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pandasmagorica · 9 months

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Ongoing watch: Be My Favorite Episode 11

I thought the seven years of their relationship montage was absolutely delightful. Too bad the episode 11 curse hit with such a vengeance.

Spoilers follow.

Early in the episode, we get a visit from the Crystal Ball uncle chewing out Kawi for wasting his time travel on get rich quick schemes (the lottery) and informing him that, with his 20,000 baht ($645 US?) lottery win, he's used up all the luck in his life.

We did in fact see earlier in the series where Kawi tried unsuccessfully to find the winning lottery numbers, so the new scene is not totally out of the blue. (Does anyone have a post on how the lottery works in Thailand? In the US, you can bet on whatever numbers you want. You might have to split the prize if other people put in the same number. If that's how it worked in Thailand, you could have it that on that day in that particular timeline, everyone in Thailand bet on the same number and it didn't even pay back the price of the ticket. But apparently, that's not how it works in Thailand, as we saw in the earlier episode where Kawi was trying to find those numbers.)

Okay, that's ambiguous. Any kind of luck? Lottery luck? Because he does land a long term boyfriend, which might be Kawi's work on himself but it's also luck.

But it also might mean that when he gets the flu it progresses to life threatening pneumonia.

To be clear, we know it doesn't look good for him medically, or with regard to rights for Pisaeng (see @bengiyo post on ep. 11) to make any medical decisions for him (have they even talked about what Kawi would want?)

Is it in Kawi's destiny to die at 27? We know he made it to 30 in the original timeline. So probably not his destiny. But people can lose their lives without it being their destiny.

But what if he doesn't die? What if, because there's no official relative to make the decision, he lies there in a coma for years? Even with the doctor relenting and letting Pisaeng, Max, and Pear visit Kawi, there's no way they are going to let Pisaeng make a decision about that.

So, rather than live in this limbo where Pisaeng blames himself for Kawi's state (whether or not he is right), Pisaeng tries the crystal ball music box and finds himself back in the past just before the Bangkok World trip and starting a new timeline.

We know it's a new timeline, because the first time Pisaeng turns the music box (episode 10? I'm not going back to check it now) he gives a hmm look and sets it down. This time though, he gives a panicked look before setting it down. So definitely a new timeline.

And this totally blows my theory that Pisaeng's episode 10 (?) turn resulted in a trip to Pisaeng's 15 year old past. Because if his reaction to his first time travel is panic, then he didn't time travel that first time he turned the globe. All he did was unintentionally set up a hook (in the computer programming sense) for the actual time travel in episode 11 to land.

So, then the question becomes, why didn't he time travel in episode 10 or whichever? He certainly had reason to. Remember, in an earlier episode, he told his mother that she couldn't bully him into the closet at 20 like she could at 15. And we got that coda where he approaches Kawi in high school, so his interest goes back to then.

Was him coming out at 20 enough? Maybe it was. Maybe it was enough that he was with Kawi now and didn't have to try for it to happen in high school. (Although then why did we get the high school scene? Was the line about 15 and 20 to his mom just a throwaway line?) Maybe it was that he was with Kawi now and didn't want to take a chance on messing it up.

But he clearly now believes he put Kawi in this mess. So he has a reason to go back.

A big part of fantasies is figuring out the rules of the fantasy. We (or I) thought it was sufficient to turn the music box to time travel. But maybe you need to turn the music box when you have a reason (good or bad - lottery) to time travel.

As for the theory that Kawi is going to die no matter what (regardless that he didn't die before 30 in earlier timelines), that would give Pisaeng even more reason to keep travelling to the past, so he could have more and more time with Kawi.

One thing we don't know is whether time travel back erases your age or whether it's cumulative, so Kawi isn't really 27 when he gets pneumonia, he's 37? 47? 57? 67? 77? He's done a lot of time travel.

I may have more to say about this after I've read @telomeke's post about how time travel works in Be My Favorite.

Anyway, now I'm going to follow the various links in @twig-tea's Be My Favorite meta post.

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