#literally in my pilloe rn yelling

[rabbitmotifs]

watching 10 things i hate about you and fully sighing whenever heath ledger is on screen

#Dreamy... i miss you king #i could be kat. i could be the shrew. i also like thai food feminist prose and angry girl music of the indie rock persuasion #literally in my pilloe rn yelling

[cryolyst]

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#i have an exam in the morning and despite not studying and having a 90% chance of failing this course i feel literally nothing rn #im just really angry at my mom for no reason? #idk i hate when my parents prod at me about school because every time they ask it's because they want me to 'have a good future' #and every time there's and underlying 'i put all my hopes and dreams on you and you've disappointed us' in their tone #like. i feel so bad for getting angry but I can't help but think that they're annoying. i don't give a shit about my grades anymore. #idk if I'll even be alive til end of senior year. all my concern for academics was gone as soon as i entered eighth grade. #along with my will to live. so it just feels so uncomfortable when they care so much about my schoolwork n shit #especially since they don't care about literally any other aspect of me. except whether or not im pretty enough to find a boyfriend. #lol if u wanted me to care abt grades u shoulda taught me to think of it as important and not as a necessity to please you. fuckers. #anyways the plan 4 tmr is to go in the exam room and hand in a paper saying 'fail me bitch' and hopefully die of fear immediately after #god just. #trying to communicate w my mom is so many levels of difficult. #like on top of different views and generational gap n her thinking of me as a moody inappreciative bitch and that i don't understand her et #she just. talks on a wavelength completely separate from mine. doesn't even seem to listen to what im actually saying. #never thinks from anyone elses perspective. doesn't try to understand what someone is thinking. #if i something and she answers something someone else asked her a week ago and yells at you for not understanding her #andways im crying now so im just honna go and rip ipen a pilloe or something #ifuvkinghatelivong