#months ago and not now whilw youre waiting

[anakinthetrashking]

In which Kamet sums up my exact feelings on Eugenidies

[image description: a small screenshot from the book Thick as Thieves reading: "What a piece of work he was. I don't know why I like him as much as I do." End description]

#tqt #the queen's thief #queen's thief #kamet #kamet kingnamer #eugenides #attolis #attolis eugenides #mwt #megan whalen turner #why is this a screenshot and not a picture of my book? #well its bc i was enjoying the weather and didn't want to have to get the book from my room #so i borrowed it from the library again and read it on my phone #you can tell that theres a new book in the series bc The Thief is on hold for 26weeks #the other books also have wait times upwards of 6 weeks #thank goodness i read them for the first time in January #also‚ youre welcome‚ people who use my library‚ its bc of me that the contract for the ebook was renewed #months ago and not now whilw youre waiting #i checked them out a couple times before buying my own copies 😅 #although i imagine it might need to be renewed again haha

[virqinn]

So this is a story of a college girl who was learning to lover herself little by little but still had major insecurities. She met this boy who asked for her number and she happily gave it to him. He made her feel so special. Nothing like ever before. All her past boyfriends either cheated on her or mentally abused her . but not this guy. He would call her perfect and beautiful,× he would show her the world. She felt so loved. He said I love you after a week. She called him crazy, he said crazy in love. They had all the same interests and he flew her to see his parents. She thought it was a fairytale. Soon time went by. She was happy. Then he said he lied about loving her before. She cried. They argued. She forgave. Things were better again. Until...she went on vacation with him and his parents. She thought of a prank and was going to change her name on his phone when she stumbled across these messages. "Hey babe, how are you? Wish You were here. Dont you want to be in a relationship with me? I love you!" ...she...she felt heart broken. Betrayed. What am i doing here? Why? What did i do? She felt numb. She Sat there in the dark thinking heart broken and she started at the man she loved who didn't love her back. That's when it started. The cycle. She threw the pillow at him and asked why? His response was always the same. I dont know. She was hurt. But she forgave. Things were better. Until they went to the movies. "Who are you texting? Put your phone away" she said. After the movies the said there good byes and went home. Till the next day she received screen shots "i love You baby. Im at the theaters I'll see you after. I cant wait to fuck you face down ass up" she cried at work. She felt numb again. Why did this happen am I not enough. He was texting her all through out the movies while I sat next to him. She sent him the screen shots. He pleaded guilty and asked for forgiveness. She accepted but still very broken. She didn't let it get to her. She acted happy. Then she saw more. " I love you baby. I'll buy you a plane ticket so you can spend Tuesday's with me" he said he worked Tuesday's. He lied. The cycle continued. "Im sorry baby" She forgave. Each time feeling more stupid, ugly, lonely, numb, and broken. Things started to slow down in there relationship. He never called her pretty or perfect. His affection dramatically declined. She felt hurt and rejected and had to beg for sex just to get scorned at. Life went on. She put a smile on her face. He moved and she served him day and night. 1 hour massages, clean clothes, home cooked meals, complements left and right. Yet she received nothing. Fast forward a month and they are back on family vacation in which she finds him snapchatting 3 other girls and his ex he loved very much. "I wish you were sleeping nexting me" he messaged her. "Really?" she replied. This tore the girl up the most as she was sleeping next to him when he sent that. Everyday her heart and confidence grew weaker. Your ugly, your fat, no one loves you, I hate you, kill yourself, you dont deserve to be happy, your weak!! She told herself everyday. She only found 3 things she liked about herself. Her hair, her eyes, her cheeks. She forgave him as usual and she continued her life putting him first and treating him like a king showering him with complements. Life moved on. She would catch him cheating amd she would forgive. They went through everything trrying to help their relationship in all the different places but his faithfulness. She changed herself to fit him. The sweet smiley girl who loved to give kisses and cuddles and giggled at the little things in life went cold. 3 years went by shed catch them, they'd argue, she forgave. She tried to turn to supstance for help. She thought xannax would hep numb her and full the void. She started using regularly until she overdosed and ended at the hospital. She continued this for months. And he contined with his games.

Things never really for better. They just lived with each other. Then his grandma died. He flew to florida for a week to attend her funeral. While there he met this girl called clair She was everything the girl was not. She never met her but in just one day her boyfriend was willing to drop his 3 year relationship to be with her. On the flight back he was texting her he insisted on breaking up with his gf for her the day he flew back. She just wanted to be friends for now. He said okay but he wants to be more than that in 9 months. He texted her through a second phone number his gf didnt know about. He was also texting other girls, 2 of which he planned on meeting up with the day he arrived and have sex. As soon as his plane landed his gf happly picked him up in which she received no hung or kiss She felt Rejected and ugly. They hung out the whole day but found out about his second phone number and the other girls through his bestfriends fiancee. They double date often and one day the fiancee invites the girl to talk. She confessed that she fucked her boyfriend a year ago on her birthday. She felt confused. How could he do this? The way he talks about her behind her back in the most ugliest way yet he cheated on her with that girl. They argued big time. They each went to therapy. He admitted of having a cheating problem and swore up and down he wasnt talking to anybody. That was a lie he was talking to 4 other girls. One in which she found out while her bf was in florida a girl slept over. He said nothing happened. Until the girl saw a text from her on his phone about not wantimg to be in a relationship at the moment. She confronted him about it and small he had to say was " good for her" this broke whatever peices of heart she had left. She cried for day for hours. She found herself constantly thinking about all those times. How stupid she was and idiotic. All those boys she passed up for a boy who didnt love her. He refused to break up with her and she refused to break up with him. Daily she would accuse him. Theyd break up but get back togther. He was always brutally honest. He never showed he love her and when she mustered up what ever confidence she had she would doll her self up for him. For him to only his phone. She'd sit on top of him gently griding and kissing him whilw he completely ignores her or acts annoyed. What ever confidence she had disappeared. Those 3 things she liked about herself went to 0. She would call her self ugly and worthless because thats how she felt. But she loved him because she could not love herself.