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[part one] of boundaries and secret glances (i'm lucky to be loved by you) ➵ kim sunwoo

idol!kim sunwoo x ex-idol!reader

as a well-respected independent producer in the industry, you get requests from different companies for collaborations. when you accept to work on chanhee and sunwoo's unit track for their upcoming album, you are left to your own devices as you work closely with sunwoo. who is to say what can happen over the days?

genre/warnings ➵ strangers to friends to lovers (though sunwoo has always had a crush on you since your debut), music and lyrics au, fluff, angst with happy ending, afab reader (they/them pronouns), drinking, kpop mistreatment, mental and physical abuse done by companies, close proximity, sunwoo is a FLIRT!!! and also obsessed with you, LOONA IS FREE HERE!!!, iz*one sadly does not exist </3, boundaries are definitely crossed in the sense that you should not be flirting this much with a co-worker turned friend...

word count ➵ 15.7k words (30.3k words in total)

parts ➵ [1] [2]

taglist ➵ @deoboyznet @kflixnet

a/n ➵ this work has been in the making for a year or two. oftentimes, i find it hard to finish works or put them out since i find myself getting scared of how my works will be received. after reading this for how many times and adding final revisions, i am happy that i get to share this baby to the world! this fic is because of how much i love the movie "music and lyrics" and how i kind of fantasized myself and sunwoo in a similar context. thank you again for taking the time to read this. please note that idols shown or talked about in this fic are not meant to reflect my real thoughts on them. i love all the idols here in this fic (especially jiyoon) i would really appreciate it if you could take the time to like and reblog this.

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1CON: Where Are They Now? By Lee Hyejin of Soompi

It has been two years since South Korea's beloved group disbanded. Formed back in 2017 through Produce 101, 1CON has swept the hearts of many from pre-debut until disbandment. Yesterday, the members posted pictures on their SNS accounts that show their little reunion. This then sparked “1CON REUNION” to trend on Twitter.

To this day, many fans hope to see a reunion concert take place to see the members come together once again. As the public waits, we wonder where the members have gone off to.

The beloved center Shin Ryujin (Rank 1) and well-known dancer Lee Chaeryeong (Rank 9) of JYP Entertainment are part of the newest girl group ITZY whose unique sound has found its way to capture the hearts of many. As the group continues to conquer the K-Pop scene with their talents, they have become the pride and joy of JYP Entertainment.

Power vocalist Jo Yuri (Rank 2) parted ways with Off The Record Entertainment and worked on her solo debut under WAKEONE with the track “GLASSY.” With the number of music show wins gained, Jo will be one of the 4th Gen's well-known vocalists.

Captivating dancer Jeon Heejin (Rank 3) and charismatic vocalist Kim “Chuu” Jiwoo (Rank 5) made their debut back in 2020 with LOONA under Blockberry Creative. However, the members of the group have ended their contracts with the company because of the mistreatment they received.

Now, Jeon is a member of ARTMS with some of the former members of LOONA—Kim “Kim Lip” Jungeun, Jeong “Jinsoul” Jinsol, and Choi “Choerry” Yerim—under Modhaus. Chuu chose to pursue her solo endeavors under ATRP.

One of K-Pop's best 4th Gen vocalists, Kim Minjeong (Rank 4) of SM Entertainment, is rumored to make her debut in a girl group later in the year. While we can say not much at the moment, SM Entertainment has got everyone excited for their upcoming debut.

Jack of all trades, Shin Jiyoon (Rank 6) of Play M Entertainment, debuted back in 2020 with the group Weeekly. The group's upbeat and catchy music is produced by Shin herself. As Weeekly brings back cute concepts to the K-Pop scene, many people expect that “girl crush” will not be the norm.

Formerly under JYP Entertainment, well-known producer Y/N (Rank 7) is not signed with any company. As they work on their own terms and team, they have been releasing music on different platforms with full artistic freedom. Despite having no company, countless entertainment companies continuously contact them. They have worked with IU, Red Velvet, BIBI, Jamie Park, Pentagon, and more.

Lovable and powerful rapper Choi Yena (Rank 8) of Yuehua Entertainment recently made her debut with “SMILEY (Feat. BIBI)” whose catchy tune has trended all over Twitter. Many fans have commented that the concept is fitting for her debut. As she continues with her promotions, many fans wait to see her thrive in her solo career.

Along with that, opera-trained singer Huh Yunjin (Rank 10) of HYBE Entertainment is rumored to debut in the upcoming girl group with Produce 101 participants Kim Chaewon and Miyawaki Sakura. However, Huh has been actively posting original music and covers on different streaming platforms. As she continues to keep fans impressed with her talents, many people anticipate the debut of HYBE’s newest girl group.

Memorable vocalist Song Yuqi (Rank 11) of Cube Entertainment is part of (G)I-DLE who continues to release comebacks that showcase the uniqueness of the members. With tracks that will have you dancing and singing along, (G)I-DLE continues to showcase a different side to 4th Gen girl groups.

There have only been speculations and rumors surrounding a reunion concert for 1CON. All that can be said for now is that the members are in close contact with each other and working hard to continue dominating the K-Pop industry in their own ways.

“Y/N, you’ve got emails from H1ghr Music, AOMG, and THE L1VE. What would you like me to do with the other emails you’ve received from other companies?” Park Soeun, your manager, asks as she barges into your home office with her eyes trained on her iPad.

As she looks up, she takes in the sight; messy papers laid out on the table; knickknacks and souvenirs from 1CON members scattered all over the floor; you in your most devilish state whose hair is all over the place with clothes from yesterday.

“God, Y/N. What in the world happened here?” Soeun asks as she picks up all the gifts from your ex-peers.

“It’s been so long since the girls and I got together, so we got kinda crazy last night.”

“Yeah, but it doesn’t explain the mess in your office. Jesus… Y/N, I never knew your office could get even messier and more… disorganized,” She continues as she settles on placing all the gifts from 1CON on an empty shelf. “I didn’t even know you would end up going to that reunion.”

You sigh as you continue to click away on your computer, ignoring her last comment.

“Drunk me decided they wanted to work despite being intoxicated,” You mention as you continue to loop a specific segment in the instrumental you’ve been working on all night.

“You haven’t slept?!” She exclaims, attempting to gather and pile up the papers scattered all over your desk. When you let out a hum, she sighs as you continue to immerse yourself in your work.

“Y/N, I think we need to talk.”

“About?”

“This.” As you finally look away from your monitor, you see Soeun with her arms crossed as she hugs her iPad.

“Oh god, don’t tell me what I think it is.”

“I’m serious. We need to talk about what’s going to happen to us,” Soeun demands as she finally takes a seat in front of you. Before you could protest, she continued.

“Y/N, you’ve been doing this for a year, and I’ve stuck with you the whole time. From pre-debut, disbandment, and even until deciding to leave JYP, I stayed with you because I wanted to support you.”

Ultimately, you knew it was hard for Soeun to leave her job at JYP Entertainment to support you. Giving up her stable job to follow you has become one of your biggest burdens to carry to this day.

As she sees the frown on your face, she continues. “I didn’t leave because of an impulse decision. In fact, I left because I knew that working at JYP isn’t what I want at the end of everything. Y/N, I don’t know if you know this but you don’t give yourself enough credit for all the things you’ve gone through and accomplished.”

“I think that’s an overstatement. I don’t think I’ve–”

“You have accomplished a lot of things. You debuted with 1CON, made the difficult decision of leaving a well-known company to pursue your dreams with full creative freedom, and produced music for artists that continue to dominate the charts.”

Silence settles between you two as you try to take in her words. You love the compliments and praise you receive, but sometimes you feel it is never enough. This leads you to overexert yourself; the need to constantly achieve as if it is your only purpose in life.

“You need to give yourself more credit, which also means recognizing that you deserve more.” You knew where this conversation was going, and you didn’t want to hear her continue.

“Soeun, please don’t–”

“I’m sorry Y/N, but you need to at least hear me out. I really think you need to sign with a company.”

With that, you close your eyes as you take in her words. It hurts enough to see people on the Internet constantly discuss the success you could have gained if you were signed with a company, but it pains you physically to hear the same words from someone who knew you inside and out.

“I know your experiences with JYP and Stone Music Entertainment are some that you wish to forget, and I will never forget nor can I ever excuse the amount of mistreatment you faced under those two. However, I do think you can find yourself signed with another company, possibly a better one that knows how to treat you right,” Soeun says.

You finally open your eyes and nod, giving her the signal that she could continue. “It’s hard for both you and me to keep up with the demand. Although we have Taeyeon to help with styling and Sungyoon for photos and music videos, we only have such little manpower to keep up. You could be earning more, maybe relaxing more if you get signed with a company.”

With that, you let out a sigh. “Where is this coming from? Is it because of the number of emails I’ve left unanswered?”

Soeun shakes her head and says, “It’s not really that. Of course, I’ve had to deal with this when I still worked in JYP, but it isn’t the main reason I’m having this talk with you.”

“I’m going to be putting in my two-week notice.” You knew this day would come; she is resigning.

“I applied for jobs at different companies and I got an email back.”

“Congrats Soeun, you deserve it,” You say with a half-hearted smile.

You mean it, but it hurt to know that Soeun would not be with you as you continue your journey. She became a permanent presence in your life, and you could never imagine life without her in it.

Before you could allow yourself to be vulnerable, you decided to ask, “So, which company? I’m excited to hear who’s lucky to have Kim Soeun.” She lets out a laugh.

“I got signed with Cre.ker Entertainment. They had an opening for another managerial position,” She says as you nod.

“That’s the company of The Boyz, right?” She lets out an ‘mhm’ as you continue to nod once again.

“Y/N, you do have an email from that company, if you haven’t realized,” Soeun points out.

As you decide to finally open your email, several unread and unanswered emails greet you. Typing the word “Cre.ker,” you find the email Soeun mentioned. Two weeks ago, you received an email from them to which you have not gotten around to replying or reading.

— — —

FROM: Cre.ker Entertainment <[email protected]>

TO: Y/N <y/[email protected]>

SUBJECT: THE BOYZ’s SUB-UNIT “NEWSUN” TRACK

Good day, Y/N!

Cre.ker Entertainment is reaching out to you in hopes you will accept our request to produce a track for The Boyz’s upcoming album.

The sub-unit “NEWSUN” (which comprises New and Sunwoo) has requested that you produce their track on the upcoming album. If you wish to accept the offer, please let us know no later than two weeks.

We look forward to hearing from you and working with you.

— — —

“Huh, this is funny. I only have until today to reply,” You mention which Soeun chuckles at.

“I mentioned that you got an email from them about a week ago. You said you would get back to them, but clearly, you haven’t.”

“Yeah well, I shouldn’t be trusted with emails,” You reply to which she rolls her eyes. “Figures.”

“Anyway, going back to what we were discussing. You deserve more—a lot more, actually.” She grabs your hand. “I am not saying that I invalidate your experiences nor can I say that this type of mistreatment is not a general thing found with K-Pop companies, but I believe you can sign with a company that will understand what you want.” You think over what she says but never give a reply.

“I just want you to know that I appreciate working and supporting you for… god knows how long. I’ll be sending my formal resignation to your email. Please read it,” She begs which has you laughing.

“Yeah yeah, I will.” She smiles and stands up from her seat.

“Y/N, think over what I said.” She sucks in a breath. “You deserve more, and I want you to be secured in your career as you continue your journey in the industry. I’m not saying you should audition for Cre.ker Entertainment, but I’m saying to look into companies you’re interested to be under. I’ll just be in the room beside you.”

As she leaves your office, you are left with your thoughts and nothing more. In these moments, you miss being with 1CON the most.

It is 4:07 AM, and you are still seated in your home office. In fact, it’s your only office as you cannot afford to rent a separate place for work. You have finally finished the track for Jung Wheein’s album and sent it over to THE L1VE through email.

As you think back to Soeun’s words, you decide to open up the email from Cre.ker Entertainment. Reading it once more, you decide to search for The Boyz on YouTube. You know of them and some of their tracks, but you decided that was not enough.

Searching up the words “NEW & SUNWOO” on YouTube, you find a video of theirs that covers “Nerdy Love,” a song you adore from an artist you highly respect. You decide to click the video and watch what the two boys had to offer.

Despite thinking you did not know enough, you knew who was who thanks to Jiwoo, your ex-peer. She is friends with New (or Chanhee) as they would be special MCs for music shows. After all the time they spent joking around behind the scenes, Jiwoo adores him and thinks of him as one of her closest friends now.

You remember how she described him to you two days ago. “Chanhee is the nicest guy I’ve ever met, and I trust him with almost everything. I hope you get to meet him one day! He’s a huge fan of your work,” She told you at the 1CON reunion two days ago.

However, you have no idea who Sunwoo is. All you know is that Heejin is sort of friends with him but they do not spend a lot of time with each other due to schedule conflicts. The most they ever interact with each other is whenever they play video games with other people their age. If you could recall, all Heejin had to say was that he was nice, and that is as much as you can remember.

Yet, you could not deny that you found him pleasing to look at. Maybe it is his hair, smile, or even the aura he gives off, but your eyes found themselves focusing on him. In the way he performs, you can see how much he enjoys performing.

Throughout your time in the industry, you have seen many artists work in their craft. Many idols share the unfortunate fate of working with peers they despise while others are not given the liberty to work on the tracks they put out. However, only some can say they enjoy what they do—only some can confidently say they love what they do. Sunwoo and Chanhee look like they fit in the latter.

