#jon is a weird machine where we imput trauma and it turns into bad decisions

[just-an-enby-lemon]

Rewatching TMA finale is giving me feels. But like yeah 200 would obsviously give me feels but 199 got me way more than I thought it would.

The debate is fascinating both by itself but because everyone is right in their own way and thebway they deal with it so consistent. This characthers feel like people in a shitty situation the whole time.

And god I love how everyone is trying to cheer Jon up - except Melanie what is soo fair - both because they like him but also clearly because they don't want him to something stupid. But they are all using the things that are motivating them to follow the plan and since they didn't actually payed attention to Jon's points (witch I blame mostly on him being such an asshole about it and Martin just implying is all suicidal ideation the whole time because I love Martin but he simplifies complex issues a lot, like is it suicidal ideation? yes. Is it just duicidal ideation? hell no) they don't realize they are just encouraging him MORE into doing the stupid thing they don't want him to do. Like "at least we can do one good meaningfull thing now" and "live with your regrets OR DON'T" this are his talking points. Stop. (Martin actually almost suceeded so at least someone was paying attention).

#again I'm on Jon side #but I listened to the final #i know what happens #and so with the power of hindsight I know it's just stupidy #jon is a weird machine where we imput trauma and it turns into bad decisions #poor baby #tma #the magnus archives