#might delete at some point because we're in dubious territory nda-wise even if I'm being vague

[rawliverandgoronspice]

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help I'm having a case of "game got out, many complicated feelings, beer in a dingey hotel room by the highway on my own", we'll get through it but I might cry about it a little bit at some point

#thoughts #personal #these moments always make me ponder on the relationship of gamedevs and the audience regarding fandom and criticism #because it's sooo complicated #very often you will agree with the criticism wholeheartedly #perhaps in many ways the audience has not picked up (yet or at all because some information is just kinda out of reach) #but to see that criticism casually dropped on your lap by people who are... basically tourists to a situation you fought tooth and nail for #that can afford to say “this thing sucks haha lol” and move away and never think twice about it #it does hurt #it does hurt even when you agree and you'd be even more critical of the same thing #you're like “cool haha sorry you don't like the end result” #“me neither tho fun fact btw this exact thing you're describing was my tipping point into a major mental health crisis" #“but I guess you'll never know about that!!” #“so fun and cool have a nice day I'll handle your casual “End Result Bad Lol” emotionally in some way eventually” #(which is why I think good in-depth criticism is actually MORE cathartic for devs than shallower “well that kinda sucked”) #(but that's just me I think most of my colleagues would disagree) #cw mental health #might delete at some point because we're in dubious territory nda-wise even if I'm being vague #but UHHH yeah #yea yea yea