Seeing the two boys vibe and perform one of your favorite songs was such a delight. In fact, you ended up looping the video as you continued to enjoy their cover. You also did not want to admit to having it just play in the background as you continued to finally go through your emails. Knowing Soeun, she would be happy to hear that you finally replied to the many companies reaching out to you.

Despite knowing what to say to which company, there is one company you did not know how to respond to. As you see the same email you read a while ago from Cre.ker Entertainment, you let out a sigh. The more you thought about it, the more you realized it could possibly help out Soeun get used to Cre.ker Entertainment.

As someone who does not want to let her go, you should have denied the company stealing her away from you. If anything, you felt as if you needed to resent Cre.ker Entertainment. Yet, you knew that Soeun resigning did not mean she would be gone forever. After everything, she is your best friend who stuck with you through thick and thin. You only want what is best for her—that is what makes her happy.

With that, you knew your answer.

“God if I knew Play M Entertainment and Cre.ker Entertainment were going to merge to form IST, I would have said no,” You say as you look up at the building in front of you.

“Sorry Y/N, I thought you knew! I think you should at least hear them out and if you can’t do it, you can just–”

“No, it’s fine. I can do this. I mean, it’s not like I will see her, you know?” You say as you take a deep breath.

With that, you enter the building with Soeun. As she walks to the front desk to talk to the woman about your appointment, you decide to take in your surroundings. The building is just like any other company; it reminds you of your trainee days. Despite being inside different company buildings to produce for artists, you can never stop being reminded of what happened to you then.

Before you could think about it anymore, Soeun loops her arm with yours. “C’mon, let’s go,” She says with a smile.

She always knew how to take care of you. With that, you two walk together to the elevator and try to make your way to the meeting room.

“I know you’re nervous about bumping into–”

“Please don’t say her name! What if someone catches on?” You exclaim which she nods at.

“Yeah, you’re right. Please don’t think about it too much because I don’t want you to be stressed about that and this meeting.”

“I’ll try. God, why did they have to merge?” You practically ask the universe as you and Soeun stand right in front of a door.

“No time to complain, you’ve got this. I hope you know I’m proud of you for still pushing through with this.”

“Soeun, you only told me that they merged when we were in the car. I almost grabbed that steering wheel.”

“Either way, just hear them out. I heard from my friends that Chanhee and Sunwoo are big fans of your work.”

With that, you sigh. “Fine. Just know I took this job because I wanted to see where you work.”

“I also know you did it because you wanted me to adjust already. I hope you know that I love you,” She says with a smile.

She then opens the door to see The Boyz’s manager, Sunwoo, and Chanhee seated. The three stand up from their seats to greet and bow at the two of you.

“Hello, it’s nice to meet you all! I’m Soeun, Y/N’s manager, and I’ll be here to assist,” Soeun says as you two enter, bowing at the three. Once you and Soeun take a seat, you notice that you are seated right in front of Sunwoo.

Seeing him in the video was hard but seeing him right in front of you was even harder. As soon as he flashed a smile, you immediately looked away and hoped you were not red. If Soeun found out you were reacting this way about someone, she would never let you live it down (which is why you hope she would never notice).

“Hello, I’m Jihoon. Before anything, I think I should let them introduce themselves. They’ve been waiting for this moment to finally meet you,” Their manager says, which has both Chanhee and Sunwoo flustered.

“Ah, you didn’t have to mention that! But hello, I’m Chanhee! It’s nice to finally meet you. Jiwoo mentioned that she talked to you about me,” Chanhee greets you with a bow to which you smile.

“And I’m Sunwoo. Both Chanhee and I really enjoy your work, and we look forward to working with you,” Sunwoo follows right after with a bow.

“Ah, thank you so much. I look forward to working with you as well,” You manage to say without your voice cracking. You were flustered, and you were pretty sure it was showing with how red your cheeks were. God, you knew Soeun was going to make fun of you later.

“Alright, I guess we can start.”

The meeting was a success. Soeun handled most of it but you managed to chime in every now and then and understand what they needed from you.

“What was it with you a while ago?” Soeun asked when you two finally reached your place.

“What do you mean?”

“Y/N, I know how you act when you find someone attractive. Is it Sunwoo? I won’t judge you.” You choose not to answer her as you go to the kitchen. “So it is!”

“I didn’t even answer!” You exclaim as you look through the fridge.

“I get it though, he is very attractive.”

“Soeun, you’re so annoying. Please stop,” You whine as you decide to grab some water.

“Well, good luck to you! You have to meet with them two days from now. You have only a week from your first meeting with him to submit the final track. Yes, final track, okay? Please remember that,” Soeun says as she notes it on her iPad.

“God, I don’t know why I agreed. That’s barely enough time to produce something satisfactory, let alone a good final track.” Soeun pats your shoulder as she continues to look down at her iPad.

“Don’t forget, you were the one who said yes when I tried to negotiate.” You let out a groan and take a seat.

“I mean if you said yes because you wanted to spend more time with Sunwoo–”

“Please stop. I don’t want to cross any boundaries of our strictly work relationship” You practically beg, to which she laughs.

“You’ve got this! Let me know if you need me to negotiate with Jihoon again. Just keep me updated on whatever ends up happening between you two,” She says with a smile as she walks away.

“Soeun, nothing is going to happen!” You exclaim which only makes her let out another laugh.

“You never know!”

It has been two days since that meeting, and you regret agreeing to the set deadline. It feels as if you have not gotten any wink of sleep in the last 48 hours as the stress and anxiety got to you. As you entered the building with a cup of coffee in your hand, you informed the woman at the front desk that you were expected to attend another meeting with Sunwoo and Chanhee.

“Please make yourself comfortable and wait here. I’ll just ring up their manager–”

“They’re with me!” You hear someone shout from behind you. As you turn to look, you see Sunwoo walking towards you and greeting you with a bow which you return.

“It’s nice to see you again,” He says, making you smile.

“I’ll bring them up, just inform hyung.” Sunwoo signals you to follow him as he makes his way to the elevator.

“So, how are you? I’m guessing you managed to think of something within the two days?” He asks as you two wait for the elevator to arrive.

You laugh as you shake your head. “I wish.”

“Did you get any sleep?” You shake your head in response which he laughs at.

“Well, if you pass out, I’ll be there to cover for you,” He says only for you to get shy.

“Oh god, you don’t–”

“I was just kidding Y/N, sorry if it wasn’t obvious.” The elevator doors finally open and you both get in.

“Oh, that’s my bad,” You say as you let out a nervous laugh.

“Hey, it’s no problem.”

The elevator doors finally close and you two go up. As silence engulfs you two, you somehow think it is your fault.

“I, uhm, tend to be very shy around new people. I’m not usually like this,” You say to break the silence.

He looks at you with a smile and nods. “No worries, Chanhee and Heejin said the same.”

You were surprised to find out that he’s talked about you to others. As you continued to look straightforward, you would only hope that Heejin or Jiwoo did not mention anything embarrassing to the two.

“I never got to ask, but how are you?” You decided to finally ask him.

“Oh, well it’s been alright?” He says in an unsure manner which has you raising an eyebrow at him.

“Well, the guys and I have been practicing the choreography for our comeback, and I’ve been kind of nervous about how Chanhee and I’s track is going to turn out. Not that I’m trying to say I don’t trust you, but I am nervous about how well I’m going to execute your vision,” He admits.

“If it helps, I think whatever you do will perfectly execute what I see.” You smile at him to which he smiles back.

“Oh, so you trust me that much? How much have you seen my performances to say that?” He asks as he faces you and leans against the wall, a smug look on his face. Something about how he keeps the conversation going makes you less shy than before.

“Well, I had to do my research,” You admit with a smirk.

“Oh, the famous Y/N has done their research on me? What do you know about me?” He asks to which you decide to face him as well. “That’s for me to know and you to find out.”

He chuckles as soon as the elevator doors open. “Well don’t think I didn’t research you,” He says and walks out with you following.

You two eventually arrive at one of the recording studios with no Chanhee to be found.

“Oh, where’s Chanhee?” You ask as you look around the recording studio.

“Oh, I forgot to mention that Chanhee wouldn’t be sitting in for a lot of the production process because he has a bunch of other schedules to attend to. I hope you don’t mind spending this time with me,” Sunwoo says with a smile as he takes a seat on the couch.

“Oh, I see,” You say as you stay rooted in place.

“If you’re uncomfor–”

“No no, it’s okay. As I said, I’m just shy,” You cut him off and muster the biggest and most awkward smile.

Before you could apologize for your behavior, Sunwoo lets out a giggle. “Y/N, I get it, but you don’t have to be awkward around me.”

His words of reassurance allow you to breathe just for a little. There is something about Sunwoo that makes you both nervous yet comfortable. You did not know how, but that only made you want to know more about him.

You decide to take a seat on the office chair in front of the mixing console and spin it to face Sunwoo. “Alright, I think we should go through what you and Chanhee want from the track. I know Jihoon discussed it in the meeting but I would like to hear it from you,” You say as you set down your cup of coffee on the coffee table.

“Well, Chanhee and I really want an R&B track for this album. Think of, I don’t know, “Nerdy Love” if you know that track,” Sunwoo explains which makes you smile.

“Yeah, I do know that. It’s one of my favorites.” And with that, Sunwoo smirks.

“I’m guessing you’ve listened to our cover if you did research on us.”

You choose to not answer and grab your notebook and pen as you try to suppress a smile. “Ah, not answering means ‘yes’, by the way.”

“No, it doesn’t!” You scoff.

“It’s just a simple question, Y/N. Why won’t you answer it?” The stupid smile on his face has your heart doing little flips.

“There would be no fun in just answering. You’ll find out soon enough,” You say as you open your notebook to a clean page only for him to chuckle.

“Can you expound a bit more on what the main message of the song is?” You inquire as you write down some points.

“It’s a love song.” That has you scrunching your nose which Sunwoo notices.

“Hey, what’s the problem with that?!” He exclaims which makes you laugh.

“There’s no problem.”

“That expression you made a while ago didn’t say that.”

“Just don’t pay attention to my facial expressions! I won’t react, just continue,” You say as you look up from the notebook.

“It’s hard to not look at you,” He says as he tilts his head to the side with that stupid smile you have grown to both love and hate within that small period of time. You were flustered, and you did not know how to respond.

“Yeah, it’s a love song with a twist,” Sunwoo says as he tries to get back on topic (to which you are thankful for). “Picture this, Y/N.”

“I’m listening.”

“No no, close your eyes.” He urges you to do so in which you furrow your eyebrows. “What the fuck, I am not doing that.”

“Oh come on! It’ll immerse you in what Chanhee and I envisioned.”

“Sunwoo, I think you can explain it and I’ll follow through with what you’re saying.”

Sunwoo pouts at your answer as he crosses his arms. “I wouldn’t want to inform Heejin but…”

“Is that a threat?” You gasp when he simply looks around the room.

With that, you sigh and close your eyes. “Go on, I won’t keep my eyes closed forever,” You say and you hear him clap.

“Alright! Imagine this; you’ve known someone for a while, okay? And let’s say this person is someone you’ve been flirting with. You know, the push and pull, playful flirting, all the things you would do for something that started off as casual. Are you imagining it?”

“Yes Sunwoo, I am,” You sigh, which he laughs at.

“Okay. With time, you start to realize that you might actually like this person.”

“Woah, shocker.”

“C’mon Y/N, let me finish!” You laugh and decide to shut up. “Go on.”

“So, you’re on the brink of falling for them but you don’t want to admit anything. But plot twist: they seem to also be falling for you! And there comes a night where the two of you are chilling, but you two don’t want to drink for the reason that you two might confess under the influence.” As you listened to him, you got to envision what he was saying.

“You know, being with someone you like surrounded by alcohol is a dangerous combination,” You say as you finally open your eyes.

“Exactly! It’s the risk that makes it all scary because you don’t want to come off as ingenuine,” He continues to explain which has you nodding along and taking notes.

“Hm, I get it now. I dig it.” That has Sunwoo standing up from the couch with his arms spread out.

“I told you so! Chanhee and I know what are good love songs, not saying I hate love songs but clearly someone in this room does,” He says as he continues to look around, avoiding your gaze.

“I don’t hate love songs! I never said that, so stop putting words into my mouth,” You try to defend yourself as you roll your eyes. Sunwoo takes a seat again as he furrows his eyebrows at you.

“Y/N, I researched you too. There’s no need to lie.”

You let out a sigh. “Fine, I do.”

“And why so?” Sunwoo decides to ask which has you grabbing your cup of coffee to take a sip.

“Ask me later after we make some progress and I’ll answer,” You say which has Sunwoo rolling his eyes, a little smile playing on his lips.

It’s been three hours since you and Sunwoo decided to work, and there has been little to no success.

“God, why did I agree to that deadline?” You mutter to yourself as you shut your eyes with your hands over them in frustration. Sunwoo heard you as he was writing and crossing out lyrics for the track.

“Hey Y/N, why don’t we grab some lunch first?” You open your eyes and look behind you to see Sunwoo up from his seat.

“We haven’t made any progress.”

“Yeah, but you of all people should know that creativity and productivity don’t come with an empty stomach,” He tries to reason out as he walks to you and sets his hands on your chair.

