#my grandma also have a gas stove but at least it ignites itself alone

[tenrose]

Just turned on the heating for the first time of the season... Already seeing money running away through the window 🙃

#misc #but mainly already stressing out about the weird noise and shit #calling the cleaning service tomorrow #i mean it's not like i turn it on for a long time #the boiler is on all the time to heat water #so no more risk of gas poisoning than usual #but this fear won't ever disappear #that and that shit suddenly breaking and no more heating and hot water #anywayyy #feel like i've been stressing about that every single year since i moved here #can't wait to be able to go somewhere with absolutely no fucking gas in the vicinity #genuinely don't know why I'm triggered so much by gas 🙃 #like my parents have a gas stove #that need to be opened and lighted with a match/fire thing #and I always fucking hated it #I was less scared to light the chimney fire (but absolutely bad at it lmao) #and so several time i was supposed to cook when they left and they come back to me having a mental breakdown because i couldn't #cause i was scared #my grandma also have a gas stove but at least it ignites itself alone #anyway #im supposed to know how to behave around gas #and modern boilers are normally very secure #and also i don't know anyone around me that has been poisoned by gas #so i really have no explanation for that fear #it's like... something in my dna reacting to a primal threat #i overthinl at every little noise the boiler makes (and boilers make noise CONSTANTLY) #ughhhh hate it #(anyway money ain't the thing i fear most) #why am i rambling about this once again????