#literally 6 am energy

[hellodolleyes]

I want so bad to info dump on my four realms and the races amongst them, but brain no know where to start. Sadge

Its 6 am

#literally 6 am energy #world building #ask me anything give me a reason to rant about my babies #my oc shit #g/t #the secret underground #Gonavixa

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Actually, now I think about it, Barnaby will put his face in Howdy's fluff whether or not he's unhappy.

SO true. maybe im just very tired but im getting the mental image of him like... tugging on Howdy's apron like "hey c'monnn im so unhappy rn im seriously so angry, just gimme the fluff itll fix me right up-" In The Middle Of The 'Busy' Store. and im finding it extremely funny

#absolutely no shame smh #frank starts herding julie and wally out of the store #howdy shoves barnaby out asap and quickly creates a No Dogs Allowed sign #cue barnaby staring through the window with the biggest shiny puppy eyes while everyone shops and howdy tries to ignore him #he's literally at his job... so unprofessional... having the fluff out is NOT work attire... #rambles from the bog #laughingstock #yassified howdy <3 #adding this to that tag cause like. well you all know lmao i dont have to explain Jack #oh god its 10 am? its 10 am. i need to go to bed #OR DO I #yeah i do.... #i have to make a tiring phone call at 6 im gonna need all the energy and mental fortitude i can get #i will fall asleep picturing these shenanigans

[justablah56]

I am . so fucking tired you guys .

#just blahs #wahh #my energy battery is bleerpth #having school and then rehearsals from 5:30 am to 6 pm literally kills me #and then these last two days ive had MORE shit to do afterwards #and havent been able to get home and actually just . relax . until 8-9 pm #im going to exploode like an over worked engine btw

[fitsinthepalm]

it’s kind of wild that you don’t realize how depressed you were until you start feeling better

#does this make sense to anyone else #i’m like currently coming out of a funk #even my therapist told me the past 6 months is the most depressed she’s ever seen me (i’ve been seeing her weekly for 3+ years) #and literally these past like 2-3 weeks since i put my resignation in at my old job #i have had so much energy and motivation #today i walked both dogs and went on a walk with baby girl after daycare #i went to the local nursery and bought mums & pumpkins #i brought out the interior fall decor from storage and put it around the house #like obv i have extra time bc i have some time off before i start my new job #but like!!!! i haven’t *wanted* to do anything for so long #like i was just completely apathetic #i’m gonna cry thinking about it #but it feels so good to feel like i’m turning a corner #hi if you read this far ilysm i am kissing you on the mouth

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol #this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable #im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work #property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me #like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well #and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for #Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too #like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and #down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy #last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just #feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b #put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back #down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then #that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her #i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better #on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out #dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really? #ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious. #i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles #but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol #unrelated

[arvoze]

the power i will receive in a matter of days will be astounding. watch out

#i am making this post to ramble. idk if it will actually change anything but i am trying 2 be hopeful . #ive been very. Rough all month thus far both physically and mentally and occasionally both at the same time #i am just hoping tht wat i am getting soon will help me do things bc ive rly had no energy to do anything at alllllll #and i rly dont want to like. Explode i would like to get things done #i have things i owe to people!!! i just dont have the spoons to do it Ever and it piles iup and up in my head #it fucking blows dude i have been stuck in a horrendous loop for like almost 6 months #i just want 2 be normal u know . i am hoping something will change soon #if it does not change in the nesxt few days when my shit arrives i think im like. Done For in general #like if im unable to get anything done in the next few days then i am going to very seriously have to reconsider #literally everything i do online i think. its a bit fucked up #ik it sounds like an exaggeration bu there is noooo way in hell i am Surviving like tihs !!!!!!! slash srs #i wish twitter circles did not die so i cold blow up in there bu back to ye olde norm of tumblr tags will have to do #also it feels less invasive so like. win for me ig. i do miss rambling nonstop in tags #i miss tumblr!! i miss a lot of old stuff. reminiscing for reasons both good and bad. the tumblr stuff is the good side tho #anyways i have been slowly chipping away at writing thigns this month and ik its like. not a lot at all. #but its a lot to *me* and when youre someone whos only capable of doing so mch its like. a big deal #(im writing pmdnd stuff finally getting back into gear nd stuff i have been trying to slowly draw the npcs #that ive made whilst trying to recover in other areas bu rghghrghgrgr i dont ewant to draw #i havent wanted to draw in a long long time blows up) #i shuld. stop typing actually i am rambling too much i jsujt have nowhere to mindlessly ramble anymore technicaly #i dont want to bug my friends w me being unwell all the time DFJKGHDFKGFG #mayne i will try to ccontinue with the npcs. we will see based on if i post again in the next 30 minutes