As you look back at the computer in front of you, you see nothing on GarageBand. During times like these, you knew you had to get out of the studio. Whenever you hit a wall, the only solution was to find inspiration outside.

“Alright, let’s get some lunch,” You give in as you close the program and get up from your seat. “Where to?”

“I know a place for us to eat.”

Once the two of you exit the building, you follow Sunwoo as he leads you to where you two will be eating.

“So, why hate love songs?” He decides to ask which has you chuckling.

“I thought we agreed on asking once we’ve made progress, and clearly we haven’t.”

“Oh come on, we need to talk and get to know each other so that we can eventually get over the hurdle,” Sunwoo says which has you sighing.

“Fine. It’s just, I don’t know, cliché? It gets so repetitive that it gets so boring and typical.”

“Ah, you’re one of those people.” That has you letting out a gasp and looking right at him.

“What do you mean by that?!”

He only giggles as he continues to look straight forward. “C’mon Y/N, don’t look at me and look at where you’re going. You might trip.”

“As if–” Before you could finish, you trip and almost fall. It seemed like the universe was out to get you because Sunwoo was right. You were about to brace yourself for the impact, but a pair of arms grabbed your waist before you could fall.

“Oh my god, Y/N! I told you so!” Sunwoo exclaims as he lets go of you.

You wish you could say something but you were too embarrassed about Sunwoo wrapping his arms around you to save you from falling. As the two of you stood there, facing each other, you were about to apologize.

“Uh, sorry, I–”

“Just be careful next time, okay?” Sunwoo says as he rubs your head, messing up your hair. Before you could say anything, he grabs your hand and starts to walk with you following.

Usually, you would get mad if someone messed up your hair but there was something about Sunwoo that made you crave his touch. You hated how you were reacting this way over this guy. As the two of you held hands while you walked to the restaurant, you swear your heart almost burst out of your chest.

The two of you quickly arrived at the restaurant that Sunwoo wanted to bring you to; it was a small Japanese restaurant. As the two of you entered, the bells by the door seemed to chime which grabbed the servers’ attention. “Irasshaimase!”

A lady dressed in a red kimono walked to the two of you with a big smile. “Ah, Sunwoo! How are you?”

“I’m okay! I’ve been working really hard for our upcoming comeback,” Sunwoo replies with a grin that seems to warm both the lady’s and your hearts.

“Oh, you come with a guest! Hello! You are–oh my god, you’re a member of 1CON, right?” The lady asks you, showing the same smile she gave to Sunwoo.

“Ah yes, I’m Y/N. It’s nice to meet you,” You say as you bow.

“Just a table for two, please.” With that, the lady nods and brings you two to a table located in a small room for privacy. As the two of you get seated, the lady hands you two menus to browse.

“By the way, I’m Hikaru, your server for today. Y/N, Sunwoo frequents here with the other members, so you can always ask him for recommendations,” She tells you which makes you smile. “I will.”

“Sunwoo, I didn’t know you were going out with an ex-member of 1CON! They’re one of Korea’s sweethearts,” Hikaru says, which has you freezing from reading the items on the menu. You knew your cheeks were red, so it surprised you when you decided to look up and see Sunwoo’s cheeks painted red as well.

“Ah, it’s not like that. We’re just colleagues,” He tries to explain which Hikaru understands.

“Oh, I see! I didn’t know. You two would make a good pair though,” She says as she leaves the room which has you both frozen in your seats.

Sunwoo lets out an awkward chuckle and decides to avoid your gaze. “So, what do you like to eat? This place is known for their sushi but they do have really good katsudon.”

“Yeah, sushi works for me.” Once Sunwoo ordered a bunch of sushi platters, the two of you were left in awkward silence.

“So, what do you mean I am one of those people?” You decide to ask to lighten up the mood which was successful as he seemed to laugh.

“I’m just saying, you are part of the people who hate on love songs to be “unique” for some odd reason,” He explains while doing air quotations.

“I don’t hate them just to be unique. I am not that shallow!”

“Alright, so why then?” You sigh as you look at your glass of water.

“I just think they set an unrealistic standard for what love really is.” Sunwoo tilts his head in confusion and asks, “Care to expound?”

“I’m not dramatic or anything, by the way. I think love just isn’t what lyricists make it out to be,” You say as you finally look straight at him.

“Okay, so what are your experiences with it then?”

“Woah Sunwoo, jumping right into it? Give me some time.” You chuckle.

“Oh, I didn’t mean to–”

“I was just kidding, Sunwoo. You’re good.” Sunwoo only smiles and drinks some water.

“What about you? Why do you seem to love love songs?”

“I don’t know what else to say other than I’m a hopeless romantic,” He admits with a small smile.

“Good experiences with love then I’m guessing?”

“Sure, but I just continue to love as if it’s my first time doing so.”

With that, Sunwoo has you smiling. Something about his answer makes your heart throb; you knew it would be a privilege to be loved by him. “Wow, you really are a hopeless romantic.”

Sunwoo rolls his eyes at your comment. “Alright, sue me! There’s nothing wrong with being one.”

You hum as you prop your arm on the table and rest your chin on your hand. “Yeah, it just adds more to my research.”

“Sunwoo, you sure know the best places to eat,” You admit as you try to keep yourself awake from entering a food coma.

Sunwoo smiles both at what you say and how your eyes slightly droop. “Thank you. My friend, Haknyeon, suggested this place back when we were in our trainee days. Now, we eat here so much that everyone seems to know the usual.”

You giggle and let out a small sigh as you look down at the table. “It must be nice to hang out with your friends almost every single second of the day.”

Sunwoo notices the small frown that is about to appear on your face. Before he could say anything, you shake your head as you chuckle and say, “Anyway, shall we head out?”

All Sunwoo did was nod and stand up with you as you exited the small function room. You took this opportunity to look around the restaurant and notice a bar with a small stage beside it. On that stage, people were playing different instruments as they performed a jazzy tune you were unfamiliar with.

Before Sunwoo could leave the restaurant, he noticed you staring in awe at the performers. There was something with how you admired a trio of musicians; the glint in your eyes as you observed how they pluck the strings of their instruments or played the keys of the piano; the slight bobbing of your head as you tried to go along with the tempo they played. The absolute adoration that seemed to show on your face made Sunwoo want—no, need to have you around to experience more moments like these.

Suddenly, your face of admiration morphed into realization. As you meet Sunwoo’s gaze, you say, “I figured it out.”

It is 8:37 PM. You and Sunwoo have spent the last four or five hours working on your own to create the best track suited for their unit song. In those hours, you managed to create the base track on GarageBand and think of a melody in your head. Yet, within those hours, you never noticed how much Sunwoo spent his time looking at you.

“I think I have it,” You finally say as you remove your headphones and look back to see Sunwoo who was on his fifth page full of messy words and scribbles. “Sure, you can play it out loud.”

You change the output settings to speakers and play the track for the two of you to listen. The sound of the electric guitar, the bass, and the drums came all together. You carefully watched Sunwoo as you await his response to the 45-second recording you produced.

As the track finally came to an end, you could not tell what Sunwoo thought of it. “I know it’s not a lot, but that was something I imagined for the track to turn out,” You admit as you continued to stare at him.

“Could you play it again?” You listened to his request and followed. One loop of the short recording turned into three more loops, and you were scared. No matter how many artists you have produced tracks for, you always find yourself anxious about everyone’s feedback.

Sunwoo bopped his head along with the track as he went through the lyrics he wrote. As it reached the end, he looked up to give you a big smile. “It sounds amazing. You never fail to amaze me.”

Despite only getting to know him today, something about those words seemed to warm your heart. With that, you smile as you get off your seat and say, “I kind of thought of the melody too. Care to give me a hand with recording it?”

Sunwoo nodded with the same smile plastered on his face as he got off his seat. Once you entered the recording booth, you saw him seated right in front of the mixing console and desktop. You wear the headphones and test the microphone.

“Am I at a good volume?” You speak into the microphone and earn a nod from him.

“You can play the track, just make sure I’m being recorded.” With that, Sunwoo gives you a thumbs-up and presses a few buttons.

Once you heard the track play out in your headphones, you decided to hum a short tune. Sometimes, you even sang a few lines that came to you on the spot. Some of the things you said did not make sense but Sunwoo seemed to enjoy every single line you sang.

When the track ended abruptly, you look at Sunwoo only to see those doe eyes full of adoration.

“Y/N, please tell me you slept because–oh? You actually slept,” Soeun says in shock as she enters your bedroom and sees you still in bed.

“Soeun, what time is it?” You ask groggily as you rub your eyes.

“11 AM. I am quite surprised you slept.”

“Yeah well, Sunwoo and I squeezed out too much creative juices yesterday and basically ran dry,” You explained as you sat up and stretched your limbs.

“Mhm, how was it? Any progress?” You roll your eyes and get out of bed to walk to your closet

“Soeun, I know I fall quick and hard for almost any person but I am not going to indulge in this one.”

“We’ll see about that,” Soeun mutters loud enough for you to hear.

Before you could interject, she says, “Jihoon told me that Chanhee wouldn’t be participating in the production process due to the schedules he has to attend. Although Jihoon did say Chanhee was incredibly upset.” You nod and hum as you decide what to wear for the day.

“Which means more time with Sunwoo!”

“Soeun!”

“So, Y/N.”

“Yes?”

“Mind if I could ask you something personal?”

“Depends how you define ‘personal’.”

“How was it in 1CON? How was it to be the nation’s sweetheart?” The way Sunwoo phrased it had you laughing.

“God, I am not the nation’s sweetheart,” You deny as you decide to take a short break and look back at him.

“That’s not what the publications say! Almost every news outlet calls 1CON that.”

“I was ranked seventh, and it was a miracle! I even questioned how I managed to make it to the final lineup,” You argue as you take a sip of matcha that Sunwoo had surprised you with when you entered the building. You did not know how he knew but you could only guess that he researched on you even more.

Sunwoo frowns at your reply and says, “You went against a hundred contestants, you shouldn’t downplay your efforts.”

You only sigh and decide to cut the argument short. “Well, 1CON was just like any group; there’s not much to say.”

“Wasn’t the training difficult?”

You chose to keep your answer short and say, “It was, but my time with 1CON is something I still cherish to this day. I made some friends that I still talk to and hang out with until this day.”

“You’re close friends with Jiwoo and Heejin, right?” You nod as you look up to the ceiling, remembering the fun you had with 1CON. Despite everything you have been through, you would sometimes justify the mistreatment you faced with your debut with 1CON.

“I’m close with Yuri also, but I’m casual with everyone,” You tell a white lie to Sunwoo, knowing he would never find out.

“You came from JYP, right?”

“Wow, Sunwoo, you really have been doing research on me. You know you could always just ask! You can’t trust all the things you see on the Internet!”

Sunwoo giggles at your response, his smile showing up once more. “I’m just curious since Ryujin and Chaeryeong are from the same company as you.”

“Brilliant observation from Mr. Kim Sunwoo.” You point out which has Sunwoo laughing once more.

“I’m serious! Wouldn’t you have debuted with them?”

You sigh as you take another sip of matcha. “I would’ve but I am here producing tracks for others.”

Silence engulfs you two as both of you continue to bask in your answer. “Don’t get me wrong, I do love producing. Sometimes, I look at the artists who perform the tracks I produce and think, “Wow, I could never do that.””

Sunwoo was about to interject but you continued to speak. “But I can’t deny that I miss being on stage. The stadiums, the fansigns, the fans… and performing with friends. 1CON has changed my life, and sometimes I wish I could go back to when we were still together.”

It has been a while since you have gotten to vocalize your thoughts, and it felt nice to let this out to Sunwoo. Soeun knew all of your struggles and inner thoughts, but you always felt bad for repeating the same words and thoughts. Now that you got to vocalize this to Sunwoo, you felt at ease around him.

“I wish you would realize that you are talented to perform the tracks you produced,” Sunwoo speaks up which has you ripping your gaze from the ceiling to look right at him.

“Y/N, I do think you are capable enough—no, even more than capable to perform the tracks you have produced. I’ve listened to your own tracks, the ones you published yourself, and I believe they are the most beautiful sounds I’ve ever heard.” Your eyes are in awe over his words. “You are a very talented person, Y/N, and you might have to be my favorite producer and artist out there.”

What Sunwoo says has you starstruck. The way he thought and viewed you should have put this huge amount of pressure on you, but you were pleasantly surprised when you were met with a breath of fresh air.

“Wow, you are very passionate about this,” You finally speak up, trying to shrug off the fact that he complimented you.

Sunwoo frowns at your response and says, “Y/N, you really should give yourself more credit.”

With that, you sigh and give in for once. “Thank you, Sunwoo.”

It was weird to think how someone thought all of that about you. Having someone think of you as their favorite artist and producer? In an industry full of capable and even more talented individuals compared to little you? It felt even weirder to know that someone had to be Sunwoo.

“So, what about you? What’s it like to be in The Boyz?”

It is 2:32 AM, and you and Sunwoo are seated inside the convenience store having some late-night snacks. You could officially say you were done with 75% done with the track. You needed to work on the bridge and outro for you to finally do the final arrangements and call it finished. Sunwoo was going at a pretty good pace; he finished writing the lyrics for almost all of Chanhee’s parts and had to do some final edits on his rap.

“Hmm, I don’t know. I guess you could say it was just like any trainee experience: difficult.” You hum as you take a sip of banana milk and stare out the window.

