#like honestly I'm so proud of myself

[faithdeans]

name 👍

hello friends... i'm just letting you know that i'm gonna stop going by tali on here and just use isaac from now on (and worm of course). i really appreciate you guys letting me feel this out over the past few months, and i've come to realise it makes me much more comfortable, at least on online spaces

that being said if you have a tag for me and it's tali, it's fine to keep it that way

further explaination in the tags ig

#so basically i've been feeling like i'm 'not allowed' to use more masc pronouns and a 'guy' name bc i'm nb and also present #slightly more 'femme' i mean not really but also kinda? but i know that's stupid and just internal bullshit. #but i've come to realise i'm WAY more comfortable using isaac and he/they on here. idk why but that's how it is and #honestly i'm proud of myself for taking the time to figure this out and really let myself ~feel~ what's right #ok bye! <3

[lunetual]

words of encouragement from hyungwon ♡

#hyungwon #chae hyungwon #monsta x #mx7net #mx #stares deeply into his eyes. hyungwon-ssi do you know i love and adore you and am so so proud of you #i'm holding him in my heart. i feel honestly like. this is something that i actively have to tell myself and work to internalize. #anyway. my cup runneth over with my love for him. etc. #mine: gif #mx.meg #usermowah #usergyukai #hijaehyukkies #marieblr #wabisarah #marekwan #userkyutie

[misty-wisp]

omg a sona ref :3c

soooo i drew this design WAYYYY back in like...october i think? but never made a proper ref sheet out of it bc i didn't feel like it yet. but now i feel like it so here she iiiis :] witchsty my friend witchsty

i'll be real it's not up to standards with my oc refs (minimal shading, more simplistic graphic design than usual, etc.) but like. it works. so idrc that much :P

#my art #my sona #drawing #digital art #medibang #ref sheet #idk what tags give a far reach for stuff like this-- #i think sonas should have goofy little backstories more often--what do you mean those are just vtubers #imma be real guys last year's design (was it last year?) was kinda ass. also i traced a pose on that one thus i look down on it- #-and banish it to the abyss (private it) #sorry guys villain arc misty is no more. she's silly now. bc i stay silly. also i think i deserve to do magics (<- doesn't do that) #the really funny thing is like. okay usually i use one of those posing doll sites to reference off of? but i didn't for this one #(which honestly i'm proud of myself for. i love it when i can freehand and the anatomy actually looks fine. makes me feel like a god) #so misty here is. shorter than asuka. that was not intentional (nor is it accurate) but it's REALLY funny #grown-ass girlie shorter than a teenager. goofy shit

[bonni]

the idkhow concert was really good! dallon weekes has great stage presence and enjoys showing off that he can hit high notes live (and good for him honestly). most of the songs I didn't love from the new album were skipped anyway, although they did do the spoken word song and weekes revealed that it was inspired by a real letter he got from a toxic ex so now I feel bad about shitting on it 😭

I have also concluded once and for all that I hate filming during concerts. never again! I recorded the first verse and chorus of new invention on my phone and it just totally took me out of the experience, I felt disconnected and focused on all the wrong things. I couldn't even jam out because I didn't want my camera to shake :/ so I allowed myself to enjoy the rest of the song and didn't bother trying to record anything again. if I want something to remember a concert by I'd rather buy an overpriced t-shirt than miss out on experiencing my favorite songs the way I want to experience them.

#chatter #i'm very proud of myself for making it all the way through the concert lmao #they took a really long time to set up so i was just standing in a huge crowd dealing with all sorts of sensory issues for like 40 minutes #i was starting to feel physically unwell so i was really considering bailing. but i'm glad i didn't! #i honestly knew i would feel better once the concert actually started. i've been through this shit before lol

[coquelicoq]

after spending the last week very stressed out and losing sleep over how much i regretted giving my number to a stranger, and after talking to several friends who all gave me the same very wise advice ("decide first what YOU want out of this and make decisions based on that" sounds obvious now but honestly blew my mind), i saw food truck man again today and he asked me if i have a boyfriend, told me he's all alone, hugged me twice, and tried to kiss me. i texted him after to be like just to be clear, i don't want a boyfriend, but i hope you find somebody! and he texted me back: i don't need a girlfriend. i'm married.

#AHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA #i was actually so upset after he tried to kiss me. technically he did kiss me but not on the mouth because i would not turn my head lol #but i was like you know what i am an adult and i am going to be soooo mature right now. watch how mature i can be #and sent him this text #and then got that response and honestly now i feel a lot better about everything?? for some reason #i am not really understanding all of my reactions to this situation i need some time to process #but ultimately i have learned some new things about myself (or i probably will once i have processed lol) #and i'm actually quite proud of that text because i could have psyched myself out too much to send it #which i think would have just made me continue to be stressed about this #but i didn't!! i wrote it and i sent it and i didn't overthink it. yay me #sorry 2 everyone who wanted me to have a sexy time but it turns out i did not want to have a sexy time! #and i decided to take some advice that i should only do things i want to do <3 thank you to all my wise friends #it is a work in progress because he asked if he could hug me and i didn't really want to do that but i said okay #baby steps! working on it! #i feel insane though because i usually have a much easier time saying no than most people i know #so i don't know what's happening. it's because i gave him my number. i felt like by doing that i had consented to other things #but i hadn't. and even if i had i can withdraw consent at any time. yes. i do know this

[raelyn-dreams]

Okay so Twinkle Kuuchuusen is AMAZING (as expected and I will try to gather my thoughts about it later), but THE SOLOS OH MY GOD THE SOLOS AND THE LYRICS I'M!!!

They both reference 2x2 a lot, and you can see their development so much from their previous solos! There's a big theme of acceptance and both and they're driving me crazy with it!

Hinata's '"street" being bathed in blue and how he accepts it as a part of himself before declaring he's going to light it up with colors because he'll love himself even more!!! The way he doesn't try to gloss over the negative but decides he'll stick to his positive worldview while taking everything in stride! How he knows now that no matter how far they drift their hearts will always reconnect!

And Yuta walking the line between two worlds confidently, not looking back into the shadow of days past and pushing ahead into the unknown! Going all out and no longer suppressing his feelings, engraving them into his heart and making bold decisions as himself! The way he connects their worldviews with their differing light, knowing someone will always be at his back no matter what!

If there was ever any doubt within me about the future of 2wink, I feel like these solos resolved it. They really have come to a temporary truce and peace with each other, they'll stay together while continuing to push and compete in their separate ways. These songs feel like letters to each other almost, about how they're able to move forward with their own worldviews without shame, but will always hold the other close. And even if they do come to that breaking point in the future, after the dust has settled, they'll still be there watching the night sky - in a much better place than where they started.

#i have so much i could say here on god #my breath literally caught when hinata sang “I'll love myself even more” like PLEASE DO YOU DESERVE SO MUCH I'M SO PROUD OF YOU #i am so pleased with the direction they took yutas in it captures his new personality and motivation with the way he still cares so well #2wink climax was amazing but it also scared and emotionally broke me so i am so happy that the solos are what i hoped #people debate !! era writing which is reasonable but god. !! era 2wink has NEVER missed honestly they did them so well #hinata and yuta being so underrated always baffles me bc my valkaloidp ass is always so ready to dissect and appreciate them #2-3rd fav unit they are so good i need the fandom to appreciate them more please #my ohshc manga hitachiin roots may be showing here but damn it a well-done codependency-breaking sibling arc will always get me #enstars #ensemble stars #ensemble stars music #enstars solos #2wink #hinata aoi #yuta aoi #yuuta aoi #raelyn rambles

[violets-in-her-arms-writes]

salut encore ! as-tu des recommandations des chansons françaises, en général mais particulièrement pour l'écriture et les personnages ? ma collection n'est pas grande :(

aussi, peux-tu parler un peu à propos lorelei et/ou némésis ? elles sont très intéréssantes ! bien sûr, seulement si tu veux

