#loooong ramble in the tags congrats if you made it this far

[herrlichersonnigertag]

oh babes the consequences of having multiple disabilities that make each other worse sure are being felt

#don’t rb #like. hmm. the consequences of my actions. who coulda thunk it #at this point im getting convinced that what i need more than anything else is to live with someone full-time who is willing to care for me #plus possibly getting actual hired support from a caretaker/helper of some kind #also not living with relative strangers for roommates with whom i feel anxious #which triggers all the other issues #but like. damn. i cannot be doing this anymore i will either cause myself harm or just generally be miserable #all the time and possibly like. stop doing my job/being a friend/being a partner well #to be clear: I’m mostly having a good day (brain-wise) today and I am in no danger and my partner helps a TON as do my friends #but the circumstances of my life could be uhhhh a lot better for me #also. really struggle with the lable of ‘disabled’ and not wanting to like… take it away from people who I perceive as ‘more disabled’?? #but there’s really no other way to describe my experience than disabled and also i literally categorically have disabilities #loooong ramble in the tags congrats if you made it this far #שירו שיר חדש