“There were the unhealthy diets, the long hours of practice, and the scolding. God, the scolding from the company was too much that I contemplated leaving.”

“But you didn’t leave.”

Sunwoo sighs and says, “Yeah, I didn’t. Yet, there were numerous times when I wondered if all the shit I was going through would be worth it, you know? Is all the pain and suffering I’m going through right now that worth it for a debut with a group I wasn’t sure would be a success?”

You understood every word that Sunwoo was saying at that moment. The way he phrased his thoughts was exactly your thoughts back then. Despite you sharing the same sentiments with Sunwoo, you chose to not speak of the past you kept hidden.

“I see. But you’re happy now, right? Happy with The Boyz?” You decide to ask as you finally look at him.

“I couldn’t imagine my life without them. My beginning was with them and they will be my ending as well,” Sunwoo admits with a small smile on his face as he looks back at you.

During that moment, you lay your hand on his shoulder and say, “Sunwoo, I am happy that despite everything, you persevered through it all. I am so glad that you made your debut with a group that loves and cares for you. They are so lucky to have someone like you.”

Sunwoo’s eyes widen at your words, clearly not expecting to hear that. Before you could take your hand off his shoulder, he grabs it and holds your hand in his.

“Yeah… I’m so glad to have met you.” He looks out the window. “You know, you really are the nation’s sweetheart in every aspect I’ve gotten to know. The world is so lucky to have you.”

His hushed words have you flustered; it seems harder to not like him when he continues to say shit like that. As his smile followed after those words, you knew you were screwed when you felt your heart beat out of your chest. So when he said the words “C’mon, I’ll take the bus with you going home. It’s too late for you to go home all by yourself,” you knew that it was impossible to not like a guy like Sunwoo.

“He OFFERED?!”

“Soeun! Quiet down!” You exclaim as you pat your face dry with a towel.

“Sorry, I was just surprised. Sunwoo is an actual decent guy,” Soeun says as she leans on your doorframe.

“Well, he is a really good guy. He has a heart of gold.”

As you say those words while you do your morning skincare routine, you notice Soeun’s expression through the mirror morph into that all-knowing smile you have learned to hate.

“God, I can say that and not pursue him. Let me be,” You say as you roll your eyes.

“I’m just saying that with all the stories you’ve told me, it seems that he likes you too.”

You laugh at her statement and continue on with your skincare routine.

“If you’re worried about dating bans, you don’t have one. Neither does Sunwoo, I’ve asked Jihoon.”

“SOEUN!”

“What?! I just thought to bring it up in case you didn’t know,” Soeun says with a small smile as she scrolls through some documents on her iPad.

You sigh as you continue with your skincare routine, a mind full of last night's events. Nothing much happened if you were to be honest. You are not sure why Soeun was making it a big deal because it seemed like a basic act of decency that anyone could perform. And yet, you were unsure why your heart would flutter when you remembered it.

“I don’t know, it’s just… weird for me. I mean, I did meet him recently.”

“Yeah, but you’ve spent a good chunk of time with Sunwoo. I never held it against you when you developed this crush on him, and I think it’s healthy! I mean, we’ve spent so many years together, and I like seeing you happy.”

Soeun’s words should have brought comfort to you, but doubt took over. You bite the inside of your cheek as you stare at yourself in the mirror.

“Yeah, but work comes first.”

“But–”

“Nope, I don’t want to hear anything from you,” You silence Soeun, making her frown. The work you did was more important than anything, even more than a stupid little crush you developed for a colleague. I mean, it would remain a crush, right?

Once you finished getting ready for the morning, your phone buzzed. As you grabbed onto it, you were surprised to see a text from Sunwoo.

zzoguri 🦝: hey Y/N! i was wondering if you were up to join me for this little party

y/n: sunwoo what happened to only meeting up for work? WHAHASGDH

zzoguri 🦝: okay but we need to have some breaks you know! we deserve it after all the progress we’ve made

y/n: do you not remember that we have a deadline to meet which is only 3 days from now

y/n: plus the times we aren’t together are breaks!

zzoguri 🦝: oh cmon y/n :( if you don’t want to hang that’s fine.

You furrow your eyes as you were unsure to respond.

“Why the frown?” Soeun asks, which makes you sigh and show your conversation to her. As she reads the chat, you notice how her expression morphs into disappointment.

“Y/N, you are on a different level of being dense.”

“What?! Why?”

“He’s asking you on a date!” She says which makes you frown even more.

“Asking me out to a party is not a date. What are you on?”

“Well, maybe not on a date date, but he’s finding opportunities to spend more time with you outside of the typical meetings or work hours.” She says as she shakes her head and goes back to her iPad.

You pout as you look back at your conversation. If Sunwoo thought this was a date (which you highly doubt), he needs to step up in his game.

“I’m not saying you should take his offer, but he just wants to spend more time with you, as a friend or maybe even more,” Soeun points out, which has you pondering even harder on how to respond. Once you reached a decision, you let out a sigh and type away

y/n: kim sunwoo, i enjoy spending time with you if you’re worried about that

y/n: send me the details and i’ll make sure to attend

zzoguri 🦝: wow THE y/n enjoys spending time with me. i am honored.

y/n: don’t get ahead of yourself

zzoguri 🦝: trust me, i’m only acting like this because i’m lucky to have you 😋

It sucks that you felt yourself smile and your cheeks warm at the message.

Sunwoo did not tell you much about the party, so you wore a smart casual outfit as a safety option. When you asked about the address, he only answered with an “I’ll be picking you up.” You were seated by the kitchen island as you continued to scroll through Twitter.

The praise your recent work got for Wheein’s album was a sight you loved, and you hoped for more collaborations with the soloist. On the charts, your work was doing well alongside the title track. After all the countless nights spent working on tracks, you always find yourself at ease after seeing how the public received them.

The doorbell rings, and you are reminded that you were waiting for Sunwoo. You stood up from your seat and swung the door open, surprised to be greeted by the man you were waiting for who was dressed up from his usual hoodie. As he saw you, not a single sound left him; he was stuck looking at you up and down.

“Uh, Sunwoo?” You ask to break the weird silence that seemed to engulf you two.

“Oh, sorry. I was just—you look wonderful.”

You smile to cover up the fact you were blushing, and joke, “You don’t think I look good the other times we’ve met?”

“Ah, that’s not what I mean. You look great every day, but today… you just look, even more beautiful right now.”

You did not expect Sunwoo to say that which has you more flustered than ever. It was impossible that Sunwoo did not know what he was doing to you; he should definitely know now.

“C’mon, we’ve got a party to attend,” He says with a smile as he grabs your hand.

As he got into the car with you, you noticed that it was Jihoon in the driver’s seat. To be honest, you were not sure why you were nervous about this whole thing. Maybe it felt weird to hold hands with Jihoon around; it also did not help to know Sunwoo had no dating ban.

With that, your hands started to get clammy, and you were about to let go of his hand. Yet, he never seemed to be bothered by your sweaty hands. Despite what you thought of the Pacific Ocean forming in your hands, he continued to hold it with the same grip. As he looked out the window to admire the city lights, you were left to admire the boy beside you.

The ride to the party did not take long. In fact, the location of it felt quite near IST Entertainment. The party took place in a building right beside the Japanese restaurant you and Sunwoo started to frequent after that one lunch. You could not help it; the sushi is to die for.

When the two of you entered the building, it was full of function rooms that could hold around a hundred to two hundred individuals. You expected Sunwoo to let go of your hand the moment you two exited the car, but he never did.

Eventually, you two arrived in front of a door. Before he could open it, you hold him back. He looks back at you with wide eyes that were laced with worry.

“Hey, are you okay?” You bite your lip as you felt your limbs fill with anxiety.

“I… I don’t know. Who are the people in there? I’m not the greatest in social gatherings so I might end up clinging onto you. Is that okay? I mean–”

Before you could continue on a tangent, Sunwoo lets go of your hand and grabs onto your face to gain your attention (which he successfully did). The warmth of his hands on your cheeks; the eye contact he held; everything about him had the ability to make you shut up and admire him like he is the only person on this earth. And that god-forsaken smile started to creep onto his lips—you were screwed.

“It’ll be alright. Cling onto me for as long as you want, I’ll make sure to keep you company. Don’t forget, I did invite you which makes me obligated to take care of you.” Before you could protest, he cuts you off.

“Sorry, don’t think I’m keeping you company as a task. I enjoy spending time with you too, and I want to spend whatever second I have left with you,” He says, which has your knees weak.

If Sunwoo did not know the power of his words, you would have smacked him then and there. There is no way the guy right in front of you is saying all this without knowing the impact these words would have on anyone. Maybe he was just as dense as Soeun thinks you are, and you were betting on it.

He eventually lets go of your face and grabs onto your hand once more. With that, he looks back to the door and swings it open. The two of you were greeted by strobe lights and BIBI’s “The Weekend” as you entered the function room.

If you had to guess, the party seemed to have at least fifty individuals (possibly a mix of idols and staff) who looked like they were having the time of their lives. As you were taking in your surroundings, you noticed idols such as Kim Yerim of Red Velvet and Mark Lee of NCT chatting with other idols you recognized.

The party was full of big shots, and that terrified you. Your nerves were starting to get to you that Sunwoo could notice. With that, you found yourself being brought in front of him so that he could hold onto your shoulders as you two walked.

“If you want to leave already, just let me know, okay?” He whispers into your ear as you continue to walk to wherever he is leading you to.

If people did not notice you were here, people definitely noticed now considering how close you and Sunwoo were. Before you could tell Sunwoo that others were staring, you two eventually arrived at a table occupied by ten other guys you knew from research—you can only assume it is the rest of his group.

“Guess who finally showed up!” Juyeon pointed out which has the rest of the group looking at you two.

“I know, I know. I had to pick up Y/N from their place.” Sunwoo says as he high-fives some of them.

“Oh my god, Y/N, please do take a seat,” Changmin says as he grabs onto the chair beside him. You give him a small smile and take a seat with Sunwoo doing the same beside you.

“I think I should introduce you to–”

“Oh, you don’t have to! I know who everyone is,” You cut Sunwoo off which has the rest of the group in shock.

“The Y/N knows us?! Korea’s sweetheart?!” Eric exclaims which has you giggling.

“Of course! Why would I agree to produce a track for Chanhee and Sunwoo if I didn’t know your group? What you guys put out is amazing!” The group expresses their gratitude after your compliment.

“I mean, the same goes for you! I would be embarrassed to admit this, but you were my bias when 1CON was still together,” Changmin says which has you laughing.

“Oh please, I don’t take compliments well,” You say as you try to shrug it off.

“I mean, Sunwoo was probably worse! He would–”

“Aish, shut up Haknyeon! Y/N doesn’t have to know,” Sunwoo attempts to cut Haknyeon off before he could spill anything.

“What? Now I wanna know!”

“Ah, Y/N! Don’t listen to him!” Sunwoo exclaims which makes you laugh at him.

“Sunwoo, I think Haknyeon has something very important to share with me. You wouldn’t want to stop us from being friends, would you?” When he gives you a pout, all you could do is giggle and pat his knee.

As the others seemed invested in their own conversations, Haknyeon says, “Well, Sunwoo had you as his bias even before you debuted in 1CON.” You gasp as you look at the guy moping beside you and back to Haknyeon.

“It was funny because he so badly wanted to meet you before but your group and The Boyz never had their schedules line up when it came to promotions. I remember when Changmin said he had you as his bias; the reaction on Sunwoo’s face is so memorable.” With that, you smile at Sunwoo who was busy sulking.

“Sunwoo, why didn’t you tell me this?” You ask which has him looking back at you.

“I didn’t think it was relevant to mention,” He mutters.

“You were just shy about it!” You exclaim as you could not stop yourself from smiling at the shy boy in front of you.

“Ah, whatever! New topic, please! Where’s Soobin and Yeonjun?”

“Uh, they were just here. However, Y/N! I forgot to mention that–” Before Haknyeon could finish his sentence, you were interrupted by your phone buzzing in your bag. As you grab it, you see a text message from Soeun.

ssongie 🐧: hey, let me know when you get back home! i’ll seriously scold jihoon if sunwoo doesn’t bring you back home.

ssongie 🐧: and i know you hate huge social gatherings so don’t hesitate to call me

ssongie 🐧: actually just call me when you're there so that i know you’re safe please <3

You giggle at Soeun’s messages and decide to get up from your seat.

“I just have to call Soeun,” You explain to Sunwoo and Haknyeon and excuse yourself from the table to go to the washroom. As you were busy typing out a response, you accidentally bump into someone.

“Oh my god, I’m so–”

“Y/N? I did not expect you to be here!” The voice belonged to someone you last wished to bump into, especially at a gathering full of idols. As you look up, you see the face of your ex-peer who constantly overshadowed you from pre-debut until disbandment.

Jiyoon—the one person you hoped to avoid encountering at any given moment, especially at IST Entertainment—just had to bump into you here. You were shocked by how the universe works. How could they make you meet her here, out of all the places too?

Before you could say anything, Jiyoon wrapped her arms around your figure. The sudden action did not help how surprised you were by the whole situation.

“Y/N, it’s been a while!” She exclaims once she lets go, clearly not noticing how you did not hug her back.

“I–we saw each other recently,” You say, which makes her laugh.

“Oh yeah! But I couldn’t stay for long, remember? I had to leave the moment you got there!” Jiyoon smiled at you which made you feel awkward.