[the-trans-dragon]

I can’t tell if I’m just bad at finding Bedsheets That Don’t Pill, or if it’s just another case of Severe Decrease In Product Quality Due To Ongoing Plague And Labor Shortages, or if I’m just autistic and doomed to experience all bedsheet textures as Level 10 Pain

#sorenhoots #😞 the expensive bedsheets I bought a while back didn’t even make it to the first wash before pilling #due to circumstances I can say that the pain of the bad texture is literally worse than shingles! #it took me like 6 months to gather the energy to go bedsheet shopping last time so I’ll probably just keep suffering for months again 😓 #I’m laying on my weighted blanket because it’s soft and stays in place but that means I don’t have my weighted blanket #I am trying a new strategy of wearing a onesie so none of my skin touches the sheet but #the occasional instances of my hands/feet briefly touching the texture is intensely horrible #I know it sounds dramatic to phrase it this way but like: it’s kinda like 😥 traumatic? if I am allowed to use that word in this instance? #the spike of panic and adrenaline I feel when I so much as *almost* touch the sheet is familiar to the panic I used to feel when avoiding #PTSD triggers or when I’d get a very distressing intrusive thought #I literally have nightmares about accidentally touching the sheets #and my entire behavior has shifted significantly to avoid the texture at any cost even at my own detriment #like when my shingles was hurting terribly but I curled up in a way that hurt it worse just to avoid the bedsheet texture #I don’t even know where to get better sheets. I tried Walmart and target but they only seem to carry their own brands now and they’re all #the same material and style and there’s no options #I thought about trying a more specialized store like a Kohl’s or idk something #but by the time I’m trying to think of where to buy new sheets I’m beyond overwhelmed and can’t even leave the house. much less #drive to a store and look for good sheets underneath fluorescent lights and loud music and the fucking Bible Belt Middle Aged Women staring #at my androgynous appearance like I’m Satan incarnate #ugh….. I need to go like. touch grass lol. watch a rolly polly meander across an acorn shell.

[robotpussy]

i guess this is just me but when I find that some people eat out/dont cook for most of the week I am like... not looking at them in confusion and disgust it makes a lot of sense as to why someone would turn to eating out most days

#i know the average person does cook after they come home from work but its not weird to me when someone who works also just #doesnt cook unless they have a day off or smth #or anyone for that matter #i think its because this is the place I'm at rn. I'm in uni and i have to travel 6 hrs a day to get to class #i literally have no energy when i get home so i just pick something up when i get home and yes this was when my schedule was #5 even 6 day weeks #and my classes would run from 9-5 my uni isn't a regular one where u have 2 lectures a week and they're like 3 hrs #so obvs me having to wake up at 4am everyday i am not in the mood to be cooking breakfast and cooking dinner when i come home at #8pm i do just want to eat a burger or a sandwich that i didn't make and go to sleep 🤷🏾‍♀️

[mercless]

"It's easy to get lost in the passageways down here. But you can just as easily figure out where you are, depending on how thunderous the roar of the Fleshing Arena is."

#‡ ic #wishing my neighbours who have been blasting music for 6+ hours a very fuck off #it is 1:30! AM!!!! #but im using this energy to imagine how fking LOUD the arena must be #you can probably hear the roars of the crowd. the announcer. even the light shows throughout all of prime #literally a sports stadium

[chaoxfix]

“oops! i burned myself out and have depression again!” an opera in 3 acts

#. do i hate my job or is this straight up a major depressive episode #ohhhh this is not good thus isn’t good at all #i have zero energy or mojo #i feel like i want to curl up in a corner and never come out #where’s a manic moment when i need it. god. #vent tbd #my head is literally just in a fucking fog wtf is wrong with me #i don’t want to do . anything #ever #i want to quit and just write for 6 months #nothing else #but i don’t have enough saved to do that #damn it #DAMN IT #i could for 2-3 months #i could also get a part time job that requires no brain power #ohhhh god #what do i DO #i can’t do this rn i literally can’t i am falling apart #my brain usually pushes me through . not today!

