#nope. mediocre at best. assigned background choir member for life

[daisywords]

they should make a support group for people who love to sing but are cursed with mediocre voice

#if I had the flashy voice genetics I would be unstoppable #literally I can write music and arrange covers and sightread well and harmonize and hold my own on complicated choir parts #but will I ever be ''a good singer?'' #nope. mediocre at best. assigned background choir member for life #which is fine (love singing in choirs) but even then there's a stopping point #I won the choir department award at my high school (literally I was section leader all 4 years) #but then didn't make it past callbacks when I auditioned for choir at my university #and anyway now I just have to scrounge minutes of being home alone so I can sing at the piano in peace #I don't like singing when people can hear me in case they think I have delusions of grandeur lol #it's like yeah I know I'm not like. good. can I just enjoy things #esp since one of my current roommates has a very good voice and is part of a very good a cappella group. makes me self conscious #anyway sometimes I get nostalgic for when my youngest brother was a baby who was not very good at going to sleep at night #and we took turns putting him to bed and when it was my turn I got to sing him every song I knew #which was not embarrassing! bc it was obviously for a higher purpose! #do I daydream about having my own babies so I can sing to them? also yes!