The thing is Jiyoon never intentionally did anything bad to you. In fact, your old company was to blame for cultivating this competitive environment between you two. Yet, you were sure Jiyoon saw you as a competitor as well despite the façade she put on.

“Uh, yeah. What a bummer!” If she did not notice how awkward you feel about this encounter, she should definitely notice now.

You just wanted to get out of this horrible situation. The need to just crawl under your covers to isolate yourself from your memories and reality is so strong. It did not help that people were observing the interaction between you two. I mean, who would not want to see two of Korea’s sweethearts interact once more? Yet, you knew people were curious about what would go down between you two.

“How’s producing going for you? I was shocked to hear you didn’t debut with Ryujin and Chaeryeong in ITZY! Was it because you didn’t make it to the final line-up?” You frowned at her.

“Producing is amazing because I enjoy what I do now. And no, I just decided to leave JYP.” Your response was laced with a touch of passive aggressiveness as you were uncomfortable with her question.

“Oh, what a shame. I just thought that you would have fit ITZY, but I guess JYP wouldn’t accept any of your tracks for their albums, would they?”

See, that is the problem with Jiyoon; a fake ass bitch who knew how to press your buttons. If everyone else knew how much of a bitch she was, maybe you would not have to struggle being under fire for choosing to be a producer rather than an idol.

Before you could say anything, you felt someone’s arm wrap around your shoulders.

“Hi, Jiyoon! Sorry to interrupt but Y/N and I have somewhere to be,” Sunwoo intervenes as he gives a small smile to Jiyoon.

“Oh, I’m so sorry! I didn’t know you two came together.” Jiyoon gives a smile—the same one you grew to hate over the years. “Well, I hope to see you again, Y/N.”

Once Jiyoon finally leaves, you do not take another second to shrug Sunwoo’s arm off and make your way out of the function room. As Sunwoo follows you out, the two of you continue to walk back to the car in silence. Jihoon notices you two and starts up the car.

The moment you two get in, not a single word is exchanged throughout the whole ride. You were sure Sunwoo was confused about your reaction but maybe he did not want to ask you about it until you were ready.

What you do not expect is to feel his hand rest on top of yours. There is something that his touch does to bring you comfort. If you could unravel the reason for this, you would take it in a heartbeat. But for now, all you can do is let yourself feel at ease.

Once you were brought back to your home, Sunwoo walked you back to the door. Before you decided to enter your home, you take a look at Sunwoo who looked worried. With that, you gave him an apologetic smile and say, “I’m sorry about tonight.”

“Hey, don’t even worry about it,” Sunwoo starts off. “It’s none of my business, but just know I’m here for you.”

You cannot help but smile at him. For a moment, you do not know what to say. Yet, something possess you. Without thinking, you felt your face closer to his. As his eyes widen at the distance between you two, you cannot help but smile.

With your head leaning to the side, you felt your lips get closer to his cheek until there was no distance left. It was a short kiss to begin with, and not much thought was put into the action. The moment you pulled away, you are still met with Sunwoo’s shocked expression.

You chose to not say anything. All you did was smile and walk away. Once you entered your home, you could not help but focus on the memories you had with Jiyoon in them (and the peck you gave Sunwoo).

Having to face Sunwoo the next day was a task you were not ready to take on. As you look back at the events that transpired last night, you were unsure of how to go back to normal without acknowledging your encounter with Jiyoon (and the k*ss on the cheek you gave out of impulse).

You wish you knew what was going through your mind that made you k*ss him. Everything felt like a blur yet crystal clear. Being driven by impulse and having no second thoughts had you placed in bad situations.

Thankfully, Sunwoo did not make any comment about last night the moment you entered the studio. In fact, the only thing you two talked about was about the track. He probably did not want to put you in an awkward position, or maybe he felt awkward himself. Either way, the two of you continued to work by yourselves.

“Why aren’t you signed with a company?” Sunwoo asks the golden question that stops you from working.

You were not sure why the sudden question but all signs have to point to what Jiyoon said last night (or what she probably told The Boyz considering they are under the same company).

“You don’t have to answer–”

“Thank you, I won’t,” You say to end the conversation.

“I’m sorry if–”

“Sunwoo,” You interrupt before he could continue.

As you look away from the computer to look at him, you say, “Just continue working.” Your tone was laced with malice as you throw a glare at him. With that, Sunwoo chose to shut up and continue writing out his rap while you tried to finish the song.

The more you two continued on with work, the more you felt guilt piling in your stomach. Sunwoo was only asking a question and you treated him with such hostility. As you felt your heart get eaten away, you wondered how you could apologize to him.

Around 1 AM, it was safe to say that you were done with the base track. Thankfully, it also seemed that Sunwoo was done with the lyrics of his raps and Chanhee’s verses.

“Thank god! All we have to do is record the demo tomorrow and we’re good to go,” You say as you save the files into your USB.

Once you shut the computer down and stood up, you look back to see Sunwoo still seated on the couch. You let out a sigh as you look down at the USB in your hands.

“I’m sorry about earlier, and last night.” When you look back up at him, he had his eyes trained on you. You took a moment to think about how to approach the situation considering you fucked up.

“Do you… do you wanna grab something with me at the convenience store? Consider it an apology or an opportunity for me to explain,” You offer with a small smile.

With that, Sunwoo nods and stands up from his seat. Thank god Sunwoo is willing to hear you out.

Sunwoo took this opportunity to buy out the whole convenience store. As you two exit to take a seat in the outdoor area, his arms seemed to carry an abundance of snacks while you held onto strawberry milk and potato chips. Once the two of you got settled, you both dug into your snacks in comfortable silence.

“I’ll, uhm, explain,” You start off as you look down at your drink.

“You don’t have to if you aren’t ready to share that part with me,” Sunwoo reassures you before you could continue.

“I know, but… I trust you.” Both you and him were shocked at your words. “I–I was just thrown off a while ago because only a few people know that part of my life.”

The moment you look back up to Sunwoo, his doe eyes were full of concern. He knows that it is a sensitive topic if you snapped a while ago—and it is. Usually, you were not the type to snap at people, but this topic was a touchy issue.

“Well, you know that I used to be under JYP even before I debuted in 1CON.” Sunwoo nods. “I obviously had plans to be part of a girl group, which was ITZY if you didn’t overhear my conversation with Jiyoon. To be honest, the line-up for ITZY was tight considering that ten trainees were competing for it, including me,” You speak as you reveal the secrets of your past.

“The thing is that I was technically going to make it in the final line-up even before 1CON. So, when Soeun—who was also a staff member of JYP Entertainment—revealed that Ryujin, Chaeryeong, and I were going to audition for Produce 101, it shocked all of us. I mean, the three of us seemed like we were going to debut in ITZY, so why did we have to go through that shitty survival show?”

“Well, when Ryujin, Chaeryeong, and I made it into the final line-up, ITZY’s debut was pushed back as well. The time I spent with 1CON is something I would carry with me throughout this lifetime, but I can’t deny that the company that oversaw us was terrible.” You look down at your banana milk.

“Even after being in the final line-up for 1CON, there was this competitive nature that made it impossible for me to feel at ease. Of course, I can’t speak for everyone because most of us got along. However, I guess the most evident rivalry was between Jiyoon and I.” As you look at Sunwoo once more, he was only listening to what you had to say. There were no interruptions on his end, and that made you grateful.

“I mean, you’ve watched Produce 101, and I’m guessing you followed the news on my group. I’m sure most media outlets would focus on the rivalry between me and Jiyoon as fans would try to defend our relationship. As much as people wanted to believe that we were best friends, we really weren’t.”

“It also didn’t help that our company, Stone Entertainment, seemed to favor her over me. I swear, I respect her as a producer since we were the only people in the group who dabbled into that. Yet, it was always hard to be a producer for 1CON when your company denied your works or would completely rearrange it without giving you credit.”

“They did WHAT?!” Sunwoo exclaims for the first time since you opened up about this topic which has you giggling.

“Yeah, it was terrible. Stone Entertainment never touched Jiyoon’s works. If they did though, they always made sure to give her credit. The rivalry I had with Jiyoon was something I knew I lost the moment they took my name out of the credits for one of the tracks I produced for the group.” You sigh. “Of course, I couldn’t protest because I would be risking my position in 1CON. Along with that, JYP would have been pissed if I spoke up.”

“So yeah, I had to live under the shadow of Jiyoon. I thought that things would go better for me once I came back under the care of JYP, but I was mistaken. There was no creative freedom with the tracks I planned to produce for the group. In fact, it felt like I was being used by the company. And despite all the countless producers JYP had contact with, they made sure to use me somehow.”

“So, imagine this: I was being starved, overworked, and overwhelmed by JYP. The fact that I couldn’t do what I love without being constantly criticized took an absolute toll on me. What I went through with Stone Entertainment was traumatic in some way, to be honest. While I was trying to get over that, I had to deal with JYP.”

“In the end, I made the decision to leave, having to pay off any expenses that they covered. Soeun followed me, and it’s a burden I carry with me. I can’t pay her much despite all the work she’s done for me. Yet, she stuck with me, and I’m happy she’s taking the decision to work with IST.”

The silence that engulfs you two should be deafening, but it was calming for you. Vocalizing what you went through felt like a weight off your chest. Somehow, saying all of it made you realize just how much you had to go through to be where you are now.

Once you looked up, you were greeted by Sunwoo’s eyes which were full of sorrow.

“I’m so sorry to hear that,” He whispers which has you shaking your head.

“There’s nothing for you to be sorry for. In fact, the people who owe me an apology are JYP and Stone Entertainment,” You say with a laugh, looking at the starry sky.

“That’s why when netizens talk about how I’m a wasted opportunity or question what my future plans are, I don’t pay attention to them. What I went through at those two companies was enough to know how I’d be treated in the industry.” You sigh. “But I love music at the end of it all—I love the music I worked hard on.”

As you admired the sea of stars that seemed to surround you two, Sunwoo grabbed your hand from across the table. The moment you look back at him, he does not say anything. Instead, he continues to rub his thumb on your hand, drawing patterns as you two sit in what you shared.

You were over what happened then; you did not cry like you used to. Yet, there is something so comforting about Sunwoo’s hand caressing yours that says, “You can cry if you want to.” And cry you did.

The tears slowly streamed down your face, and you realized just how vulnerable you were around the man you supposedly just met a few days ago. Before you could say anything, you see Sunwoo give you a smile of sympathy as he continues to hold your hand that starts to shake.

Once the sobs started to pour out, you could not look at him anymore. Your body started to bend forward as you felt your heart start to ache at the memory. Somehow, you felt your body be brought towards the warm figure who was once seated across you. As Sunwoo let you cry into his chest, his arms stayed wrapped around your figure as he rubbed circles on your back.

You were never the person who could easily be vulnerable around others. Yet, it was so easy to be that way with Sunwoo. Despite the small period of time getting to know him, he did not seem to judge you as tears and snot continued to drip. That was the moment you realized that Sunwoo is everything good in this world.

Having to meet Sunwoo the next day to record the final track was probably the most nerve-wracking experience yet. In the past two days, you managed to k*ss him on the cheek (god, you hate thinking about it that you cannot even say it) and also sob your eyes out to the point his hoodie was soaked. You are not sure how you can embarrass yourself even more.

When you entered the recording studio, the universe seemed to save your ass since you saw Chanhee and Sunwoo together. Thankfully, there would be no opportunity to spend some time alone with him (at least for now).

“Ah, Y/N! It’s so nice to see you again,” Chanhee exclaims as he grabs your hand to shake it.

“It’s nice to see you too, Chanhee! Has Sunwoo shown you the lyrics and melody?”

“Yes, he did. I was practicing all night, so I’m hoping you’ll be satisfied later.” You shake your head with a smile on your face. The moment your eyes land on Sunwoo, you see his eyes on you. Still nervous from yesterday, you look back at Chanhee to get rid of the fact that Sunwoo was staring at you.

“No, this is your track. Whatever you do should live up to your standards. I’m sure whatever you do will blow my mind anyway,” You say letting go of his hand.

Once you take a seat in front of the mixing console, you say, “Chanhee, you can step into the recording booth first so we can record your parts. Sunwoo seems to have his rap under control, so let’s work hard to do the bigger tasks.”

The whole process of having Chanhee and Sunwoo record their parts seemed to pass by quickly. In fact, you managed to only spend two and a half hours just recording their parts since they wanted to experiment and figure out which went best.

What followed after was for you to combine their vocals with the track. It did not take much, which surprised you. Usually, you would struggle with this segment of the process. Yet, it helped to have Sunwoo and Chanhee in the room as they talked about whatever.

As you were immersed in cleaning up the final track, you never noticed how Sunwoo was preoccupied with admiring you. Although Chanhee caught sight of it, he continued to talk to the wall to not blow his best friend’s cover.

What you do not catch is one boy whispering to the other about admitting his feelings for you after everything.

On the next day, you were not as nervous as you expected to be (maybe it is because Chanhee and Sunwoo enjoyed the final product). You were seated with the two across from Jihoon, Soeun, and the CEO of IST Entertainment, Mr. Yoon, to present the final track.

“Thank you again for meeting with us today and accepting the offer to produce the track for Chanhee and Sunwoo,” Mr. Yoon says with a smile.

“Of course, it is a pleasure to be given this opportunity,” You say as you bow your head.

“Can you give us a brief explanation of what you have prepared for us?”

