#my hesrt rate is high and my family doesn't understand me and i think i miss home

[bougainvilea]

want to scream

#im at my grandmas house and my uncle is racist and i cant sleep #and the windows dont have blinds and theres light everywhere and i feel anxious as fuck #i am trying to think abt my dnd character but every plot line feels like pulling teeth #even remembering that phrase was hard sjjssjhs #my hesrt rate is high and my family doesn't understand me and i think i miss home #which is so dumb i never miss home #i just want to get away #why does my grandma keep telling everyone i want ro see all the family (i dont) #why do people keep speaking to me in english in front of her its so fucking rude she cant understand a single word! #why cant i find any words to explain how i feel to my family #why am i here i want to rent an airbnv #just so i dont have to see them all the time #i feel so trapped #and i want to cry #maybe ill just do that #aya talks