#like im not sure?? like thank you so hepful that also haunts me

[cinnabeat]

i am perpetually haunted by my brother very briefly commenting that he thinks id really like that law guy from one piece and then never elaborating again like PERPETUALLY HAUNTED abt it bc i see that man on my dash every fucking day and im reminded that my brother is probably right and i hate it immensely

#ive said this so many times #im sorry #but it really does haunt me #less bc my brother is right and more bc i want to know how he came to that conclusion #what abt me says id like that character #why did he say that #he no longer remembers #it fucking haunts me #it haunts me bc im regularly reminded #but you know what else haunts me? #that sub i had in eighth grade history who told me i had an accent (??) and it sounded brazilian (??????????) #was not aware i had an accent #my speech patterns and potential accent also haunts me regularly and full disclosure i blame the sub #she started that and ever since then ive had people comment on it #my friend told me my spanish sounded like cursive. she did not know what that meant but everyone agreed and so did my brother #i always thought my spanish sounded staccato-y but sure it sounds like cursive #i talked to someone in spanish and they clocked me like *squinting* where are you from and going ah of course when i tell them my parents ar #are from chile. theyre like you sound it :) like hello. no one ever tells me that. my parents make fun like you sound mexican :) which is ho #horrifying im sorry and my relatives make fun bc my spanish apprently isnt that good when THEYRE the ones who speak like thre english words #this became abt accents sorry but it truly haunts me. after the sub thing i turned to my friend like do i have an accent???? and she was lik #like im not sure?? like thank you so hepful that also haunts me #anyways. if someone comments on my speech patterns or a possible accent it gives me an identity crisis and then i remember it forever #i will never ever forget spanish for spanish speakers 1-2 in middle school and getting made fun of bc i didnt know what a chancla was. i was #i was feeing ashamed for not being a true mexican when im not in fact mexican. like hello. AND THEN. people get upset when IM the one upset #bc someone makes a chile/chili joke like fuck OFF its really not rhat funny bitch #will also never forget the cultural fair in middle school and one class had chile as a booth and they lovingly decorated it with chilean fla #flags with an obnoxiously large flaming pepper in the middle and spicy made feom mexico candy to sell #like sure whatever fine like that makes ANY sense fuck you #ANYWAYS. #michi tag