With that, you nod and give Chanhee and Sunwoo to explain the meaning behind the song.

“Mr. Yoon, the track we have prepared with Y/N is entitled “Don’t,” which is a love story with a twist. It’s a story between two people who started off casually flirting but slowly realize that they have feelings for each other,” Chanhee starts off.

“The story of this song is that the two possible lovers don’t want to admit anything and would like to stay away from alcohol in fear that they might confess under the influence,” Sunwoo continues, allowing you to say the last segment of the explanation.

“The track is R&B with a Soul feel. Sunwoo is responsible for creating the meaning behind this track, and I just worked with his idea. We hope you enjoy what we have to offer,” You finish off the explanation and signal Soeun to play the track for Mr. Yoon.

As the track played, you noticed Soeun, Jihoon, and Mr. Yoon going along with the music. In fact, it looked like they were enjoying it. As you were waiting for the track to end, you felt someone’s hand grab onto yours from under the table. When you look down, you notice that it was Sunwoo’s hand that grabbed yours. The moment you look at Sunwoo who is seated beside you, he does not spare you a glance but continues to hold your hand that rests on your lap.

You two have not talked about the k*ss on the cheek or the sob moment you had back at the convenience store. In fact, you have not talked about how he held your hand in the car or how he held your face to calm you down. Never once did you two mention the flirtatious comments you two would throw at each other.

So, what happens once the track gets approved? Will these all stop once you and Sunwoo do not have to work together anymore? What will happen to the relationship between you two?

The moment the track reaches its end, you are snapped back to reality. Once you look back at Mr. Yoon, you see him nodding with a small smile. He seemed to look satisfied with the final output.

“Y/N, I really enjoy what you put for us today. Your specialty is really with R&B tracks considering the artists you’ve produced for.” You were not sure whether that was a compliment or not since you produced tracks of different genres.

“Here at IST, we really appreciate what you put in for us. We’ll make sure to make good use of this demo.” You started to frown.

“I’m sorry, demo?” You ask, clarifying what you just heard.

“Yes, demo,” Mr. Yoon answers, leaving you taken back.

“Demo? Mr. Yoon, we agreed on Y/N producing the final track. This is not a demo,” Soeun says as she shared the same confusion you had. Mr. Yoon snaps his fingers, signaling for Jihoon to respond.

“Uhm, we sent an email a few days ago to Y/N’s email to inform them of the changes in the contract. We assumed that you two got the memo despite getting no response.” With that, you immediately stand up from your seat, Sunwoo’s hand not holding yours anymore.

“Even if, you should have clarified with me regarding this matter. I mean, we saw each other recently. Why did you not bother to ask me if I received your email?” You ask in disbelief as you set your hands on the table.

“If you were signed with a company, then you wouldn’t have to bother with fixing your habit of reading emails,” Mr. Yoon comments, which makes you scoff.

“Ah, so it’s like that then. The nerve of this company to comment on how I am an independent producer is disrespectful. Mr. Yoon, I’ll have you know that I signed that contract under the impression it would be the final track. I cannot accept giving you this as a demo knowing my work would be taken advantage of.”

“Well, I’m sorry, but we are only willing to accept it as a demo.” You cross your arms as you shake your head in disbelief.

“Mr. Yoon, don’t think this is the first time people have attempted to screw me over. I’ll have you know that I’ve been in this industry longer than your groups. Chanhee and Sunwoo can keep their lyrics while I keep my track. This agreement is over,” You say as you step away from the table, storming off the room to leave Soeun to deal with the rest.

As you made your way out of the building, you began to walk on the sidewalk to think about what just happened. Yet, you heard someone calling your name from behind. As you let out a sigh, you stood still in place and feel Sunwoo’s hand grab onto your shoulder.

“What now, Sunwoo?”

“I’m sorry about–”

“Sunwoo, you don’t need to apologize for anything. It’s your CEO and manager that need to apologize for the fact that they modified the contract without my knowledge, attempted to take advantage of my work to call it their own, and insulted me as an independent artist and producer,” You say as you were shocked with how things turned out.

Clearly, you were not in the right headspace to continue talking about what just happened. In fact, you were pissed with the events that transpired a while ago. You signed up to produce the final track with possible minimal changes, not a fucking demo.

“Y/N, will you hear me out?” Sunwoo asks which makes you let out a sigh.

“Yes, sorry. Please, say what you need to say,” You say, hoping he would understand what you felt considering how you opened up to him two days ago.

“I think you should still agree to it.”

Upon hearing those words, your mouth opens in shock. The one person you trusted to understand what you felt about this issue seemed to be turning their back on you. Considering that Sunwoo knew what you went through, you could not believe what he was asking you to do.

“I’m sorry?”

“It’ll still be a good opportunity! I’ll make sure they credit you for it, and I’ll even express my gratitude to ensure that people know you worked on this.” You let out a chuckle of disbelief as you shake off his hand that was once resting on your shoulder (and held your hand countless times).

“Kim Sunwoo, I expected better from you.” Before he could say anything, you cut him off.

“No, you don’t get to speak just yet. Sunwoo, you are an artist in this industry. You know how companies treat demos, and how there are opportunities for artists like me to get fucked over. Your company is not that different from others; they only care for profit as artists continue to struggle in this fucked up industry.”

“Sunwoo, I can’t believe that after everything I told you a few days ago, you dare to ask me something so difficult. I would have thought that out of all the people you would be the one who would understand, but clearly, you are no different from the companies who took advantage of me.”

You stand there for a few seconds in hopes to hear Sunwoo argue that he is not like the people who took advantage of you. In fact, you were waiting for him to say he understood and that he would like to apologize. But when no words came out of his mouth, that is when you knew that you were played with.

“Yeah, fuck you, Sunwoo. Don’t bother contacting me again.” With that, you stormed off and left him to sit in with what you said. You did not like to admit it but you were sure you felt tears fall as you continued to make your way back home on foot.

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cheers! // iz*one, hht. // one-shot.

in which the popular head cheerleader hitomi faces her greatest dilemma as a high school student — confessing to you, her long-time crush.

word count: 7.3k

author's note: i've been getting lazy with my other works again 🗿 but i trust that this will get me out of my slump!! believe it or not, tomi was actually my first love in iz*one 🥺 saw her in pd48 and BOOM that was day one for me 🥰 i hope you all enjoyed this!

tags: high school au, fluff, pining, friends to lovers, wlw, useless lesbians in their natural habitat, nako the wingwoman we all need.

characters: the reader, honda hitomi, yabuki nako, kim chaewon, kim minju, lee chaeryeong, choi yena (mentioned), kang hyewon (mentioned), shin bora/hana.

pairs: the reader + honda hitomi, 2kim (kim chaewon + kim minju), yenako (yabuki nako + choi yena).

warnings: blood, mild swearing.

(Y/N) (L/N). You were a junior who recently transferred from a prestigious private academy from the countryside, but due to your parents getting excellent job offers in the city, you were forced to move. Not that you were complaining, you probably hated being around those snot-nosed rich kids that only hung around you to boost their status. It has only been a few months, but you felt at home in your new school more than you ever did in your previous one... and you've been studying there since elementary!

Perhaps it was because students in public school were less irritable and pretentious. Or maybe you were just that good with people. Either way, it was easy for you to get along with everyone. You were incredibly charming, funny, and so, so pretty. Nobody even dared to think that you do something evil, let alone think of it!

Everytime she sees you stride along the hallways with that cute smile on your face, Honda Hitomi just can't help but let her eyes linger on your figure. It didn't help that you smiled at everyone you recognized, so in the rare instances where you would look at Hitomi and flash her that hypnotizing grin, she absolutely swoons.

For example, right in this moment, Hitomi takes her eyes off of her locker to spare a glance to her side. As expected, you were making your way down the hallway, waving at a few acquaintances. Hitomi feels her heart melting when you help a timid freshman girl pick up her notebooks after bumping into a clumsy junior who didn't even apologize. Hitomi's cheeks becomes increasingly hot when your eyes briefly snapped up and met hers. She somehow convinced herself that she was imagining things, however.

Hallucinations, yes. Another one of the 'symptoms' that come with being hopelessly and utterly infatuated. And yes, Honda Hitomi can now admit that she has a humongous crush on you after weeks of denying it.

"Hii, there's ten days before Valentine's Day," Yabuki Nako, Hitomi's ever-so-reliable co-captain and childhood friend, says after noticing that Hitomi was once again distracted. There was a hint of annoyance in her tone, and the suggestion makes Hitomi raise an eyebrow towards her best friend. "You could do a lot leading up to that day other than just stare creepily from across the hallway." Nako says.

The smaller girl then tilts her head and grins when she sees you getting closer to them. Hitomi doesn't realize it since she now has her back turned to you, facing her menace of a best friend. "What, you want me to slip anonymous letters inside her locker and on Valentine's Day, reveal myself as her secret admirer and live happily ever after?" The head cheerleader asks with sarcasm. By no means did she ever insinuate that she hasn't thought of doing that ever, but a lot of things could go wrong!

Hitomi isn't exactly the most discreet person in the world, so she had no doubts that you would catch after the first letter. Plus, it's cheesy and old-school. Aren't people expecting a lot from others nowadays whenever Valentine's Day comes around? I can do better, probably.

"That's a cute idea. Do it," Speaking of you, you stopped right beside Hitomi, wearing your heart-fluttering smile and all. The head cheerleader nearly jumps out of her skin, and Nako lets out a barely suppressed laugh when she saw how much her best friend flinched. "Who is it for? I could lend a hand if you want." You leaned closer to Hitomi with shining, eager eyes, completely oblivious that she was a mess beneath her seemingly calm exterior.

Hitomi chuckles awkwardly and shoots a look that screamed 'help' towards her best friend, but Nako ignores her intentionally, being the Devil's spawn that she is. "N-No one in particular. It was just... an idea." The head cheerleader blurted out, leaning towards her locker and creating some distance between the two of you before your fresh, cool scent started clouding every corner of her brain.

You pursed your lips, "Ah, top secret information. Got it." You joked. You then turned to Nako and started chatting about your history class that the two of you shared together. Hitomi releases a shaky sigh of relief and pretended to be busy with her locker. It was clean and well-organized, but she can't just walk away. From you of all people!

Hitomi briefly looks over her shoulder and smiles at the way you and Nako got along so well. A month or two ago, she would have been extremely jealous, but that was because she didn't understand her feelings yet and was threatened by everybody, even her own best friend. But Nako herself assured Hitomi that she would never make a pass on you. Mostly because she was into this one cool senior, Choi Yena, but also because it's a 'best friend thing'.

Perhaps if Hitomi had any courageous bone inside of her, she would be the one animatedly chatting to you right now. And that would still be a bit much for her because she just can't seem to look into your eyes for a minute before feeling tingles all over her body. Crushes were a pain sometimes, but goodness did Hitomi like it.

"Oh, that reminds me. Hitomi," The head cheerleader blushes hard at the sound of her name leaving your lips. Nako smirks, oh how she loved seeing her best friend so weak and helpless over a crush. It was adorable. "If you don't mind, me and some buddies of mine in the newspaper club will crash in on your practice later. Our... leader wants to make a huge piece or whatever for the upcoming championships, so she wants us to take pictures of the cheer team." You said, scratching your head.

"That's okay." Hitomi replies simply. Nako cringes at the lack of enthusiasm in her best friend's part, but she makes up for it with a kind smile towards you.

"Awesome! See you both later then." You pat Hitomi and Nako on the shoulder before going on your merry way. As usual, Hitomi stares at your leaving figure, still lovestruck.

"I can't believe (Y/N) knows my name, Nako. Can you believe that?" Hitomi says, leaning dramatically on her locker and sighing dreamily. She couldn't help but grin when she spots you fooling around with Kim Chaewon, your fellow newspaper club member, in the distance.

Nako rolls her eyes, "Yes. You're both attending the same school and you share a few extracurriculars together. Also, you're the main bitch in this joint." She deadpanned.

"I am so not. Stop saying that. If anything, you're the one who has everyone completely wrapped around her finger." Hitomi closes her locker. She never liked being seen as the 'queen' of the school just because she was the captain of the cheer team. That is such a stereotype.

"Correct. And now, I have decided to use my many connections to my advantage." Nako says with pride, and a smirk that definitely screamed that she had an ulterior motive Hitomi squints, suspicious of what her best friend might be hinting. She shrugs it off however, and the two of them happily skip together towards their next class.

Honda Hitomi. The popular sophomore exchange student from Japan who was amazing enough to earn the title of head cheerleader a few months into her career in the school. You heard a lot of good things about her during your own time in the school, but you wanted to see it for yourself. However, you just never found an opportunity to be friends with her.

You could get along with even the coldest of hearts in the school; a prime example would be Kim Chaewon. She used to give you blank stares and a cold shoulder, but now you were practically joined by the hip. Even the most closed-off people like that quiet senior Kang Hyewon has a soft spot for you, but somehow, you just can't figure out Hitomi. You can clearly see that she was nice, and the complete opposite of how the cheerleaders in your old school were, but you wanted to see if there was more.

Plus, Honda Hitomi was adorable. It couldn't hurt to try and see if your charms work on the most popular kid in the school!

"Are you sure you're not crushing on her?" Chaewon asks when she catches you smiling towards Hitomi's, and Nako's, way. It wasn't the first time she has asked that question, so you should probably be thinking if you actually were.

But, as always, you shake your head, "I want to be friends, that's all." You replied.

