#like. fr this time ik ive said it before but now i really mean it!

[metalyre]

great job jackal army, we did it! we defeated the child

#fantastic work everyone #my art #infinite the jackal #cream the rabbit #sth #going to make more of an effort to post my art here more often #like. fr this time ik ive said it before but now i really mean it!

[all444miles]

songs that remind me of atsv characters! (series)

summary: just me saying what artists atsv characters would listen to, songs by said artists that js scream "(character)", albums, and lyrics that just make it make sense, yk?

warnings: pretty small spoilers, i suggest you watch the movie before reading this, of course!

a/n: i'm not proofreading this, so there might be some spelling mistakes. sorry if you see any, but enjoy! i also don't expect this to blow up, but reblogs r appreciated! (i will make a pt.2 if this gets enough attention, btw)

miles morales (1610)

miles to me seems like a future, frank ocean, kendrick lamar, steve lacy, PARTYNEXTDOOR, brent faiyaz/sonder and a lil sza, cuz lets be fr, its sza, kinda guy. he's the kinda guy to love music for the meaning, as long as its got a good beat to it. now, song wise?

solo by future, for sure. you can just listen to it and be like "yeah, thats miles." especially the lyrics, "i been solo now, i've been goin solo now". reminds me when he says "nah, ima do my own thing" in the movie.

her way by partynextdoor. this song feels like a song he'd play while he's drawing (coughs, drawing gwen for the 70th time) the lyrics, "She wasn't on a roll, now she roll with a winner" reminds me of gwen n miles cuz at first, when they met, it was kind of just the two of em, but now she's out with the spider society (well, she was) with hobie and patvir, "rollin with winners."

miles + brent faiyaz = perfection. needed portrays miles when he finds out about his friends' betrayal perfectly. "you and your friends, rammed my name to the ground." makes you think about the scene where he realises they knew what would happen to his father all along.

infrunami by steve lacy. ive seen this on tiktok too many dayum times not to include it lmaoo gwen and miles. every word of that song screams gwen and miles, but esp "can you come back to me? cuz I was blind to see that you were right infront of me." just remember that scene where miles was upside down infront of gwen and moved closer to kiss her but didnt cuz he was invisible? yeah, those exact lyrics match that exact moment and we ALL know it!

Let 'em know by bryson tiller. Ian even gonna go into the details but we all know why. "mf im him" (miles is him and always will be fr)

long time - intro by playboi carti. i also will try not to go tm into details but "i aint felt like this in a long time, i aint had shit in a long time" cuz miles hasn't had that "its me, myself and i (corny ik)" kind of vibe in a while. and "i'd rather die before i come in last" but think of it in a sense than he'd rather die than stand back and let his dad pass.

this is how it feels by d4vd and laufey. no explanation needed (ive js been talking tm), gwen and miles and their relationship

open arms by sza! i also think this song really reminds me of gwen and miles but miles' character overall, yk? gwen and miles primarily because "i gotta let you go i must, you're the only one that's holding me down." that "goodbye gwen", the look on his face while he says it and those lyrics make alot of sense together.

and yk what? loveeeeee song by rihanna, cuz why not.

i'm not gonna go too much into details with this so album wise:

sonder son by brent faiyaz

sos (slightly) by sza

starboy and after hours by the weeknd

DAMN. by kendrick lamar

petals to thorns by d4vd

call me if you get lost by tyler, the creator

her loss (coughs, spin bout U) by drake

a/n 2: and, thats all! i hope y'all enjoyed these hcs and found them accurate, as i said ill make a pt2 if this gets enough recognition! see ya'll soon <3

©all444miles 2023

- likes, comments, asks, n reblogs are rlly appreciated ! <3

#this is all canon idc #cuz i acc spent too long on this LMAO #pls dont let this flop #spiderman au #spiderverse au #spiderman atsv #spiderman #miles morales #atsv hcs #atsv miles #atsv headcanons #atsv #atsv miles morales #miles morales headcanons #miles morales hcs #spiderman: across the spiderverse #spiderman across the spiderverse

