me that you get a 'this could be our last time in camp' but don't do anything with it. I appreciate the tiefling [or goblin] party. I love the idle banter on the road. But why not a couple of casual fireside chats. As a group?

I love Halsin but the fact that he is the only one we can have a polyamorous dynamic with, is bull. I'm fine with not every character being into polyam -- but maybe research more before diving into it. I am 90% sure Wyll would've been okay with Polyam - a triad too! - if it was Halsin or Astarion [maybe with Lae'zel but I have to play further to be sure]. I could see Astarion and Shadowheart swinging a 'v' dynamic, and being the best [or worst for Tav's sanity] of metamours! Maybe it would have been a hassle for coding to fit every configuration, but we deserved at least a COUPLE of Tav x Origin x Origin loving.

Also, I think we should have been able to encourage - or maybe it could have happened sans MC involvement - the npcs getting together.

#bg3 #baldur's gate #larian studios #i have more thoughts #but that is all im going to say for now #if i got into my frustration about how the only fat characters that are taller than dwarves are evil i'd be here all week #or why is there only ONE character of color in the main cast?? - no karlach doesn't count bc her voice actress is white #i know no one in larian goes here #but if anyone is ever considering an if or a video game! keep this in mind #i really love how games like wayfarer/infamous/dropout/exile [to name to name a few] have 'main' characters who are either #strictly platonic or can differentiate between what dynamic mc will have with the potential romance options #i also love how they have subromances #i wanted to list that too put this was getting long #i also no one but my moots will read this but that's perfect bc we can bitch in peace #nd that's what i wanted to get off my chest #i keep looking at karlach and dammon and being like roflmao why cant theys mooch? #or if pandira was a side/sub romance or lia - i like their fces okay #and im looking forward to adair/shadowheart/halsin but what ive heard there isnt much to be excited about lmao #also there's no bg4. the header is jokes!

[viatrixtravels]

// Woke up today and immediately started brainrotting about xlmi again...Gonna put this one under read more so those who aren't interested can easily skip it.

Basically thinking about how I feel like Xiao would be the little spoon about 90% of the time after they start dating / sharing a bed.

I imagine he's usually out hunting/killing demons until pretty late at night so more often than not, Lumine is already in bed by the time he returns to their shared room at the Inn (or the teapot whichever floats your boat). He wouldn't want her to stay awake for him but we all know she does anyway lol.

These moments would be the hardest on Xiao because it's when he's practically drowning in self-hatred and just feels disgusted by himself. He'd probably insist on always showering/taking a bath first because he doesn't want to join her while reeking of demon blood.

Then when he finally does crawl under the covers, his favorite thing to do is curl up into her arms and bury his face in Lumine's chest as she pampers him with forehead kisses while gently stroking his back. This just makes any negative emotions from before melt away and it's one of the rare moments when he truly does feel at ease.

Another one of my personal xlmi HCs is that his nightmares became significantly less frequent ever since he started sharing the bed with her. I don't think they would entirely go away (at least not right away) but he even starts having some good dreams every now and then which would be completely new to him. uwu

Also Xiao is the CLINGIEST bf ever in the morning fr. Lumine would be like 'I have to get up. I have commissions to do' but he keeps on clinging onto her and begs to stay in bed to cuddle for five more minutes (which actually turns out to be nearly two hours in the end lol).

#;; the admin speaks #xiaolumi #// okay now that I got that off my chest I can do some stuff for work lol

[theabyssgazesalsointoyou]

based on real life events etc. i'm in my hopeless romantic pining era </3

Jake Dillinger could not recall the last time he'd had a crush.

Christine? She was lovely, but could he call that a crush? No, it had been stupid and impulsive- even cruel- of him to try and start something with her just because she was cute and he needed a distraction. Madeline? Absolutely not. Chloe? Maybe, once upon a time. But he barely remembered how that had felt, overshadowed by years of fighting and screaming matches in the hallway and messy hate sex.

And here he was now: lightheaded as he stared up at the ceiling from his bed, heart fluttering and head spinning, Rich Rich Rich Rich the only thing on his mind.

