#maybe itll stop my world from returning to ash. hopefully

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I'm walking. Fast. The world is tilted. There's green peaking up from flat gray. Short, stubby moss. Like an ooze. Like the sidewalk is compressing it sideways. Persistent even in a concrete jungle. This little thing. This tiny thing. Reaching up toward the sun from under trampling feet. Toward a distant star. And I'm walking, but I'm light through a prism. Splitting seven different directions. A billion and a billion and a billion years brought this tiny crumpled organism to the crushing weight of my foot. And I want to scream and I want to run and I want to cry. Because it's beautiful and I'm worried I'm the only one who sees it. I'm worried it'll burn through me. I'm worried that when I walk this path for my hundred thousandth time, I won't see it like I did this first time. That my world will fall to ash again and I won't see the moss growing up between the seams in the sidewalk.

#cringe writing. bc in my grant writing class we switched to public outreach. so i have to write a thing that will go on the radio #and its better if u add a personal component. the lady gave us a prompt: take a memory of being out in nature and write like u love it. #like u hate it and write it nutral. we only had ten min. and for some reason i was like. hm i will write #abt one of my 1st times walking to this building and i saw some moss. maybe not a typical out in nature memory #but for some reason it came to mind. bc my mood was a lil elevated so i was like a lil insane. i think thats when i went out onto my deck #and was like weeping like i see the clouds and the sunbeams and they feel like angels lol #idk wtf im gonna write for the radio tho. like i just wanna talk abt algae but i dont wanna do it infomative. which is the intention. i #just want vibes. like who cares if it relates to ur life. appreciate the green goo. its cool as fuck #idk. its only 9.30 and im sweepy. im back to being knocked tf out at night after my medication dosage went up lol #maybe itll stop my world from returning to ash. hopefully #idk my tatto0 is fucking itchy >:'[ #unrelated