#me when I might need it: ahhh idk I hadn't penciled 'managing anxiety' in for tonight though....

[blujayonthewing]

desire to save weed for the weekends lost out to the idea that maybe just resigning myself to the sobbing anxiety attack I'm already forseeing when I go to bed for, essentially, no meaningful reason is dumb actually

#me: I wanna be sparing so it maintains good potency when I really Need it #me when I might need it: ahhh idk I hadn't penciled 'managing anxiety' in for tonight though.... #I'd be worried if it was Like This every time I went without for a few days but this is just impending blood moon hormones #compounding [gestures vaguely] a bunch of world factors giving me existential dread lmao. I'll be fine in [checks app] like two days #but for the time being there is literally no reason to choose to just hyperventilate myself to sleep #when trying to chill myself the fuck out organically for the last five hours hasn't really helped #STUPIIIIID SUCKSSSS I WAS FINE THIS MORNING I SPENT ALL YESTERDAY GOING THROUGH IT BUT I WAS FINE EARLY IN THE DAY TODAY!! WHAT THE FUCK MAN #about me