[shyampyari]

hi so um im just gonna say this

people started a skull emoji thing where they would go i don't like t user so and so

you didn't do it so sorry but i want to say this

i don't like vee, tee, alima, kansha/cunsha whichever it is, jugn00's new blog who something

now people are saying that my reason (they don't answer asks same as anon sent to ravememcoi [not exact url]) isn't valid cause they don't owe me anything and they don't have to reply to asks

but 1. its annoying to send people asks and not have them answered when you know they are receiving them and it's just compliments and also 2. they go around writing all this love poetry and aren't willing to drop a topic that came up ages ago (can't remember url but vee something url started this again for no reason)

now you'll say BUT THEY DON'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING TO PLEASE YOU WHY DON'T YOU GET IT

but understand that i am not obligated to like or not dislike them either and since you didn't mention it i am not obliged to you to not mention that i dislike your mutuals

also people are saying you need to deactivate your acct cause your personality is bad and just 1. she doesn't need to do anything to please you same as vee, tee, mirrorvid etc 2. press block and stfu

also i don't care much for the people that started this again

they started it knowing that this would happen and if they had just chosen to not answer the anons starting this again it wouldn't have happened and again, their chioce to post abt whatever they want but my choice to not love you

i remember trying to send one of them anons for a while because i wanted to be friends and when she finally replied to my ask she just basically insulted me and started correcting my grammar

it was not a mean or hate anon these people just want excuses to prove they are better than everyone else and if someone get's their hands on this they will for sure start correcting this ask like an english answer script

i am actually glad they started their mutuals only blogs

at least the rest of the world now knows that they shouldn't interact with them or they will be treated badly

DAMN ANON PREACH.

But I actually have more to say lmao fjfnnxn

This has to be the shittiest ask game that has happened in a while and tbh i didn't want to interact with this game for the same reason.

I wouldn't want to post about blogs that i have never interacted with because idk what they are really like to hate on them and if my moots were being attacked, id take that very personally. Because I wouldn't disregard an anon with a valid point even if its against my own moot. There are people we dislike and people we can't stand and what should we do? Walk awayeyaeya and avoid drama instead of causing it :/

im literally just trying to vibe here 🧍🏻‍♀️

people need to stop being obsessed with me fr fr

Yk whats the worst part about these asks tho? This was a chance to actually consider your own mutuals and their internet and social presence and validate or question their actions. But what happened? 'Not my mutuals 😭😭😭😭' ig it's time you consider your mutuals are toxic sis

Ik some mutuals (mine) that have been around interacting with posts and blogs that are very vocal about hating and getting me off the internet lmao but here's my take from this: this is a social platform and what I do with it is my fucking business. It was, at a point, ok for people to make hate comments about someone because they thought only their circle of clowns was seeing it so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

nonynom beloved would you believe me if i said ive been there? I actually wanted to be moots with someone and we followed each other a day before the discourse happened and BOOM no words exchanged they blocked me and then a mutual of mine sent me an ss of something they said about me, so bestie just consider it a bullet dodged, at least now you know you don't want to interact with someone.

Bro if they really did that, thats pretty sticky smh 2/10 would not recommend such an interaction

again, im not a part of this 'skull anon' bs, im answering this ask as an ask because id respect anyone that would take out time to talk to me tbh

[k9zuha]

DUDE ONLY $20 IS RLLY GOOD FOR THE AMT OF 5* U HAVE AND UR HIGH AR OMGGGG BUT STOP I THINK THAT TOO 😭😭😭 like i price things in terms of boba 2 determine their value

AAHHHH I STILL HAVENT GOTTEN DOWN 2 DOING HER QUEST YET but apparently there r spiders and a trippy time loop which . I am not rlly down for 😭😭 but that’s fr so hu tao

YEAHH FEEL THAT LIKE I need a pyro coz xinyan is not cutting it but I wanted xiao Sm more than hu Tao so I’m glad I got him even though I have 2 anemo now LMAO

Her butterfly trail IS THE ABSOLUTE CUTESTTTTT n the way she has the flame blossom mark enemies... love her

YEAH I HEARD AB THE CAMERAS AT THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR but I just checked this article on cb testing procedures n apparently they got rid of the clause w cameras but the “no returning to prev answers” is still there 😭😭

RIGHT but the tests r just as hard as normal years rn and my memory retention is SHIT for online class

BUT DUDE LMAOOOOO THATS NOT JUST “headed easier” u have to be rlly good 2 just prep a week b4 the exam I think I’m “self studying” I@ng this year except i actually haven’t done shit so 🤔🤔🤔🤔

PLEAJSNNES I WILL GLADLY SAY THAT IM A H8R like if ur offended by it that’s ur problem 😕😕👎👎 but YEAH OMFG I watched 2 eps of hq before getting bored even tho I was so hyped for it in July or smth 😭😭 same w bsd wan

