#made me feel better for approximately 4.2 minutes and then we were back to bottomless endless grief

[wulfhalls]

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#over a month now since my baby boy left me. #genuinely feel sick with how much i miss him all the time everywhere #it feels like its been 15 years and also only half an hour since then #finally got the locket to put some of his fur in so he'll always be with me. which. #made me feel better for approximately 4.2 minutes and then we were back to bottomless endless grief #I miss him and miss him and miss him and miss him and miss him all day every day every second of every minute #his absence is so loud #and i feel so fucking guilty so incredibly fucking at fault its killing me because i should have noticed soon i should have paid more #fucking attention #hes gone and its my fault. my fault my sweet darling angel who only ever loved me is gone #my baby boy deserved so much better #and all i can do is cry about it it doesnt change anything it doesnt make anything better it doesnt bring him back #anyway. i wish I was dead haha #u know the apiel ignore me i just needed to type this out ect and so on #bb baby #txt.me