#listen also to nonverbal/high support needs/poc autistics

[brytnoter]

Quick notes from a long journal entry I made in December 2016 that shows my autism, before I had any idea I was autistic

Being taken advantage of in friendships

"Getting too attached to people"

"I'm an outsider"

People who are "like me" that I lock on to and don't have to "perform" for them

Alone time = can think about anything A person is present = mind goes blank, can’t  converse

"how are you" (what does it MEAN)

why can't i think of anything to say, ever

or just blurting out about anime theories to work colleagues who have never even seen any series in their life

"the inner flame gets ignited and it's so easy to talk about books"

Need to FEEL a connection before I talk to someone “properly”

"why do customers STOP AND CHAT when they ask where an item is”

If I get interrupted out of listening to music it takes me minutes to focus on the conversation being had. And then more minutes to get back to whatever I was doing

Irritation that is not controllable and goes away only when it is done with you

"how do i not be an outsider"

#autism #autistic #late diagnosed #white #high functioning #low support needs #verbal #hyperlexic #burnt out gifted child #this is just my experience #listen also to nonverbal/high support needs/poc autistics #self diagnosis is valid #2016