#kit regardless. vfd exacerbates it. so do these circumstances

[whoslaurapalmer]

my mom: you on a roll? me: no. i've yet again reached 'am i writing this character right' my mom: of course you are!!!! don't doubt yourself!!!! me: NO. I ALWAYS DO

#KIT IS SO HARD TO WRITE. I GET SO CONCERNED WHEN I WRITE HER. going back through old character notes.....making new ones....... #i'm always wondering 'is this what she'd do?' while trying to work out these plot points. i go 'okay. this could happen. .......would she' #i have a big master document though of sugar bowl gen characters and their wants and the expression of them i did a few years back #so that helps. but also vfd doesn't exist in this au. #look it does in college au in a specific way. but in this au............i think it was also there in a specific way but less so. #much less so. more among the snickets themselves i think. #re: the.......expression of morality and nobility here. which still exists even w vfd's lesser looser form bc that's still a major piece of #kit regardless. vfd exacerbates it. so do these circumstances #sigh. idk. i'm tired i am looking forward to dinner. making big pepper sammiches #(also i was up late last night reading Totally Unrelated Fic) #anyway. back to kit. i second guess myself on her the most out of anybody. she has to encompass a lot. her desire for control. #seeing her actions in black and white necessary vs unnecessary right vs wrong based on her own ideas of what is Right. #i always worry i just write her with no personality. but i think she's private and very closely guarded and just. lightly playful at times #and i get scared she comes out bland....................... #oh but yknow. i do like the way i wrote her in like a row of captured ghosts....................... #I'VE GOT POTENTIAL