(quand j'écrivais en haut, je pus penser des mots espagnols mais pas français haha . . . ça fait longtemps que j'ai écrit en français mais osef)

Coucou ! Alors honnêtement je ne suis pas la meilleure personne à qui poser cette question 😬 la musique française et moi on a une relation... compliquée. Mais j'ai quand même quelques chansons françaises sur ma playlist donc :

Ta reine de Angèle

On brûlera de Pomme

Tournent les violons de Jean-Jacques Goldman

Requiem de Alma

(Tango) Princesse, D'où je viens et Si je m'en sors de Julie Zenatti

Faire semblant et Je sais si peu d'Élodie Frégé

A ma place d'Axel Bauer et Zazie

Je dors sur des roses de la comédie musicale "Mozart l'Opéra Rock"

Encore du temps de la comédie musicale "Le Roi Soleil"

Je serai ton ombre et D'un souffle ou d'un cri de la comédie musicale "Cléopâtre"

Generally speaking the french musicals have killer soundtracks so you should definetely check them out! Most of them are on Youtube and you can easily find the songs + lyrics video ^^ Of course, some of them are better than others (and some are just *chef kiss*) so, good luck

Le Roi Soleil ; Mozart l'Opéra Rock ; Cléopâtre la dernière reine d'Égypte ; Notre Dame de Paris ; Roméo et Juliette ; 1789 les amants de la Bastille ; La légende du roi Arthur ; Robin des Bois ; Don Juan ; Dracula l'amour plus fort que la mort ; and probably more I've forgotten. Have fun !!

ALSO THANK YOU FOR ASKING ABOUT MY BABIES !!! Yes I would love to speak about them but I'll probably make a separate post and tag you in it, if you don't mind ? 😊

(@ladyniniane if you have more french songs to recomand, don' hesitate to jump in 👀)

#inbox 💌 #I'm honestly kinda proud of myself for finding so many french songs i like even if if i cheated a bit with my 50 songs from musicals #and I'll prep my post about Lor and Nessie 👀

[astrxealis]

hi guys please wish me luck for my college entrance exam tomorrow for one of my dream schools xoxo

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #LET'S GOOO MGA PAREH 💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅 #i'm so chill for some reason even if ik i will never forgive myself if i don't get in. anyway. manifesting!!! i will pass with flying colors #IT'S REAL DAMN STRESSFUL FOR ME bcs i am aiming for honors courses which means i have to be top 15%... i am top 15% (and higher) in my batch #in school anyway but... urgh... #so. yeah. give me all your best wishes thankyousomuchxoxo AHHEHEHWHSHFJAH sobbing (but fr. if you do. i really appreciate it!!) #i believe in myself :] mostly. the time limit scares me and math and abstract reasoning bcs 5 minutes for 30 items but yeah. okay. #i am Smart ..... bro i literally got perfect on my physics exam and got 100 in statistics (i am really proud of these in particular) #my extracurriculars are good !! all my math scores are insane (cue a math nerd) and science (science nerd) english (god. no explanation #needed) honestly every subject is slay and so is my essay-making but ERGH. honors course... top 15%... #i will try to be chill! honestly i am already lol the nerves aren't getting to me somehow. gl to me and all that i know and do not know. #both here and irl :3 also to fellow ph kids (who are most likely younger than me if they aren't older and yk not worrying abt cets anymore #LMFAO) err idk if . okay idk what i was going to say LMFAO anyway i'm busy af and idk if i'm good with teaching others #but if you ever want any tips from me (honestly i don't really have tips. i do what i do and just make it. but there's a lot involved there) #feel free to come to me for anything ^_^ anything at all tbh. doesn't have to be acads idk i like helping others in general. BUT IT DEPENDS. #but yeah just hmu whatever i will have you know i am genuinely a smart & responsible kid and i am proud of that bcs my family is amazing w #smarts but also the Hard Work is there so :3 !! english is my forte science is my forte math is my forte. also socsci and whatever tbh. #i'm probably insane but i genuinely love all those topics and what we learn in school FISHFK so yeah !!! okay i shut up now #will do my best... zzz... and then i will work on myself. to be better than i already am and even better than i could possibly be. ya. fun! #the mga pareh is a joke btw i like imitating filipino kids like that. like yooo mga pareh let's goooooo wahee!!!!!

