#majspeaks

[jungnoir]

just popping in to say do you guys remember jeno's outfit when he danced to taemin's want. y'all remember that. do you all remember because I just remembered. Im going to lose my mind

#i had a dream about him last night and was reminded why he was superior #majspeaks #i miss him....

[demideity]

DID Alter blogs!

@majspeaks - Majesty, dramatic hoe, lots of edgy aesthetics and pastel positivity, blood trigger warning.

@7inchknife - Dean, fictive, gay man, really into wilderness survival and knives.

@softstim - a collab by my littles Bug, Clara, and Bev, a stim and animals blog. It’s really cute y’all, definitely check it out.

@acruxsystem - a system blog for system memes, a very important thing for any system to have.

@didpod - the blog of our podcast (!!!) My Alter My Alter and Me, where my roommates and I talk about our experiences with being DID systems and offer advice. It’s really good, consider giving it a listen!

[jungnoir]

even though I’m on here less, I still come back to check every reblog and ask to read your comments and tags and they ALWAYS make my day, so thank you to everyone still spreading the love~

also slight update: I recently picked up a wip I had from a long time ago (I deleted my wips page so I’m not even sure you’d be able to find anything about it on here but) called “the fifth”. it’s a witch!jinyoung fic that is sitting pretty at 19 pages and almost 10k words and I’m not even done yet... I’m seriously debating on leaving it a jinyoung fic or not since I don’t keep up with got7 anymore or if I should turn it into a final fantasy fic.... decisions, decisions.

#majspeaks #the jinyoung character is starting to escape jinyoung... which is why I'm wondering if I should just change it to someone else #like cloud strife lol

[jungnoir]

was trying to think of a way to describe how destiny!taehyung is perceived by guardian angels since they should be able to sense angel or demon blood in someone but he has both and my best explanation was that he’s like a walking bed bath and body works. you have no idea what you’re smelling but there’s a fucking lot of it

#majspeaks #that's it that's the post

[jungnoir]

rules: go here and make yourself a witch!

tagged by @nochanchu

tagging: whoever wants to do this!

#majspeaks #yes that's blood

[jungnoir]

was feeling really down tonight until i saw a picture of jeno and suddenly everything is right with the world

#majspeaks #this happens so much #i’ll just be super sad and then jeno and suddenly i have hope again

[jungnoir]

your favorite trash author here: making edits to chapter 7 of destiny before I finally unleash a new chapter on you. be forewarned

#all my classes have been moved online so I have more time to sit on my ass apparently #majspeaks #but i've got some GOOD SHIT COMING

[jungnoir]

I wrote a piece about witch!bts headcanons during bst era. every day, I wonder if I should post it

#majspeaks #it was kinda cute

[jungnoir]

i have so many old dm’s that would take so long to weed through but to the person who told me to watch anohana, if you’re still following me: fuk u

#that shit was sad as HELL #i cried!!! how dare you #majspeaks

[jungnoir]

i love when i lose a follower after i post because that means someone just got reminded that i exist and needed to return to blissful ignorance

#afhiasjfifas #i too would do the same if not for this mortal flesh prison #majspeaks

[jungnoir]

me: yeah no this blog is closed I won’t be writing here anymore

also me: *writes something and posts it here*

#i'm sorry i confuse y'all so much #it's been a while since i've written for kpop so i'm just. i MISS IT #majspeaks #i also did all my homework so i sincerely have nothing else to do

[jungnoir]

forgot that having my dm’s open to the public means I get spam messages again lmao

#majspeaks

[jungnoir]

heads up abt destiny!!

on ao3, I combined some chapters because the lengths were a bit short. I’m going to do the same on here, as well as posting the updated, rewritten versions so that everything is the same on either platform. you may see some later chapters deleted, but that’s only because some of them got pushed together. this only applies to chapters past chapter one.

#majspeaks

[jungnoir]

I am... adding an extra scene to a chapter of destiny (that I already published and am currently rewriting) and it’s got yoongi and jungkook and no sense of personal space. so look forward to that :D

#majspeaks #I'm setting up a better foundation for what's to come Later

[jungnoir]

someone requested this minhyuk drabble a while back and I have had this kind of dark idea for it but I’ve never. Gone that way before in my writing here djdhdndh

#it’s nothing bad. you just kind of learn what kind of person you were dating when you throw zombies into the mix #I’ve actually gotten to practice the particular theme this past year #let’s just say i was inspired by nfwmb by hozier #majspeaks

[jungnoir]

thank you, goodnight.

hey guys, this post has been coming for a long time. some of you know that a couple months ago, I was close to leaving this blog due to lack of feedback, self-imbued inferiority, and just a constant feeling of “my next thing will never be good enough”. I decided to hang on a little longer just to see if anything would change, and while I’ve received some really great support, I know deep down I am not and will not be satisfied if I keep this up. 

I’ll be honest, there have been plenty of times where I felt close to giving up because I would get more asks for requests than I would comments on my latest work, something I poured my heart into. I feel like writing online has only turned me into a vending machine of fics. where I won’t compromise, someone else will. where I fail, someone else will rise. this is just how life is and I’ve learned that that’s something I have to be deal with. however, this mindset has literally killed my love for writing. 

coming here was a mixture of pride for what I’ve managed to make and disappointment that some things I was really proud of never went anywhere. writers I once loved reading from became a pain to look at because they looked like they were always doing better, working harder, and the feedback they got spoke volumes of it. I began to resent putting time and energy into stories that flopped, and no amount of self-reblogging could resurrect them. I would look at my follower count and wonder if it was me, if I was really that bad of a writer, if people had forgotten they even followed me in the first place. I had to stop reblogging other things to this blog because those posts were getting more attention than my own. some people who had been following me for a long time didn’t even know I wrote, it was so bad. I would keep telling myself that I just needed more followers, that I just needed to write longer stories, that I just needed to work harder. 

I’ve written 135+ works on this blog, some that I’ve removed from my masterlist because they didn’t do well and I was ashamed of, and some that I felt weren’t “good enough” to be considered writing. I can tell you right now, each and every one of them made me happy in some way, and each and every one of them has a piece of me that I will never get back, but I can’t do this anymore.

I sincerely don’t know if any of you are active. I don’t know if any of you will even see this post. I don’t know how many of you have already left and it’s possible that I’m just talking to a wall... but I will write this anyway because you don’t deserve to be left hanging. 

I’m leaving this blog. I’m also taking a break from writing, and I don’t know when or if I’ll ever pick it up again. It surely won’t be here.

I’ve made wonderful friends here and for that I’m grateful. I’ve read wonderful fics that have moved my soul and made me a different person. I’ve gotten some really lovely comments and they will (hopefully) forever be etched into the coding of this blog.

It’s one a.m. where I am, so I should be heading to bed soon, and I can feel a weight on my chest as I write this because I really hate saying goodbye. so, I won’t say goodbye. I’ll just say goodnight. thank you all, I love you all. I’ll come back here if anyone needs to get in touch with me about anything at all, but other than that, this is it.

#majspeaks