HELPSPSPLSKS IK WHAT U MEAN BY THE PRESSING INSTEAD OF SCROLLING I LOVE THE WAY U DESCRIBED JT

RIGHT 😭😭😭😭 like idgaf about everyone else I just want SHINYA back 😕😕😕 so I might just read catastrophe n that’s it LMAO

Dude the biblical allusions 😭😭 reminds me of that one tweet that was lkke “I snuck into my m*m’s room to steal her bible so I could make ons theories but she came back n saw me reading the Bible and got so excited she almost cried bc I haven’t touched the Bible in years” 😭😭😭 OVER ONS THEORIES IS WHAT MAKES ME LAUGHHGGG

DW AB LENGTH BAE ITS A LONG FUN CONVO HEHEHHE But dude omg UVE ALWAYS WON THE 5050 WTFFF UR LUCK >>>>> ive only had the 5050 once and lost it LMAO hoping I hit it early for hu Tao 🤔🤔

YEA I ALWAYS USE BOBA i used to use shirts but they’re like $20 and boba is better it’s in increments of 5

PLEASW SLFKDDLF I WAS STUCK IN HER QUEST FOR LIKE 10 MINUTES BC I DIDNT REALIZE THERE WAS A LOOP i was like god this quest is a bit repetitive huh 😕 when am i going to be done

i wanted her so bad but i hate using healers like my xiao team has no healer he’s always on life support =_= AND TWO ANEMO IS GOOD i also have that i play xiao venti albedo and zhongli so usually he has a shield and there’s no room for a healer i want jean so bad

THE BUTTERFLY IS LITERALLY SO CUTE LIKE WHAT THE HECK and when she disappears when she runs like foskfkflwlrn they really went off with this character design

thank god cameras are off i hate having my camera on for anything but i turn it on in class bc i feel bad for my teachers 😭😭

cb literally needs to be abolished like why are the ex@ms hard this year 🤬🤬🤬 makes me angry

AND MAYBEEEEEE tbh l@ng essays are kinda easy bc even if ur claim is wrong as long as u defend it u can get the points and my class only did mcqs and i always got high scores bc mcq is very intuitive just like i be guessing on that it’s all abt context and stuff that is my advice to u 👍🏼

I AM A HATERRR but one time i was talking to my friend and i said i didn’t like kou from blue spring ride and she said i was a hateful person and that i didn’t understand kou bc im not a decent person who feels an obligation to be kind to others i was like 😦 so now i am wary of being a hater ☝🏼

EDIT:

I ANSWERED THIS BY ACCIDENT LOLL let me finish what i was saying 🙄

STOP I READ SO MUCH MANGA NOWADAYS ITS SO EMBARRASSING I NEED TO GO OUTSIDE

i read catastrophe it might be the only book i’ve ever read in the past 6 years... kidding i actually like to read I DONT RLY REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED but FRRR SHINYA BAE COME BACK the religious allusions confuse me i don’t even bother i just read other people’s theories 😭

#YES IM SO LUCKY ABT THE 50/50 #but i’m so unlucky w weapons i have 3 skyward harps 😐 #AND YEAH BUT SPENDING $20 AWAKENED SMT IN ME AND MAKES ME WANT TO SPEND MORE ITS SO BAD #bc i got lucky using the 20 so my brain thinks i’ll keep getting lucky if i spend money 👎🏻👎🏻👎🏻 #i don’t talk to that friend anymore bc it is a bit awkward 😅 BUT OVER MANGA PLEASE GIRL ITS JUST A DRAWING #but it did make me realize sometimes i can be negative i am working on myself 🙏🏼🙏🏼 trying to be less hateful and a decent person 🤞🏼 #i’m typing this in the middle of my calc test bc i don’t want to take it 🤕 #a #lia 🌱

[smireyac]

fuck this year man u dont even get cute emojis in the title this time

so lemme just start by saying fuck 2020 

now that we’re on the same page, lets get into it

so i dont have to explain all the reasons why this year sucked bc u just need to google 2020 and there will be a million reasons why it was TOTAL FUCKING GARBAGE...... usually when so many people collectively say a year sucked ass, i can be like “oh it wasnt *all* bad for me, personally” haha not this year!!! 