[drekkydrimm]

Naki, Loraelais Starleaf & Draethar Sunheart for Flower Tier 🌙 ✨ ☀️

#ren'dorei #kaldorei #quel'dorei #void elf #night elf #high elf #wow #my art #commissions #honestly #I'm just so proud of how these came out! I feel like I've really surpassed myself 🌸

[izzy-b-hands]

im ngl i had a lil breakdown before my shower (which i took just before i went to bed to chill and watch the new eps) abt some thought-id-already-worked-all-thru-it irl stuff that resurfaced on me like trauma tends to and i just

it made everything in the show so. I don't know how to say it right. but i feel seen and understood and emotionally overwhelmed in a safe yet weird way, just like i did with a lot of s1 and I am Feeling So Much akdnfkgb (i cannot stress enough that this is a Good Thing and I'm absolutely thrilled and happy with the new eps and like. Going to be fine mentally I just gotta wrangle this like i have the times before.)

#text post #god i need a therapist that specialises in PTSD when i can afford therapy again #in the meantime recognition of the self thru the admired other while im in this state weirdly helps #makes me feel like im gonna burst out of my skin and I'm blasting metal in my ear buds to deal with that for now #gonna sleep eventually #i think lmao #im fine honestly bc like. this is not my first breakdown by any means but just. the fucking timing could not have been better #that said i both need a hug and absolutely could not handle being touched rn so that's something #no one's gonna read this far so im gonna just let myself have one little extra messy vent in that #my stupid fucking dad triggered part of this last one and I'm so mad abt it #he doesn't give two fucks abt me now (but he'd pretend to if he saw me in person bc jason LOVES keeping up appearances) #and he would just do a little nod and smile and talk over me telling him all that's happened this last year #i moved across the fucking country with help from friends so i wouldn't wind up dead in ND #and that's the thing i keep surviving and I dont understand why when I'm so often stressed and struggling to want to live #that and more has been sitting weighing and i just. want to tell him all of this and for him to be proud of me #he'll never be proud of me the way i want bc even my mum hasn't pulled that off #where they're proud of me as I am with no caveats or hiding parts of myself #if u think this is bad pls know i deleted a maximum tags tag essay/trauma dump just before this on this post lmao #i am In The Soup rn but it's gonna be fine #gonna rewatch s2 eps and be slightly but safely triggered by bits of ed and izzys stuff and get stoned and try to. process feelings #find some ptsd therapy worksheets online like dr. blohm suggested i try #forgive me the long tags and scroll by it fast if u want/need friends ill try to contain my current mess to this post & few others

[magentagalaxies]

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#this might be both oversharing and being too vague rn but it's 2am and i'm emotionally exhausted #i can't believe during one of the most traumatic moments i've had in the past year i was lucky enough to have scott as my biggest supporter #the entire time as i was going through it he was so supportive giving me space to process shit and always having my back #and yet there are some people in my life who are always going to villainize him for one comment he said during that time out of context #or even if they're not ''villainizing'' him i now feel like i have to begin every sentence about scott with #''yeah we don't agree on everything but we're still friends and isn't that amazing!'' #which yeah that is true and i do genuinely enjoy when scott and i disagree and are respectful about it #BUT WHY DOES THAT HAVE TO BE THE FIRST THING I SAY ABOUT HIM???? #and honestly that whole experience made me agree with scott on way more than i started out with #i'm proud of how i was able to grow as a person and for the fact that it brought me and scott much closer together #but that shit i went through at my college was still traumatic. and it did change me as a person #it completely changed my relationship to activism in a way i'm not happy about bc i want to be more of an activist #but when i had someone use social justice language to justify horrible things against me it's hard not to be wary #of how hollow and performative a lot of conversations can be #and like i'll even say it. like people might get mad at me for admitting it #but that whole traumatic situation has irrevocably changed my relationship to gender as well #or at least how i label myself and how i move through these conversations #and in some ways i'm grateful for it bc i do feel like i know myself more and like i don't have to worry about what others' think #or even what other people understand #but it shouldn't have had to go down like that. and as much as the time i got to spend with scott during that time was so much fun #and such a great experience and he was truly the perfect support system during that time #he shouldn't have had to deal with that and neither should i #and the fact that scott somehow got villainized in some people's minds while the person who actually caused that trauma #is instead treated like ''yeah he was a bit misguided and made a mistake but he was probably anxious about it!! he's just a person!!'' #that's never going to stop being painful. especially the idea that with the importance people put on labels #i would supposedly have more ''community solidarity'' with that asshole than a cis gay man like scott #idk i think i'm past the timeframe of that traumatic experience bc it's not consuming every day like it used to a few weeks back #but something triggered it tonight so i just need to process it. anyway shoutout to scott for being there for me i really needed it

