#man. Im tired. golly I wanna make the content I wanna see.

[thebuttsmcgee]

maybe the true colors were the shrimp colors we made along the way 😔

#the butts chronicles #hey guys........I have energy rn for some reason so Im wasting it on here #my leg is bouncing and Im ready to kill. I want cheetos #soooo. hope yall have been well! #Ive been shit but I drank milk today an ate uhh brisket and an ice cream. also sun chips. #man. Im tired. golly I wanna make the content I wanna see. #like I have the ideas! I have some ideas on how to write certain scenes! I have the excitement to do it! #but i get so discouraged by my own self. granted I already have some stuff written down #but like. I got three major things I wanna make. webcomics. #and 1 of them is gunna cause a looooooooooooOooooooot. of discourse. #since its a rewrite of an already established series. is p funny tho cuz Im making everyone gay #like gay in the sense that you canNOT look away from it you have to acknowledge it. it is important to everything in it #its why certain things will not go the same way its why the determination for others to do better exist its why someone is willing to go #the ugliness of redemption! its why [REDACTED] is a more detailed thing!!! ITS SO FUN AND GENUINELY MAKES ME HAPPY #AIUGGH. FUCK. anyways. man. ughh. #the only person who really knows about it and my plans for some of it (mostly that Im making it gay) is my counselor #which Im glad she doesnt judge me but god. GOD. i wanna talk about it soooo bad!!!!!! but I will not! #mainly cuz if I DO make it a thing I wanna surprise everyone. that and I am immensely terrified of criticism. #not to say I shouldn't listen to that becuz criticism is absolutely necessary but like. Ive been criticized all my life on most things #ESPECIALLY my drawing skills. it isnt even funny like most things in my life including me. it just always put me down. #ffs someone I once had a crush on laughed at me becuz I kinda gave sonic crossed eyes. so embarrassing. and critically hurting my confidence #but thats besides the point. my point is that I think I might be able to talk about it but if Im extremely careful. anyways. my other 2 #major wants to make are just fun lil adventures with an immensely depressed man learning to love himself and found family #and the other is a bi vampire who orders from a fast food restaurant a lot to see the cute deliveryman. hijinks ensue. #oh yea the redemption one is also about like. knights and fantasy stuff and whatnot. like beserk. or that spongebob episode. #so yea. turns out my brain might have some good ideas hrmhrmrhm #day was kinda shit tho but hopefully yall have been well!