He was painfully gorgeous. Soft blond hair that stuck out in curls all over the place, purple hairdye, freckles like stars, eyes that he could get lost in. Jake would be lying if he said he hadn't noticed that before- but the way his heart skipped at every small smile was completely different from how his stomach used to twist whenever Rich would give him that cold, cruel smirk.

And the smell of coffee and tea always lingering on his clothes, in his hair. Rich had taken to working at a coffee shop recently and of this, Jake was far too aware. The slightest whiff of coffee was enough to make his heart race like he'd had too much, yet he found himself even more addicted than he'd already been.

Jake could have ignored it if it had been anyone else- but Rich always found a way into Jake's life. (Truth be told, it was probably Jake always finding excuses to let him in.) Leaning in close to whisper something to him during class, seemingly unaware of how Jake blushed at how their hands brushed for a fraction of a second. Jake could never keep track of what Rich liked to go on and on about but he could listen to that voice forever.

God, it was all too much. The ceiling seemed to spin as Jake blinked rapidly and though the autumn air was cool, every inch of his skin felt like it was on fire- a fire that started in his chest and threatened to burst through his ribcage. Sparks of gold and green and purple flashed before his closed eyes. Coffee-scented air left him intoxicated and out of breath.

I love you, I love you, I love you. Oh, if only Jake had the courage to let rich hear it.

#bmc #be more chill #richjake #jake dillinger #rich goranski #the abyss writes back to you #okay now i got some of it off my chest gn

[brawlsbigbadonkers]

I’m so normal about earthspark brawl.

#transformers #tf #brawl #earthspark #it’s been a tough. ROUGH ASS WEEK. #but you know what? it’s okay. I will survive (after I stress my balls off) #anyway I love brawl and I was so happy (in destress ) to see him in earthspark #HES FUCKIN HUGE #I LOVED IT #SOMEONE PLAY SZA BIG BOY BECAUSE HE WAS BIG MY GAWDDDD YESSSSS #BRO WHEN HE SPINEBREAKED BUMBLEBEE I SHOUTED TO MY ROOF I WAS SO HAPPY #AND THEN HE HIT THE FUCK OUTTA BEE WITH HIS CHEST OF GAWDDD I LOVED THIS MAN #I felt like they got lazy with his fight because brawl can THROW DOWN and I was not feeling that In his fight #EARTHSPARK STOP THROWING IN CHARATERS AND NEVER USING THEN TO THEIR POTENTIAL #HE SHOULD OF BODIED BEE LIKE KILLLLL KILLLL #but brawl my darling I loved you for the few minutes you where In earthspark #HE DIDNT EVEN HAVE A VOICE #I hope he’s okay and then meets up with swindle…. #macadam #maccadam #ALSO WHERE WAS HIS BACK CANNONNNN #NEVER SEEN A BRAWL WITH OUT A BACK CANNON #COWARDSSSDS #IM NAWING AT MY ENCLOSURE BARS HOW DAREEEEEEE THEY #BRAWL BRAWL BRAWL #oh brawl i love you

[aturnoftheearth]

“i could do without time’s blur” just say you’ve never looked around and realized that everything that is comfortable and familiar has changed around you or, even worse, will one day change and there’s nothing you can do about it there’s no slowing down time there’s no going back the closest you will ever get to the past is the pang of nostalgia you get when something reminds you of the memory and you just have to sit with that . it’s like you haven’t even seen the end of alive from whispering pines episode 426

#it’s 3am i was trying to sleep but i got hit with overwhelming fear that everything and everyone i love will one day cease to exist and how #am i supposed to be okay with that. so of course i turn on time’s blur to really hammer the nails in my chest and im sobbing and its painful #and i remember earlier seeing someone on reddit say they could easily leave time’s blur off of long lost and it’s like. okay. couldn’t be me #anyway my eyes are swollen and puffy time to sleep goodnight whoever sees this kiss kiss

[avacynthia]

I'm dying to know — are your portrayals of Cynthia and Barry connected in anyway? If so, what is their relationship like? Do you have any headcanons regarding Cynthia's connection with Dawn, Lucas and or Barry that you'd like to share? What does she think of them?

