#like this girl was paralyzed

[simplykorra]

nobody does it like her

#ava silva #avatrice #warrior nun #warriornunedit #avasilvaedit #avatriceedit #alba baptista #no character has come around quite like her #nobody has her heart #her personality #her depth #like this girl was paralyzed #and it never feels out of place in her story #because alba puts so much emotion into everything so many little details #but she's such a shining light of hope and love and determination #the fact that she finds love and family for the first time in twelve years and fights for it with everything she has #for herself and her future #for the world once she figures out how much she loves it #for her family #the one she finds and so desperately wanted #then for bea #her bea #who she loves with her whole fucking heart and soul #and is ready to give up the future she spent twelve years lying around dreaming about #nobody does it like ava silva #NOBODY #anyway i'll never be over her #myedits

[technicalthinker]

before the full ep is out i just need to say that on a more personal note that sneak peek clip of buck on the date with tommy hits a bit too close to home as an adult bi who lately has been very nervous, on edge and self-critical about having my first real explicit gay flirt with someone within reach. the way he was all like 'im chill about this' in the least chill way possible. the defensive 'i'm not lying to anyone' while nobody said he was. do you get me.

#911 spoilers #911 abc #911 blogging #evan buckley #idk what to tag bc it's more personal but idk maybe someone else had a similiar experience?? #i was like oh fun messy bi who discovers himself late in life oh thats cool #but after that clip it actually hits pretty close in a way im like #almost a bit messed up abt ngl #it's the 'I HAVE NO REASON TO FEEL FREAKED OUT' but actually there's a lot of complex feelings to unpack and just #like SURE there's connections to a lot of my romantic interactions but #the way ive been paralyzed and in my head interacting with girls is different. #if someone i knew showed up on a date i was already nervous to be on i would die right there maybe.

[eosofspades]

trauma response is so fucking stupid i am an adult and my mom is mildly displeased with something i did and i feel like my skeleton is physically trying to escape my body

#mine #flight and freeze response activated at once i feel like that reddit post about the girl who cast fear AND paralyze on her victims in skyrim

[the-lark-ascending69]

> be a robin buckley fan

> be lesbian

> project on robin

> look up "internalized homophobia robin buckley" on tumblr because it's cathartic

> 3/4 of the posts are about st3ddie or just about steve

#saw one in which steve was like ''no robin you don't understand! i have never been loved! i don't know how that feels like!'' #i have several grips about that interpretation #going from the fact that's not true (dustin is clearly a big steve fan + robin herself cares about him deeply) #to the fact he probably wouldn't be introspective enough to voice his emotions this concisely not to mention he'd probably wouldn't take #a moment to realize he's never felt loved if that were the case. i mean. he could think that. when he's like 35 and more in touch with his #inner world. 19yo steve can't even get the hint that hitting on a girl who's already clearly taken (nancy) is wrong so like i don't expect #him to be that smart #but i can live with people having takes i don't agree with. my opinion doesn't have to be everyone else's opinion if you see steve that way #it fine #what bothered me was the fact he was saying this to a lesbian living in the 80s lmao #who tells him that 1) her whole life has been an error 2) she doesn't think he'd want to be close to her if he truly knew her and 3) #3) is paralyzed by fear of social suicide if she dares believe for even a second that the girl she likes may like her too #like i dont need people to do deep dives into robin lore and quote from memory lines from Surviving Hawkins abt robin feeling like she's #rotten inside. not supposed to have friends. feeling like something is wrong with her and that pushes people away etc etc #the fact that she's a lesbian should tell you enough abt who has the biggest chances of being loved 😭 #also bothered me that it showed up when looking up posts abt internalized homophobia because?? where's the internalized homophobia therw #unless it's gay steve feeling bad abt it in an AU (as if canon robin didn't go through it) #like look im not bothered to find steve-centric content in the robin tag cos people are gonna tag her in posts mentioning her. #she's his friend. #but there are barely any posts at all about robin's internalized homophobia. like i saw 2 or 3. compared to all the steve or steddie ones #where's the love for my babygirl 😭😭 #anti steddie #not really but y'know i don't wanna bother anyone #edit: the bit about there being like 3 posts on robin w internalized homophobia isn't exactly true. there are a few. but they still feel #drowned in st3ddie posts #like something isn't right here

