#just seeing all the ammogus made me remember stuff

[mallaacht]

I am going to confess something:

I actually don't have good memories of among us due to some idiot deciding my dyscalculia is not an issue and when I finally played my first game ever with his group of friends from a mutual discord server, I had printed out copies of the maps so I could find my way easier I cannot stress how I am unable to figure out distance and directions it's very bad. Anyways...we had set up a date for me to play my first game ever with the server and....he flipped the map. Thereby letting me flounder and then eventually just. Not do anything at all in game. Like at some point my brain could not function, I shit down and my lil bean was not moving away from the cafeteria anymore. I know I could have just mentally flipped it, but see you don't understand. My brain does not work that way. My brain isn't ALLOWED to envision a map and then try to replace everything all mirror-like.

But anyways, it ruined my enjoyment of a game and set the tone for my relationship with that server from then on. Needless to say, I haven't been in contact with those people in forever now. :)

#ooc #don't worry this isn't aimed at anyone #just seeing all the ammogus made me remember stuff #I wish I could play the game #but it just sets off my anxiety now #i already feel bad that my computer can't even play the game at the same speed of other people #but when stuff like this happens I'm just #:((( #feels bad bro