First off, THANK YOU for the wonderful question ashford!! I really appreciate it. Shoutouts to you, @gogogobarry (me, hee hee), @distortsverity, @timebranded, @dawnedon and ALL the lovely DPPT protags that I've gotten to write with over time.😊

And the short answer is: yes!! Cynthia's relationship with Barry and the other protagonists is something that I've been mulling over since the beginning of time (move over, Dialga)...so I have a few major thoughts on how Cynthia views all of them.

Most importantly, Cynthia views the protagonists' entanglement with Galactic--and the Galactic arc in sum--as her biggest, most shameful failure. She allowed Cyrus to pull the wool over her eyes regarding Galactic's schemes, and almost lost everything as a result, too busy/preoccupied to notice what was happening right under her nose. If she had been more present, could she have prevented the Lake Valor bombing? The creation of the Red Chain? Perhaps. However, Dawn/Hikari, Lucas, and Barry should have never carried any of that burden, or dealt with any of those problems, to begin with. They were just kids.

The guilt--god, that overwhelming guilt--despite her sessions with Fumiko, Riley, and a few scattered (ultimately unhelpful) therapists, those memories (Galactic's scars) still keep her up deep into the night, cursing her shortsightedness. She had been so obsessed with Sinnoh's rise, that she'd lost sight of those--with good intentions and bad--still on the ground.

Though portrayals view them differently, the Spear Pillar/Distortion World events undoubtedly left the young protags with damage. Trauma. Cynthia (champion or not, depending on timeline) now views their collective well-being as her responsibility. If they need to talk, she'll listen, even if she has to rearrange her entire schedule to do so. She's not a hoverer, but she'll make sure to check in on all of them with comfortable regularity, just ensuring that everything's okay. Cynthia owes them that much, at the very least.

Barry's can-do attitude and sunshiny personality are always appreciated, but Cynthia is there to support him all the same, even if that means hearing out some truly wild business pitches or throwing down for an exhilarating rematch. Or ten.

For the player characters, Cynthia remembers feeling truly useless atop the Pillar, bombarded by confusing visions of past, present and future. Within the Distortion, an overwhelmed Cynthia had relied on Dawn/Hikari/Lucas once again, and they triumphed over Cyrus, one last time. (She had asked too much of them then, and she is still haunted by it. She'll never forget the frustrating helplessness that she had felt in that void...)

Nowadays, Cynthia is making up for lost time. Whenever the protagonists (or really anyone) needs her, they'll find a reliable pillar of strength. Attentive, thoughtful, and--though her eyes still wander skyward on occasion--grounded in the moment. A shining inspirational beacon for all of Sinnoh to look up to.

To become stronger, Cynthia has steeled a part of herself, becoming more private and guarded, trying her best to ignore the tantalizing memory of the divine spark that had shocked her atop the Pillar back then. She maintains a selfless vigil over the protagonists and all of Sinnoh, because it is her duty. Because it is her penance.

Cynthia cannot afford to fail again. The weight of a region rests on her shoulders, and she wouldn't have it any other way. She can take this.

She will keep watch.

#intriguant #(GOD OKAY I got carried away LMAO) #(tysm for this ask!! I really needed to just get ALL of this off my chest i guess) #(I love sinnoh.) #star pieces. (hcs)

[apoptoses]

This is apropros of nothing and I’m really the last person who should be giving advice but-

Time and time again when I’ve dreaded posting a piece of writing and felt ashamed and upset and like it wasn’t good enough, I’ve found that what was really going on was my gut telling me it needed editing again. Taking a second or third or fourth pass over it will reveal some detail I knew in my heart I’d missed but hadn’t been able to put my finger on and then it’ll click and I’ll feel fine.

Not that over-editing isn’t a thing (asking yourself ‘am I making improvements or just changing stuff for change’s sake’ is always key here). But the ‘ugh I hate this I don’t ever want to look at it’ voice is just instincts telling you something is missing and only editing will let you know what.

