#like so many layers. and i wish i could engage with it like thst

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#ugh. i love when music ppl talk about music so much #like i know fuck all abt music and i dont pay it much mind other than: oh this is a vibe #but when ppl talk abt it it just sounds so magical #like so many layers. and i wish i could engage with it like thst #makes me appreciate it more. i love that. i love when i hear something that opens my mind to a new idea #lol ive just been watching radiohead documentaries. if u cut open my head idioesque would prob come pouring out #idk rheyre just my fave band. sad and incomprehensible and kinda weirdq #theyre a vibe when im sad and burnt out. no surprises and how to dissappear completely. that is #ugh wtf am i even doing? yesterday i was like wah im tired. snd now its almost midnight and im like im not tired. i shoukd stay up all #night entering data. that's a good use of my time. that wont fuck up my day tomorrow #sigh... but data entry my beloved. i avoid doing it bc i enjoy it too much #for some reason my brain tells me im not allowed to enjoy things and consider it work. i just have to suffer and then do the things that #dont cause me pain as an extra bc its not work if i enjoy it. which is not rational. pls stop that #ah well. data must be entered so meh #unrelated