[lazaruspiss]

My dick//babs "i loved you like a sister and thought that was good enough" agenda

#sure dick loved her but it was in every way EXCEPT romantic bc. [gestures at them] look. cmon. #u know that one tiktok about glamrock freddy fangirls being hopeless bc hes so [you know]. thats me about dick//babs fans #ignore me im being normal about the characters i like i promise #rebound ass lookin relationship. smth wrong w babs to pick him over literally any of her other options #open up the wiki girl u have options #jason bard was cute! what do you mean you broke up with him because you didnt think he could protect you after you were paralyzed #makin it sound like you dated dick for a free body guard. barbara. barbara did you. #ok j.b. is too good for you is what im getting from this (the wiki) #GOD i want her to just be single but its DC so they need a man for her to endlessly pine over or smth

[bookshelf-in-progress]

How many times do I have to learn the lesson that I should start the story when the story starts instead of trying to tack on introductory worldbuilding?

Seriously. My instincts about when to start the story are almost never wrong. But I always assume the first scene in my imagination requires set-up that people outside of my imagination don't have. So I tack on an intro to set the mood and to set up the plot and characters and world. And it's boring. When I should have just started where I wanted to start so I could weave explanations into a scene where things are actually happening.

#adventures in writing #i decided to tackle that goose girl retelling i came up with earlier this summer #(the one that was supposed to be a simple short version of a fairy tale) #(but i got too attached to it and became paralyzed by the need to do it right) #it turned out that one big hurdle was the lack of names #so i finally just picked some and went with it #and then when it came to starting the story i thought that i needed to show how the mc feels lost and ashamed by her fall #and explain that she had a talking horse and it's dead now and all that complicated stuff #and then i remembered writing 'a day late' where i made sure the story started with the character *doing* something #which is a decent lesson but it wasn't quite enough here #the really important lesson i should have learned from 'a day late' is that you shouldn't start the story too early #i had tried a meandering scene of beatrice arriving at the castle and it was boring #and i solved the problem by starting partway through her frantic search #and then wove in the explanations about her situation #which is exactly what needs to happen with this goose girl story #i just need to start with her doing something and then weave in all the exposition bit by bit #start where i'd initially wanted to start and let the readers figure out all the backstory as i slowly reveal it #i feel like i've repeated myself five times so i'll stop talking now

[033h]

executive dysfunction is so swagless like. I sat around and did nothing all day because I was too anxious to do something but I was also anxious about doing nothing <3

#when I have a set schedule (aka a job) I act sooooo normal #but when I don’t it’s like girl what’s your problem why are you paralyzed by anxiety

[mourninglamby]

dsmp had the be the worst fictional story fandom experience I’ve ever had I have people to this day saying I should kill myself for being sad that they portrayed mental illness so horrifically despite the pretty solid setup like cmon man. That’s a normal thing to be upset about. Put your death threat efforts into getting paid so u can buy carts or something like can we all just smoke and be human beings for a second. Even me setting this to nobody can reblog bc I am legit that terrified of these fans is craaaazy like PLEASE TRUST THOSE FURRIES WHO SELL PERCS THEY COULD SAVE YOU FROM THIS HATRED!!!!!!😭😭😭

#sorry I’m gonna be done talking abt it after this I’m truly so over it now #so I finally feel ok to post this shit without being paralyzed w/ fear that someone will like #send me kys anons or try to get into my twitter again which has happened multiple times #girls when they have opinions on fictional media^^^ #but sadly the fictional media is created by some of the most despicable parasocial-enabling parasites I’ve ever seen^^