So just. Don’t believe the negative voice! Change the wording of it! ‘This sucks’ is actually just ‘This needs edited’ and you just have to rip that bandaid off and do it.

#saying this because i've been avoiding Big WiP for weeks and just now got over myself #re-edited chapter 1 and now am about to post it #because i'm happy with it and it's fine #i just missed some details on the second draft and it's okay!! #but if i hadn't ripped that bandaid off and edited it again i would have just deleted the whole thing or let it rot lol #anyways i'm gonna eat dinner and then post that and get it off my chest

[myfriendfoundmyusername]

6.5/10 episode (the 6 is mostly the summer reveal and ruby scenes tbh)

Tiny ass rant bc this might be a be a bit rwde esp to jaune fans so beware

It honestly just feels so off and out of place that it’s again, mostly Jaune reacting to everything happening? when most of that could’ve been given to WBY reacting to what ruby did? I know they’re probbably aware shes not really gonna die but RUBY DRANK THAT TEA WITH A SUICIDAL INTENT AND AS A SUICIDAL ATTEMPT. You do not brush that shit off. Half of it felt so unnecessary, This is giving me v4/5 Jaune war flashbacks. I’m sorry but I’m honestly getting tired of this fr

Also half(or even most) of his screentime in that ep could’ve been at least given to ruby’s scene in the tree bc honestly, that scene alone had some of the really good conversations in the entire show that would’ve been great to be fleshed out even more (her talking asking the lady if shes gonna die, about not feeling enough, feeling as if all the weapons in that room were to heavy for her. It all felt so real and personal)

#rwby #rwby spoilers #rwde #i guess #ruby rose #just dont want certain stans to come after me #not rlly in amood for a fight #the ep just sorta felt off #also just need to get this outta my chest #okay half the ep was off but the other half still got me sobbing #to be completely fair #adding that since i got to rewatch it this morning w a clearer mind #bc yall might think I hate this ep as a whole #its still one of the bests in terms of overall rwby episodes okaay

[sundayswiththeilluminati]

Destiny skybox team I love you so much and I am on my knees begging you to stop making every outer planet a recolored photo of Jupiter.

Yes, we don't have much in the photo department for Uranus and Neptune. Yes, their atmospheres are less spectacular because their colder temperatures mean most of the dramatic swirly storms are lower in the atmosphere and hidden by ice hazes. But that doesn't mean they're any less spectacular! Neptune has beautiful dark blue storms and white clouds! And Saturn! Saturn, with the vast and free Cassini image archives!

THIS IS NOT SATURN:

THIS IS SATURN:

That's a natural-color image, by the way. Unretouched, unfiltered, straight-up that is what Saturn looks like. I love your work. I do! I really, really do. Please. I'm begging you. I can't take another Jupiter dyed kool-aid blue.

#Destiny 2 #sorry it drives me INSANE when scifi media does this #and there is NO EXCUSE when it comes to Saturn #whew okay I've got that off my chest #now I can enjoy Lightfall #this is the wager of existence

[unclewaynemunson]

okay i know i should probably just let this slide and not be so dramatic about it but i saw this edit of a bald joe quinn going around on here and the thing is. i know that probably none of those reactions are meant in a malicious way. i don’t wanna be this overly sensitive whiny person. but as a bald person who’s really trying to rock the bald look with the same ease as i wear my wig, it’s those kind of things that kinda feel like a blow to my confidence.

#sorry if this is very incoherent i just got frustrated and wanted to get it off my chest #i hate that it's been years and i'm genuinely okay with not having hair and then boom #there's one little thing and i suddenly get all self-conscious and sensitive again #i thought i was past this ffs

[moonbeam-fox]

I've been CPR certified since I was 12 or 13 and as of today I am 1 for 1 on successful rescues

#my posts #im okay now #we did 3 doses of narcan and i did 3 sets of chest compressions before we got a pulse/agonal breath #the adrenaline is wearing off but i think ill be okay #she was stable with good oxygenation when they loaded her in the ambulance #carry narcan y'all #get BLS certified