#man now im staring at the 30 page epilogue wondering if I should just cut 25 pages of it lmfao. anyway.

[yellowocaballero]

is knives closer to brad than luida? does she remind him of rem too much?

So much to say about this one and please re-ask it (or I'll rb it) further down the line when we know more!

I can say now that Knives hero worships Brad a bit while he's closer to actual friends with Luida. Which doesn't necessarily equal closeness either way. I think you can tell this already by how often Knives thinks about what Brad would do and what he would say if he was there. They have a very unique relationship that's probably my favorite in the fic, and it was hard to write so I hope it lands how I want it to land.

It's interesting writing a main character of Trigun who's not obsessed with Rem. Knives was more mature than Vash, and as happens frequently in families with a high needs kid like Vash he got a little promoted to part-time caregiver (he also promoted himself, to be fair), so he had a more mature relationship with Rem than Vash ever did. So he's not as obsessed with her pacifism, which means that Knives is pacifist for different reasons in a different way. In a. You know. 'Cold turkey' way.

I never got much chance to explore this, but Vash is absolutely still obsessed with Rem. I couldn't see any situation where Vash didn't do exactly what he thought Rem would want. Which severely affected me writing him because that means that he has to have a baseline level of Space Alien Scifi Insanity for that to be part of his mental schema for the world. Jonestowning a city and telling himself that Rem would want him to do that means that this baseline level has to be extremely high.

This fic was. Really tricky. So tricky. Very tricky. I'm proud of it but MAN you still have to wonder if you did what you wanted to do.

#my writing #there is so much to say about every inch of this and im itching to say it lmfao #because it was so tricky so I had to put even more thought into this shit than usual F #I say that Vash was hard as hell to write and that's true #Wolfwood was also hard as hell to write #and Meryl. #the whole thing was hard #but on another level it was actually pretty easy #i blinked and it was at 100k #if a story has a good foundation and a good structure then no matter how tricky it is it's not hard to write #a story with weak characters and convoluted arcs and a shaky foundation is hard as fuck to write #I see ppl saying that putting less effort into stories makes them easier to write #and that's true to a degree #but if the story gets over 20k or so then actually putting less effort in at the beginning makes it SUPER HARD #lots of ppl I know who have issues writing long stories just have issues with structuring a story #man now im staring at the 30 page epilogue wondering if I should just cut 25 pages of it lmfao. anyway.