[coconut530]

MASQUE OF THE RED RAT MAN

#Nevermore #Nevermore Webtoon #Webtoon #what an episode #Pluto the adorable little kitty he isssssss #I loved the title card and he literally has the zoomies 😂 #Amazing #Honestly all those title cards were sick #Love all the personal touches Flynn puts on the label for each spectre #Pluto is britishhhhhhhh #I like his paw hands #Those poor background girls #WHY HAVE THE SPECTRES GOTTEN BETTER SINCE LAST SAW THEM IN 13-14!?!?! #LIKE IT’S SOOO COOL #MORELLA IS LITERALLY THE DAUGHTER OF A GUARDIAN ANGEL AND I DIDN’T EXPECT TO SEE HERRRRR #AND PROSPERO HAS ONLY GOTTEN MORE DRAMATIC #HIS RATS NO LONGER HAVE WHITE EYES THEY HAVE RED ONES LIKE THE STORYYYYYYYYYYY #IT’S CRAZY #AND HIS LITTLE POCKET WATCH #PARALYZING PEOPLE #HE’S SO WICKED #ADA YOU MAYBE SHOULDN’T HAVE HAPPILY RUN IN THERE BUT I think the prophecy will be fine so #Yeeeee good eppp

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

suddenly feeling things I haven't felt since June

#don't wanna go home waaaaah #actually I honestly DO but I FEEL like I don't #but it's hard to eat alone. I'm so afraid of choking to death eating with no one around that it literally psychosomatically #paralyzes my throat so I can't swallow #like. literally. #in my defense though that didn't hit me until a couple hours ago (last couple hours of being alone) I was fine eating all weekend #maybe it's the thinking about it idk #but anyway. I miss my dog and my bed but I love being here??? and alone??? girl help

[m0e-ru]

having an au in the works for so long is a bit silly like one moment you're scouring through pages of unorganized notes going "wheres the dissertation i did for the ghost lady at tatsuhime shrine and what she means to the universe's timeline" and the other is "hey have you seen failwife"

#kommento #gsa sl au #// lazy overlay but i needed to point out it was from last year lol #// 'unorganized notes. you mean seven different discord chats' yeah basically #// i had a notion board one time but i stopped maintaining it now shes dead .sorry girl #// gsaslau so big im paralyzed because of it. like theres too much to draw or write of it. i just stop. or too many ideas they dont get out #// i love gsaslau its like a little love letter to myself written with glitter gel ink and blood and sweat and tears i think #// weekend soon ihave GOT to get back into the game.sorry guys i'll get back.to those emails

[sugarcandydoll]

i had the worst sleep paralysis ever today ♡😵‍💫

#i peeked through my eyes and i was in a completely different room!! ૮꒰⸝⸝> <⸝⸝꒱ა #i could also hear a baby crying n i wanted to move n help ♡😣 #it was so scary!! (x_x) #like i had bricks on my chest!! #i almost started panicking :( #was just trying to take an afternoon nap!! (>_<) #but paralyzed like five times before finally falling asleep! 💀 #liana's diary ♡ #girlblogging #girlblogger #just girly things #girlhood #just girly posts #coquette girl #coquette dollete #pink coquette #coqeutte #coqette #coquette #dolletecore #dollete aesthetic #dollcore #dollette #sleep paralysis #sleep problems #hyper feminine #pink pilates princess #pink pilates girl #pink pilates aesthetic #lana del ray aesthetic

[heavencasteel420]

Honestly the implications for the Byers family dynamics if Jonathan gets taken to the UD instead of Will are staggering.

