#nearly had a panic attack. was told it jsut happens sometimes & not to worry abt it (???that’s not normal what the fuck????)

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#do not rb #i want to ******* *** why has today been so shitty #I have felt like absolute fucking garbage all day from the moment I woke up to the point where others also noticed smth wasn’t right #and by felt like absolute fucking garbage I don’t mean like The Big Sad I mean like I Feel Like I Am Going To Pass Out From Exhaustion #and could not focus at all & brain was all over the place constantly #and physically I felt just as bad & still do #was barely able to eat all day bc I felt sick #which did not help w the tiredness #had an entire litre bottle of water & still was as dehydrated as that spongebob meme #and then I got home after a particularly tiring walk (v hot and bag was extra heavy) & was looking forward so much to just relaxing #& getting myself together for tmr so I don’t fall behind in my classes already #and blood mention tw for the next bit & if you have emetophobia don’t read too #as soon as I open the door I am greeted with blood & vomit everywhere from my dog #and by everywhere I mean. upstairs & downstairs.​ & on my mother’s bed. #nearly had a panic attack. was told it jsut happens sometimes & not to worry abt it (???that’s not normal what the fuck????) #so I had to deal w all that #mind you still hadn’t gotten a chance to sit down or have water or food or anything #and just. ffnfhsjhfskhskjsndkhfiuanfiushkjh I hate this so much I am in so much pain #and I am Very Close to jsut #breaking into tears at any given moment