#like girlypops i am conCAVING

[gonnabeokaykid]

but if "911, what's your fantasy?" is buck spending the episode picturing how him and eddie would be as a couple (after potentially a almost kiss, after the reveal of the PoSiBiLLitiES) and the future they might have, pondering what may change if they take that step, or what if it doesn't change at all, then what does that mean yk???? does he believe in himself enough to believe he deserves it? that he is not gonna wreck it? be too much, too loud, too selfish? can he live with himself if he is the one to drive eddie away?

intwining his life with the diaz boys together with his fantasy and dream of a family, of stability, of that Special Connection - of what he's always wanted - with the realization that maybe, MAYBE, that dream is what they have had All Along.

This thing that they've Made. That they have Built.

WHAT THEN

#ah i think i get it now #911 getting my therapy bill is WHAT THEN honestly #just ugh buck having this reckoning with himself and the ideas he has in his head of what happiness is and what he is allowed to give #To Himself #how you can be independent yet also lean on someone and be both happy and sad at the same time #how maybe he can have a small moment of his own #within the love and support and understanding and Space that eddie is gonna give him #like girlypops i am conCAVING #like when a person that loves you see you in your emotions #and give you space to figure it out #and support when you can't do it alone #yall #my blorbomans is going through it and i'm having a Time #911 fox #6a speculation #linn says things