#no coping mechanism can turn off the deluge of chaos in my brain at all times

[unhinged-nymph]

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#so here's the thing #my new medication helps me feel less sad and hopeless #which honestly thank god cuz it was real rough there for a bit #(i mean we haven't embarked into this year's seasonal depression yet so tbd) #but no medication i've ever taken has helped with the sheer amount of overwhelm i deal with every moment of every day #and i'm not even feeling particularly anxious all the time #(although i do feel it... a lot lol) #but i am just bombarded by constant thoughts and sensory overload and constant frustration and just overall complete overwhelm when it #comes to literally any task #and it is so fucking exhausting #and that's when i start to feel like.... ok i literally cannot do this forever #but what other choice do i have? #no coping mechanism can turn off the deluge of chaos in my brain at all times #and i just don't know what i'm supposed to do about any of this #(and the answer can't be more therapy because i can't afford it lol) #(and it has never worked for me anyway) #this sucks