#like im perfectly fine talking in detail abt absolute atrocities being committed against my communities just across the border

[fleshdyke]

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#bad day. augh. #why is all the shit i get genuinely upset about so fucking stupid and insignificant #like literally it doesnt fucking matter no one cares….. stop being fucking dramatic ‼️ #im so fucking done with school . its literally not wven that bad but i want to explode #like im perfectly fine talking in detail abt absolute atrocities being committed against my communities just across the border #but i’m so scared i cant fucking move when i don’t have anyone to sit with me at lunch. like its so fucking pathetic #the usual spot me and my friends eat in is closed for ramadan which is great but he havent established a new spot and my best friends keep #going off to be with their partners and wander around and i feel so fucking broken because they dont even like me anymore #like im too disabled to walk around this 5 story school and im too much of a fucking loser for anyone to even possibly want in the slightest #and two of my best friends just fucking leave with their partners because theyre not absolutely godawful people #and like i know i can’t be expectex to find someone in hs i know that logically but i feel so fucking broken #bc why doesnt anyone want me. why has no one ever fucking wanted me #the only time ive ever been wanted in my whole fucking life was when i was raped as a little kid and i want it back so fucking bad i wanf it #back i just want to be fucking wanted again #and i dont think anyones actually my friend like i dont think anyone actually likes me bc why would they #i hace to live with myself every minute of every day and i can tell why no one fucking likes me bc im so fucking annoying #ok nevermind . done now. my brother just walked into my room took one look at me ( i have very obviously been crying) and asked if i wanted #to watch him play minecraft #rambles #vent