[vamptastic]

i have dug myself into a deep hole this past year and i am now finally making actual progress to digging myself back out 👍

#i had a wee mental breakdown and tanked my grades i'm not like homeless or in physical danger. don't want to worry #but ive been hiding everything and i finally just told my parents and it went surprisingly well and they're helping me figure it out #its gonna be uhhh hard but i just want to stop wasting months of my life away continuously so. i need to do this #as much as i am like deeply angry and ashamed of myself i am at least proud of myself for getting help #cos it was honestly getting to the point that i was considering harming myself to try to get out of this #and im glad im uhhh well enough to stop myself from doing that and reach out before that happens #anyway. friends & mutuals i am fine i just need to get my shit together lifewise & mentally

[wewontbesleeping]

my hot take is that if you knowingly fuck someone else's boyfriend you shouldn't be allowed to have a private instagram

#all of your social media should be public #i mean thank god her instagram isn't public for my own mental health lol #but like. #she was so proud about it at the time so idk why she's shy all of a sudden #sorry idk why sometimes i just think about it and get sad again #i really need to see a therapist because no amount of telling myself i'm over it will make me be over it #and this week has been fucking hard with all the discussion about joever and ttpd #and i KNOW the album is going to be fucking torture to listen to quite honestly

[eliasbouchardslut]

:^)

#i'll be okay #logically i know this whole thing is so fucking stupid but my anxiety enjoys having field days #but honestly? i'm coping so much better than i would have like 2 weeks ago #so i'm proud of myself

[sparrowmoth]

so pleased with myself rn because at 20K, I just broke my personal record for longest published fic with The Show Must Go On. I know that's not very long by some writer's standards, but for me though, it's a lot and I am going to reward myself by writing something very fluffy and cute and shamelessly self-indulgent as my next project

#personal #i'd like to thank the crows for possessing me #honestly they're keeping me on my toes but also so inspired?? #chapter two had me YELLING but the fact I pushed through?? #self-care is being really proud of myself about that <3 #i'm just very happy #the crows make me happy #wesper makes me happy #much happiness #and so for my next trick I think that I will....... #quite probably write drunk!Wylan #because I deserve to write something funny #and the comedic potential is too much for me to resist #can't wait to put jesper in a situation with drunk!Wylan #rubbing my hands like a wee trash panda

[yardsards]

my big sister's apartment looks like a fuckin pinterest board meanwhile i have mouldy dishes in my sink

#eliot posts #i mean we've known for a long time who the more functional sibling was but visiting my sister's apartment really puts that into perspective #im trying my best i'm just a Mess #also my taste in interior decor is probably not asgood as hers #we used to play a lot of sims and animal crossing as kids and her houses looked so much nicer than mine #i feel like she could honestly be a professional interior decorator #but she loves her job as an ecologist so much and is apparently really good at that too #she's great and i'm proud of her #even if she makes me lookbad by comparison #i can try telling myself it's an age difference thing but it's not. her first apartment was well kept too #albeit with less time to stockpile decor so more barebones