#like dont get me wrong the BULK of crowleys pain is from that interaction just generally and that rejection

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i think a not-insignificant amount of the heartbreak crowley’s feeling in the end is  because he’s finally truly understanding that what’s happening with aziraphale (as he perceives it) isn’t something that he can save him from.

#good omens #good omens 2 #spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #like if there's truth in the coffee theory that'll be a whole other thing but if its all straightforward As Perceived #i do think that tracks and i do think that clicked #and there's something very real and painful about that idk #like you can't undo an entire existence of that manipulation and abuse and how much of aziraphale's sense of self is #wrapped up in it all. being an angel being Good serving a Purpose #crowley can give love and support and patience #be a sounding board and ask questions that help aziraphale step back from things and think sometimes #but that greater disconnect and that final realization of what heaven really is. he can't do that FOR aziraphale #aziraphale has to live and experience that on his own and finally actually let himself feel that #bc i think he's very good at not letting himself think about or feel those things even after being so crushed in s1 #idk i feel a lot of religious trauma feelings about it i think it parallels that abusive relationship for a reason #like dont get me wrong the BULK of crowleys pain is from that interaction just generally and that rejection #but i think this also plays into it i think that perspective of someone who was thrown out and had the blinders removed #and having this interaction and realizing Oh. Oh there are still hooks deep into aziraphale there's this festering damage #Oh there's no amount of talk or hypotheticals that will sever the tether for him bc even after everything aziraphale BELIEVES. in heaven #as an institution. and idk man im just fascinated with that angle of it for crowley bc its like #SO complex