its super fucking depressing to look at how hopeful and positive i was about 2020 a year ago..... ofc there was no way for me to have known it would all go to shit but i still really appreciate the tone i had set... reading over the previous reflections and seeing how harsh and negative i was @ myself made the softness of last years post super refreshing.... 

now i said i dont *have* to explain all the ways 2020 was shitty, but i am gonna explain the biggest reason this year was shitty for me, personally..... it might seem really small in comparison to the ways 2020 was shitty as a whole on like a global scale? but really the biggest reason 2020 sucked ass was i didnt get to really hang out with any of my friends in real life for 9 out of the 12 months of the year.... and really it was like the first week of march that shit hit the fan so like really it was only 2 months that we got to see each other....... if u rmbr p much every previous retrospective post ive made, there was a big emphasis on friends..... ive come to realize that im actually a very *extra*verted person??? despite my overall shyness and homebody attitude, i would always choose to hang out with people over being alone so stay-at-home orders FUCKING SUCKED??? when we all thought it would be over in a couple weeks, maybe a month it was fine?? hey its a good time to draw or catch up on that reading and/or writing i said i was gonna do maybe even start learning to drive?? it’ll be no big deal THEN it wasn’t over in a month and it wasnt gonna BE over anytime soon and no one important was doing anything about it and its an election year and black lives have always mattered and yet everything is so uncertain and

[inhale]

[exhale]

this year was..... a lot...... too much in fact

in 2018, i had said that i watched vox’s video on the year in 5 mins and cried... if i watched this year in five minutes, i dont think i would be able to breathe...... 

SO instead of making myself CRY..... lets try to think about any GOOD things that happened and think about what we can do to make 2021 good for ourselves:

GOOD THINGS THAT HAPPENED:

-i *didn’t* lose my job!! sad that so many others cannot say the same but im trying to make myself feel *better* not WORSE so i got to keep my job and i actually work more hours than before so!!

-i actually *did* learn to drive this year!!!! and im pretty good at it??? for someone that just started this year anyway?? i probably *would* have my DRIVER’S LICENSE right now if it weren’t for a surge in cases in a certain STATE that i happen to live in......... but w/e its fine i get more time to practice and im ~~**DEFINITELY**~~ going pass my test and get my license ~whenever it is that i can reschedule my dmv appt~

lmfao its so funny that last year, i was absolutely *dreading* learning to drive but i so fucking get why everyone was like ‘you need to learn how to drive’ i legit love it so much???? ive always been a car person but that was like purely for the aesthetic but now that i can drive im just....... WOOOW this really is what freedom feels like.... like ik that public transportation is amazing and i will always champion it but nothing beats being purely in control of your destination.... i also wanted to buy myself a car for my birthday even tho i couldnt really drive yet but then sien had to fix smthg on her car and it was EXPENSIVE AF and my mom was like “u dont need to buy a car yet” so i put the brakes [haha] on that... but soon... once i get my license,,, then i will have u my love................. so with that being “my most serious goal of 2020″ im glad i did it

-i was one of lucky ones and got unemployment when i couldn’t work so i have a lot of money saved in the bank??? pls no one steal my identity i wanna use that money to buy myself a car and/or for when we move out 🤞🤞 we’ll just have to wait and seeeeee....................

-i had mentioned playing dnd last year too and thats been going STRONG as hell thank goodness....... we couldnt keep playing in person but when we moved it to online, not only did we actually get to hang out a lot more, we made more friends??? introduced new people to the group?? its so good and in fact probably the only thing that kept me even a little bit sane this year...... 

-this is more of an honorable mention than an accomplishment but im this 🤏close to catching up with critical role and thats partially thanks to the pandemic lmao sooooo ??? 

aaaaaaand thats p much it lol i didnt really accomplish any of my other goals bc reasons................. but!!! as cliche as it sounds, with a light at the end of the tunnel, im confident that i can turn that all around this year.... so if 2016 was the year of change, 2017 was the year of getting used to shit, 2018 was the year of getting *too* used to shit and 2019 ended up being the year of friends, 2020 was the year of absolute shit and it doesn’t fucking count....... i learned a lot this year, biggest lesson of all is that life is short and if i were to have died at any point last year, what the fuck would i have to show for it??? so usually i end up giving a theme or name to a year after its done but this time im determined to make 2021 into what i want it to be SO i am declaring this year, the year of our lord 2021, the year of new experiences!!!! what the fuck does that mean you ask? well ill tell you!!! im gonna try new things this year!! make a very pointed effort to do things outside my comfort zone?? and for my goals this year, im going back to my old way of making a huge list of stuff u wanna do and seeing how much i can actuallly accomplish!! now i said theres a light but we really dont know when all this shit will end and life will go “bAcK tO nOrMaL” so whos to say ill get to accomplish any of it? at the same time, there are plenty of stuff on the list that i can do within the pandemic set parameters so!! lets see this list!!