Chaewon continues to stare at you, trying her hardest to see if she can slip inside the smallest of cracks in the strong walls you've built around yourself, just so she can take a look at what's going on in your wonderful brain. When she doesn't see any openings, she sighs, defeated.

You keep your eyes on Hitomi's leaving figure and think to yourself; if you did have feelings for her and pursued it, how well would it have turned out? You never liked anyone seriously before, they were mostly just fleeting, one-second attractions, but maybe if it were towards Hitomi, you can take your feelings seriously and see where it leads.

You blink, surprised at your thoughts, then you laughed at yourself. No way.

"What do you mean the boys' volleyball team will be sharing our space with us?"

Hitomi clutches Nako's sleeve in an attempt to hold her back from literally jumping their innocent coach. The vice captain was barely able to dodge a volleyball coming towards her way, and she glares at the boys on the other side of the giant gymnasium.

After school hours is when club activities are to operate, and sports teams are supposed to have their own place where they practice whatever they do. The soccer team occupies a field, the football team occupies another field, and the same goes for other teams. Of course, the cheer team gets their own place and it happens to be the biggest one in the school: the main gymnasium where most pep rallies are located. But, as everyone in the cheer team is now aware of, a problem has risen.

"Their gym is closed for renovations, Nako, and I promise you it is only for this week! Just get through it for a few more days and you will all have your precious gym back." Coach Hana said, pinching the bridge of her nose to ease her growing stress. She loved her girls, she really did, but sometimes things were a bit... chaotic. Especially when someone as passionate, to say the least, as Nako loses it.

"This week? Coach, you know how important this week is to us! Hii, tell her we can't afford any interruptions or distractions because we're gonna be competing for a national trophy." Nako nudges her best friend, her anger still burning hot. Coach Hana looks at the captain, and so does everyone else. Even the captain of the boys' volleyball team had his eyes on the cheerleader, half expecting to be kicked out of the gymnasium.

The sound of the doors opening and closing catches Hitomi's attention and she turns her head to see who would come inside in such a crucial time. When she sees you, Chaewon, and some other girls from the newspaper club, her worry disperses. You wave at Hitomi as you sat down on the bleachers, your camera sitting quietly on your lap. Hitomi smiles at you, but is immediately pulled back into the main problem by Nako.

"W-We can... deal with it," Hitomi says, erupting a collection of groans, protests, and sighs from her team. Nako stares at her best friend, asking for more explanation. "They won't bother us, and they're not even taking up half of the space in here right now. We can still do our usual thing without any one of them intervening."

When the entire team was completely silent, Coach Hana claps her hands, "Okay! Now that that problem's solved, how about you all change out of your school uniforms and get on with your warmups? We just wasted about twenty minutes worth of practice." The coach ushers the team into the changing room, ignoring Nako's annoyed look.

"Thank you for taking care of that, Hitomi. I know this is a pain for you too, and I apologize. The girls' team are pretty possessive of their space and I just couldn't say no to those boys." Coach Hana said, patting her head cheerleader at the back.

Hitomi shakes her head, "It's alright, coach. I'll get changed now."

Before the captain enters the changing room, however, she steals another glance at your direction. You were distracted by the boys' volleyball team, and your mouth was hanging open, amazed. Hitomi pouts a little, deciding to take your breath away with what her and her girls have been practicing for the past few weeks.

Honda Hitomi strides inside the changing rook with a proud smile and she pats Nako's rear as she comes close, startling the smaller girl. "Let's do well today, yeah?" The head cheerleader says. She then does a spin as she pulls at her bow tie.

"What's got you so giddy?" Lee Chaeryeong, another sophomore, asked.

Nako smirks, "It's because her girlfriend is out there right now." She teased. The rest of the team gasp, making Nako laugh hysterically. They all knew Hitomi had a certain attraction towards you, because who wouldn't? You were practically an eye magnet, and boy, were you one hell of an eye magnet... but that's not important. Honda Hitomi was never known for being the cheerleader that likes this or that person. That was Nako, actually.

So hearing that Hitomi was actually serious about her crush on you, it was only expected for the team to be in over their heads about it. As dramatic as that was.

"It better be (Y/N). Chaewon's already got her heart full." Kim Minju, yet another sophomore in the team, quips from the other side of the room. Minju was what people would call the 'face' of this school. She was so incredibly pretty that her popularity exceeds some well-known Instagram models! Hitomi remembers just how boys, and girls but mostly boys, were going crazy over her when they were freshmen but then Minju enters sophomore year with some fresh new bangs and a girlfriend, and suddenly order was restored in the hallways because then boys stopped crowding around Minju's locker.

It was understandable. Nobody wants to be on the receiving end of Kim Chaewon's anger. I wouldn't want to be the one trying to get her come to her senses either. Thank goodness Minju cuffed her when she did.

"Minju, you should be worried about me stealing your girlfriend, not Hii." Nako jokes... or was she? She clearly had the power and charm to do it. Hitomi fears for the day Nako actually loses her mind, goes off the rails, and makes a move on someone's girlfriend. I'm gonna be the one cleaning up her mess. I just know it.

"I thought you only had eyes for Choi Yena?" Chaeryeong asked, now fully changed into her cheerleader uniform. She looked regal, as always.

Nako shrugs, "I have two hands." She barely dodges the stray volleyball sitting around in the changing room thrown weakly by a laughing Minju.

More than happy that the attention is off of her, Hitomi decided to join the fun, "What is the situation between the two of you? I feel like you've been playing this... tug of war since forever." She can't even remember when this whole game of push-and-pull started! Maybe it's time they take each other seriously.

Nako grins, hues of pink evident in her cheeks, "We're getting there. I mean, we're still... talking but... oh my God, okay. Last night, she took me out on a walk by Han River and... we kissed."

The team squeals and shares a fit of giggles, lightly hitting Nako and pulling her for more information. Hitomi slips inside her shirt before forcing Nako to face her, "That's a huge step, are you serious? Ask her out! Like, for real!"

"What?! No! N-Not yet! It's too soon," Nako gently pushes her best friend away. For a brief second, she actually looked conflicted and vulnerable, but then she grins devilishly. "But how soon is after practice?"

The girls freak out again and they started sharing ideas as to where Nako should take her and how she should approach 'the whole thing'. Hitomi always loved whenever they come together as a team. Whether it was through moving as one during performances or knowing what someone is thinking about before they say it or even planning dates together, Hitomi will always feel proud. Although sometimes it does get really ridiculous. Didn't we plan on burning a misogynistic senior's car once?

Three loud knocks echoed throughout the changing room, "We're losing our precious practice time, girls! Come on!" Coach Hana yells from the other side.

The girls who were finished changing skips out of the room, excitedly to finally get moving. Hitomi and Nako slowly trail behind Chaeryeong and Minju while pulling their hair up in a neat ponytail. (Yes, at the same time. And yes, in synch.)

"Try not to get distracted by (Y/N)'s awesomeness and have a ball hit your pretty face, okay, Hii-chan?" Nako teased, and she earns nothing but a scoff and another playful hit in the butt before they started running and chasing each other around, to which their coach scolds them for.

The sound of Chaewon giggling snaps you out of your daydream, and you turn to her, wondering what got her smiling so big. You followed her loving gaze and your eyes land on one Kim Minju who was shooting finger hearts towards her girlfriend's direction. You smiled softly, the sight of the cutest couple in the school looking hopelessly in love with each other was always a treat to witness.

"Right. We're here because of that," Chaewon sighs in defeat when she spots you raising your camera. You have already taken a few photos of the cheer team and the volleyball team, although you had no idea these two teams were put in the same bubble all of a sudden. "Alright. You and the others handle the photos because you are all amazing, and I'll deal with the interrogation." The short-haired junior says, leaning back and once again staring at her girlfriend.

"You're lucky your duties cut you some slack. You know it hurts to look through some lenses for long periods of time?" You asked, snapping a photo of one of the volleyball guys jumping for a spike.

Chaewon scoffs, "(Y/N), I have to talk to people. That's not exactly easy for me either." She replied, to which you respond with a roll of your eyes before busying yourself with your job.

You, and the rest of your small team, spent the rest of your time in the gymnasium chatting about school, classes, and of course, whatever came up at the moment. Chaewon never took her eyes off Minju, unless she spared a glance your way to see if you were staring at Hitomi again.

Unfotunately for Chaewon, most of the time, you were focused on taking photos. But then she finally catches you, and she was convinced that everything you told her about not crushing on Hitomi was bullshit. The way you looked at Hitomi told Chaewon something. That perhaps you weren't made of stone.

You gently rested your camera on your lap once again and took a sip of the soda sitting by your feet. Chaewon tilts her head and poked your arm. When you looked at her, she was wearing a teasing smile and you just knew you were in for a round of joking about your feelings towards one Honda Hitomi.

"Kim Chaewon, if you don't stop asking me if I have a crush on Hitomi, I actually might catch feelings for her." You said. If you did, you wouldn't be completely against it. Because, again, you do think that Hitomi was freaking cute and dating her would be awesome! It was just a little bit of an abstract image in your head because you were you and Hitomi was Hitomi.

Yeah, that makes so much sense.

"I didn't say anything." Chaewon turns away from you with a victorious smile, happy that she struck the right nerve. You shake your head, but you continued on watching the cheer team do their thing. You've already taken so much pictures anyway, it was a good time to take a short break.

In the hallways, Honda Hitomi does a good enough job of blending in the crowd and trying her hardest to not be too noticeable, but in the gym, wearing the cheerleading uniform that fit her way too well, and with her team, she was like a completely different person. Like a switch was turned and suddenly she was so... breathtaking.

Okay, maybe that wasn't the exact word but Hitomi knew how to catch a crowd's attention with her expressions, and you always found yourself amazed every time she does something! You've been to a few pep rallies and Hitomi did not only pull all of your attention to her just because she was the head cheerleader and she was meant to have most of the time attention, but also because she was just simply a good performer. And you respected that!

She really is so cool.

When Hitomi looks over her shoulder after a discussion with Coach Hana, her gaze meets yours. You froze for a brief second, and maybe another half second because it surprised you that Honda Hitomi could make you feel surprised in the first place, then you flashed her a smile and a heart, for some reason. Hitomi grins and blows a kiss before joining her team.

"Oh my God," Chaewon laughs, slapping your arm. You covered your face in your hands as you laughed along. "Did you two just flirt? Out in the open? And you call me and my Minju shameless?"

You grab your camera again, "Well, me and my Hitomi don't make out by my locker for God-knows-how-long and get scolded by some faculty for feeling each other up in the darkest corners of the library." You blurted out in frustration.

A whole minute of silence passes and you finally realized what you just said.

"Your Hitom--"

"Oh, do your work already, Kim Chaewon!"

Cheer practice has officially concluded for the day, and Hitomi was more than ready to hop on to her shower at home and daydream about you while she watches romcom movies from the 90s. She tried to get rid of that weird-almost-creepy habit, but sometimes, escaping from the reality of her situation gave her comfort. Even if her ways were... strange.

"Hii-chan," Nako calls out in a sing-songy voice. Minju and Chaeryeong trail behind her, engrossed in their own conversation. "We're planning on getting some ice cream after all of this, wanna come? I do hate for you to lose those precious three hours of thinking about (Y/N) while staring at nothing but I gotta admit, it's getting old and a little obssessive-ish." The vice captain says in one breath and not one beat missed.

"Oh, shut it, Miss I-See-Choi-Yena-In-My-Dreams," Hitomi bites back, making Nako turn her head away from embarrassment. "But no, I can't. I have this assignment I need to do for my math class." The head cheerleader sighs deeply. She wondered if she was ever going to get a time where she can just not worry about schoolwork every time she comes home from cheer practice. Highly impossible, but she likes to imagine.

"That's too bad. Have fun, then." Nako said in the flattest tone Hitomi has ever heard from a human being. The four of them then start making their way back inside the changing room to grab their bags, but of course, you catch all of Hitomi's attention once again.

You were descending from the bleachers with your fellow photographers and you had a bright smile on your face as you chatted with them. One of the things Hitomi liked so much about you is the way you treated everyone like a friend. She will never forget how comfortable she was with you when you first met. It was in an impromptu afternoon assembly and you deliberately sat beside her and talked with her as if you have been friends forever. Hitomi remembers being absolutely awestruck because the rumors were true; you really are prettier up close.

And apparently even more within kissing distance but it's not like I will ever find that out, haha.

"Did you do the thing we told you to do?" Minju asked.

Hitomi blushes at the reminder of that brief moment earlier, "Y-Yes." She said.

"So? How did (Y/N) react?" Chaeryeong pulls the three girls to the side as some members of the team started coming out of the changing room and bid their goodbyes.

Hitomi looks at you again, a fond look adorning her features, "I didn't see, but it felt great to act on my feelings, even just a little bit." Your eyes find the cheerleader's again, and you wave at her. And perhaps it was once again Hitomi's imaginations but she couldn't miss how one of your eyes closed, and it essentially looked like you winked at her.

Judging by how quickly you got shy right after, it was indeed not just one of Hitomi's hallucinations. The head cheerleader takes a minute to process your actions and by the end of her revelation, Honda Hitomi becomes a blushing mess.

"Oh, God. Is this how Chaewon and I acted like when we were still in denial?" Minju says, laughing at how Hitomi suddenly couldn't function properly.

