#just a thought on how OOC inadvertently affects IC in ways u dont even intend to/think about

[theabstruseanon]

More wuvvy thoughts but the "I want whats best for you" is the more insidious part of wuvvy's sicko mode for sure and I think that it ties into her complicated reality of being left behind. Rue was someone defined by their role as MoC (out of personal fulfilment but also for acceptance), and while the role placed undue burden on them, it was something they took immense pride in. Wuvvy has faithfully been a part of rue's identity and pride as MoC, supporting them unconditionally, protecting them when it called for that. But now that rue is no longer interested in that role, they're willingly shedding that mantle for much deserved self fulfilment, while wuvvy gets left behind. Wuvvy is a part of rue's old life, and as far as rue has indicated, has no part in their new life. The most uncharitable interpretation of her line is one of manipulation, but the way I see it it's a heartbreak and spiralling loss of personal control that comes with change, even if that change is necessary. Esp with something as central to BOTH their identities as rue being the MoC (both cause rue has never denied wuvvy's subservience either. If anything, they've taken it for granted).

I've said before in notes that I think reading wuvvy's actions as only being jealousy is too shallow. I also don't think that this is one of those unrequited loves where the angst comes from it not being reciprocated cause i haven't seen indication that that's something central to wuvvy's fulfilment (hoping aabria doesn't honk my clown nose LOL). Wuvvy willingly left her court as champion to be at rue's side as a glorified errand girl - because she loves rue and what rue stands for and rue's vision and passion and love and personhood. And in all this time she's never expressed a strong need for "reciprocated (same) 'love'", just being with rue was enough. Her devotion was enough, rue knowing her, seeing her, acknowledging her devotion (her heart) was enough - she basically expressed that this ep.

The angst comes from the depth of misunderstanding between rue and wuvvy. That rue has been with wuvvy for so long and still understands nothing about her. This esp kills me bc (looks at the camera in Chinese) to understand someone is to love someone. Hell, so much of the rue and hob romance is built on "you understand me" like do u see the parallels do u see what I see. That they'd say you're my confidante and then say "I've never truly been myself in front of anyone before". That they'd pull them aside and ask them "what fulfills you?" and wuvvy's heart breaks again. And added on with how little rue is communicating to wuvvy, there has been no assurance, no plans for their (plural their) futures, no trust to deliver the first letter, then suddenly a second as if the first didn't happen, and wuvvy is not taking it well. And to wuvvy, whom rue confides in but like.... Truly hasn't been lately, there's no process or explanation of such a huge decision. For all wuvvy knows hob fuckin bewitched rue for politics like. FOR A MAN THEY JUST MET. Also??? Rue no longer being MoC means that wuvvy no longer gets to be with rue, and as far as wuvvy understands, rue is all too happy to leave her behind. Simple and final as that.

anyways I support womens' wrongs. Especially when the person you've devoted yourself to (and has accepted your devotion while [not to sound mean but it is true] it's been convenient for them) claims to love you (and worst of all truly did love you in whatever way they did) but shatters your trust on a whim with no true apology then takes you to a ball in matching clothes because you're their little servant but you're not really their friend (and even this is complicated by wuvvy's willing subservience to rue) and maybe this wouldn't break your heart as much if they didn't say 'i love you' too.

#I AM NORMAL ABOUT WUVVY #acofaf spoilers #acofaf #Truly the only person at the table that appreciates wuvvy is emily emily supports her sicko mode #LOL #also im sure that at least some part of wuvvy's shrinking role with rue is just. oscar has his hands full rping LOL #like ooc its hard to juggle everything at the table and also npcs too i get that this is not a post of blame #just a thought on how OOC inadvertently affects IC in ways u dont even intend to/think about #a court of fey and flowers #anyways girlies she is not grappling with grief and loss very well #sneaks back for another comment but i shipped ruevvy normally before but now im invested in their car crash of a breakup