2021 GOALS:

[check boxes bc there is no plain box emoji lmao]

☑️ read new books!! i’ll keep last years goal bc i didnt meet it and i have good reads now which tells me i just need to read 1.5 books a month to reach that goal!! huzzah!

☑️ watch new shows and new movies b4 u end up watching shit you’ve already seen a million times... i bought an old planner for 2020 instead of 2021 by accident but i hope it will help keep track of the movies/shows along with the books too!

☑️ listen to new music!! this years spotify wrapped was garbo it only had like 3 albums and a bunch of other shit i always listen to so i gotta fix that lmfao

☑️ write new stories!! i am comforted by the shit ive been writing for the past like 7 years but if my screenplay class taught me anything its that there are a lot of stories to tell and i got so many ideas floating around in this noggin!! instead of an arbitrary word count, why dont i say write idk 3 new stories, start to finish, in whatever medium idc screenplay, short story, comic, twine WHATEVER!! do it!

☑️ eat new food!! lmao this one seems the most silly to me but ive never had indian food, ive never had [not really anyway] korean food, i want to find new restaurants and eat new food!!! yum!

☑️ go on a road trip!!

☑️ visit some place ive never been before!!

☑️ go on a hike??

☑️ go to mexico again

☑️ ride a scary rollercoaster you previously wouldnt have

☑️ go to a club

☑️ get silly drunk fr 

☑️ FUCK IT go on dates!! self date friend dates sister date cousin dates R- Romantic... dates ??? FUCK IT!!! YEAH!! DATE ALL UP IN THIS BITCH!!

☑️ learn to use blender

☑️ animate something 

☑️ make a big painting

☑️ cosplay ???? AHH

☑️ learn to roller skate lmao u bought the skates and were so excited for them!! 

☑️ go somewhere SUPER DARK and go see some real stars!!!! 

☑️ and to top it all off, throw the airbnb house party that we’ve been talking about for MONTHS lmao 

hmmmm,, i think thats a good enough list for now ?? another thing i wanted to accomplish.... that im scared to speak into existence bc then i cant back out of doing it...........and it doesnt align with the whole “new” spirit of 2021 but.......... i want to like start making apartments for rent????? like i want to have something of it to show by, if not the 8th anniversary then by the end of the year HHUFF THERE I SAID IT......... no turning back now.......... 

alright its almost midnight on.... whats this? its already jan. 1st??? lmao yeah fuck it i didnt keep up with anything i normally did this year who cares i made up the rules i can break them too lol  

so yeah 

we’ll see what this year brings us,,,,

hoo boy

#omg i talk #happy new year

[emotionalanono-blog]