"Yes, and this would be me and Yena if we weren't confident of ourselves and hung out every chance we got." Nako shivers at the thought of longing gazes and secret mutual pining, because the Yabuki Nako doesn't roll like that!

"Let's stop picking on our poor Hitomi and get changed out of our sweaty cheer outfits, okay?" Chaeryeong, bless her heart, opens the door to the changing room and ushers the girls inside. Minju immediately enters, but not before waving at her girlfriend. Nako grabs Hitomi's arm and pulls her along, but Hitomi was suddenly made of stone because she wouldn't budge.

"Oh, Hii, don't be do dramatic now. It was a wink, you'll survive. Maybe not a kiss though because I heard from a friend of a friend that (Y/N) (L/N) is one hell of a kisser." Nako tugs harder on her best friend's arm, but she wasn't strong enough to pull her completely because Hitomi almost trips over her own feet.

Chaeryeong groans at the best friends' antics, but then her eyes widen when she spots an object hurling towards Hitomi at an alarming speed. Oh, God, Honda Hitomi was going to die right before her eyes.

"Hitomi, watch out!" Chaeryeong screams, but to no avail. The volleyball hits Hitomi square in the face before it launches itself in the air upon impact and finally falls on the floor. The whole gymnasium went silent, and surprisingly, Hitomi was as well. A sane person would have been screaming in agony, but Hitomi only blinked her eyes open.

The head cheerleader slowly starts feeling pain collecting towards the center of her face and... something drips from her nose. She wipes it with the back of her hand, and at the sight of her own blood, her eyes almost fall out of their sockets.

"Ow."

— was what Honda Hitomi could say before collapsing in her best friend's arms.

"I mean, that's gotta hurt, right? Right on her beautiful nose? I hope it's not broken," Chaewon was surprisingly talkative all of a sudden. The two of you were making your way back to the newspaper club's room, and Kim Minju was tagging along because of course she would want to walk with her girlfriend right after club activities. You should probably get used to it now, but everytime she lingers near, you can't help but constantly stare. Everyone was right. Kim Minju's beauty is out of this world, holy shit. "(Y/N), are you okay?"

Chaewon and Minju were looking at you, one was mildly concerned and the other just realizing you were even there. You merely nodded, not feeling like talking at the moment. You wondered if it would be okay for you to just leave these two alone and go somewhere else, but then the club leader would ask questions about your whereabouts and you just can't have Chaewon deal with that by herself. So you stay with the couple but the closer the three of you got to the newspaper club's room, the more you wanted to turn back.

"You know you can check on Hitomi if you really want to, right?"

Your heads snap up and your eyes meet Minju's. There was a certain glint there that you saw, and that made you slowly raise an eyebrow. Chaewon was grinning, the couple was on the same wavelength. Bewildered, you pointed at yourself, "M-Me?" You had asked, genuinely confused.

Minju nods, "Yeah. You're worried about her, aren't you? It was your little wink that turned her into a rock so technically you're the reason she's in the infirmary right now." The sophomore says without much regard.

Chaewon's smile drops and she laughs awkwardly, "What Minju is trying to say is that we won't jump you for caring about Hitomi, and you can totally get rid of us if you want to see her." Your fellow junior nudges her girlfriend in the arm, silently scolding her.

You laugh at them both and wave a single hand, "I was actually scared that I might have left one of the cameras in the gym, but I guess I can check on Hitomi on the way." It was the truth, but you were actually worried about the head cheerleader as well. You wouldn't be surprised if she was concussed; boys can be pretty cruel in sports.

The couple starts walking away from you, ushering you to go to the infirmary immediately while they giggled their way inside another hidden corner of the school to do who-knows-what. You shake your head, at least you won't be around to see whatever they do. You started walking back to where you came from, happily whistling a tune.

I wonder if she's awake now.

Honda Hitomi felt like she was dreaming, or maybe she was dead. She couldn't tell the difference, but everything was blurry as she slowly comes to her senses. At least she recognized that she was laying in one of the beds in the infirmary. What she did not recognize was the head floating in front of her. She tries, really tries, to blink a few times and hopefully gain her normal vision back, but God her head hurt like hell. So she says the name of the first and only person she could think of at the moment.

"(Y/N)?"

The girl in front of her laughs, "Yes, Hii. It's me." She says. Hitomi smiles, content and ready to fall back asleep as her beloved crush was right there to watch over her, but then she remembers that only one person in the world calls her 'Hii'.

Hitomi was suddenly wide awake and she pushes her best friend's face away, "Ugh, Nako!" She whined. She hears another girl giggling from the door, and it was Chaeryeong who had been patiently waiting for Hitomi to wake up, being the big softie she always has been.

"I'm a little hurt that you would prefer to see your crush over your very own best friend, but since you almost just died, I'll look the other way." Nako sits down on the nurse's rolling chair, slides right beside the bed Hitomi was laying on before placing a milk juice box and Hitomi's favorite bread down on the table next to the bed. Chaeryeong made sure to run to the nearest convenience store as fast as she could to get her fellow cheerleader's comfort food. What would the team ever do without her?

"How long was I knocked out?" Hitomi asked, her hand blindly reaching for the milk. She didn't feel like raising her head even once inch off the pillow, afraid of feeling like the world was spinning and throwing up at the comfortable bed.

"It's been about half an hour since you got spiked in the face," Chaeryeong was now standing at the end of the bed, her arms crossed and her face filled with worry. Hitomi weakly waves at her as she sips on the milk. Her nose was throbbing real bad, she didn't even know if she could sit up, let alone walk out of the infirmary! "Nako and I made sure that the idiot that hit you will clean the gym for as long as his team is staying there." Oh, she was as terrifying as she was kind. Lee Chaeryeong truly is an interesting one.

Hitomi sighs as she sinks her head further into the pillow. She was annoyed that this happened because this means that she was probably going to have to sit out of practice for days, and she really can't afford to have breaks in such a crucial time of the year for the cheer team. Hitomi couldn't bring herself to blame you (because you were (Y/N), you probably didn't even mean to take her breath away with your natural appeal), or the boy that hit her with the volleyball (because it was probably just an accident), and so she blames herself.

If we lose this competition because I had to ogle at who might possibly the biggest catch in this school at the worst time, I will literally never forgive myself... and I'll probably spend my whole life apologizing to Sakura. Our former captain who trusted me with so much but here I am in the infirmary with a fucked-up nose, drinking milk—

"Hii, you have a visitor."

Nako pulls Hitomi out of the dark side of her brain, and Hitomi forces herself to raise her head just a little and look past Chaeryeong. Standing by the door she sees you, wearing a timid smile and holding what seems to be a duplicate of the milk the cheerleader herself was drinking at the moment. Hitomi almost chokes on her drink upon your sudden appearance. If Nako planned all of this... then I'm sorry to my middle school self but I am going to have to kill my best friend.

"Hi. I just... wanted to check in and see if you're okay, Hitomi," You said as you walked closer. Soon enough, you were standing right beside Chaeryeong, who was painfully awkward. Nako cleared her throat and muttered something about giving you and Hitomi 'some space' before dragging Chaeryeong away and closing the curtains. You and Hitomi were officially alone, and goodness was the cheerleader a mess inside. "Oh, would you look at that. I got you the exact same drink." You walked closer to the table and placed the juice box there.

Hitomi felt like her limbs were suddenly coated with cement; she was so, so stiff. It's like she didn't know how to function as a human being anymore. There has never been a moment where it was just you and her together. Not even an incident where the two of you got stuffed inside a locker together, even when Nako had plans for it! Hitomi prayed that you would at least get the signal and initiate the conversation, but for the first time in her life, she wanted to do something.

Even earlier in the gym, it was her fellow cheerleaders that told her that if the opportunity strikes, she should blow you a kiss. And Hitomi did it but as good as it felt, she didn't do it because she wanted to. Her friends pushed her to do it, so it doesn't count. Hitomi senses that you were also getting awkward and was probably planning on leaving as quickly as you came, and she felt that she had to do something about that.

She wanted to spend time with you and get to know you. Not (Y/N), the coolest transferee anyone has ever met but whatever was inside. When it turns out that (Y/N) was being herself this whole time, this entire monologue will be super embarrassing... but there's only one way to find out.

"S-Sorry you had to see me like that," The cheerleader said. Probably not the best approach to this whole thing but hey, I started something! Hitomi slowly sits up, completely disregarding how much her entire head hurt. She laughs a little when you reach out to her in an attempt to help her. "How... how did you like our routine?" Hitomi looks up from her lap, and she felt like passing out once again when she sees that you have been staring at her the entire time.

"It was... innovative. Coach Hana said you and Nako contributed a lot to the choreography. You're awesome, Hitomi." You inched closer to the bed, and the cheerleader notices that your smile was a little different. You looked... shy, and cuter than usual. Hitomi bites her lower lip, excited as she has never seen this side of you before. The thought of herself being the cause of it made her even more giddy.

"Chaewon didn't get to interview the team, I assume?" Hitomi completely turns her body towards you so that her legs were hanging off to the side of the bed. You shook your head, suddenly unable to find any words in you to reply properly. (What was happening to you? Maybe you were thinking of Hitomi too much on the way to the infirmary that you started... seeing her in a different light.) "Then can I expect to see you in tomorrow's practice? I'll make sure to not get hit in the face this time so the newspaper club can have some material before the competitions start." The cheerleader was only half aware of the implications she was blurting out, but you found it cute.

(You weren't a complete hopeless case, and you certainly were not a stranger to flirting. Although right now you weren't sure if Hitomi, who was usually so quiet around you, has finally realized that you were just another student in the school or if she was still delirious from losing so much blood. Still, you couldn't help but be drawn to her. She was too darn adorable.)

You flashed the cheerleader a grin, "What is this? Did Nako's daily goal of being a menace to the society rub off on you? I never really saw you as the initiator type, Hii."

Hitomi tries her best to not make it obvious how much her heart did turns and somersaults after hearing you call the one nickname that only Nako was allowed to refer to her as. I guess I can add (Y/N) to that very short list now. Sorry, Nako. "I think I've liked you for so long I'm actually starting to go a little crazy because you're just so... gorgeous."

"You're lying. You like me? The Honda Hitomi has feelings for plain old (Y/N)?" You asked in complete disbelief. (You weren't trying to look dumb. You actually had no idea. There were a lot of people that were shy around you more than the amount of people who felt at home with you! Oh my goodness, does that mean a third of the school has a crush on me? Wait, focus on Hitomi, (Y/N)!)

The head cheerleader does nothing but nod, and she hoped that the sincere look in her eyes were enough to make you believe her. When Hitomi noticed that blood has crept up your face, she laughs. Oh, you were so endearing to her. She couldn't help but take your hand in hers and hold them tightly. A few hours ago, she wouldn't need to get spiked in the face, as described by Chaeryeong, to pass out as your mere presence would have done the job just like that, but it was truly fascinating how determination can push someone to do unimaginable things. Now maybe that was a little dramatic in Hitomi's case but she has never come this close before!

Hitomi pulls on your hands to bring you closer, "I know this is a bit of a whiplash since... I only ever say two, maybe three if I somehow learn to be immune to your beauty for a minute, words at max whenever you're around but... (Y/N), you are everything but plain and... I've liked you for a long time. I-I just wanted to say."

Upon your lack of response, Hitomi was starting to think that maybe it was a bad idea to let her heart handle things. But then you intertwine your fingers together, and you lean close. Every drop of confidence Hitomi had built up inside herself suddenly disappears and she was once again a stone statue. How could she not be?! You were going to kiss her!

The cheerleader's heart drops to her stomach when you stop halfway. You blinked, "S-Should I kiss you right now? Isn't your nose kinda broken? I'd hate to hurt you. Plus, Nako and Chaeryeong are waiting for you outs—"

"Oh, just kiss her already, Hii-chan!!"

Hearing her best friend's request, Hitomi gently cups your cheeks with her hands and presses her lips on yours. A wave of relief wash over Hitomi's senses when you reciprocate her kiss, making her less of a statue but more of a... tree swaying gently as the wind passes by. She didn't know if that was the exact comparison she should use, she couldn't think clearly! This was everything she was waiting for in her high school career!

"Ten days before Valentine's," You laughed against the cheerleader's lips. Hitomi's heart melts into a puddle when you absentmindedly drew patterns on the back of her waist. "You just couldn't wait, hm?"

Hitomi shakes her head and she leans close again, and she should've known that you would look even more like a dream up close, a dream that isn't so much of a dream now, "No, but I also have been waiting for too long, wouldn't you say?" She rests her forehead against yours for a bit, before she succumbs to what her heart wants and kisses you again.

Yup. A dream turned into reality. Everything I wanted.

"I told you Hii would get a valentine before Valentine's." Nako smiles proudly. She has been watching her best friend pine for you for months too long, so Hitomi's victory felt like hers too!

"Well, what about you? Still planning on making Yena yours for real?" Chaeryeong asked. She pulls out two milk juice boxes from her bag. She planned on giving them to Hitomi just in case she craved for more, but now she felt like sharing it with Nako instead. After all, Hitomi has her own girl to share milk juice boxes with now.

"Of course." Nako happily accepts one of the milk, once again excited at the thought of spending another night with the woman who has her whole heart.

Chaeryeong finds joy in seeing her friends succeed with their love life, so much so that she felt like she didn't need her own. Not now anyway. "Cheers, then." She said, bumping her box with Nako's.

"Cheers, indeed."

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