#I’m assuming an AU where he’s saved from the UD #obviously the dynamics would change in a very very sad way if he died #but will getting taken to the UD and being sick/possessed afterwards #kind of prolongs and exaggerates a pre-existing dynamic in the family #where will is the primary object of concern and Jonathan is the provisional second parent #but if Jonathan’s the one to basically acquire a long-term if not permanent disability in a really traumatic way #(which is in broad strokes what happens to will) #just as will is becoming older and more independent #a lot more has to change #and I think they would all feel so weird about it! #also if Jonathan’s too sick to work #or people don’t want to hire him because of the weirdness around his disappearance #that has more material consequences #idk it makes me think of Joan of Arcadia #where the star athlete older brother is paralyzed in a car accident #and the younger kids #(a slightly dirtbag-ish average teen girl and a nerdy teen boy) #are like yeah remember when our mild teen brattiness and social ineptitude were this family’s biggest problems? #guess no one is too concerned about that now! #that said will is still not allowed to ride his bike at night

[thenamesblurrito]

I have a strong feeling that you're implying that the modern cybertonian sizes (And the funtionism) are, in a way, influenced by Unicron (All bots having four fingers, like drones, except some size nulls (Because they're old as frag) and the heroes, and the fact that Censere, Tyrest and Archy's descriptions mention having a "boss" they can't disobey)

ohhhhhhhh anon you have NO idea how happy you've made me :3

don't you wonder where the antagonists got the Unicron virus from in the first place? don't you wonder who mutilated Censere and reduced the Magnificence to just a ball? don't you wonder why Tyrest and Archie have faces that are subtly but notably different from what i specify in my style guide? don't you wonder why clever quick little Wheelie can't just run away? don't you wonder why so much information, so much basic ability and biology seems to be lost in modern times? don't you wonder what could change an entire species over millions of years to be closer to a drone, a simple working machine, and who would do that, and why?

don't you wonder why my villain tag is "domestication"?

#u are PICKING UP what im PUTTING DOWN #Unicron #domestication #sitting here literally cackling to myself like some b list movie villain #ALSO LETS SEE IF YOU CAN PIECE THESE LAST TWO HINTS TOGETHER: #dont you wonder what 'faction brand' is on bludgeons relic? #dont you wonder WHO would benefit from mecha being paralyzed when all tangled up in something long and slinky and grasping? #i think im really showing my hand here-- heh my HAND #hey hey also. isnt it convenient theres five members of the hand #what else in transformers lore is notable for having five specific body parts #okay okay okay ill stop now but. very happy you are putting together the stuff ive been weaving into worldbuilding and plot the entire time #THREE YEARS I GUESS #im a sucker i couldnt make it just a simple magical girl anime i had to go make it all COMPLEX

[wixhing0nastar]

Me: I love Warrior Nun but I probably won’t end up writing any fanfiction about it.

Me literally an hour later: OMG I’ve got an idea for an Avatrice oneshot!!!

#Warrior Nun #Avatrice #I was like… I really hope if we get a 3rd season #That for some reason the halo goes out for an extended period of time #And Ava’s paralyzed again #And like… girl has ✨trauma✨ around that #And deep down there’s a part of her that’s panicking thinking she’s going to be killed in her sleep again #For being a burden when the world’s on fire #But of course everyone’s just there to support and help her #And the moral of the story is the OCS people do actually care about her #Regardless of if she can use her arms and legs or not #And then I was like... oh wait #I write fanfiction #I can just write it myself!

[imminent-danger-came]

One day I'm going to write my god damn meta on how Callum and Soren's arcs inform each other.

#girl it has been in my head #one day....along with my Callum and Janai fic.....one day I'll write it #okay I woke up time to go back to bed #imp tag #*discreetly to the side* Soren's arc is also about freedom and despite having Viren as a father he decidedly follows Harrow's words #And like Callum also felt powerless about not being able to save harrow. #But this manifests as him being a knight where for callum it manifests as him being a mage #And Callum is supposed to be Soren and Soren is supposed to be Callum in a sense (in s1) #Like it's SO obvious in s2. Soren and his freedom with being paralyzed. Callum and his freedom with the sky Arcanum. #Okay me save it for the meta #Tag rants are just so enticing