just to get you up to speed

11-16-16 dear ex boyfriend- i miss the things we did and sometimes i really just miss you but i have made peace (but i actually havent)on why we broke up bc there are somethings that im glad are over- dealing with drama and making decisions just seemed so much easier when we were together. i never had to worry about anything with you beside me-you keep saying that i will never like you again because thats what i told you once before, but when has that ever stopped you ? you keep saying that we cant date because we cant see each other, because my family hates you, but you don't realize that if you are my happiness, they cant take you away from me. you say i dont love you, but i will always love you, at least a little, and ive said that before but you dont pay attention. you dont care. i know youve moved on, and ive said i have too, but sometimes, i just get tied up in your eyes, and i want you to hold me one more time. i want you to hold my body close to yours again and look at me in my eyes with love. i want you to gently grab my face and kiss me, even though i was scared about going too fast. i want you to take it slow. let me get used to you again, like i once was. every once in a while when we talk in public, even though your with someone else, you bring up some of our past, making me remember why i loved you so much it hurt. it was the things we did together and how it made me feel. it didnt have to do with what you looked like, it was just the way you talked to me that made me feel safe. made me love you. every time i look at you, i get lost. i stare and you stare back. but when we talk over text, it seems like we are distant. like tonight. tonight we talked about how you and your new girlfriend are different from me and you. you say things you do, and it hurt a little inside because i remember, so clearly, how you just wanted to do that with me, but i didnt want to. then we talked about us. it was great for a moment, then it just took a turn. you asked for pictures at the end of our conversation, and it reminded me of one thing that made me mad about you. i know its wrong to think, and i know you told me differently before, but i cant help but think kissing, and pictures was all you wanted. i would look at myself, thinking why would you want that from me? thats where i believed that you didnt just want that. but some parts of me still weren't convinced. when we broke up, it was painful. you cried, i felt guilty, but i knew it was the right thing. i think now, that maybe sometimes i want you because i feel lonely. maybe im not as independent as i think i am. im always tired but never of you. 12-08-16//i asked you how you felt about everything and you said this: ---. What isn't there to say about you. Your amazing. One of my best friends through the hard and the easy times. Your always there when I need you. And I try to be there for you. You make me smile. And you've made me cry but it's for the best. Now we are just kinda mutual with each other and I know that secretly we both miss dating. It was an amazing experience. I honestly get tongue tied talking to you Bc your so beautiful and like I just get really nervous even after all this time. Yeah I tell you I hate you but it's only a joke. I could never hate you. I still love you and honestly --- you were my first love. It's like I never wanted to be away from you and you were the first girl that I wanted to text every Minute of every day. I still enjoy talking to you and face timing is lit. But nothing with be as lit as when we dated. It was so cringe but it was cute at the same time. I want to feel that again and I would really enjoy having that opportunity again. But your family hates me so we would probably never be able to see each other and honestly hurts that your family doesn't like me Bc I loved coming over and seeing you and your family. It was so fun hanging out and every time we did we make new memories. But all in all. Your amazing and I will love you forever and always. 12-13-16 i miss you but i want someone new. but i dont want anyone else at the same time. i want to be with you but i know i cant. talking to you reminds me of how much i miss when you called me babe, baby or baby girl. i know we aren't committed to each other, but i still want to be the only one your talking to but i know im not. the worst part is that we cant be together. and not just because of my family. but because of a feeling i have deep down that says no. yet from that same place, it is saying yes. ive never had this much conflict over someone. but theres a first for everything, and you were both my first love, and kiss. i remember how for such a long time you were the reason i did the things i did. whether i meant it that way or not. i think the reason i broke up with you was because getting you was too easy, because i already had you. i like a challenge. not too much, to where i think your not interested, but just enough so ill love you more. and thats how it was until we dated, and then it got too easy. challenges are fun for me. and when i say challenge i hope you dont get it confused with competition. i like when you challenge me, not make me compete with another girl for you. that i do not find joy in. when i say it got too easy when we were dating, dont get me wrong, i absolutely loved the way, and how much you loved and cared for me. i also think i put way too much thought into what you say, and you in general. you dont even give me an extra second than needed (i think). 12-16-16 well this was unexpected. im texting you and you said you loved me. we've been saying it but you said you meant it fr. i said idk tbh how i feel and ik thats not what you wanted to hear. 1-19-17 happy new year. on january 9 2016 was when i broke up with you. i havent dated anyone for over a year now. probably because dating is kinda scary to me. you never are 100% sure of what the other person is thinking or doing when your not there. if they aren't texting you who are they texting. but, besides that, i really like ---. and he likes me, so i think. and i want to date him, i really do, but like i said dating is scary. 1-22-17 im dating ---. we started dating 1-20-17. im kinda scared. but im going to do what i think is right for everything. i like him. he likes me. im trying to keep myself out of --- hair. and keep him out of mine. i dont like ---, i know i dont, but when im cold in the morning when i see him, its like my body warms up. maybe because im distracted by him, but it does. but --- makes me happy when im with him. god, i know i cant be with --- forever, and i know me and --- wont last forever, but god i just want to stop worrying about it. i dont want to have to worry about catching up with --- and falling again. i hate hurting people and thats how relationships always end. with someone getting hurt. thats why i hate dating. ugh i want to cry. deep breaths. why do i get myself into these messes. you were perfectly fine without anyone. god why do i do this. for now, im treating --- like how i have been. bc i know he wont kiss. the only thing i have to do, that i dont like doing, is say i love you. i dont like doing it, because i dont mean it. at least not yet. why am i already thinking about this. we only dated for 2 days. im tearing up. frik me. im done before i start regetting all of this. until next time- anon