[rosicheeks]

🤦🏽‍♀️

#why oh WHY did I agree to this #I have to get up at 6 AM to do a church choir ……. that I don’t really wanna do #don’t get me wrong I LOVE being in a choir and I miss it so much #but the only reason why I agreed to do it cause I thought I was going to do it with my dad #but since his surgery didn’t go the best (he’s better but still recovering) he’s going to sit this one out #and now I’m stuck doing it #I just need to remind myself — it’s only one morning and after I can come home and sleeeeeeeep #also to my snap babes I’m sorry I’ve been away for a little bit - but I promise I’ll be around to talk soon! #from being sick to everything going on with my dad to fucking moving…. I haven’t had the energy to do literally ANYTHING #but I’m finally feeling better / my dad is starting to recover (thank God) so I’m starting to get in a better headspace #anywayyyy I need to go to bed since I get to get up in like 5 hours 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 #but if you haven’t seen it already - check out my Etsy shop pretty pls 🥺💖 #good night lovelies 💖 #shut up rosie

[hellodolleyes]

Im tired and sick but got up at 5 am to make myself some noodles.

The noodles didn't hit the way I wanted them to so now Im tired, sick, and incredibly sad.

#sick post #literally 6 am energy

[cparti-mkiki]

these two assholes having the literal same haircut combover combo……. iconic actually

#art #felipe iv #cardenal infante fernando #my posts #ferdinand is an all time favorite you literally cannot believe how much little brother energy he radiated #how much spirit you can fit into the tiniest of philip iii’s sons #i am sooo normal about the relationship between the 5 surviving sliblings btw #especially the three boys since the younger ones were in such a complicated situation as potential threats but also as invaluable assets #shoutout to the 1630s and 1640s and felipe seemingly being so jealous of ferdinand getting to do cool glorious manly war shit while he sits #there getting politically emasculated by olivares #awkward isnt it. when you’re the king but the one doing things that garner universal praise is your younger brother #and besides the usual protocolary exhaltation & bootlicking no one can find anything tangible you’ve accomplished that they can praise #(so think your critics and a good chunk of the people it seems <3) #babygirl finally got to go to war for like 6 years straight or so after getting rid of olivares. good on you i guess

[lesbianlenas]

wanting some cranberry juice but not wanting to walk downstairs at 3am when the ghosts might be out….life is so difficult 😔

#michelle speaks #i am 99% sure there are no ghosts in my house. but the chance is never 0! #now my old house…..there was some BAD energy in there! #in this house most of the time i can walk downstairs in the middle of the night no problem #in my old house i would not even want to walk the literal 10 ft to the kitchen at night. the vibes were AWFUL. #also had several like. unexplained experiences there. most notable was one time i was lying in bed #and i swear to you. i heard a voice say ‘boo’ right in my ear and i started screaming LOL #for the entire rest of the time i lived in that house. which was probably like 12 yrs since i was like 6 when that happened #i would not sleep facing the wall i would only sleep on my right side facing out after that bc i had been facing the wall when it happened

[queercatboyrights]

totally not me having one of the shittiest mental health crisis known to man for like, the last week

#nebbles talks #vent #feel free to ignore i am just so chronically tired and depressed rn and don't have another outlet atm #literally just feel so. helpless? not necessarily useless #but fuck literally any action i take or do or even THINK about doing feels so fucking pointless #its like no matter how hard i work for self improvement or just simply trying to get a better quality of life in general #NOTHING fucking changes #ive spent the last like. year busting my ass working and doing college classes 6 days a fucking week #and not only is my financial status even fucking WORSE than when I started #my physical health has tanked horrendously and i barely even have the energy to do basic tasks like take care of my self or even shower #SO LIKE WHATS THE FUCKING POINT?????? #WHY SHOULD I FORCE MYSELF TO SUFFER IF ITS NOT EVEN GONNA CHANGE MY LIFE FOR THE FUCKING BETTER?????????? #uuuuhhhgggggggg #basically no matter what i do im never gonna be able to afford to live on my own and not starve. #despite busting my ass and working 40hrs a week while also having a full time academic load #fucking. SO cool hard work literally means nothing anymore. thats definitely so so motivating and totally doesnt make me want to kill mysel #so so so glad i got to be alive in the time period where you can never gain any improvement in your life #despite doing everything i was told would make my life better #like thats so fucking cool and totally not disheartening or tragic at all #asdgjsldkdnb #again. feel free to ignore all this #the tags are like my personal little journal of fucked up thought processing since i dont have my actual paper journal on me atm

[junk-culture]

can't sleeeeeeeeeeppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

#it's actually embarrassing ive been sleeping so bad lately and its literally because i don't have a job i.e. something to tire myself out #less than 2 hrs per day at uni is not enough....... #obviously once i get a job of some sort ill be complaining about how tired i am and how little time and energy i have but well you know #wait im actually getting sleepy while making this post. win #still have to be up at 7:30 ish and therefore less than 6 hrs sleep which is NOT optimal for my constitution but such is life.